May Our Home
Inside
Only portray such
Love, Joy & Positivity
To the outside
That it becomes contagious
And spread like a virus

**

Angels & Demons fighting me
Both equally strong

Fight so tight
I got squeezed out the way

Angels & Demons fighting so long

          Even they have forgotten about me....

Maybe I woke to early
Or maybe I woke to noisy..
Maybe it was your ****** expression
Or the tone of your voice
Maybe its because I came clean...

Just the night before...

Maybe my soul was to naked
Maybe I was too honest
Maybe its because I fixed your watch
Maybe you were tired
Maybe just lack of sleep
Maybe we misunderstood
Maybe the moment was too deep
Maybe its because I pushed you
Maybe I was too angry & fierce
Maybe its because I lost my temper
Maybe its because of your marriage comment
Maybe its because your words cut deepest
Maybe its because you were hurt
Maybe It was Me hurting..
Maybe we're not meant to be together
Maybe my visions of forever were completely wrong
Maybe I've always been wrong...
Maybe I didn't love you well
Maybe I didn't love you right
Maybe was never good enough
Or maybe the pressure was just too much
Maybe I was never meant for this life.
Maybe I'm suppose to feel your loss
And maybe I was suppose to die

& feel so dead inside..

I don't know it all
or
what exactly was the cause..

But it sure as hell - wasn't something as small as going through my phone..

As a Human
I have done Many things I Feel *Guilt* for!
I Feel Pain from so Many things!
(the damnest of things..)

Memories of True Happiness! Memories which *Makes Life Worth Living..*

BUT,

We Are Só often Lost...
Because of Bad Ones..

* We are Nothing More than the Memories we keep...

Our whole entire existence
We've been preparing the
The Day
Whether it is yours
We celebrating
Or my own...

We've been waiting for it
Expecting it
Since the first time we were born
Now the last day has come eventually

Whether you were striving for wisdom, knowledge, wealth, health or tender care..
Love...

Every choice you made up til now
Has prepared the legacy you now leave behind..

You may leave money
You may leave nothing
As long as you made an impact on those who are spared

Whatever it is
That brought your own personal
Success
I hope  you travel to your next destination
Content with life's despair..

Whether you drink
Whatever you smoke
Whatever you take up your nose
Or have to inject

I hope you leave this world
Knowing you did
...do your utmost best

You never stopped trying
Never gave up
You held on for dear life
Till it was enough

Before your soul
Finds its fitting place
Whether in chaos
Or at
.. peace...

Forgiveness is the key

Self love
Will set you free..

You're not

Perfect

But then

Perfect
is
the
Enemy
of
Good...

You cannot Always Be Good
       But
You Can Always
TRY
&
Do Good ~

Why do you hate
Who you hate?
Or
What  you hate..??

You cannot stop Needing
Of that
which made you feel lesser
It is your greatest
Weakness
You look for it Everywhere...

...In Everyone

But those who acknowledge
The Power Within Us..?

Fear Us!!!

That's why they try
& DESTROY Us..!!!

You can never really find yourself
To Grow
If you do not go off the rails
And get a bit lost..

You need to be lost
In order to be found.

If found
You were never lost
And cannot  continue to grow..