I forgot how much it hurt,
I forgot how it felt,
I don't remember the last time I felt
pain

I thought one would be enough
but somehow I ended up with
two
I don't know how

I forgot how much being vulnerable
hurt,
I forgot how confusing it can be
to have to choose one

So I chose two,
two guys,
I don't know what is
wrong with me

I want to choose
but I know I will lose one
but I jut want both
that cannot happen

I need to chose one,
but I want two
What do I do?

you extend out to my arm
sweeping past my shivering shoulders
you blanket yourself around me
sitting still, then shifting once more
     you tease me with playful kisses against my back
     leaving humble traces of yourself
     covering the skin of my neck
     with a soft mild feel leaving for me to accept
whispering words i cannot make through
interesting enough to welcome
pulling you up towards my head
i wrap a hair tie to secure you

whenever i lay on my back
i look at my tummy,
my ribs slightly pop out
and the center of my stomach caves in a little
you can see
this
little tiny
heart beat
just right above the bellybutton
and it just bumps up and down up and down
and this seems to make me happy

so i
press down on that little beating belly
and
i feel
weird stuff inside
a thump, a beat, a pulse
and
it feels so good
against my cold fingertips

have you ever
listened to quiet music
and
with your cold hands,
touch your warm belly a night
in the
perfect lighting
and see where your finger makes
this little trace of a shadow
whenever you press down into your skin
to see these baby goosebumps arise
and then
drop back down into your skin again
beacause honestly, its one of the most beautiful thing i have ever seen

Hello,
you pretty human bean,
you brown eyed human bean,
you beautiful human bean,
you brunette haired human bean,

what would a human bean
like yourself,
be doing talking to a human bean
such as myself,
I ask

the nice human bean
pours with kindness
the silly human bean,
dances like a fire
full of warmth
and love

this little human bean
continues to speak to me,
for what reasons,
I do not dare ask,
my little human bean

my little human bean,
you continue to inspire me
with your exuberant personality
you amazing,
human bean