I changed my mind
I can love you
and I want to

A seedless fruit
Serves no greater purpose
But to serve itself
And yet, it itself does not exist
For what is a fruit
without its seed
and what is a fruit
without its tree
Existing simply to die
a fruitless death

I like when your eyes gaze into mine
And I watch you deconstruct my soul
To be pieced together in your mind

I like looking at your hands as they fidget
And imagine what they'd look like
Taking me apart, piece by piece

I like hearing you say my name
My being is given meaning
When it's conjured from your lips

For once in my life I feel at home
When I begin to write
Even if for only a moment,
I can finally see me so clearly
Perhaps my issue is letting go
Of all the trivial doubts and regrets
But when I begin to write
I see my true feelings appear
Instead of worrying about the silly things
I will soon forget

Nothing ever lasts
Thoughts are destined to be lost eventually
But these words from my soul get to stick around
for eternity

As I gaze up at the moon
all I can think about
is you

I will never understand
who or what I am
but when you're next to me
I gain some sense of
familiarity
I see your face in the moon
staring back
blankly

there is no reason
to be so afraid
hold my hand
and we'll be ok

I am just as scared
as you are.

how do I shake the feeling
that everyone wants something from me
every "how are you"
every compliment
every charming word said
is done with intention
to manipulate, deceive and
lure me into your bed

you must think I'm a fool
for what reason have you given me
to trust in you?