how do I shake the feeling
that everyone wants something from me
every "how are you"
every compliment
every charming word said
is done with intention
to manipulate, deceive and
lure me into your bed

you must think I'm a fool
for what reason have you given me
to trust in you?

I don't understand how I've gone
From being unseen and invisible
To suddenly becoming beautiful
It's but a trick of the eye
A slip of the tongue
Mistake of the heart
That causes their gaze
to fall on me
It's just a misunderstanding, I say
For one day
They will realize
I am not the person
they think I am

I exist only to drift softly
in a world of my very own.
My mind is the only place
I call home

I envy people who can fall in love quickly
Swept off their feet and into the clouds
Floating gracefully as they dream about
A love that will or won’t be

I see your eyes glow when you're around me
how your mind begins to spin out of control
But there's something missing inside my soul
a part of me taken long ago
I only wish you could fix it
and fix me too
But, no matter how hard I try,
I can’t love you

Will I ever find my heart again?
It seems I’ll never know
All I’m certain of is
I want you to be happy,
whether it’s with
or without me

emotions lurk
within a shallow grave
for a traveler to find
waiting for the moment
to release and remind
that something alive
has been hiding inside

Oh how I enjoy
Simply being in your presence
Embracing the quiet and
Letting imagination fill the void
I feel no need to speak
When you are beside me
So I let my lips seal
And my soul
open

Walk with me
And we’ll tell our stories
With breath alone

Why has my heart grown so cold
Now that I have a hand to hold
Yearned to love when I was alone
But all I craved was the unknown
I finally know, and I no longer know
What it is I want, and what it is I don’t
The only thing I'm certain of
is I feel nothing
                    anymore.