I feel every neuron bouncing in my head
Shooting electrical currents
back and forth.
back and forth.
back and forth.
One plane to the next
Moving my neck
side to side.
side to side.
side to side.
I lay supine
and think,
"I can't stop thinking"
My ears are ringing
My mouth is dry
my eyes are bleeding.

And so, we meet again.
A familiar friend
I forgot I knew
Reveals pictures of me,
talking to myself
as I walk to the library
"Do you remember when we spoke about---?"
Oh, it's all coming to me now
I've been split in two all along
But I know I'll forget you
when I wake up tomorrow
So I lay down my head
and force myself
to remember.

My fears have become amplified
They consume me.
Other people worry
about being watched,
about talking too much,
but my biggest fear is
my mere existence.
The idea that my senses
all allude me
I am just as likely to be standing
as I am sitting down
I am just as likely to be here
as I am elsewhere
I am just as likely to be awake
as I am asleep
Nothing that I see or feel
is real
Everything I type and read is
a fabrication
a delusion
an allusion
to it being a fantasy
Perhaps my life
has all been
just a dream

As I walk through open fields
My hands graze the grain,
And feel the caress of rain
Comforting me,
whispering:

it’s alright, my dear
our time is overdue
the snow will soon
come
to blanket the world in frost
and when it does
my love
our lives will not be lost
we will always have the chance
to return
once again
so we welcome death
with open arms
and resume our
sacred dance
one day, you too
shall return to soil
and when you do
you’ll ground your roots
and return once more

Racing through the halls
My vision begins to slip
Slowly fading to black
Until suddenly
I can no longer see

Desperately feeling the walls
My internal voice becomes my guide
A manifestation of reason
Surprisingly calm
For someone who cannot see

As I sink into myself
And I view my fragile state
I simply accept my fate
And realize, perhaps I am most sane
When the world closes in around me
Finally, I can see

do you remember
the moment you realized love was real?
stuck your hand down her throat and began to peel
carefully tearing away flesh to reveal
celestial beauty, an irresistible meal
of arteries, tissues, and organs galore
isn’t it all you’ve ever wanted and more?
so you swallowed your awe, reveled in her gore
you’ve found the one, and now she’s yours.

When she walks, she floats
Drifting past
Faces masked
While she’s enveloped
In a world
                   they’ll never see