in your head,
you are the victim

but what i have
in writing

just proves that
you are the **** person
i have always
known you to be

get it all out until you feel better

and peer up and realise you’ve broken me again

you shattered my already shattered pieces

it’s dust floating away

and all i can do is scoop it up and hope that i can rebuild

you talked about how we replaced you

used you

played with you

lied to you

cut you out.


but didn’t you do the same?

i cant help but think about you all the time


even if it hurts me.

THE ***** MY FAULT

I WASNT GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU

I ******* LOVE YOU

SO MUCH

AND YOU JUST ENDED IT TODAY

DID THE KISS MEAN ANYTHING

DID THE LATE NIGHT FACETIME CALLS MEAN ANYTHING

DID THE HUGS MEAN ANYTHING

DID THE I LOVE YOUS MEAN ANYTHING TO YOU??!


I GUESS NOT.

I GUESS ******* NOT.


THAT'S FINE

BUT IM OVER YOU NOW.

I STILL LOVE YOU

BUT IM OVER IT.

IM SALTY NOW.


I JUST WANTED TO KEEP YOU UNTIL VALENTINES DAY


WE HAVENT EVEN GOTTEN ON A ******* DATE YET


3 DAYS BEFORE OUR 3 MONTHS

OUR DAYS.


*******-


i love you.

im so sorry

but thats alright

these feelings are meaningless

they're just lies

but everytime I see you with her disgusting face where you always coo and cuddle

I want to throw up and I want to cry,

what ever happened to my bestest friend?

you chose her over me but that's alright I just wish you had more time for me and him

because she is not the highlight of your life and you are not seeing what she has done to you

I am your friend and I cannot lie when I say

I don't like her.

from doing something stupid again

you wrecked my room again

you called me names again


you’ve abused u s again.

we’ve woken up late,

so what? we’re just kids.

you’re blaming everything on us

“you’re stressing me out”

“you’re not listening to me”

“you guys are so ******* dumb”

“******* kids”

if you didn’t want us, why didn’t you tell mom to abort us?

much easier to make me ******* suicidal

funny how you think someone would actually love me.

for wanting the bare minimum

after telling me that you weren’t into us

i’m confused

was it always there

yet you always blame us for it.

i love your hugs

they make me feel warm, happy, protected.


when they thought we were dating,


i guess i liked it.

to see you flustered.


i don’t know if you’re ready

if i’m ready

or even if you like me back

you’re adorable.

i’m sorry she treated you like that man,


you didn’t need to be treated like that