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69 · Nov 2020
this isn’t fair
juno Nov 2020
dear, nothing is fair anymore
the world is scary,
i know.

no matter what you do
no matter what happens
no matter how much you work
no matter how much you try

nothing
is
fair
welcome to the real world,
my love.
69 · May 2020
happy mothers day
juno May 2020
to the mother who left me behind after attempting suicide in an attempt to escape from this abusive household.
i love you, please visit soon.
juno Feb 2020
you did this to yourself

you caused the drama.



i was just the one to stop it.
i hate you so much.  i hate you. I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I REGRET FALLING FOR YOU I REGRET DATING YOU I REGRET EVERYTHING BECAUSE NOW THAT YOU FUCKEF ME OVER MY MENTAL HEALTH IS PURE **** AND I JUST WANT TO BE O K A Y BUT AS LONG AS YOURE HERE, TALKING TO ME, ITS NOT GONNA ******* HAPPEN
69 · Oct 2024
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juno Oct 2024
you take away everything that makes me happy
68 · Sep 2024
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juno Sep 2024
oh  i am meant to die soon   i see nothing  for my future
68 · May 2020
excuses
juno May 2020
i say i’m not hungry during the day

to only feed myself so much to the point where i feel sick late at night

i try stopping but the demon keeps saying “keep eating.”

i try eating during the day,

it’s like it flipped a switch

because then the demon says “stop eating you ******”

so who do i believe?


i believe whoever is there at the time
so keep eating until you ******* throw everything up you fat *** *****
68 · Jul 2020
please..
juno Jul 2020
just.. tell me to leave you alone.
im tired of watching you breaking my heart.
juno Mar 2024
i always knew you thought it .
“you are so ******* worthless”
68 · Jun 2019
school.
juno Jun 2019
i’m in school right now.
i’m in history class.

please let me know what content you would like to read on here.

i don’t know what to do.
68 · May 2020
05.12.20
juno May 2020
happy anniversary

to the girl i never thought i'd have a chance with.

to the girl who won me over as i was getting over a rocky relationship with someone who constantly lied and ghosted me.

to the girl who isn't afraid to send me goofy and silly pictures and messages

to the girl who dyed her hair and cut herself bangs within 3 days

to the girl who was too shy to show her smile because she thought it was ugly, who grew to love her smile and sends me a picture of her smiling almost everyday.

to the girl who i wrote a letter to, even though i knew it'd take a while to get to her, since she lives 1.4k miles away

to the girl who i never thought i would love,

i always did those "gf/bf applications" for fun,

your reaction was cute

"oh god oh please s/u"

this day, last month, was the day i won your heart.

you were complaining about people asking you out, people talking to you who only wanted you for your love.

that day i asked the question in the most awkward way possible.

"douwannabemygf"
quinncy . happy one month bby
68 · Oct 2024
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juno Oct 2024
the feeling of the blade in my hand was too familiar
68 · Jul 2020
"please dont leave me"
juno Jul 2020
isnt it ironic how,,

not even a year after you said that,,


you've already left me


and i don't know who you are anymore.
juno Oct 2020
maybe you dont love me back'
maybe im in denial.
67 · Mar 2020
lies
juno Mar 2020
i believe every lie you tell me

i force myself to believe every lie that you tell me

so that i dont have to believe in what's true

i believe in every lie so it doesn't hurt me


but now i cant tell if youre taking advantage of that.


are you?
juno May 2020
get it all out until you feel better

and peer up and realise you’ve broken me again

you shattered my already shattered pieces

it’s dust floating away

and all i can do is scoop it up and hope that i can rebuild
the dust is falling out of my hands
67 · Jun 2020
i’ve given up
juno Jun 2020
i don’t think i care anymore
67 · Jul 2019
frustration.
juno Jul 2019
maybe ill **** myself over it
maybe itll make me cut myself again.
i dunno man


maybe you should stop 'lil guy.

y'know.

i might go bye-bye because of you.
juno May 2020
but if you see this write a poem with nothing but a smiley face, i would like to see if it would happen
:)
66 · Sep 2024
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juno Sep 2024
i wish i could rip out all of my organs and die truly empty
66 · Jul 2019
mad.
juno Jul 2019
i cant tell if im mad or, jealous, or maybe even something else.


you dont tell me anything.

you dont let me do anything.

if i killed myself,

i'd regret leaving you.

if you killed yourself,

i'd regret not helping.

but you dont let me help

you trust other people with your emotions.

not even me,
.
.
a friend of 8 years.

i know


im a *****.


but.


its like im not in your life anymore
66 · Jun 2020
thunder rumbles
juno Jun 2020
they scare me,

loud booms,

like screams from the sky.

screaming for help,

tears pouring down,


like a breakdown really.
66 · Mar 2020
you hit me again
juno Mar 2020
you wrecked my room again

you called me names again


you’ve abused u s again.

we’ve woken up late,

so what? we’re just kids.

you’re blaming everything on us

“you’re stressing me out”

“you’re not listening to me”

“you guys are so ******* dumb”

“******* kids”

if you didn’t want us, why didn’t you tell mom to abort us?

much easier to make me ******* suicidal
today my dad hit me with a ruler to wake me up. then he proceeded to call me names and complain, grabbing at my things. now i am on the verge of tears,trying not to ******* **** myself first thing in the morning
65 · Nov 2020
thinking,
juno Nov 2020
was i ever enough for you?

or was i just part of your play?

for you to wreck and destroy,


to tell everyone that i’m the villain?
65 · May 2019
story time 1
juno May 2019
i was at school,
talking with my friends
during lunch break.
i asked if he wanted to
write a poem, so i could post it.
he agreed, ("Life is a Lie" was the name)
i read the poem, snickering,
i told him,
"this is the type of stuff that gets on trending"
he laughed,
and i offers my other friend
to write a poem (Why me)
i read it, also snickering.
i looked at the time,
rushing to put away my things and
posting the poems,
i guess you could say,
i'm the friend who sticks
out of the circle,
the friend who's the
odd one and
doesn't fit in.
yes, i have more friends,
but i'm not included,
i'm not like them.

someone told me that i was a
l o n e r

i'm sorry that i don't have many friends
i wish they cared
but there's always someone taking them away from me.
65 · Jul 2019
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juno Jul 2019
smile. your feelings dont matter.
just fake it.
just agree with him.
tell him what he wants to hear.
suppress your emotions.
stop the ptsd.
oh- wait.
its fake,
according to him, it's all fake.
no worries.
i dont need a therapist.
after all,
it's all ******* fake.
my feelings,
depression,
anxiety,
insomnia,
anorexia,
ptsd,
panic attacks,
they're all
fake!
i've had 3 panic attacks.
so what?
f a k e
they're fake right?
why then?
why can't i feel anything?
why does it hurt so badly?
last night. 10 pm
65 · Sep 2024
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juno Sep 2024
you berate me for being sick
you berate me for being home
you berate me for wanting to go to school
you berate me for depending on you
you berate me for working


what do i  even do.
65 · May 2020
i’m not actually 17
juno May 2020
i’m a kid, going through some ****. using this as an outlet.

the guys threatened to kick me out, im a minor, still too young to have a legal job.

telling me to go live with my mom as if that’s where the dumpster is.

is that all she is to you?

i know you’re not on good terms but that doesn’t give you an excuse to be an ******* towards her.

i’m just here, a shattered soul

wanting help but never going through with it

because i’m scared

and i don’t want to hurt you


but truthfully


i don’t want to live here
64 · Sep 2024
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juno Sep 2024
if i’m sick then you yell and scream about how i’m faking and lazy and horrible and run everything and

but if he’s sick then you cry and coddle and care for and drop everything

and the difference between us is age and the fact that i am chronically ill and he is a drug addict
juno May 2020
im happy, right?
if im happy, why does it hurt so much?
.
.
.

:)
64 · Mar 2020
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juno Mar 2020
"i swear shes not replacing you. she was just there for me when you had your online relationships"



no. she's replacing me.

she's replacing all of us.


you're just letting it happen.


i'll find someone else since it seems like you don't need me anymore.
64 · Nov 2020
i remember
juno Nov 2020
when we were close
when i wasn’t out
when you thought i was faking
when you compared me to her
when you called me names
when you responded to messages
when you cared.
k.
you’re toxic just like her.
you victimize yourself
you’re probably faking your tics.

love, your face says it all
63 · Jun 2020
relationship #8?
juno Jun 2020
why get into a relationship when the distance was the problem? thats utter *******.

you dated someone across a whole continent once so whats the ocean gonna do to you?

you hurt him, you hurt me, you hurt my friends.

you hurt them, we aren't cool anymore.

i knew this would happen but i didn't think it'd be so soon.

i knew this would happen but i didn't think the excuse would be something so bullshitty,

just tell me i wasn't enough for you and that you got bored with me.

we both know you played with my heart.'
**** millie. 06.03.2020-06.24.2020
juno May 2020
i thought my mom and my happiness was enough, turns out you want more
63 · Jul 2019
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juno Jul 2019
sorry.
im so sorry.
im sorry.
im so sorry.
so.
so.
sorry.
63 · Apr 2020
WE used YOU??
juno Apr 2020
well if you’re gonna act that way,

reduce reuse recycle *****
63 · Feb 2020
things i miss
juno Feb 2020
include you,

your smile,

your kisses,

everything.


and then it all went away when you showed your true side.
for: no one, everyone, anyone
juno Jan 2020
maybe i’ll take a picture for her.

invite her down, maybe later.

just to see her pretty face,

kind heart.

in a picture with me.
mysti
62 · May 2020
lets run away
juno May 2020
to a wonderland that doesnt exist.
62 · Feb 2020
definitely invisible
juno Feb 2020
*******
we had plans and she ruined it
62 · Oct 2020
n i miss my lover, man.
62 · May 2020
today, may 5, 2020
juno May 2020
today, i broke down
the voices in my head got too loud
and i finally caved in

everyone was yelling at me
everyone was mad at me

the thought of food makes me want to *****.

hell,

i thought i got better.

relapse after relapse.

i want to throw up all of those demons.

i just want to talk to someone who'll listen.
62 · Mar 2020
im not worth it they say
juno Mar 2020
but you my friend are the highlight of my life,,

that spark of joy that makes me keep going

so until you stop berating yourself with these awful words

I don't know what to do other than just die
61 · Aug 2020
i hope i die soon
61 · Mar 2020
you chose her over me
juno Mar 2020
but thats alright

these feelings are meaningless

they're just lies

but everytime I see you with her disgusting face where you always coo and cuddle

I want to throw up and I want to cry,

what ever happened to my bestest friend?

you chose her over me but that's alright I just wish you had more time for me and him

because she is not the highlight of your life and you are not seeing what she has done to you

I am your friend and I cannot lie when I say

I don't like her.
your relationship will die.
61 · Oct 2020
j
juno Oct 2020
j
your voice, it must be cute

just like your lil fluffy hair

cute little cheeks

pretty nose

beautiful lips.


i..
ill love you forever. even if i get made fun of for it. i know it happened.
61 · Jun 2020
is this fun
juno Jun 2020
no this is stressful it makes me feel so ******* bad
61 · Jun 2020
pitter patter
juno Jun 2020
i forgot what i was going to write
61 · Jul 2020
theyre fighting again.
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