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59 · Mar 2024
be honest
juno Mar 2024
do you hate me?
do you truly love me or are you just saying it to make me feel better?
are you sure you love me?
do you like me?
do you think i’m as pretty as the other girls?

why do you love me.
58 · Jul 2019
Untitled
juno Jul 2019
sorry.
im so sorry.
im sorry.
im so sorry.
so.
so.
sorry.
58 · May 2020
i relapsed.
juno Nov 2020
destroyed friendships,
destroyed life,

nothing was okay.


but maybe that’s what you wanted.

maybe us doing this was all part of your stupid game.


a stupid trap.


that we all fell into.
i’ll never forgive you.


i’m happier without you.
57 · May 2024
intimacy
juno May 2024
the second i felt you
in me
i felt connected
on a different level.

soul bound.

not like this could be temporary
or just a one time thing

i poured all
of my trust into you

and you held onto it gently.

you are
my forever
everyone chalks up *** to just being intimate, even i thought that way. today was different, i saw myself in you, and we were full of love.
57 · Feb 2020
things i miss
juno Feb 2020
include you,

your smile,

your kisses,

everything.


and then it all went away when you showed your true side.
for: no one, everyone, anyone
57 · Jul 2019
mad.
juno Jul 2019
i cant tell if im mad or, jealous, or maybe even something else.


you dont tell me anything.

you dont let me do anything.

if i killed myself,

i'd regret leaving you.

if you killed yourself,

i'd regret not helping.

but you dont let me help

you trust other people with your emotions.

not even me,
.
.
a friend of 8 years.

i know


im a *****.


but.


its like im not in your life anymore
56 · Apr 2024
silence
juno Apr 2024
the way my world was shook quiet
by you
when you screamed
my name
from across the room.

all of a sudden
it all came back to me.
56 · Jun 2020
the day i apologized
juno Jun 2020
made me feel like a better person,

was it half-assed?

yeah.

but i got my point across and let me clear the air.

im sorry.
56 · May 2024
undeserving
juno May 2024
when good things come, they don’t last.
i don’t deserve good things,
the world has shown me that multiple times.
i don’t want to go on
56 · May 2020
binge eating disorder
juno May 2020
i believe i have it but im no professional and im not self diagnosing because i will be told that im attention seeking
55 · Jul 2019
frustration.
juno Jul 2019
maybe ill **** myself over it
maybe itll make me cut myself again.
i dunno man


maybe you should stop 'lil guy.

y'know.

i might go bye-bye because of you.
juno Oct 2020
yet im not growing.
im weaker.
55 · Jul 2019
Untitled
juno Jul 2019
smile. your feelings dont matter.
just fake it.
just agree with him.
tell him what he wants to hear.
suppress your emotions.
stop the ptsd.
oh- wait.
its fake,
according to him, it's all fake.
no worries.
i dont need a therapist.
after all,
it's all ******* fake.
my feelings,
depression,
anxiety,
insomnia,
anorexia,
ptsd,
panic attacks,
they're all
fake!
i've had 3 panic attacks.
so what?
f a k e
they're fake right?
why then?
why can't i feel anything?
why does it hurt so badly?
last night. 10 pm
55 · May 2019
story time 1
juno May 2019
i was at school,
talking with my friends
during lunch break.
i asked if he wanted to
write a poem, so i could post it.
he agreed, ("Life is a Lie" was the name)
i read the poem, snickering,
i told him,
"this is the type of stuff that gets on trending"
he laughed,
and i offers my other friend
to write a poem (Why me)
i read it, also snickering.
i looked at the time,
rushing to put away my things and
posting the poems,
i guess you could say,
i'm the friend who sticks
out of the circle,
the friend who's the
odd one and
doesn't fit in.
yes, i have more friends,
but i'm not included,
i'm not like them.

someone told me that i was a
l o n e r

i'm sorry that i don't have many friends
i wish they cared
but there's always someone taking them away from me.
54 · May 2020
happy mothers day
juno May 2020
to the mother who left me behind after attempting suicide in an attempt to escape from this abusive household.
i love you, please visit soon.
54 · Sep 2024
illness
juno Sep 2024
i hope this thing kills me
54 · May 2020
excuses
juno May 2020
i say i’m not hungry during the day

to only feed myself so much to the point where i feel sick late at night

i try stopping but the demon keeps saying “keep eating.”

i try eating during the day,

it’s like it flipped a switch

because then the demon says “stop eating you ******”

so who do i believe?


i believe whoever is there at the time
so keep eating until you ******* throw everything up you fat *** *****
53 · Jun 2020
pitter patter
juno Jun 2020
i forgot what i was going to write
juno Oct 2020
maybe you dont love me back'
maybe im in denial.
53 · Jun 2024
Untitled
juno Jun 2024
if i die then i won’t have to deal with all of this hullshit and pain and stupidity and eveufjjgn i need to be gone now!!!!!!!!! then they will all realize they ****** up and are stupid
53 · Jun 2020
at this point
juno Jun 2020
are you playing against me? are you lying? are you ignoring me? i had a winning hand every round yet you said i have nothing. i have nothing
is this gambling
53 · Jul 2020
please..
juno Jul 2020
just.. tell me to leave you alone.
im tired of watching you breaking my heart.
53 · Oct 2020
maybe i just disappeared.
53 · May 2019
Welcome Back
juno May 2019
Inactive,
Offline,
I stay away,
From those behind,
Computers,
Phones,
Tablets,
Anything
that has access
to this website.

"welcome back"
They say,

I have come back,
to write more,
and read more.

Bye.
I'm off to therapy now.
juno Feb 2020
school student found dead after friend dies in front of school


they say he committed suicide after he found out that his friend, actually died in front of the school as she’s been saying for years.


he said they wished to run an orphanage

wished to live together with their friends


truly a sad death between two friends
a note to self to when i **** myself after finding out she died
juno Feb 2020
i've almost sobbed myself to sleep,


i watched,


listened.




"****, why can't someone love me like that"



even your mom asked if i felt like i was being left out,



i wanted to have a smile and say no,


but i just nodded silently.




im scared of your brother asking if we're friends anymore but,


are we?
52 · May 2020
05.12.20
juno May 2020
happy anniversary

to the girl i never thought i'd have a chance with.

to the girl who won me over as i was getting over a rocky relationship with someone who constantly lied and ghosted me.

to the girl who isn't afraid to send me goofy and silly pictures and messages

to the girl who dyed her hair and cut herself bangs within 3 days

to the girl who was too shy to show her smile because she thought it was ugly, who grew to love her smile and sends me a picture of her smiling almost everyday.

to the girl who i wrote a letter to, even though i knew it'd take a while to get to her, since she lives 1.4k miles away

to the girl who i never thought i would love,

i always did those "gf/bf applications" for fun,

your reaction was cute

"oh god oh please s/u"

this day, last month, was the day i won your heart.

you were complaining about people asking you out, people talking to you who only wanted you for your love.

that day i asked the question in the most awkward way possible.

"douwannabemygf"
quinncy . happy one month bby
52 · Jan 2024
Untitled
juno Jan 2024
every day i am reminded of how unwanted i am

how much i deserve nothing

how i am nothing

how i will never be good enough
the clock is ticking
51 · Jun 2020
i’ve given up
juno Jun 2020
i don’t think i care anymore
51 · Feb 2020
oops..
juno Feb 2020
i keep telling myself that im out of it


im done with relationships

that i dont like anybody


and i keep thinking of you.



i've realised that hey,,, i've fallen for you.
51 · Feb 2020
am i invisible?
juno Feb 2020
i feel like i’m NOTHING.



i come for attention,

attention seeker if you will,



but i don’t even get attention at home
**** valentine’s day i’ll ******* **** myself
51 · Nov 2020
thinking,
juno Nov 2020
was i ever enough for you?

or was i just part of your play?

for you to wreck and destroy,


to tell everyone that i’m the villain?
50 · Jul 2020
"please dont leave me"
juno Jul 2020
isnt it ironic how,,

not even a year after you said that,,


you've already left me


and i don't know who you are anymore.
50 · Mar 2020
Untitled
juno Mar 2020
"i swear shes not replacing you. she was just there for me when you had your online relationships"



no. she's replacing me.

she's replacing all of us.


you're just letting it happen.


i'll find someone else since it seems like you don't need me anymore.
juno Mar 2024
i always knew you thought it .
“you are so ******* worthless”
juno Oct 2020
ill pour out my feelings for you again. like we did, a year ago.
50 · Nov 2020
i remember
juno Nov 2020
when we were close
when i wasn’t out
when you thought i was faking
when you compared me to her
when you called me names
when you responded to messages
when you cared.
k.
you’re toxic just like her.
you victimize yourself
you’re probably faking your tics.

love, your face says it all
50 · Oct 2020
n i miss my lover, man.
juno May 2020
im happy, right?
if im happy, why does it hurt so much?
.
.
.

:)
49 · Sep 2024
???
juno Sep 2024
???
i don’t think i’m meant to be here for this long
juno Jun 2020

youre such a great person, im just ruining it.
48 · Jul 2019
Untitled
juno Jul 2019
just please shut the **** up.

you're so ******* annoying

you call me names

you give me bruises


isnt that illegal?

you *****
to my brother
48 · Mar 2020
you hit me again
juno Mar 2020
you wrecked my room again

you called me names again


you’ve abused u s again.

we’ve woken up late,

so what? we’re just kids.

you’re blaming everything on us

“you’re stressing me out”

“you’re not listening to me”

“you guys are so ******* dumb”

“******* kids”

if you didn’t want us, why didn’t you tell mom to abort us?

much easier to make me ******* suicidal
today my dad hit me with a ruler to wake me up. then he proceeded to call me names and complain, grabbing at my things. now i am on the verge of tears,trying not to ******* **** myself first thing in the morning
48 · Oct 2024
Untitled
juno Oct 2024
sometimes i wish you would just hit me so i would have actual proof of what you make me suffer through
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