they scare me,

loud booms,

like screams from the sky.

screaming for help,

tears pouring down,


like a breakdown really.

you are,

constantly promising me these things

only for me to find out that they aren’t true.
to find out that you will yell at me and call me names if i ask.

i’m bullshitting to you,

i’m guilted by you constantly putting the blame on me,

not even listening to what i have to say.

i am sorry, can’t you hear? can’t you read?

though what i said cant compete with what you have called me.

******* *****
*******
useless
worthless
disappointment
not good enough
annoying
stupid
******
*******
******* kids
*******
**** all of you
*******
*******
get out of my house
live with your mom

i’m a kid, going through some ****. using this as an outlet.

the guys threatened to kick me out, im a minor, still too young to have a legal job.

telling me to go live with my mom as if that’s where the dumpster is.

is that all she is to you?

i know you’re not on good terms but that doesn’t give you an excuse to be an ******* towards her.

i’m just here, a shattered soul

wanting help but never going through with it

because i’m scared

and i don’t want to hurt you


but truthfully


i don’t want to live here