i grant my tears the permission to gravitate downwards,
to escape the cages and the guard that was holding them back from release.
you are the only being this applies to.
dare I say I love you?
when all I mean is to loathe you,
yet all I crave is to kiss you...

but you **** me.
poison me, dissect me, then forget to piece me back together.
you leave me with your two breathes and an  introverted smile and then dismiss me with your soft silence.

I should despise you.
I do despise you.
no, that is fraudulent of me.
I yearn for you now more than ever.

through all the pain,
leave you, my heart can never.