My heart like helium balloon
It's filled with special air
It hovers in it's cage

When my ******* ******
He thinks there roses as they are
Plump and sweet

My heart's been wrapped up by
Hate and fear
The wings to my heart
Have been damaged.
So when I want to feel free
My wings have to spread apart
To search for love and peace

I try cry the hurt away
But the hurt is like clouds
They come again and they come light and dark
Light is small flow of hurt
Dark signifying the heavy flow of hurt
From my heart to my brain

I didn't start off on page 1 like age 1
No clue what was happening
Around my life
Skip to 15 puberty, what awful pimples.came by crushes
Next 20 goals and crushed dreams as this page is stained with ****** years
Tears that trapped my future my dreams for what
From slightest fear of rejection not capable

The past like I was winning
Swimming without cares for this troublesome world
Now it eats at my conscience
This new present swallows me up
I drown from this kind of swimming
I'm stuck in wave washed ashore

Long ago this happiness was not thought of
It came naturally as a kid and less
Physical issues
I grew up then this happiness fades slowly but quickly recent years
Reality settled in and I consumed up the worry and guilt that weighted me down
So bad I cry so fast now
So easily at any thoughts
This shatters my world for him
To run from me...when I want him for me

You were the ball thrown
You came at me with such force and speed
I try to swing you out and away
But with 3 chances you still
Made it to home.run to my
Sensual oasis

Cars in motion even more action
Of fast furious 9
Please be this fast for my attention I crave each second without you
Next to me

Your the wheel to the truck
You turn me on side to side
I got few flavors
And it's cold and bitter

Prayer
Reaches
It's estranged
Santurary today

Demons is ******* prayers at you
Beware they love the night and
Are blinded during the day

This cloud is not from the sky
This is actually a person
Someone I care about enough
But he clouds my judgement...
From school..
That's priority of education
He's my second but lately
He crept his way into first

He's the stocking to my
Shelf
He's the star upon the tree
Snow on the ground
Covering up his white lies
He says every day, since
We met.

My gear is jumpsuit
Like I'm.from prison
In and out
My creativity is done
As I work in hell
Numbbb

Sensual
Electric
Person
That
Enjoys
My
Breaths
Even remember

I've lost count
How many times my heart's been knocked down..
Different counted times than in my head..
One over powers the other
But never in sync...
He helps sync it when he's not around me
Physically
Orbiting with love

He was the smoke
After I started the fire
And his smoke took forever
To go away his sense
Of touch lingered on for
Over a month
Wishing this smoke evaporated

This day is meant to show beauty
Of mother nature
But the gods have spoken
And they want this Earth to be
All dead apparently..
Why earth once you were nothing
You bloomed and now
Are drying out with death at our
Grounds

I'm trying to draw out the pain
From the pencil lead
When lead broke off thatss .
When my pain stopped
I won't want to draw out again this pain

No matter I cut strings
Or strengthen current ones
My chest beats  same way same
Weight heavy
Suffocating my happiness from my
Skin
Drafting down to hell