I wish that you were here with me
I wish I could fall asleep hearing
your heart beat
If you couldn’t sleep
I’d lay next to you and look at you and talk to you
I want you to
Experience
Peace
Love and Harmony
And wake up feeling well rested ;)

You’ve seen me cry
As you watched
I’m not hiding it from you at all
Be my shoulder to cry on I’d
Lean on you every day

These videos have been on my mind to share with you

Copy paste the links and watch

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https://youtu.be/PXX6OKbkcxk?si=0xFHHI5zQuv-GtJj

https://youtu.be/gZETa2L_iDo?si=8Mckg8EJKBZed70q

Does not mean that I won’t speak to you
Does not mean that you will not hear from me
No infact
I’ll still be around
You’ll still hear from me
Just know that I’m working through things
I’m trying to live with the fact that my father won’t be here I waited for him to return for almost 20 years
I’m trying to adjust to health issues I have and create normalcy during my appointments I started shutting down and going numb it was to much to bear
I’m trying to be all that I can be for my people and yet I feel like I could do better I could change this
I’m stretching myself to much I’m trying to limit that and make time for some individuals I have yet to hear from
I’m saying your going to meet me through all of my phases and I’m letting you know that I will forever be evolving and growing and I hope you stick around for that

3pm on an outside stroll
will I see you then
I guess we won’t know
But here I am

I want to be the only one in the picture
But if your using other people to pull strings of the heart
And dangle up above
That isn’t ok
Not because it’s upsetting
But I rather you tell me  how you really feel
Tell me that your upset
When you don’t hear from me
Tell me that you miss me
When I’m quiet
Ask me what’s going through my mind
Tell me how I can support you
What I can do to help
But don’t pull out the dagger and drag it across my heart
Do you want to love me
Or are you trying to hurt me ?

I slept in for a while
My body just isn’t feeling it
It’s crazy how our bodies are shells
And how souls live on
My shell is
Done for
My spirit
Lives on

I don’t think it’s to late
I think things happen when there meant to
God is always on time
His time
It’ll be alright