I wanted to reach out and say
I didn’t know that , this is how you felt
and I didn’t know that you had gone through all this pain
I also went through a lot but that does not give me an excuse to treat others badly
I know that we had our disagreements
And our back and forths
I know that we had gone through our ups and downs
I don’t keep tabs on others
I do care for others
I do pray for others
I do hope for the best
I do want to reach out to you and speak to you personally but how do I do that
When you don’t give me the room to speak
You called
Me out of my name I’d call you right now if you’d agree to it
I don’t want to hurt you
I have no intention of destroying what you have built for yourself or taking anything away from you
I know we both weren’t perfect
I know there’s pain that I caused
There’s things that I was conflicted with and went to war with and through that
I know that you do deserve love, happiness and to feel free
I’m sorry if I have held you back

I love you
I love you
I love you
I do
And I hate that I do
But from the morning to night
All think about is you
And it makes me sad
And I’m so blue
How someone can make happy and sick at all the right and wrong times
How I can wait years and still wonder if a part of you will reach out with a hand and finally say
it’ll be ok
don’t be afraid
ur wounds
are mine
ur pain is mine
together we’ll be
Alright

If your pulling up can you give a girl a heads up so I can actually say hi

I don’t have men
I don’t have anyone really around me
I don’t go anywhere unless it’s with friends
I stay at home
I do my reading
If you don’t believe me come look through my phone
I don’t know what else to say
If your thinking of whose with me every day it’s my brother
If it’s the guy I called brother he’s only a friend and has two kids and never even interacted with me in the way you think I gave his two kids  two Christmas gifts you want me to block and remove him out of my life great
I haven’t gone on anywhere to talk to anyone for a while
I don’t even go to the gym anymore
What else am I missing here to clarify
If your worried about the guy whose in my circle he likes other men if you don’t believe me you can ask him

Do you want me to switch over and use a flip phone ? I haven’t been on any dates,