I noticed the shadows
Your eyelashes display.
Your spine the string of a piano
Wound too tight to play

I noticed the words
You never let spill
I could hear the chords
Before you froze them still

I noticed when I yelled
You loved me less
In the distance bells knelled
You watched me undress

I wonder what you thought
The night we met
When I pressed your palm to my cheek
And held it there as if it could keep me
From ever crying again.

I wonder what you thought when I woke up and kissed your wrist
In the middle of the night
That time I got to sleep in your arms
And held your gaze as if
Your heartbeat could keep me from ever hurting
Again.

I wonder what you think
Whenever you have to walk away from me
About how I stand there and watch you go
Until I can't possibly see you anymore.
I just stand there
Still.
Paused.
Trying to keep every last second of being near you
Until there are no more left.

I wonder what you'd think if you knew
That there have been times when I've stood like that
Long after you were far gone
Unable to quit the spot where I last saw your smile
As if somehow staying there would help me remember it.

I wonder what you think
Those times when you lean close to me
And I can feel the warmth of your cheek inches from mine
Or your hair brushes my neck
And it undoes me completely
I wonder what you think that I shudder when you're close,
Because I've seen you see me.
I've seen you know.

I wonder what you think
That I write you poems
When I can't sleep.

Diaphanous curtains hang keeping us separate
I see you and yet you are so far away
All I can do is scream helplessly, save me
and then, trembling wait, hoping that you will stay

And you must be laughing out there in the crowd
Your mind cannot bother you there in the distance
You're trying to fight hoping that it will pass
Until you come knocking again in your trance

It's terrible wanting that which you can't have
And yet at the same time the feeling is marvelous
The waiting and hesitant touches and glances
And then in our carelessness we just forget

Your kisses and touches are not searching pleasure
Your fingers so naturally lace between mine
And then in the morning it fades like a lost dream
For days, weeks on end, we pretend that it's fine

Why did we get lucky enough to enjoy this
When it is clear we will have to move on
Because we both know that this twirling euphoria
Is something that cant possibly last very  long

You there, the one reading this now I want you to do something, smile. Smile because you're beautiful because you're amazing because you're unique because you can because tomorrow is a new day because no matter what you think, someone out there loves you smile because you deserve to. Smile why? Because you can stay happy stay strong stay positive

I am without faults
But I am without goodness either
Perhaps
If you weren't so busy
Counting my mistakes
And regarding my shortcomings
Maybe, just maybe
You will never missed the chance
Of enjoying the best of me...

I am without flaws
But I am without beauty either
Perhaps
If you weren't so busy
Searching what I never had
For what I cannot give
Maybe, just maybe
You will never missed the chance
Of seeing what I am capable of...

I am without hate
But I am without love either
Perhaps
If you weren't so careless
Handling me at my worst
Appreciating me at my best
Maybe, just maybe
You will never missed
A promise of once in a lifetime love...

I am specks of light
Memories that will soon be forgotten
Unfinished paintings on rough canvases
I am mismatched words
And saved texts
Almost sent,but never will be
You will find me
In those tears which were held back
Those pieces of shattered glass
Edges of rooftops of a  secluded skyscraper
In graffitis less rebellious than others
In cuts which don't yet touch the vein
I am unspoken words
And cigarette smoke
Whispers in the wind
That silent scream at Midnight's stroke