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Annie Mar 2016
I left the boy that I love in the whole world because like all things, I became an object to him. Something he came home to like his games or his bed. And even when I lied there next to him he looked through me like glass, and that, more than anything broke me. I left miles away, a few steps from the beach to be dulled away and caved in. Alone more than ever, i drowned myself with alcohol and drugs so my sadness wouldn't do so.
Annie Mar 2016
We lost each other when we lost the last bit of sanity we had left in our minds after all the times we fried. Fried every other day. One day it’d 2-3 tabs, other days we’d be breaking up crystal rocks in our water. I remember the first time we tripped together I looked at you and cried as if you were some kind of god, a part of Mother Nature that I wanted to lie and be surround in. I knew when we went too far, took too much because when I looked at you for to long, your face would start distorting and I felt like I no longer knew who you were and that scared me. In some ways I feel like we’ve got to know each other better on acid, who we were truly. And in some ways, I think that’s what’s caused us to break apart the last year. We lost ourselves, lost our minds literally. I truly hope one day, when we find ourselves again I’ll get to meet you and you’ll love yourself and the person you've become.
Annie Mar 2016
The first time
I felt again
I lied between the sheets
with the comfortably feel
of a pillow the size of me,
hugged against my body,
between my legs

Chopins soft melodies
melting through my brain
as his beautiful art
ran through my ears
With my long piano fingers
running along the pale, fragile
skin that lies on my bones

I lied there

making love to myself


For I came to realization
to who needs to love me?

for I,
only need myself.
Annie Feb 2016
How must one dream
to see the pure image of an angel
for I only see a distant black hole
where you lie
waiting to corrupt my mind

what is real,
really?
I cannot tell when you mask
yourself behind lies
to save me from heartache
and wanting to cry ...

You are a lover
I want to dream of
holding me close
and caressing my skin
but I only see you touching
her
and her
and her
and all of them

again.
Annie Jan 2016
Let's play the game of Who Deserves Who
You mope and cry and make up lies
to those you know who love to pry
You make sick
as you blow your kiss
baby, why do you love to victimize?
It doesn't make sense
none of it
**** this
find yourself, and be true.
Annie Jan 2016
I was 17,
and was on psychadelics for months straight
in ways it opened my mind
but I lost it in the process

you ask me who I am,
I only know
I am the person you perceive

I was 17,
perscribed depressants,
not for me
but him
he still didn't mind sharing..
for months straight

the one I loved most
and I couldn't feel it
not only it,
but everything

I was numb

I am 18,
and for months straight
I feel as though I consume more
*** in my lungs
them the polluted air

You ask me
where is my mind?
Well, I'm not sure
and I'm not sure if I want to find it

My mind has found comfort
around drugs
and I'm not sure id know who I am
without them.

and that is the sad truth.
Annie Dec 2015
If you fall in love
Be prepared,
You are falling into pain too
Their words will seep into your veins
through, and through
to your heart and make you feel blue
Do not fear,
nor shed a tear
For love is love
and it comes and goes.
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