... And just like in my nightmares
whenever I'm about to fall in love
I wake up screaming
flailing and crying to realize
thankfully, that I'm only just dreaming.

... And the girl I let go?
She Looked exactly like
the love of my life;
but I must love my life more

...Because love, for me, is like setting my heart
perfectly on the floor, next to your feet.
Scared you might step over it and go your way
Hoping you don't step on it and **** me so
Praying you pick it up and make me whole

Wish I washed my breath with ***
That last time I told you twas over for sure
So maybe you would blame it on the bottle
and not on the stony nature of a non-existent heart

Wish I swam in the ocean of whiskey
When I told you I loved you
so maybe you would blame it on the demon
that pushed me in the bottle
and not on the fact that I was incapable of love

But maybe, don't blame me at all
cos i'm certain you wouldn't walk a straight line
if not, how could you have ever trusted
a little child, with a bow and an arrow

Of cos you'd get hurt

Discover within yourself
The whole truth.
Because truth be told,
That half truth
Is nothing but a lie too

Where men have treaded and failed before
And the world has given you no chance at all
There you shall find light and wings to fit
And fly into the horizon where no boundaries abound
Just the sun, the wind and success at arm's length
But only if you Believe.

No words can express how I really feel
At least not enough, but I will try still
I'm the silhouette in the shadows
Drowning in the darkness of my days
You can't see it, but it's there
Hidden well within the brushes
That try to paint me a different color but blue
I'm the drawing in the dark
The Artist in plain sight
And I paint myself blue to your adulation
Like the phenomenon of color constancy
I see blue and black, but you
You see white and gold; I'm done
No need to show what's hidden in plain sight
I'm fine I say, over and again; depressed
No words can say how I really feel
The words will never be enough
To make you see that all I am, is ill