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Raven Feels Aug 2023
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, how many journals do you go throughout the year?

he fades
for real this time
I'm losing sleep over myself
not over him
over his rhymes
if I can prove his existence in my brain
I can't
it doesn't even exist
even if it does
still not the same
his effigy is one for the flames to eat
and for the bridge to burn
on my poems his body lays
a skeleton my feet passes in between
thoroughly
between the lines standing in the way
dust coming back to follow me
with no second thought
or maybe just one
one thought between me & myself
how many more journals can I go through?
through which I go out of throughout the year
through which I go out of thought about cleaning up
some fear
of this dust from all over my poems
so give me back my poems
the winters that went away
those are mine to keep
to show them
until the last page
of it
of it all
and don't read them
because then you'd have to call

                                                           ­                                     ------ravefeels
Raven Feels Aug 2023
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, slept when the city served its watch<3

I feared the day that scene became instrumental
I kissed sanity goodbye paying the rental
slept when the city announced its ****
its dream-track
I get to regret the decision just like that
could've fled the drumming sentimental
all the way to the white part of the green judgmental
and my silence hid bullets of madness
the acceptance then diminished to sadness

I was so drained of the float
the float hit the soil on feet
raced before the two sisters left
all dressed
to shed myself and my 'beloved' tears
drowning both's pretentiousness in here
of the flood of self worthiness and given esteem
to the joke of the ice cream

                                                                                         ------ravenfeels
Raven Feels Aug 2023
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, must be why---

and I've been yearning to those dusks
station and meadow drunk thoughts and
your memory is 'a frail' pal and time proves why
and I plead to sky's birth within
the picture of sun and eye's switch and
momented green lakes' pry
pronounce sirens who cried
the water next to its caffeine
the elbow broke & my hair bleached
or red car delusions
or just flashbacks of neural evolution
for the fall wouldn't be a high sky
nor a folk's lie

------ravenfeels
Raven Feels Aug 2023
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, in a someday maybe :)

they say 'time would preach revelation'
wrapping the Heart in a red bow to be seen
a once was oppressive dictator
forcing the bodies to an impulse to some beat
mystery in debate chimes
driving minds to the edge of their depletes
a loud state compelling with status
a killer on that shelf
to be then in a someday maybe
awed by me

                                                                                         ------ravenfeels
Raven Feels Aug 2023
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, 2:45 on WED 9-VIII-'23------

comin’ back here, meetin’ up
crumblin’ in a domino’s loop, when
order expires, we’ll be in this famine too
even on this sea deck, the army’s list check
all track of them names
what they gave me
clearly none match here
so what’s with the deal?

some of those bodies lack the means to tolerate
look at the branches processin’ its roots’ betrayal
if you don’t give in to death you give devastate
washin’ its trail, burnin’ on pale
instead of goin’ on this life to bail

letter in green, waterin’ hands hangin’ in misery
emotional swallow, a liquid to this numb thing
to him towards, wordin’ is a war
doubled reality
jump the war zone the freezing state bone
as you recall the real

some of those bodies lack the means to tolerate
drowning this pride is one’s own self’s defeat enslaved
if you don’t give in to death you give devastate
washin’ its trail, burnin’ on pale
instead of goin’ on this life to bail

those branches would come to rejoice
rejoice the tree’s roots and its crown
matterin’ some asphalt upon
upon which feet would come to frown
and they would soldier their way
soldierin’ their way into the crowd
like it’s the March of their lives
the life they would brink to survive
sheddin’ the fears that they bound
to cancel the love of a waitin’ wife

some of those bodies lack the means to tolerate
black eyes will come to nurse the rednesses’ space
you think you see his skin, when you see his stain
washin’ its trail, burnin’ on pale
he doesn’t want to know the norm
the serve of them flames, huggin’ them blades
not minding the storm
washin’ its trail, burnin’ on pale
instead of goin’ on this life to bail

                                                           ­                                ------ravenfeels
I guess we compare ourselves to soldiers sometimes under the image of their strength to endure, but maybe what we are trying to portray is more about their struggle to put out that image of this strength: and with that we express their opposite side; so let me not :)
Raven Feels Jun 2023
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, did I ever mention that my account's password is actually a repeated line on this page?(stupidity 101) :)

sometimes the blocking of the words
is better than them being said unfinished
& sometimes the say of them unfinished
is better than them being blocked
so which one is it of the above
if the battle of the must & the mustn't shall redeem
so which one is it all along
if the consequences of the last aren't showing the next
so which one is it
if it must or it mustn't

                                                        ­          ------ravenfeels
Raven Feels Jun 2023
DEAR PENPAL PEOPLE, I mean it's June, sooo......& Lucy is not technically a person.(& I never put full stops).

the consistency in the inconsistency is shredding me.
'Lucy' a shadow in the 'want' & the 'don't want' to be.
the pillow drains of thoughts.
bringing something I couldn't even think would be brought.
& the feels won't conquer this anger of the streets.
going back is like going straight forward to the old me in feet.
all in the fear of the one & only timeless zone.
for the same circulation of that never three scooped ice cream cone.
kindness fails to be alone.
& the soldier is tickled from the first bullet in bone.
the hold on to the moon being diluted to a loop of endlessly.
dilapidation of these walls_ not in sleep _in reality.
so enough of odd numbers becoming even.
since every vertebrae is crying & screaming.
& so far it's draining as ****.
to think of the infamous fate of every single buck.
----------------
.because it doesn't end.

                                                           ­                    ------ravenfeels
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