My heart can be a haunted house
No windows or doors
If you get in you will be lost in a tunnel like a mouse
Hearts as black as feathers on crows
Yeah, get my inspiration from the morgue
The pain of loneliness comes in large blows
Yet it is killing me softly
I don't mean to push you away
But in the end you didn't care anyways
My heart can be a haunted house
No windows
No doors
Once you're in you are trapped
But so am I...
Your done... Your future's mapped
You hurt me, I may or may not finish you
I may be harsh, very true
But you shaped it, you mad you lose
Yeah I'm the Queen of a broken heart
I'll love you if you find all the pieces
No windows, No doors, No windows, No doors

Looking up at the sky
Trying to decide
Why oh why
What to do next, will I abide
Love or hate, which side
I want to be near the ocean
To go of the pain I keep in
To hear the waves rushing in
If only I wasn't afraid of drowning
Because if I wasn't I start swimming
Down Down Down
to the deep sea
to go there just to be
To be away from the world just for a minute
Please help us all find peace
I want to be near the ocean
maybe you can come to
To listen to the waves, deep and blue

And we meet again
The one who had broken my heart
My hurt was a ten
The day we had split apart
The memories fresh
I let myself be persuaded
My beautiful friend
But then that friendship had faded
Wishing pain to end
Wondering what is around the bend
Becoming a Queen?
No... We aren't out here playing chess
Oh who will be seen
Please don't have any carelessness
The feeling of alone
Though I'm not alone at all
Sitting with my phone
Talking to those who really care
Though life isn't fair
I hope you find what you're looking for

Pain can be normal
But it still comes in shock
I have memorized its call
I can hear its hurtful mock
You can take place in someone's heart
Never really knew you, an unknown chart
You really tore me apart
You taught me to fear
You taught me to hate the girl in the mirror
You drove me to the cliff
You made me want to die
Yeah pain comes in shock
I can still hear its hurtful mock
But I picked myself up
No I don't wanna die anymore
Memories don't leave, they'll stay forevermore
May be better but I still hate the girl in the mirror
I am still afraid
You knew fear was control
I am still afraid
You knew it would hurt my soul
I am still afraid
Wish you had God but there's no loophole
I am still afraid
Your back and fear is taking its toll
I am still afraid

I'm tired of chasing perfection
Been going down that road for too long
Looking into the mirror's reflection
Yeah it's time to sing my own song
The old tune can **** the like out of you
If you don't heed my warning it may be you
Wisely choose the road you go down
Choose right and you will find true beauty
Choose wrong and you will lose your crown
Beauty can be seen unless it's blind perception
Ignore the nasty comments said by another
But just like the fairytale the words repeat over and over
"Mirror Mirror on the wall, who's the fairest of them all?"
But she just stared at me, I was her
Silence... I guess that's where I fall

My voice is now filled with wrath
But I feel like I'm finally on my path
Now I know once you have a choice
You hear the voice
The voice of revenge
I will use it carefully, seeing how it can destroy people
You can become dark and hurtful
But you can hear the plea's
Of those you have hurt
Those you kicked to the dirt
Like your friends, and family like me

Pay me to lower my voice
Even when I don't have a choice
I can feel the anger rising in my throat
Come on just leave me alone
I said I was not gonna fight you
I will not be ignored
This time Ima fight
This time I'm going to show you what's right
I can feel anger rising in my throat
I'm not gonna put on the coat
Look out I'm coming back ten times harder
You ruined my story I want to ruin yours, yeah it's rewrote
I'm gonna set you afloat
I'm gonna make you pay
Pay me to lower my voice?!?
But now I have a choice
Now I have a voice
It may be filled with anger and pain
But you drove me insane
I no longer have any chains

I'm falling, tears, fears to the full
Grow your roses on my barren soul
Oh a beautiful rose, plant the seed in my empty skull

This ship is sinking
The planks are nailed together with my sorrow
Looking to the water by the railing
Imagining what life will be like tomorrow
Here we go again... Story of my life
Embroidered like initials on a knife
The memories ingrained in my brain
Taunting, always there like a stain
Because I feel you even in the rain
You stick to my heart like tree sap
Yeah I sailed right into your deadly trap
I keep telling myself it will be over, just a mishap
I feel as though I might just scream
I was hoping it was all a dream
Even when things aren't all what they seem
And your unbelief in me
You left me thinking what could be
And now I think I am starting to see
That perhaps it was never meant to be

God do you hear me, do you hear me
The chains of my past are cutting deep
To be feared or to be love which his meant to be
Why do I feel like I need to hide?
Not you, it's Satan, he's out to get me...
To be enveloped by fire, to be drowned in the deep sea
Please just set me free
Do you hear me on the deadest night?
Do you hear me in the middle of a fight?
Do you hear me when I choose what's not right?
There's a secret side of me, you don't wanna see
God please set me free!
Make it end!
Yeah I'll never let you see
Can't keep it caged forever, God do you hear me!?!
I'm going down I'm going under
Lord I'm reaching to you, come save me
Fearing, searing, dying, crying
Revival, survival, a full out rival
God help me I'm trying, I'm fighting
Do you hear me?
There's a secret side of me you don't wanna see
God please save me!
Make it end!

Love is patient Love is kind
It's hard when we are both stuck in our own minds
Even when I'm terribly imperfect
I wish you knew I was unrefined
Oh I fail to show, but I hope you know
I only want to love you, I do not mean to be oh so cold
My words may cut you to your bone
My hurting heart longs for you alone
I wish for love, I wish for life, I wish for time
Because I need to shine out of who I am
I want to love you... But then
I cannot seem to find the line
I lay myself aside cuz you still love her, I know
And of course I fail to show
I just want to love you
I don't know if I can make it on my own
Because my mind denies the love I know
But I cannot deny the love I have for you
I can't give enough of my, I wish you'd want it...
Cuz if you did I'd give it all
Yeah I'd give it all

Walking outside to meet you
I wish I could just once see...
You are my dad but I've never met you
We are the same only by blood and looks you see
I know you don't care I just wanna know why you'd leave
You never reached out or does my mind deceive
Once when I was a baby I was your daughter
But now I'm sure you have forgotten her
I will never be able to call you my father
Maybe Julian or just sir
When I was younger you were a far away dream, a wishing star
Now you are just a scar
I know you don't care I just wanna know why you'd leave
Now you're just someone, in you I don't believe

The light is trying
The fighters are fighting
The liars are lying
The believers are believing
Even when you can't be seen
And your behind an invisible screen
And all there is, is malice
Because when you shoot that arrow it will miss
It will miss me and hit your blank canvas
Your own heart
An unknown chart
One dark piece of art
For all we knew
That one day it would come back and hit you
Your mask is crumbling
And we are done being
We are done being nothing
We are done not trusting
Yes! We are not running
No... Not anymoe
For it was a chore
That had rattled us all the way down to the core
So goodbye forevermore

Keep my hurt and pain behind a mask
Yeah hiding it can be a task
Only you can really see me
And then there are those hunting me
Which is why I have to leave
I mean 10 years down where will I be
Maybe somewhere in a daze
Maybe hurting like a million blades
Saying what are you missing
I guess it a reminder for me
The voices are talking and I'm listening
Guess I don't care what happens to me
Only the people I care about you see
All our stories down like a book
When all you have to do is look
The ball and chain I'm good being locked to you
Who's really the Queen of broken hearts, yeah who
Maybe me yeah that could be true
Who's gonna let this prisoner out of her cage
Yeah I may not be a sage
But some of the voices are filled with rage
It hurts my ears are ringing
The mask covers my heart the voices are talking and I'm listening

I sat there in the damp forest
Where you could hear the cry of the fallen angels,
the whisper of the dead
The charm of the devil turned the tables,
And the snarl of demon possession, their eyes bled
I've become heartless, don't care if you cry
Don't care if you die
Sometimes it's just better off dead
Living is overrated, under the weight of a thousand misled
Probably need a psychotherapist
I just wanna feel okay
It's getting longer all the bad things I did, longer list
It's scary when you hear voices night and day
Worse when their the only ones you trust
Specially when everything you touch turns to dust
Why do all the monsters come out at night
Every wall I knock down is a wall I replace
And behind every wall are ghosts leaving a deadly trace

Shards of broken glass
Staring out the window in the middle of class
Writing like I'm running out of time
Quick but silent as a mime
Tick tick tick goes the clock
I hear them at the door, knock, knock, knock

How does a moment last forever
How does a story live on
Memories may last forever
But we need to pass them on
Can't express how much I love you
Together were as beautiful as trees in the fall
I'll never forget the time spent with you
I will hang on to it with my all
Dear friends I miss you
You move away and leave me here
Just thinking about you makes me shed tears

To the threefold law
To the Crone, the Maiden, & Hecate
Their positive energy & nurture I saw
The children all go out to play
In my hear Hecate may stay
The ******* on Christianity I slay
Lucifer, baptize me unto your blood
No longer stuck in the Christian mud
Hail Lucifer, Master of Air!
Hail Hecate, Goddess of Crossroads!

I'm a train wreck I'm a mess
Tell where does your love come from?
For more or for less
Friend whatever you become
No matter what you have done or where you come from
Wherever you are I'll hold your heart
Still together even when we are apart
I'll be there when you need a new start
This may be selfish but...
Please be there when I'm falling apart
Even when life disrupts
I'm a train wreck I'm a mess
I still have more things I need to confess
I hope for success but nevertheless
Tell me where does your love come from?

Call my name
Save me from my demons
Don't want a title or fame
Still not free from my trials and tribulations
You think I'm nothing without you
Ha!
Get ready to see me wild and untamed
I'll show you how I really behave
My heart may be scarred
Sometimes there's only so much I can take
But look out I'll show you how I behave
No need to save me
Stronger than I ever was before
Ima bout to get things back in store

Outcast soul
I lost control
And I don't understand
Why every time I'm pushed
I don't land
I keep falling
And I find myself calling
For someone to come save me
When I want to save myself you see
I fell into a trap
And now I will never get out
I'm hidden just about
When I now try to shout
Nothing comes out
I'm falling and calling
I'm afraid of what people will say
I know I can get through this day
Initiation is gonna hurt
But I will find a way to escape
Without getting those I love hurt
I need to land
And if I keep falling
It's the end of the line for me... But at least I was trying

HYPNOTIZED
Dumb lies, stupid games
DISPISED
Prisons in picture frames
OXIDIZED
confess my sins with a bitter voice
VAPORIZED
Can't escape my choice

Still trying to figure out my motives
I'm finally free
Yet I feel like everything's happening so fast
I feel amazingly overwhelmed
Not wanting to be last
Dauntless? Maybe I should rebel
Just to have fun, no need to tell
Yeah still tryna figure out my motives
Wandering around downtown
Feeling like I'm on top of the world
Like nothing can bring me down
But all the sounds
I still don't have that crown
Look out cuz my world has just been wonderfully turned
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I chose dare
When did you leave
I heard a ghost in the attic up there

Come on brother stand up and act like a man
Don't play with that girl
If you'll never put a ring on her hand
This time I'm taking a stand

I'm cold-blooded
But my heart is warm, full of love
Why are people so jaded?
My head's stuck in the cloud's above
Please don't bring me back down
Cuz the guy I love isn't here
This girl feels like she lost her crown
To be or not to be, thanks Shakespeare

Mom, Dad where you at?
I feel like I'm nothing, yeah I feel like I'm nothing
I'm fading to black
Everybody is staring
I wonder what I lack
Yeah you know I know
I ain't ready for this show

I was dancing around in the shadows
You saw me and pulled me into the light
You took me to the beautiful meadows
But my loved dark side I could never fight
Without the dark you could never see the stars
Someone I deeply loved gave me darkness
It was darkness that left me with these deep scars
Until I found it was a corrupt gift that made me who I am
Never thought that to you, I'd say thank you...****!

Now that it's raining
never stopping
Only to fall
No one to hear your call
your scream
Not waiting
Just saying
I love you
I hate you
I miss you
Always be your friend
Love and hate

Though I feel blue
And no one else knew
My life is askew
But at least I will always have you

No one truly see's me
But then you came into my life
For some reason you understand me
You turned my world upside down
And I am so glad you did
Because I'm afraid I'm falling for you
I'm still unsure whether it true
This year you came out of the blue
But we don't have the same beliefs
And I don't know what to do
I'm afraid that if you read this
Things will never be the same
My heart is untamed
To my past I'm chained
I know we can never be
But I will keep dreaming
I hope friends we will stay
If not I know the price I'll pay
For I know it will never be
We are too different but at the same time alike
For I know it will never be

Don't really know what to do
Death has died
Yet I can't control it we need to hide
You don't know and I can't tell you
Can't bring myself to tell you
Even when you're the one I want to talk to
The pain is searing inside of me
But I will never let you see
Hard to like my roots, yet you are my family
Disappearing into the distance
How you taught me fear for instance
So many things I can't control...
So many voices so many choices
Even a place in my mind with no kindness
Will I ever find my happiness
The pain of emotion is torture
When will we change our culture
Where is love to heal my broken soul
Where is love to get me through life's cold games
The shadows are covering the sun's rays
Life can look so bleak
You don't know and I can't tell you
But I think I know what to do

Wake me up inside
Call my name
Help me to the other side
Never the same
I will never be tamed
I don't care that I was unnamed
Wake me up inside
Find me on the other side
Look out world
Here comes a girl with fire
For good or bad I will never tire
Wake me up inside
I will no longer hide
Can feel the darkness
I love it
Knowing I should hate it

Never let go
Bite my tongue, don't wanna **** anyone off
Stuck with what said long ago
Blood comes up when I cough
Welcome to my world
I can't let go
My wrongdoings is what I just hurled

Separated
In love but hated
Was our love a lie
Nobody could steal
Were we real?

Parents... They say I'm too young... Ok
To truly know what love is.. No way!
Yeah that is what they say
But I feel my love for him every day
No one has yet pursued me, so I am still dreaming
To these dreams I am clinging
One day happy thoughts will linger
Cheers to the past, the present, and the future
I suppose I need to save dreams for later
Goodbye to the old dreams of flying to the moon seeing its craters

I don't know what to put on this paper
Perhaps I should really start later
For a person who may or may not care
I mean will my poem of my emotion go anywhere?
What if they read them and just have a blank stare
Poems awaken something inside of me
Something not even I can see
Forever I will write, we are one never separately
With my pen I write what's on my heart and mind
Maybe my poems will help someone find
To find what they are looking for
Maybe they are looking for something more
And if not I hope they find it
And if my poems are a bore... Well
They were all just my feeling I needed to tell
I don't want money, no need to sell
But if I could affect someone
A person, even just one
Yeah it would be enough for me
Knowing that I had helped...
Finding that love is true
Finding that you are loved through and through
But will my writing go anywhere?
What will I be able to share?
Will anybody even care?

Every night and every day
What's there... Can I find the unknown?
Or should I just stay?
Every night as I'm lying in bed...
What adventure could I be on instead?
An honor to have my heart broken by you...
While I'm wondering what it's like to be loved by you
If you really knew, if you really know
Every night and every day
I try to put my feelings at bay
I'm still figuring out what to say
I'm still trying... Trying to see it your way
This may not be easy or fun
But I can get this done
Every night and every day
I'm wondering what it's like to be loved by you
Yeah you're in my dreams... Yeah you're what I think
What does this really mean... Will I swim or sink?