Is It You Again?

Self- Destruction
Head above water
Emotionally
Physically
Sunken

Is paranoia
Progress
When I draw a circle

Take it back
Start a cycle

Like sandbags trying to keep
The flow of an ocean at bay

I’m afraid
To crash
On top of them

Maybe a cloud will catch me

I wonder. Would it feel like cotton powder?


Watching him close
Finding my way

Anxiety is the cat’s cry
Hoping to connect with a human
Who never sees them

At the same time
Trusting the day
Picking states
In a daze again...
In between
sleep
and creation

Love is just energy. It’s supposed to flow easily into your life. It’s supposed to be easy, feel good and not feel like something that’s hard for you to obtain, like you have to push yourself to find it or "make it work" for you or another.

It is not anything that should ever stress you out or feel repelled from or repulsed by. That is behavior talking NOT people or real love.

If it does feel hard or difficult to experience then you can believe that there’s a NARRATIVE SHIFT that you have about love that needs more shifting and fine tuning so that you can attract what you choose.

BUT you can only attract what feels right if you feel right with yourself. Be and love who you see yourself as. WELCOME THAT openly and focus on it consistently without fear or worry about others opinions.
Do what SERVES you first! Then it will be that much more flowing towards someone who sincerely strikes your attention.

Love shows you the truth the first time never twice or thereafter.
No more needs to be said.

The unknown lingers as I stare into an empty field.
City air feels uncertain with debris like particles performing a spontaneous dance. Moving as holograms that curate themselves.
Colored ideas emerge from mixed emotions. They are the hope in a faith not always visible...
It has been nearly half a year and silences still replace words.
Language; too ******* the body, but our eyes; still felt and our voices heard. Masked expressions; only to be seen in private behind shadows of ineffable affliction. I feel empowered.
I am grateful to live as my evolution in an ever changing dimension.

I never questioned you and the crazy things you have done because I accept you as you are.

That’s love. That’s connection.
That’s also trust and belief in yourself to become what you were not yet.

I would rather see you differently then talk about the past, as it has no bearing on now.

It made you (name) and it could never break you down.

If anything it has propelled you (name) forward to become everything you are today and what you will continue to become tomorrow.

As a young person feelings are circular

They continue to haunt you until you choose to tap into the nature of a greater being

The trickle of confusion allows my paining heart to sing all the more peacefully

Until you respect yourself
love is blurred by pain and confusion

It is then that I may be redeemed

Resilience is fuel for creative rescripting resulting in unlimited value

Serene and passionate
I am the entity of everything I dream possible
Surreal in the essence of all that is me

My ultimate payment is the valued greatness of what I’ve created my life to be after all my old choices.

I appreciate that I can learn more about you each time we share and experience each other differently and it feels like new every time we talk and share in one another's spirit especially after this time.

A great blessing in disguise comes in the form of nonsense to show us the Realness and love we feel and were deeply missing.

The magic is this fullness that I feel now
No more mickey mouse ****, for the beauty of our lives is now.