Heartache can numb you,
The past can devour you

Time may heal you,
Truth can awaken you

Wisdom can prepare you,
God will guide you

Laughter will lift you,
Loving yourself will empower you

Love might **** you,
A friendship can save you

and always reminds you
of the things that renewed you

the best friend that never left you
travels this journey with you

to my best friend who has always been true
" I could have never made it without you!"

Knock down,
***** drag out.
Yelling, screaming,
blackout

Violations, complications,
red zones.
Hesitation in situations,
hateful tones.

Love hate, hate love,
Judging, wailing,
Push, shove.
Thoughts of failing.

Refusing to change,
understand, compromise.
With empathy, apologetic
sympathize.
Then
Emotions flooding,
rage dies.

Wrong, guilty, shameful.
Realizing, snapping,
rewind to the first time I was hateful.

Dear god, please hear me.
Forgive me, teach me.
Bring me to my knees,
to let me see the light in me.

Allowance of guidance,
pure white not demonic.
Harmony, peace, kindness,
unity, trust, faith,
platonic.

My mind carries deep thoughts of
emotions that overpower me.

It intrigues me to think of the depths
in which we correlate,
the mind to spirit energy,
that repetitiously,
carries electricity,
that some associate with entities.

The ignition of the conscious mind,
that no species can replicate,
or machine can generate,
our kind of fears,
on the edge of fate being near.
There is no eternity here.

I can't cry anymore.
Too many times let down,
there is no reason to try anymore.

To just wait for that bomb
of complete despair,
of your twisted psychosis
of the way you show care.

It was the days that you
pleaded your insanity
When you ***** me bare of my humanity.

You had the Gaul to
spawn a hurricane,
that caused confusion
and ****** the life out of everything.

It shook my world.
It rattled the orthodox of my brain.
Disaster in your wake,
have you no shame?

Your words can ****** me,
like a serrated knife
into the,
core of my serenity.
Killing the peace within me.

Drive me to despair.
This is how you care?
With words of poison that 'make my heart bleed.
Then blaming me for planting that seed.

What scares me is your
hipocritic validations you seem to fabricate
Its blat tenly disregarded
Its your most manipulative and daunting trait

I admit that I am no better than you.
For sin is sin, but faith can renew.

But I cant force you,
I cant compel you,
to take your fear
and drown it within.
No more excuse to play pretend.

It's hard, there is pain,
but a new life is whats to gain.

We have ****** and condemned ourselves
like we are afraid to walk on burning coals.
The drive and desire to change
outweighs
ANY pain from deep within our souls.

Your spirit is searching
for guidance
Someone who has been through it
and triumphed

With a noble reputation,
someone that inspires with stimulation
conquers with self motivation.

Where paths are revealed
in complicated situations,
Revalations.

With your faith in "the"
you gain the gift to fearlessly see
the serinity that awaits you
when you set yorself free

of all negative entities and impurities
its no hoax
he banishes insecurities

It all starts when you begin to believe.

The love you abused
has damaged with time.
So careless of you
to abuse what was mine

You walk and you trample
to leave traces of pain
when will you realize
I have nothing more you can gain

You perceive me as lonely
You think I am weak
So furious inside,
my tolerance has peaked

Your lies are known
as if read from a book
You drained my trust
with each lying step you took

You tried to fool me
you assumed I was blind
I am keen to your straying thoughts
As if I were accompanying you in your mind

You see I am far from foolish
unlike some you come by
I can feel what you touch
I can see with your eyes

Now I will part from you
with the remembrance of all the lies,
this is your regret,
that our memory finally dies.