I caught something so heavy.
One meant to be caught with four hands,
To be carried by the strength of two.
Excitement got a hold of me, I forgot its weight.
And so, I held on for longer than I should have.
With all my might I held it closer to my chest.
And finally its weight overcame me.
And so I hit the ground.
It sunk into my chest and injured my heart.
I looked to you and wondered why you never helped.
As the pain grew, words became impossible.
And tears seemed to be my only voice.
With the hope that somehow they help lift the weight on my heart.

I told you I loved these sweets,
And now, I never run out of them.

You spend these extra hours in loneliness.
And now, I have begun arriving home late.

You never have time for breakfast at home.
Now the journey to the store for breakfast has become my routine.

My walk is clumsy.
Somehow before a trip your arm ushers me into safety.

As water sets in the turbulence,
Layer by layer, drop by drop.
In these trivial moments.
We are woven into patterns,
Geometric with their precision.
From the chaos we crystalize into Beauty.

One could not be so kind to self,
One cannot be so merciful to self,

It can not be painless to me
Yet horrendous to you,
For it may take me moments,
Hours perhaps,
And it will take you a lifetime

To end my pain,
I begin your suffering.

For my love,
I can never make it easy.
I must set ablaze
Every cell must scream your name.

To extinguish the fire within,
I must start a fire without,

I must scream in agony,
Of my betrayal,
To your love.
To your rights.
Oh! Mother!

For I have been selfish.
My very last punishment
Must never be easy.
For it will not be easy on you.

It all fell apart,
To fall in place