My Life is like sad poetry that the world reads about,
Lost in winters dreams of my own misery;
This I do confess with an honest heart
Silent emotions with true devotions.
My words have passed through the stages of millions of minds
from true solitary childhood of pain
adolescence cornered in distant,
The isolated soul is what my life had seen,
I held on to my own deepest desires that could
make a very big fire.
I set out to make myself a part of the great human multitude,
My life has matured, and that is about all it has done;
I have traveled the life of pain out in pouring rain,
It was like a dream,
the style of the last century of torment
that had been passed down to me.
But I had never given up on true Love;
I feel that a poet must live out his or her own life
to ever write what is truly from one's heart,
I am that poet who knows life's pain
who knows the problems of broken-down dreams,
I know what it is like to be alone and never have
love to call ones own,
I survive the crossing storms in deeper winds;
Who passed along into the life
of a broken heart from the very start of birth;
I have passed through the fire and rain,
I felt the sorrows of another hope of a tomorrow
that may never come,
But now my heart is glistening for true love
to set that spark in my heart
to an everlasting dream of true reality
of what love can bring.

- Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Passionate is in the hour of my wounds.
before my healing begins;
This deep healing comes from Jehovah God,
I shall trace Him out,
I will ask for His grace,-
while I look for this face.

- Judy Emery © 2000
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

What happens to the people?
Why do they act as they do,
they bow their heads like they
are very confused,
the pain that holds in their eyes
make me want to cry, passionless is you
Oh, Darken Angel,
To me your words are pointless
but to the slaves,
your words are everything,
when you make, I cry?
You love to see me die,
But you keep me close to you
Afraid to let me fly,
I know there aren't many things
I could ever do,
to make you feel the pains you
given me and the slaves,
Because I can truly say,
You know pain,
that old ancient day
has cut you deep that you can’t
see what you are doing to me,
Someone had taken your heart,
but has never truly set you free,
so, you are given me the pains
that someone else given you,
when you hurt me so badly,
you make me feel I'm going to die,
oh, why do you like to see me cry?
You love to watch me bleed,
but deep within me
I’m still very strong,
even when you gave me the pains
of your past,
you broke me down like glass.

Judy Emery © 2010
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

People would always' ask me;
"Why do you live in the Past?"
And this is what I say:
"I  there is still have hidden treasures that are yet needed to find."
They looked at me like I was out of my mind.

-Judy Emery © 2020
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

He Phantoms My Life
Most wild is he
who haunts me
he phantoms all my nights
while he takes over my Life
he doesn't play nice
Every September
I start to remember all his words
his cold voice
echos through my mind
most of the time
the horror of his touch
his eyes of darkness
looking deep within the mine
while he was on top of me
his breath of death
was all over me
he terrifies me
his voice runs deep
into my mind
just the thoughts of him
brings me down
he has destroyed
all that I had Love'd
when he is angry
he clamps his fist to hit the wall
while he pushes me down the hall
he would tell me all kinds of things
just to bring me down in pains
he cuts at my soul
he never lets me go
he crushes my spirit
while he walks around bold
when it comes to Love
he has to run
he holds the crown of darkness
this is all he knows
his frivolous moods
keeps me on the blues
he provokes
he cast evil upon all
that comes around
his deep laughter is like thunder
when he is angry
his eyes start to twitch
he indulges more pains my way
Oh, here comes the rain
I start to fall down
to the wet ground
while my body starts to tremble
while coldness makes its way
into my body
I start to cry
but only he is by my side
Dark Angel is his name
the one that cast all blames my way
he treasurers all my tears
he loves to give me fears
every September
will always be remembered.

Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Death was never a place I wanted to see you in nothing changed my love for you stayed the same, but, then something truly has. In silence, I still call out your name.

- Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My playmate is the ink in my pen
that pushes along on poetic paper.

Judy Emery © 2020
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

You took my heart and beat it to the ground I feel you're love-hate, I feel the cuts eating at my dulcet heart making it cold, please let go.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

When the evening is spread out against the Autumn sky. Let us bless our love by giving it to the master of it with delight. Let our pleasures of love be wrapped in the stars with the moon in beautiful late June. Let us closely lock our selves together in arms let this love of ours- carriers on too the highest towers. Let our hearts be just one design let it be a token of ever after.

- Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The whole art of versification,
the whole psychology of poetic rhythm,
the play's along with time.
Life is the volume of a poetic manual
poetic Rhythm that plays in the heart and mind
Various trials have been played in a lifetime.
The poetic heart makes a spark to
write his poetic lines of Rhythm for the world to read
To express where poetic life has been.
I am poetic at heart
with a deep poetic spark of the dark,
sometimes I write when my heart was made to bleed.
It's like my poetic music to my soul,
only a poetic would know what my heart has to hold,
I speak out in poetic Rhythm of my blues,
like a nasty Flu lost without You.
I'm outside looking at a theme
somehow it got me thinking about you,
I'm sitting, thinking, breathing
with an Ink pen in my hand
I sip at the life of the could bees of my dreams.
What a nightmare my poetic heart scream,
I must write it down in silk Ink
I could get up and walk away from my pains
But then I would lose the Rhyme of the time
of things, I could say about my poetic heartbreak.
So I sit down and cry my poetic lines
But it is like chasing dreams,
Shadows of a past that keep hunting at me,
I am a Poet at heart and soul,
Beaten down as I go,
I am not Rich, yet I am Poor,
I don't look into someones else dreams,
I've lived my own sometimes without a home,
I lost yet I have won in the long run
Because every line I write will last a lifetime.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

My eyes to the memory of what I once have known he looks deep within my soul and won't let go. He sees my face of much pain he gave burning my soul of the darkness of his lost ways. He feels no trace of what love embraced Dark Angel only knows is the poison roots he feeds on the minds of the innocent when he kills is like a run to him within a hot flashing through the body enveloping to his brain taken over the mind so that one would lose its control. Dark Angel relives what he has done over and over in his mind what he has done to **** one's soul. The pain Dark Angel brings into one's life will never end without some kinda fight and lose one's life slicing and dicing the heart and mine is what Dark Angel. It does best until there is nothing left not caring what words he spoke. The temptation of your memory is what he feeds on just another wound to add to the collection, choosing your soul to make you lose all control of what is right in your life he will break you down and walk you around like some kinda clown that gets pushed around. I'm your nightmare of ever dream of dreams Dark Angel sings.

- Judy Emery © 1979
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Possessed they said
look at how she walks in beauty
everyone calls her a cutie
she is rare
yet no one cares
they just want to take
what isn't theirs,
every word she has ever spoken
some called them tokens
a spell that she is trying to cast
the town looks at her like rats
But Moonlight fights their attacks
by keeping her trust in Jehovah God
no matter the cost.

Judy Emery © 2016
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I proceeded to have these darken dreams
I remember that old sad night I made you cry
I had always wanted to say I am sorry
But you just walked away with anger in your eyes,
I had been wondering did your feelings change
after all these years?

As I sleep I fall deep within a darken dream
I hear a very loud voice
crying out to me on darkening seas
saying you would like to go over the pains
that is when it started to rain,

You tell me time can heal but your heart
but mine hasn't maned
dark cuts remain deep inside my soul
I have thought about all the things we once did
who we were when it came to Love,

we were so young thinking love would never end
but that is only a lie to pass on in time,
The voice in my dream kept talking to me
I can still feel the love we once had,

but I feel more pain knowing you left me
my world fell deep right at my feet,
so, I will haunt you in your dreams
even if we are millions of miles apart
you cut my heart as the voice had end
I have woken up in tears again.

Judy Emery © 1987
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I feel like his puppet as he keeps pulling on my emotional strings in these painful darken dreams.

-Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I can't keep feeling this away
with all this strife and pains
I can't even remember
last December
I feel like a puppet with strings
in many darken dreams
Dark Angel is so mean
I always hear screams
dancing around like clowns
in an old evil town
with their face upon the ground
praying to be found
they are in so many pains
they could no longer
remember their names
I feel like a puppet with strings
in darken dreams
I can hear Dark Angel laughing
in his evil ways
while his words wring in my ears
pulling on my strings
I began to scream
while he starts to cut on me
my heart is bleeding out
into the sea of dreams.

- Judy Emery © 1985
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Puppet On Strings
I can't keep feeling this away
with all this strife and pains
I can't even remember
last December
I feel like a puppet with strings
in many darken dreams
Dark Angel is so mean
I always hear screams
dancing around like clowns
in an old evil town
with their face upon the ground
praying to be found
they are in so many pains
they could no longer
remember their names
I feel like a puppet with strings
in darken dreams
I can hear Dark Angel laughing
in his evil ways
while his words ring in my ears
pulling on my strings
I began to scream
while he starts to cut on me
my heart is bleeding out
into the sea of dreams.

Judy Emery © 1985
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

How are you feeling my dear?
you look so peal
you look like hell
The day has had its way with both of us
you don't do as I command
so get full punishment
oh, I've gone out of my way to make you stay
you will never be free of me
you think you feel the pains of me
Oh, grad doll you haven't seen anything yet
I cry out why do you make me feel like this
pain I'm feeling as I am going to die
I was a fool to think someday you could ever love me
and just maybe you would come around
and see the pain you are putting me in
but that is what you love
I'm not thinking that about you
I don't want to ever be like you
Because you see at one time I loved you
but now I see you are not what you seem
You are my mystery to me
Sometimes I just want to scream
but that would do me no good
I am your ragdoll you like to play with
I think you should just go away
please take your hands off of me
I don't want your nasty kisses
you are drunk and mean
There's no necessity for you to stay
please just go away
next time you come around my way
forget it I don't want to play
then you slapped me on my face
just to see me cry
then you tell me your sorry
you don't want to fight
then you promise tomorrow will be better
just wait and see when he puts me back into his head.

- Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

It is true and painful learning of a raging past
that seems to last because it kept coming back
I was always under attack,-
those strong raging storm,
I had to learn to remain alive,
we all have a wretched past,
some speak out about it,
but so many stays in the storm,
But for as miserable as it was for me
I still chose to overcome it and write stories.

Judy Emery © 2019
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Into late night thoughts, my mind so often drifts to place I once had been that is no sin. But my silence reveals so much more in the majority of the lying eyes. I once had crossed the border of true love summer was once a beautiful thing to see way before autumn and its leaves.
My eyes do look around the drawbridge of time when the moon came out too soon. oh, rain thoughts herald into my mind wishing I was back in that time when true love was on my side. Now all I can see is the pains of rainswept lands that are all around me where tears of ancient memories will never erase from the land of time when love was with me. I will always hold the visions of hope where the light shines through my eyes just to let me know I shell never let go, even when Dark Angel messes with my life.
Memories are sandless of true developments of understandings of ancient memories. I had freed myself every time I think of true love
but now I hold silence beyond intellectual dignity that weeps rainswept pains that reman over me.

- Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Lost, hurt so cut up  
Puzzled the way my life has been  
I had been gazing out my bedroom  
Window thinking about the hurt  
Of what Dark Angel gave.
I looked and what did I see and ''Ravens'',
Looking back at me,
His eyes so little like a spark shining in
That cold darken the sky,
His beaded yellow eyes had been looking me  
Up and down,
I pondered over and over in my mind,
What did the ''Raven'' see when it was looking  
back at me,
Did it see all the pains that were in my eyes?
The cuts of the night that had been cut in  
Deep wounds of Dark Angel's knife,
From my bleeding heart that is all over my
Bedroom floor.
Did the ''Ravens'' see the same story of he  
When he was looking at me.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I sit upon my bed to read the letter of your words that soon brought me in tears that lasted for years, the mosquitoes won't leave me alone they danced around the candlelight. I stretch out my legs and feet, it wasn't long I had fallen into sleep having dreams.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Out of pure Love from heaven above
I hunt these sadden hills
to reclaim the history of My true God

If I had known the heartaches that
were coming my way
I would have jump down and start to
pray with no end

Down this road of History is cold
and evil It is called Wormwood
Why would I want to waste my days in lies?

To wash me away in the night
This walk is the time of the Rock
The gleaming of His heart came to mine

The bleach softens bones
of the ancient Knights lay in High places
the words they had held in their souls
of the age of long ago;

Speaks out on High with the wind
Who are these coming in black
Why are they looking down on me with Lies?
You can see it in their eyes

They're alarming with shame and blame
They are written down in hast of the dark side
Pebbles moves within the wind like a great boon

Like a dream of a gift from God telling me not
to give up my Faith
Hold on and never let the Dark of Lies take me down
I will walk in the History of righteous men.

Judy Emery © 1980

The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Out of pure Love from heaven above
I hunt these sadden hills
to reclaim the history of My true God
If I had known the heartaches that
was coming my way
I would have jump down and start to
pray with no end
Down this road of History is cold
and evil It is called Wormwood
Why would I want to waste my days in lies?
To wash me away in the night
This walk is the time of the Rock
The gleaming of His heart came to mine
The bleach softens bones
of the ancient Knights lay in High places
the words they had held in their souls
of the age of long ago;
Speaks out on High with the wind
Who are these coming in black
Why are they looking down on me with Lies?
You can see it in their eyes
They're alarming with shame and blame
They are written down in hast of the dark side
Pebbles moves within the wind like a great boon
Like a dream of a gift from God telling me not
to give up my Faith
Hold on and never let the Dark of Lies take me down
I will walk in the History of righteous men.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Now, all those red roses are dead, I am resting in my bed hoping one day love will return and give my life a true meaning again.


- Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, how I wish the color would never fade,
But with time dark days have taken love away,
The sky started turning gray,
Oh, how my world
I lived felt much pain,
The rain would never end,
The roses in the garden lost its color
The roots were no longer strong
The rain rotten the roots,
Now, all the beauty of the red roses
Turned into black rose dust;
When the valley was once green
I would see the colors of red, white and pink,
That was a delight to my eyes,
But again, that was one love was on my side,
Oh, how love made me fill so alive;
Like I was sleeping and dreaming
Walking on red roses all at once!
But that was ancient ago,
Now, all the red roses are dead,
And I am resting in my bed;
Hoping one day love will return
and give my life a true meaning again,
Where the red roses will fill the valley
with its Beauty, again.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, how I can see your darkness looking back at me, your angry holds a story that needs to be told of something that happened ancient years ago. Your eyes were like the sea the reflection of your pains entered deep within my soul, cutting away at my heart
shattered all the emotions you left me broken down.

All your friends are evil warriors that like to **** all that is good,
fighting for selfishness and greed you think pain is love because love had once made you bleed one night while I was home alone in my bed asleep. You, Dark Angel, came into my mind given me darken dreams.

Your words were deadly like an old sad song of true Gothic pains
under a big velvet moon that was hanging down in gloom, I fell deep into your icy arms while you cared me on into a darken room,
your embrace made me shiver my spine felt like it was about to break.

Oh, how you make my body ache, when you first looked inside my eyes I started to cry the pains were so deep. It burned in my mind you held me so tight like we had known each other all our lives, your hunger for me started making me feel even more uneasy.

It got so hard to tell you to let me go, fighting against all that I have known that what we have is truly wrong. Dark Angel would tell me all kinds of things just to make me think, making me question what is right from what is wrong. This is one of Dark Angels way
to take control over me while I dream he would touch me with his cold wrinkled hands.

He kissed my lips as if he was taking away from my last breath, he sent to my mind fear making my heart race. Oh, how my body ached, he loved to see me cry he would hold me tight when I would glance at him. I would see his eyes change with mine,
he acts as if he was trying to read my thoughts.

But all I felt was a disguise so helpless, powerless, he would charm me with a smile like he truly loved me as if he was bewitched
of something of long ago a story of darkness a love that once ends.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I tried so hard to change my ways
but in my mind is like the weather
when I live a life of gloom
this life doesn't make my heartbeat
like it once used to,
my life is somewhat verisimilitude
when it comes to living a life in dreams
what does all of this mean?
I have been waiting for a sign
to let me know I will be fine
while Dark Angel saving all his lines
who is right when you live from Light
I know I must stay strong and not let hate
become my fate, this will not save anyone
this I truly know hostile ways will never
save it will only strain one's ways
my mind is running like crazy
while my body is growing in pain
my spirit stands in faith
even when I am growing weak
feeling locked away in Darken Dreams  
I will never let Dark Angel
take that away from me even though
he stands strong in darkness poisoning minds
my body may fall and I may go down
like a flu virus, I need to know
My God is still there with me
shining his Light on me
and never leave me
because Dark Angel is a virus that
makes things so hard to define.

Judy Emery © 1986
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

REVELATION IS AT HAND!

" Happy is he who reads aloud and those
who hear the words of the prophecy,
and who observe the things written in it:
for the appointed time is near."
                       -Revelation 1:3

Where my love would you like me to go,
In a world that is way too cold for my soul,
You left me out to bleed for all to see,
in the threads of my being,
You are no longer who I thought you once were,
You are something that makes me scream,
I walk alone upon the snow,
by your throne, you call home,
in ripple tears, you gave me tears,
Winter is stronger these day’s
the snow is all over the place,
But I keep my faith,
even in this darkened place,
I sit on a bench at the park
thinking long and hard,
watching the snowflakes fall,
on wet grounds,
I could hear that old crying wind
calling at me again, to a sad state of mind,
of you and I, where you always made me cry,
you are toxic to my mind,
the thoughts of you give so many pains,
Oh, how you tried to make me lose faith
in what I know is right in Gods eyes,
you did me so wrong, made life a toxic waste,
You trashed my name,
you have beaten down my faith,
you always made me bleed
like the pouring sea,
Oh, how I feel I can no longer breathe,
Lost in so much puzzlement about
What it is you’re going to do next,

Judy Emery © 1988
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I have danced in the bed of ruse dust
where lust was always made,
I found myself playing the hand that Dark Angel gave,
where I patiently waited in a darkened room,
holding on to my heart praying I never lose it,
every summer of late June,
I could see the sky innovation so quickly
into that cold September, I will always remember,
while the night slowly moved along,
my mind played back that sad old song,
while I counted the days of the torment he gave
I could see all those times you had given me roses
they turned black into rose dust,
It was like the Universe started changing
to a place of darkness where love could never shine through,
I remember his eyes while I walked away,
Oh, the pain he gave to me out into that cold September rain,
My life never was the same;
I thought maybe love will shine its light on me,
But nothing came my way but only darken dreams,
Oh, how he made me scream,
things are never what they seem,
I would always take many walks by the sea,
Dark Angel names the sea after me,
the moon he names too,
I could always feel his eyes upon me,
I would look around but I could never see him,
But I know he near because he brings on fear,
he is always following me,
every time he looks at me, I could tell he has
no care in his eyes for anything,
his heart is cold as ice and he isn’t very nice,
at times, he surprises me when he gives me roses,
then he would say; Moonlight give you heart to me!
Shed your tears and let them fall,
I will drink them up like white wine,
Come Moonlight, let me see you care for me,
then he would whisper in my ear, I will always be your king
you will always be my queen in darken dreams,
you will never escape me;
then I looked at him saying I could never give my heart
to slander as you,
Oh, how the angry wind started to cry at me again,
Then Dark Angel, taken hold of my hands,
Then we started dancing upon the wet blood-stained sand,
while he started giving out his commands,
the rain started pouring down,
the sea started making weird sounds,
that is when I had fallen into the arms of he
the one who calls himself my king.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I have a dark side of me
I don’t like to see;
It truly masks everything about me,
I feel the warmth of the wind
dancing upon my ivory skin,
drying up my tears from my colored eyes,
while my own royal memories
come rushing back to me
like a wildfire that could never be put out,
I hold my head up high
Showing others, I am just fine,
I am a goddess in true fashion
My own father handed down to me,
He is and was the king of the land
My mother the true goddess of beauty and love,
It was like they were both sent from heaven
But again, what do I know,
While time was only a chapter in their life book
Now I have many pages I must also fill
For the world to read all about me,
Life wasn’t all that easy;
Like others would think
just because I had royalties,
my life was never easy,
I felt a part of me had been lost for sometime
And I try hard to find out what it is
That has been taken from me,
In my years, I come to face most of my fears,
But something of long ago
was always eating away at my soul,
I remember someone given me a drink
like a potion to help me sleep;
that’s when I started having all those bad dreams.
that when I would hear something evil
crying out to me in the desert wind.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

As rumors fly on high
and miss the New York stars
the words hit hearts,

Rumors all over town
the envy eyes
blasted my name out
with so much hast,

Gossip is an old game
to make one lose their way
delicious and dangerous lies
the scandal of precious secrets,

Hold in your mind
your dangerous heart could not
stop the heated up sparks
of the oldest lines of lies,

Old rumors fly on high
to the envy eyes
of the hater's smile
with daggers to your heart,

Rumors that **** the spirit
it will take you down quick
not one word do they miss.

Judy  Emery © 1979
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

My love for you will run deep
Like the Mediterranean Sea
Your love in the dark that is killing me  
You have taken all my strength from me  
Your love is lukewarm
I was always loyal to You
I never cheated on You
I was always there to hold you when you sleep
I even watch your dream
You are always about you and your needs  
You gave me lies
and false dreams of what love could be
Never had I made you doubt my love for you    
I never broke a promise I made to you
I was always true even when
you cut my heart in two  
But only you did all those bad things to me
And even called me Nona of your dreams  
Your accomplishments were you with me
the woman of your dreams
Your true happiness
You always told me God gave you an angel
and her name is Lilly  
But your love hurts so much it made my heart
bleed many seas
I want you to never suffer nor cry
You told me You had Loved once before
but that love had faded
You never Love anyone as You had Loved me
I was the best thing in your Life
You even said I was the gift from God
but I must ask which one is that
I promise I won't allow anyone in my heart
because you already killed it
That promise is true  
You have me running on confused  
Love is a word I will always fear
The turning of your voice
the deepness in your brown eyes tells so many lies
that runs in my mind
Something I want to let go  
I hope you understand why I want you to
move on without me  
I want you to stop hurting my life  
You make my life feel like I'm a failure.

Poetic Judy Emery © 1998
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery