Magic women to stop their pains, Oh, how it made me scream to see all these things in darken dreams, the old dead sea was anger, as it could be in a storm that is brewing, rain of tears are falling frogs, are hopping trees are swaying into the night, Oh, how I held on for the ride I hold on to my soul but still a part of me let go, things are getting so out of control.


Judy Emery © 1978
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Magnificently unprepared for what is yet to come.
Judy Emery © 2019
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

When I was just your little girl
I always had around me
was malicious people
always jealous of my beauty
thy would go around town
talking all kinds of trash
they would call me names
just to make them feel good
what a shame to casting all kinds of blames,
When I had got older
I was much stronger
and I stood up for myself
I started remembering all their names
that had given me so many pains
but I never cast any hate their way
because they had to see their own self in the mirror
and face their own fears each and every day
their old friends just linked together
making all kinds of trouble in that old small town
but I never let them burst my bubble
no way will I let them bring me down
into their own shame of lies
I have my own life
I've seen so many things that have given me
darken dreams of pains you would never believe
rains of sorrow that has no end
my life became so gray on that cold September day
by the time December made its way
I felt I was in a grave
I had lost my faith when it comes to love
I come to that old garden of pains
and that is where my heart stayed
around me are falling leaves of memories
that withered deep within my mind
this pain moved deeper and deeper in my heart
I felt I could no longer breath
when I start to think about the loss of my loved ones
It became hard for me to move on in my life
but then I start to think about those malicious people
and I started to think
where they in pain too?
is that why they act the way they do.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

The volume is being written the series of Dark Angel and Moonlight, who seeks to uncover the secrets of her faith
Dark Angel the darkness of lies haunts her day and night. He is the angel of ancient darkness of the lost manuscripts the carved in the hate all over the place of a love gone bad Dark Angel losses his mind.A manuscript of his kind has been written to turn the faith of true light of true love to a nasty dark lies, he makes traps to draw in his victims. It's true when love can make one blind the image of evil thoughts come to the plots when the heart has been broken:
The cuts get deeper at one's heart love is forever lost, Dark Angel; finds love is more complicated than he could have ever known true love never dyes nor ever grows old. Dark Angel a scanners manuscript of his own of all his lies and traps. He had played so many times on Moonlights mind, the head games that had been eating at her soul to beat her down. But he could never take her true vision of the higher ground of true nature of love.

- Judy Emery © 1999
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I have many pages I must keep on writing what my life is being brought out to me in what I see, what I feel, and what makes me truly ill. I love to write the good and the bad because this is the way life moves, this is what it breathes and this is what I bleed in ink for the whole world to read all about me, life wasn’t all that easy like others would have thought and there is always a plot.


Judy Emery © 2019
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Far away upon darken the land

cries of an unknown making way

calling out for a medicine woman

to take way pains calling out names

but all they get is the rain,

Cold darkness whirls slowly

setting the fog of shame

Days are nights

and the nights are days

but the pains never fades away,

Oh medicine woman will you

find a way to take away all this pain?

she looks deep into the eyes that weep

she cast her spells and gave them hell

the lost people feel down at her feet

crying out in need,

But the old medicine women

acts so mean to all how could see

drink and drop down to the old ***

she put her medicine into it

she put birds feet and eyes

the tongue of lies

frogs and bugs and lugs

and she put a little black box of rose dust,

And that is when they all began to fuss

they started dancing around

like beaten up clowns

they didn't feel much pain until

the spell was over

The medicine woman started to cry out

water, water at your feet

silence is what you will be,

Silence is what she cast

no more words of pains

but the rain made its way another day

dreams that plagued the spirits

deeper into darkening dreams

Oh, medicine woman, you are no friend

you are at your end so hold your tongue

that is when Dark Angel stood up

out from the ashes of burnt rose dust,

Then the medicine woman

cast her spell saying to Dark Angel

you are dark and evil

that has fallen from ancient heavens

you had been cast to the sea

for your soul to bleed

so now remove your eyes off of me

and let me free while she speaks

Dark Angel has taken her down

into the cocking *** of spells

and given her hell

that ringed the old black bell.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Ships seal out on the Mediterranean Sea where little boats sink deep
as the wickedness weep into the night casting so much fright.

-Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Her ruby Eye of Medusa casting her spells
all over the land of shipwrecked souls
Medusa sings on hearing winds in the night
why they sleep she seeks to take on her attack
like a thief in the shadows of light.
Her soul is cold:
She is designed with clutching gamed
controlling is her game to take lost souls in
She is so the protagonist
her story that never ends to man.
A pit of lies she holds in her eyes
she is the goddess of the nights
A goddess of true darkness of the stone
she stands alone on her ****** thrown
to take this dark world on that she holds.
She is the Venus in her lover's eyes
that looks upon her beauty in her eyes
this old darken world craves the need to
find her. she will have her way
just look in her dark beautiful ruby eyes
she will cast her spell and make you of stone.
The people that had heard of her story
the raft of the Medusa with the snake hair
will cast her poison everywhere
who dears to drawn near.
Throughout the house of stone
You will see her eyes looking upon
her evil is the menace of her home
Medusa looks were known to cast a spell
to turn her lovers into stone.
A ***** dire reversion  they all felt
in her eyes, they lie with a deep pleasure that
makes mans heart melt for her
the waters below all around her home her lover
will be her predecease stone.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The valleys are now withered
the days are colder
the mind is bolder
to the holder
the last rose of summer
had fallen to the garden of time
the blooms of color
lost their luster of beauty
the leaves are all on the ground
the wind blows them around
making all kinds of sounds
I remember a place
where I once use to swing
it was a beautiful thing
in late spring
when love was with me
when life was going bright
but that had all faded away
now all I have is the memories.

Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Sometimes at night, I cry for you
I look to the midnight sky
the stars look like shining teardrops
the more I look at them the more
My memories come back to when we were so in love.
Just thinking back makes me smile in my heart, you will always be
the more I think about you I start missing you.
Then I had to ask myself 'why? '
Did you hurt me like you did leave me so wounded of you not knowing what is true and what was lies?
'Why do I love you? '
I think and smile,
Maybe because I know what we once had felt so right
at that time in our lives
You were a very big part of me.
My list could run on for a mile
The whisper of your voice still runs in my mind
The warmth of your love and touch of your hands
your kiss so sweet so true.
So many little things that had said so much to me
We held on to what we called love
We sing to each other even at the clubs
we were so in Love this anyone could see.
The song we have sung to each other
was called your still the one
your eyes just shine within the mine
the deeper we looked within the eyes of each other.
You could see the love we have for one another
Made me love you so much more
The way you support me
Even in my silly  ways
The way that you care for me when I was sick.
Or got out of hand,
You were there for me even when I was blue over you
You showed me such devotion
The way that your kiss
Fills me with desire
how you held me in so much passion.
The way your eyes shine like the stars in the night
when you look at me it felt so right
You act as you were the ''Prince'' and I was your ''Queen''
When you look at me
my world felt so safe at the time when you were still mine.
My love for you was so strong
I was so Lost in you forever in love
so I had thought, Your love was the same for me
Oh how wrong you are to hurt me as you did
My world changed in a heartbeat,
When I had found out your love was so untrue.
I believed in you
I believe what we had was true
The way that I feel When you are by my side
A sense of completeness with an overflowing pride
The dreams that I dream had always involved you.
The possibilities that I could see
The things that we can do and become
but I see our love was only a lies
inside my heart, I weep
inside my soul, I had lost that part of me
You were that very important part of me.

-Judy Emery © 1993
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I had to take a deep breath and walk away from all of this your starting to mess with my mind another time, I’m starting to feel old wounds all over again.

- Judy Emery © 2011
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Me without you in my life  
Is like a leafless fall
This would be my world so quiet
so lost without you
So alone with no one to hold
my life would be so cold-
A lost soul with no hope with no love
A snow winter without you to keep me warm  
A flowerless spring with no green in spring  
Here was trouble seems to always find
Me and makes me blue  
Me without you I will stay confused
like a boat without water to take afloat  
It is like a colorless rainbow a sunless day.
A starless night with no hope of love
Dead winds on a sleepless night  
Me without you I would dye
Being without you.
Is like the ocean without a wave
the beach without sand
and a flameless fire
A doubtful night of dreams of hurt  
And badness on my mind wondering  
What you are doing all the time without  
Me holding at night  
Me without you
Is like a book without words
without pages
A man without a face,
and a child with no name
a love that never came
All I would have is the rain
I am tired of tears I need laughter  
I need to feel your love
I need a body to hold me all NIGHT!
Do I need to say more?

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, dear ancient moon this pain came to me wat too soon, Look at what has been done under the dark heavens where you shine your doom in late June. What have I done for my soul to turn so cold? I feel so lost and confused about what I am seeing and feeling all at once like something is dividing is my soul from light to darkness. like something our someone is taken control over me.

Old midsummer moon, I know you have seen the show that happened long ago, only we will ever know how this story goes, where so many are out just to see me fall like those fallen stars that have been cast from the heavens right along with the fallen of angels as they are making war.

Oh, the traps they set for me, Aww! what my eyes do see, the visions of you stand so clearly to me, as the angels fall hard into the see,  Oh, the midsummer moon you shine your beauty in my eyes
and that is where you will always be a big part of me. as the wind keeps crying out to me in its own agony, moving back and forth over the angry seas of darken dreams.

A new year of his lies for me to see with the eyes of a moon
of that unusual violent in midsummer of June, casting its beauty across the seas while the stars blink in the heart of doom, the old sea has resounded over the castle where the black magic woman
plays her games with Dark Angel in rage.

Oh, how I see the foreigners mask faces standing over me, dancing and crying calling out names like they are insane, casting blame my way to make me feel so ashamed, my poor body feels this scorching of pain, while it is starting to rain.  They are all acting so crazy as they crawl and fall rolling around making all kinds of worn down sounds.

Then they start falling some more on the wet ground jumping up and down like frogs in the fog, this is something I have never seen before, then it wasn't long before the storm moving the trees and the waves upon the seas, that is when they started crying out t
to the black magic, woman to please stop the pain that she put upon her slaves.

Dark Angel started to laugh like a painful shout of thunder, then that started making me wonder, what is going to happen next?  Soon after all of that, I started feeling attacked behind my back, so I started fighting those slaves back. they started crying for dark Angel on hands and knees saying look what she has done to me.

**** us please set us free, Oh, that is when I started holding my stomach  I started crying out like them, I  was starting to get very sick, then they have seen how my eyes started to change, and they know deep within I have more control over them. They looked at each other not understanding why I didn't do anything to them yet?

Soon they place a moonstone was placed upon my beast, and down my stomach, legs.  then both of them, the Magic woman and Dark Angel started asking me what is it you see? my eyes rolled back while they attacked, but I had never given them any words to feed on. But I did cry out so much pain on that midsummer fright that shined deep into my eyes, but that was no surprise.


- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Mirror of time
I can see you at all times
you are apart of my mind
holding the pains of yesterdays
I can see the eyes of me
looking back deep within my soul
to everything I know of long ago
When I walk over to the mirror
that stands so tall in my darkened room
I see the lies of he that was once with me
o how that made my heart bleed
like the rushing red sea
I find myself going over and over
each lying words that he would tell me
My tears would roll down from my eyes
down on my face of yesterdays
I keep on looking in the mirror of time
just to see he eyes looking deep within mine
I hold in my heart and mind
so much regrets ;
I don't have the words I truly want to say
I feel as if time had stopped and left me marked
deep down in my heart,
I could see his eyes looking over me
while he laughs as I cry
while he cycles pains in my mind
I could still feel he ever touch
o how I hate that so much,
I go down on my knees
while my heart bleeds
while my own eyes look back at me
in the mirror of time
battling away on my faith
like I have been locked away in a cage
like a bird hoping to be free
into the mirror, I did see
Angel of love locking back at me
the light that shines so bright
gave me hope for better days.

Judy Emery © 1992
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I like you

Yet I Love you

Life is a beautiful gift

the sweet smell of springs beauty

the sky is so ever blue

that gets me to think about you,

On January

I know is the month of your birthday

and on the land is where you once stood

but now all that is just a memory

my blood builds up just knowing you are gone,

I at times find myself laughing at things

you use to do to make me smile when I was a kid

Mom most of the time you stay on my mind

I look through the window of time

just where I could see you again

I miss You

Yet I love you more then any words can ever be written,

Through my eyes will always be tears

I believe this old world is very beautiful

but the hate and the lies and all the crimes

make this world a darken place

that makes the good go bad

This makes me so sad

my own veins don't end in me you see

God is the only one that could set me free,

Mom, I miss you so very much

I always had wondered what it would have been like

if we were close

what would we had talked about

what would we had been doing

But life was never that nice

I struggle most of the time living life without you

even though I didn't want too

Mom I will always love you.


- Judy Emery © 2016
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Moonlight dances under the moonbeam sky,
whereas the stars did shine into her eyes.

Judy Emery © 1998
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

MOONCHILD

A sip of coffee, while I watch the moon looking back at me in the years of the '70s and '80s. Just call me moonchild poetic Judy Emery.

Judy Emery © 2019
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Moonlight come back don't run or he will attack.
that's how he fights back, he feeds on your fears,
he loves to bring you down in tears.

Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Moonlight dances under the moonbeam sky,
whereas the stars did shine into her eyes.
She walks in her own beauty,-
as life clings to her.


-Judy Emery © 1998
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Moonlight Don't Run From Your Past
Moonlight don't run from your past
stand strong and never let go
In life there are people
that will Love you or Hate you
that will hurt you
and cause you so much pain
You must learn to forgive
even if it is so hard to forget
don't let your heart grow cold
this is what Dark Angel wants you to do
he wants to take over you
hold on and never lose sight
to what shines into your eyes
your pains of long ago
hold a story of its own looking back
to your dark beaten past
is breaking the glass that held the pains back
you don't want this old darkness in your life
so let it all go don't let the darkness take hold
the past will only bring you back
to the pains of yesterday’s rain
would lead you back into the life of coldness
of the darkness of old pains of sins
of its dirtiness that has taken away sweetness
In life there are mistakes you will make
but you must face them
You must learn from all your wrongs
grow from them let them go
never let the darkness take control
In life, there are so many regrets
you must learn to leave the past behind
realize it is something you can't change
Moonlight let go of the pain
and dance in the rain
You don't need the rain of darkness
to burn like acid in your heart
In life there are people
you will lose forever
That you can't have back
you must learn to let go and keep moving on
Please never hang on to the lies of Dark Angel
If you do you will be lost in darken dreams
you will always feel the pains
of yesterday’s heartbreaks
in a world of true  pains
rain will fall Like tears
you will always feel the cuts
that marks up your heart
you will be lost in the coldness of fears
you must learn to come out of darkness
take the challenges and grow stronger
If you don't
Dark Angel will take over
In life, fear will always be near
that will hold you
back from what you want
But then you should know
that is a trap to keep you lost
in darken dreams
things will never be as they seem
You must learn to fight
for what is right
in Jehovah's eyes
take hold of the courage
of your faith, you have within
Don't look back to sin
Jehovah knows the heart
He holds your life in his hands as long
as you Moonlight don't give in
To Dark Angel sin's
Dark Angel has to give is all sin
of his darkness to internal death
When Jehovah comes to destroy all evil
Let Jehovah holds the key to your future
Only he knows your heart and your weakness
But weakness leads off to a darkened path
Jehovah sees everything and knows everything
Everything in life really does happen for a reason
Because of Jehovah God
is the reason for your faith and your life
Derek thank you for going over everything
I know my testing is on its way
I will keep my prayers going
to keep my mind
right to not look back to my darken past
Goodbye Derek my faithful friend

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Moonlight is a goddess
she sits in many paintings
where the storms are raging
her eyes are gray-blue
but they change with her moods
they are like the moon
She is a true goddess in many eyes
they will never leave her side
she seeks for peace
for one day to be free
she waits for that day
when true love comes her way
she is still young
yet growing old
she is the story
that will always be told
she is the goddess
that stand so bold
of long ago
she has once been loved
and will always be
she is written down in history
but locked away into darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 1985
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Moonlight has once been loved and will always be written down in the history of his heart that kept her locked away into darkening of dreams.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Silent is in the cold chilly air,
While Moonlight takes her ride
Upon her favorite horse,
she calls ‘’ Tamela,’’ which means
like to control everyone within
its own influence,

she riding and galloping around the castle
looking at the beauty of the land,
this beauty had no words, so breathtaking,
but as soon as Moonlight saw Dark Angel
walking her way, she got choked up,
while the heavy winds raged,

ash of rose dust blow into the air,
Oh, Dark Angel never plays fare,
Envy eyes are he, who looks at me,
Always around me every day,
Drops of rain started coming down,

I must always remember everything,
Keep track of his anger, each bladed grass
Has a cut of the stain of blood,
Of another soul that has been taken down,
Dark Angel called out saying it’s time to come in.
Let the slave walk ‘’Tamela,’’ back to the stable,
come in out of the rain,

He takes Moonlights hand to help her get off
Her favorite horse, then she and Dark Angel
Walked very fast back to the castle,
While Brutus was at the door,
reaching for Moonlights shawl.

Judy Emery © 1986
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Moonlight is praised by many, yet hated by those that envy her. She has her famous enemies that had always looked down on her beauty, she is a real cutie. Those evil eyes looking as if they want to hurt her, but sometimes I even think that Moonlight would like to see them try. You don't see those kinda tears anymore in her eyes, yet she does still cry. Moonlight never lets their words of hate stop her from her faith, and she keeps doing what needs to be done. So many have looked at her as if she is weak, but in the long run, they will see how strong she really is.

-Judy Emery © 2020
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Moonlight reveals her pains,
In a world of shame
where fears lay
in the decay of a darkened life,

in the storm of hate
where rage is always near
to all that can hear the noise
where the rain of agony falls,

Oh, flowing tears
upon the Mediterranean Sea
in darken dreams;
where screams of swiftly lies
hold deep into the night,

Oh, velvet moon
you had given bright eye
in late June;
where love has fastened
to a place of faith,

Where the brittle minds
could never find;
where words of hate
comes to the trackless smiling face
that holds frozen emotions
of an ancient time,

the sky became grayer
all hearts have gone numb
walking around dumb
being a ***
crying in an agony of darkness,

where no love could ever be found,
where hearts are all bond;
in a place, you true decay
to all those who have lost their way,
a place to never be found,

in terror, they all did sink
but Moonlight she only has
broken wings in darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Moonlight reveals her pains, fears
in the storm rain flowing tears
upon angry seas
in darken dreams
that makes her scream
Oh, velvet moon
you had given bright eye
in late June ...
when winter made its way
the sky became grayer
all hearts have gone numb
on a darkened throne
where no love to be found
to lift a finger to help one out
in terror, she spoke
while her own faith did sink
she was left with broken wings
in darkening dreams.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Tell me what you see Moonlight and be very kind to me if you know what I mean, or I will have to bring you down to your knees and let the whole town watch you bleed. Now, again Moonlight what do you see when you look me in the eyes? THEN HE smiled and said I do Love you even when I give you so much pain this is the price you Must pay for getting in my way. Love makes the heart weep don't you agree?  I will always make your heart bleed, I know this is what you see. where you can never sleep, but when you do, Oh, Moonlight you will find me. This is the Love I give and this is what you will receive it from me if you are with me.

Judy Emery © 1990
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

While the old birds sing
to an infant night dream,
the ancient world screams in a protest
of lies that keep you trapped in darkness,
the ravens and all the flying creatures
spread their wings in darken dreams,
to find shelter from a nasty storm,
Dark Angel stands in front of a crying crowed
while he speaks very loud,
Saying, who will be the one who will save Jerusalem?
Who will guard you when you speak?
Oh, how the slaves bend their heads between their knees,
will this God save you from me?
Moonlight come to me and tell me what it is you see,
what is your God worth to you?
then Moonlight looked around to a place of confused,
firing in the midst of the crying crowd,
then Moonlight raised her head to the midnight sky,
While she cries, Jehovah is the Light
that shines deep in my eyes,
His love is found running in my blood,
the blood of his begotten son Jesus,
I am here to be tested just as the slaves,
this pain that I feel is the agony you revile,
I see many Prophets standing around in the fields
looking for the ones that are lost sheep’s
to save them from you that makes darken dreams,
Oh, you ancient sinners, look what you have done!
You put others on the run, bloodshed is everywhere,
But you never gave the care,
you gave your soul to the one that is called
the enemy to God,
Dark Angel plays many mind games,
to make you see things his way,
Oh, you slave stand on your own two feet
even in the darkest hours,
you never know when the day is that Jehovah God
Will take his stand to all men and beast,
This is what I see, Is God's eyes are on all who weeps.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I told him to move on
don't wait for me,
I don't want you to,
He said I'll wait for you forever,
I can't ask you to do that,
be happy, live your life,
give your heart to someone else
So, they can give you there's,
I didn't love you the right way
So, that's probably fair,
He said there's only room for you,
I'll wait if I must
because you are worth the wait,
as much as I want to believe him I can't,
there's no guarantee
that we'll be together again,
So, I can't tell you to wait,
that’s selfish of me,
move on with your life,
don't worry about me,
I'm still thinking of you just to let you know,
my heart still beats for you,
I love you,
I got to let you go,
one more thing
that question that you asked me,
did I think you were the one?
Yea I did
like I said time will tell,
If it happens then it happens.
you know who you are.

Judy Emery © 1988
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Come with me and let’s talk about all the what if's  
Stay the night and hold me and make everything alright  
You say the words but you’re playing me
like I was some kind of toy  
It doesn't feel right you holding me tonight  
Your touch wasn't the same
What do you expect me to say when you act this away?  
You know it's just too little late to play more games
You take my hand just to rub me wrong
You are so fake,  
Years had passed I moving on
now you come back just to say  
you've changed
You know your begging don't
fool me like it once did
Because to you, it's just a game
You know it's just too late to come my way
just too play more games
So let me just say get away from
my place and let me be you see  
Your old way's I don't need.  
If you think I will take another night
out just to cry for you  
You are so long gone your just too late
to make my heart change
cause time has made me strong
I see what you are all about so move on
I'm starting to move on
just like the Years that has passed
My heart isn’t attached
I'm going to say this now I am better
now without that sad song and dance
Your chance has come and gone so move along
I have no more I want to say,  
you know deep down you wish
you had never played your cheap games
I hope you can sleep at night  
It's just too little too late for you
to play another time
You have known all the right things to say
to make me look your way  
You say you dream of my face,
You miss all the kisses you had with me
Your nasty way I can live without
But it wasn't enough you wont to see me
all turn around with my knees on the grown  
Praying for all that pain to go away
Now you want to communicate?  
Go find someone else that you can
make cry out night and day
I'm loving myself
I moved on and now I am
making new dreams for me
You got a problem with me  
Don't come asking me for help
because I have other things to think about.  

Judy Emery © 1996
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

My Awaking hours are lost in you  
the twenty million billions of
stars shining on high all over the sky  
The moon holding on to every secret
that was ever made,  
The years have been passing like clock
work, but my heart holds on to the  
memories of you,  
I hold on to the picture of you  
You were only five when you were buried
It was so hard for me to ever truly  
say goodbye,  
This pain had almost taken me with you
but life pulled me back to keep on living
for the world to know about you,
So I put you in the sky where the stars
and the moon can shine upon you,
Why I have been trying to pull the stake
out of my heart,
Every night I look out my window just  
to see your beauty shine back at me  
I start talking to the moon all about you,
I want to say how much I miss you  
I love you so much my grandson  
My beautiful angel of this grandmas life  
Just know I will never say goodbye,
My waking hours wishing I could see you  
again oh how my emotions my heart tremble
my mind hearing you calling my name  
oh here comes the rain.

- Judy Emery © 2008
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

  
Lilly Emery
R.I.P My Grandson Jesse  Alvarez

It's three A.M. where all is asleep
but you and me,- no one's there to see
the little beauty that stars back
as I rock slowly back and forth
My baby boy and me.

His little head is feather- light
tucked up against my chin.
I hold his tiny hand in mine
and stroke his baby's skin.

The old house creaks and groans,
The clock hands creep around
as the ancient moon glows
my son snuggles close to me
as he makes his baby sounds.

I love those quiet hours so much
I cherish every moment
I think Jehovah for this blessing
I store memories within my heart
for lonely nights to come.

All to soon he'll be grown up
his need for me will be gone,
It will be a sad song
yet life must move on,
until then I still have time
for kisses and for a song.

Time for quiet hours like this
With him cuddled in my arm,
Where I wish he'd always stay,
Protected, safe, and warm.

And yet I know the day will come
When this tiny little hand
It will be much bigger than my own.
He'll grow to be a man.

But until then he's mine to love,
With no one here to see
as I rock slowly back and forth
My baby boy and me.

- Judy Emery © 1988
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My body and mind had been battered
My poor heart is shattered with time,
I still waking around scared
Holding on to your words
That kept me fearing you,
In my life, you had taken everything
My hopes even the beauty of love
You give me a world of darkness and pain
You discriminated my name
You give me so much shame
Holding on to all those blames
In the cold September winds
My heart starts to shatter all over again
The snow that is on the ground
Where you once pushed me down
frozen my heart;
the sun doesn’t even shine like it used to
in my life, you’re always standing in between
given me darken dreams;
I’m tired of running from you,
I tried so hard to forget you
I could still hear how you would laugh at me
While you had beaten me down
So far down I didn’t think
My life was worth anything;
You took my young spirt
and made me feel old
Then you left me in a world of darkness,
While I could still feel your eyes on me
Letting me know I will never be free from you,
You kept me on confused
I was afraid to ever cross you
I still hear your words of evil
Telling me will never see love
I will never be loved
I will never be loved
I could hear your laugh while you walked away
Leaving me in a world of pain
My body left out in the pouring rain
While I was bleeding out like ink
It was like I had nothing to live for
All hopes for me had come to its end
I got to the point I didn’t care
About what others think
I didn’t let no one get too close to me
All I know is my soul is still weeping
My spirit is still sinking
But I am still here.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My Beauty Room
I walk into my beauty room
just to find much talk  of all kinds
I tried to be friendly
but it becomes hard
because it is like talking to the dead
to a world that is unkind,
My thoughts truly start to unwind
like the rainbow in the sky
for love and peace
for all to see what beauty means to me
but in this cold old world
I make a place in my Beauty room
a place to beautify me
and all who comes around me,
the unkind is when my life began
to a world of sins and it will
be that way even when I shall grow old
and it may leave me to die in a cold war
but for now, all heated up crowed
need to get out of my space
get out from my face
this is my beauty room
I don't have time for hate.

Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I can hear Dark Angel laughing in his own evil ways while his words ring in my ears pulling on my emotional strings.

-Judy Emery © 2011
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery