I could no longer fool myself into believing someone truly loves me. My heart reviles what it feels that is keeping me so ill, this nightmare is real, I can feel the pains within, I can see things in darken dreams that come to me from another time, where the screams play upon my mind.
I can no longer bear it this loneliness without the existence of what is true and clean to what is right is messing with my mind. This life that I see is the life of a living Hell, where the old rusty bell wrings, Ding, ding ****, life isn't moving along.
Darkness is what makes the heart bleed even upon the mighty seas,
out in the coldness of their empty dreams that come to me in darken dreams. Oh, how my body craves to be loved and free from this painful nightmare that has been handed down to me.
My empty heart needs to belong to what is right, where true love once shined so bright in my life. I had read every book after book
To pass my time to easy my nights but my pains of loneliness still remain.- Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Deception is a part of life that you want to leave behind
Betrayal is its friend of the night that you want to take
Off your mind and let it run in summers breeze so free
Without it just being a dream
If you watch closely to your pains
You will only find many doors you left open
yet you will never be free
The people that gave so much pain's in your life
They’re not different in the end
So let them go
Let go of the pain and let the rain come down
Slam that door as hard as you can and move on in life
You cannot have both so just let go
I know love is bliss
Sadly I will never have a part of this
Just another dream that faded away just as fast
Lost in the moment of one lasting kiss
Something my poor heart miss
Oh this hurts so bad
My heart is taken the beatings that it should never have
Gladsome things are gone washed away in the rain
But there are still some pains that remain
Slamming doors that yet have not came
You are like a song that I will not miss
But when the rain comes I will cry out slamming doors
I need your love today
But then I don't need any more pains from you and all
Those sad lies you tell
I need you now before you go away
Trying to hold on, I know the cause is lost
Does this mean nothing?
I promised you, my heart was crossed in the rain of your pains
I've kept all my promises to you
Can you say the same?
We're losing touch what is true love
You're driving me insane I cannot keep playing your games
Are you so heartless to say you still love me
When I saw you with you know who
You must have me confused
My heart was open, the key was yours
But now all I'm doing is slamming the doors
Walking out of this darken life of your lies
Slamming all the doors.
I hate these childish games
Let the rain pour because I'm slamming this door.

- Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Broken Pieces of me
Full of broken thoughts
You had put me on the spot
don't you see my heart is broken
in million pieces in all different seasons
with darken reasons
I cannot repair what already has been broken
Beneath the stains of time, you will find
my bleeding soul still cries for you
The feelings disappear is in the air
You are with someone else
But I am still right here
Don't you Care?
this is not fare
You're living
I'm dying
with
out
you.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The night was cold
the stars are out
but my heart was sinking fast
while I started thinking about the past
it was autumn when the pains started
the cold wind calling me again,
I could see the pains you gave me
in the cold silence the old velvet moon
hung low in gloom ;
the autumn leaves drooping down
just like the cold breeze,
The stars lite up the sky
while my pains were cutting deep within me
I felt I could no longer breath
every time your memory comes to me
Oh, autumn wind your anger
is making a wild storm
that is brought on panic
that brings Dark Angel near,
Oh, this pain comes to me like a whisper
deep into the autumn night
given me so much fright
broken is my spirit
but to you, Dark Angel was only an item
you put a spell upon the autumn wind
just to whisper your fits of anger time and time again.

Judy Emery © 1998
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

There is no remedy for love but to love  
That is taboo to say I love you,
To wait an hour is long if love be just
Beyond to wait eternity is short if  
Love reward, just because I feel that  
Love from you,
The words rising in me strong and clear  
Oh so real like the sun in the sky that  
Shines so bright is the love I hold in my heart
That is taboo every time I think of you,
I hear the words in love songs of love and me  
Think of us just the way we were dancing in  
The bar singing to each other, You’re still the  
One we had been dancing on,
And the words I love you came to mind like
The rising moon that shine bright on our love  
That night to set our love on high,
I try to say the words never let me go,
But that is all taboo is my love for you,
Till I loved I never lived enough,
Love is a gift from heaven above,
Love is all there is to me,
when it comes,
To us, is all we shall ever know is the love
we hold Taboo could never take  
Control over what is inside of us,
If we love we must never walk in darkness  
I almost broke the silence many, many times
But was held back by the feeling you left me  
In when I saw the look in your eyes,
Our love was only a taboo of lies.

Judy Emery © 2010
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Journey beyond the mission of desire, when the night is still young;
Dark Angel anger was pulled with a motive but then when is he ever does anything without anger. He was a child that swallowed more pain than the love he was forever changed.
He was always judged and looked down on with hate, maybe that was his own fate, judge punished bast on lies than facts he became a broken spirit a bruised soul that had turn darken. His life of a darkened past was like a buried skeleton that became uncovered long after death there is no understanding why his life was dealt like this but there is no way of changing what he knows. Dark Angel had never known love this became difficult into the human art of one's heart. Dark Angel is the seed of all darkness the pain of what was spawn down into his veins, he was always beaten down in the rain. He started seeing all things at once forward and backward of a life unloved. To know love and truth it requires understanding from the beginning of birth but that was never a given he became an orphan and that is the start of his painful life a journey beyond the mission of desire. Dark Angel has extraordinary anger that he calls love.

- Judy Emery © 1979
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

So much of life will pass on by
like a blink of an eye
for a time, the unfaithful will keep
On walking in the way of lies of darkness

But the righteous will keep on looking
to the Light for everlasting
But the unrighteous their day will soon
come to an end

O Jehovah
We know you will defend us from the evil ones
that keeps on fight with us
day and night without cause
they hid their nets for us to fall in

But we keep looking for their treasures of heaven
and for a Paradise earth
We will keep on walking in the true Faith
Of the law of Jehovah God

But the dark and evil ones  
walk with heedless ear and careless eyes
they walk so blind of the way of this darken Life
Oh, Jehovah Your words they Ignored  
Please give me the gift of your ways
always to the Homeless and poor

Put your words deep down in our Hearts like a
The high tower of your law
your shield to our souls
let us spread your words of the true life
To all mankind

Let us open the eyes of the blind
let us teach them Your words of everlasting
Let them see the way of what is right
In your eyes

Look! There are days coming is the
Utterance of Jehovah
Son of man, A watchman is what Jehovah
Made us be
Jesus our Lord showed us at door to door
The haters were trying to knock him down with
their old darken lies

Jesus had warned the wicked ones
that they will Positively die if they do not
change their ways
Oh, Jehovah our God
this lost darken world looks down on us
call us all kind of names,

why they try to put all their lies and shame
on us night and day because we stand for Your name
Your words Jehovah stands true
I will not let them take me down with them
in them darken ways
These feelings I have are the hours of my day

But now I am learning how to live out my life
In doing what is right in Your eyes
Something new runs in my heart and that is
your true Love.

Judy Emery © 2014
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Haunting me in the night cannot carry out what it is trying to tell me I'm starting to feel cold with fear black wings are all I can see over me sighing with words that wounded and cut deep within, you always want to fight in the night making bloodshed. You darken the wings of other angels just because you know time is running out for you. and you keep on fighting me, what does this mean for me? Oh, your lying tongue, your love hurts too much, I want to be free from you and this darken nightmare, you don't play fair. But you really near cared for me so please set me free from all this pain you put me in wet cold lips touching mine kissing at my soul making me cold. Then the dark voice had spoken to me saying no woman should ever have to die in her room alone. Take my hand and fly with me in the night of gloom die in vain of the shamefulness of my love give me your glorious love give me the crown of the true beauty you hold within a Life that you live without darkening sin, let me see the light of true love that shines in your eyes come with me and fly in the night over the velvet moon black wings are taken hold of me, shaking with cold hands touching all over me clinging to every word I had to say.
black wings stay away from me. You are the voice of death I don't want to be apart of your mess so let me rest. Black wings we will never so take your cold body off of me, the darkens voice said we shall be together in spring. When the white wings will be no more
just watch and see when I clip your wings. Then black wings took off to fly in the night to make fright.

- Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

COVID-19
IS LIKE PLAYING PACKMAN  
YOU NEVER KNOW
WHEN YOU'RE GOING TO GET EATEN UP.

Judy Emery © 2020
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

My dark candle is in my window  
Calling out your name in the dark  
You have stolen my heart and I need you,
One day, it all stopped,
No more phone calls from you,
No sending me notes not even a photo  
Of you nothing my heart ran of confused
I needed you but not as much you once  
Said you needed me,
My heart is now falling apart without you
What must I do?
So, I put your candle next to my window to let
You know I miss you so much,
The pain the rain came when someone told
Me you had been dancing with the old  
The lover you had before me,
My poor hear is collapsing with no way out  
Of this pain,
You gave me the dark and taken my heart  
I don't know what to do with my life,
Not knowing the reason why you did this  
to my life,
You scattered my heart all over the place without
A trace but the pain that is on my face,
Grey clouds had formed all around me with pouring
Cold rain why you are out playing your games,
Threatening to pour the coldness of death and making
A big mess with all the lies you gave,
I put your candle in my window because I am still  
dancing with you, I need you to set my mind on easy,
find your way back to me,
You will see the stained-glass window
with your candle, lite just for you to come on in,
sleepless and cold nights
without you by my side oh I cry  
every night and day,
years now are passing me by without you,
I had hidden the sparkles of the stars
I hold in my eyes for you  
In the sky of my cold lonely life, you gave me,
You are holding her but not me,
Only desire is a fire with your name on it,
You kept in the dark for so long it hurts,
Like a sad love song with no one to hold,
I felt like just given up on us but how my life is frozen,
It was unfair what you had given to me,
he doesn't deserve my heart
you gave away to the past of your prison,
You are with her even when you don't want to,
So you put me on hold
until you are bold that is getting so old,
I am tired of being cold and all alone without  
You to hold me,
Dark Angel your candle is in my window  
The dark clouds did not pour out my cry another time,
Slowly my pains are starting to disappear,
my lonely hours of you not with me,
the sun is beginning to rise once again
It will continue to ascend  
like a candle flaming in the dark
while you had taken my heart,
To keep the light burning
I just keep mourning reassuring  
The candle is the light out of the tunnel of darkness,
If I keep it burning,
Soon the rainbow will emerge,  
Bringing back smiles in the laughter of a new life,
the glistening in my eyes another time,
Wiping the frown off my face
So, I dance into the light of day,
To wash away the pains Dark Angel gave.

Judy Emery © 2012
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Out on the Mediterranean Sea
I find there is no escape for me,
Hours of true loneliness
That seems to have no end,
I know one day,
my body will be laid to rest
The sea will be my bed;
Where the fish of the sea
will eat upon my flesh
all my emotions will be long gone
from me,
that’s when I can finely be at peace
Dark Angel will be destroyed,
I had once love
Yet, now I made love a friend,
But I didn’t go on to sin,
I wept at my feet
Asking God to forgive me
I wept with joy in deep peace,
Since I can see there is no escape for me
While I ride the waves of the sea
I will make peace with my life
And let love find its way to me,
Darkness is an of true sorrow
A place of lost souls
A place I never want to see
Not even in my darkest dreams,
Oh, how the rain
started pouring down on me,
in the hours of need;
while I am lost out on the sea
these long hours alone
I finely gave my soul a rest
While darkness is always waiting for me
True love saved me;
Let me go down in dignity
The ancient waves move me along the shore
In deaths eyes became an evil pride,
While I was fighting for my very last breath,
In the middle of the night
The old velvet moon
shine its light so bright
I finely could lift my head
I shall pray for the dead
While I leave, the battleship
of life and death
Before I lose my mind.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My emotions are getting stronger while the pains made a home along the way, I remembered how we dance around on those wet autumn leaves making our own memories bathing in each others love into the starlights from heaven above.

-Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Today I walked alone in the park
Thinking of all the memory's
Of you and me
in summers breeze,
Oh, how I wish you were still with me.
If I can help another heart to mead
I would tell them our story
to open one's eyes
about what Love can really bring
From breaking up
to making Love
I would tell them to never give up on Love.
Life isn't a game
Life is a true gift from God
Love is another gift God gives
not everyone will find Love
But if you know God
then you know Love
You have to learn from love
even when the heartaches
from Love to death
just do your very best.
this light that shines on the pond
In the park is like a glimpse of your love
You have been always so smart and true
I will always love you
I loved it when we use to walk in the park
holding the hands of each other
looking at the beautiful  flowers
and all the colored trees with changing leaves,
the leaves of the red and green and bright yellow
will always bring me back to you
I miss the way you sang to me
under that old midnight sky
holding on to me very tight
making wishes upon the stars
while the moon shines so bright
I know so much about Love
because God had sent me you
even now that you are in your rest bed
my heart is still with you.

Judy Emery © 1988
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

My body and mind had been battered
My poor heart is shattered with time,
I still waking around scared
Holding on to your words
That kept me fearing you,
In my life, you had taken everything
My hopes even the beauty of love
You give me a world of darkness and pain
You discriminated my name
You give me so much shame
Holding on to all those blames
In the cold September winds
My heart starts to shatter all over again
The snow that is on the ground
Where you once pushed me down
frozen my heart;
the sun doesn’t even shine like it used to
in my life, you’re always standing in between
given me darken dreams;
I’m tired of running from you,
I tried so hard to forget you
I could still hear how you would laugh at me
While you had beaten me down
So far down I didn’t think
My life was worth anything;
You took my young spirt
and made me feel old
Then you left me in a world of darkness,
While I could still feel your eyes on me
Letting me know I will never be free from you,
You kept me on confused
I was afraid to ever cross you
I still hear your words of evil
Telling me will never see love
I will never be loved
I will never be loved
I could hear your laugh while you walked away
Leaving me in a world of pain
My body left out in the pouring rain
While I was bleeding out like ink
It was like I had nothing to live for
All hopes for me had come to its end
I got to the point I didn’t care
About what others think
I didn’t let no one get too close to me
All I know is my soul is still weeping
My spirit is still sinking
But I am still here.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Oh, how I rise the sea
in many darken dreams,
the old roaring sounds of
the crying wind frightens me
while the anger waves move along
like an ancient sad song,
I have seen many things
that made me scream
when it comes to darken dreams,
in the shadows of the night
gives me so much fright
when it comes to my life,


Judy Emery © 2012
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Deep into the night
hoping I will hear his pains
if you ever leave me
I could never allow that you see
you are my queen
you will only love me
So he looked deep within himself
and he started to scream
casting his fits of anger out into every dream
I will win you back
this is a fact
it will be like an old heart attack
there'll be no more sunlight in your world
I have taken it all away from you
I have given you a life of my pains
we will always dance into September blues
this is the life I gave
I looked at Dark Angel with millions of tears
with anger in my heart
then I started to talk
saying to him is like morphine to me
that brings on darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Moonlight come back don't run or he will attack.
that's how he fights back, he feeds on your fears,
he loves to bring you down in tears.

Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I can tell from your eyes
you had a sad lonely night
you must have been doing some thinking
but I had to wonder was it about me?
I know how the world
can put a lot upon us
I know that we had ended some time ago
but I still think about the times we had
all the good and the bad,
Sometimes I hunger for you touch
that was something I missed so much
at times when the wind blows
I can almost feel you touching my skin
but that was way back then,
Love is something
my heart yearn so strongly for
but yours was not able to do that
I can still see the sadness in your eyes
when it was time to say our goodbyes,
But now that the years are passing
this old pain is lasting
but this you will never know
because you are long gone
I wanted so much
to be a that big part of your life,
But that was way before
I had known you had a wife
So with time, I kept you on my mind
praying you are having a good life
but you cut mine deep
into that stormy night
we had to say our goodbyes
Oh, how you cut me deep
left me out to bleed.

Judy Emery © 1999
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I see visions where friends are made
doing their best to keep their dreams alive,
when you are a best friend
you want to always make thing right
in your own friend’s eyes,

Friends are the gift in life,
They helping each other to move along in life,
They lift each other up when the other falls,
Being beast of friends to the very end,

In all season gives reasons
for best friends to have fun together,
even when you’re not even aware
they both are a funny pair,
but they never seem to care,

Beast friends to the very end
Life would be as easy if life didn’t
have my best friend in it,
life isn’t a game and friends are a gift
from heaven above that gives love.

Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

In a darkened room abandon, confused
beyond the reach of faith
my soul is absorbed in darkness
Lies the wounded, shattered my heart
the voice that runs into the dark
his eyes remain of love betrayed
the innocence of a child is bought and sold
to life so cold with so many demands
The rage of an angels left silent in chains
in a cold darken room
Forgive me please for I know not what I do
How can I keep inside the hurt I know is true
I look around to see where this innocent voice is coming from
then I go into silence and that voice is my inner self
crying out for the help of my innocents.

- Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, Love you are the fire
that moves my heart
to do good things,

you are the heaven
that hold visions in my eyes
to move my spirit to write,

Where pleasure and pains
that gives my life rains
in a world so cold
I stand so bold,

So I write out my blood cries
in my own  blood ink
of what it is my heart bleeds
for the world to read.

Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Be not afraid of the dark just learn to dance in it
and believe life has a brighter side.

Judy Emery © 2019
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Dreams of darkness come the blackbirds
the birds of lies
the bird of death sitting in a nest
the one who tries to take your last breath
the blackbird that stands around a hidden crowd
shadows that are dark and powerful,
O blackbird you feel you are the graceful one
but you will soon be found and bound
locked away in your own cage
water you will always crave
you will have a mirror of your ugliness
you will have to pay for all you have done
that kept loved ones always on the run,
Life is a beautiful gift
love is as beautiful as one could ever get
o blackbird look what you have done
you whispered lies to keep other birds on your side
your secrets are deadly full with fears
but soon that too will despair from our atmosphere
you o blackbird will soon be caught
you will never be free from darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 1998
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Me without you in my life  
Is like a leafless fall
This would be my world so quiet
so lost without you
So alone with no one to hold
my life would be so cold-
A lost soul with no hope with no love
A snow winter without you to keep me warm  
A flowerless spring with no green in spring  
Here was trouble seems to always find
Me and makes me blue  
Me without you I will stay confused
like a boat without water to take afloat  
It is like a colorless rainbow a sunless day.
A starless night with no hope of love
Dead winds on a sleepless night  
Me without you I would dye
Being without you.
Is like the ocean without a wave
the beach without sand
and a flameless fire
A doubtful night of dreams of hurt  
And badness on my mind wondering  
What you are doing all the time without  
Me holding at night  
Me without you
Is like a book without words
without pages
A man without a face,
and a child with no name
a love that never came
All I would have is the rain
I am tired of tears I need laughter  
I need to feel your love
I need a body to hold me all NIGHT!
Do I need to say more?

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

So much of life will pass on by
like a blink of an eye
For a time the unfaithful will keep
On walking in the way of lies of darkness
But the righteous will keep on looking
to the Light for everlasting
But the unrighteous their day will soon
come to an end.
O Jehovah;
We know you will defend us from the evil ones
we oppose'rs that fight with us
day and night without cause
they hid their nets for us to fall in
But we keep looking for their treasures of heaven
and for a Paradise earth
We will keep on walking in the true Faith
Of the law of Jehovah God
But the dark and evil ones  
walk With heedless ear and careless eyes
they walk so blind of the way of this darken Life
Oh Jehovah Your words they actually Ignored  
Please give me the gift of your ways
always to the homeless and poor
Put your words deep down in our Hearts like a
The high tower of your law
your shield to our souls
let us spread your words of the true life
To all mankind  
Let us open the eyes of the blind
let us teach them Your words of everlasting
Let them see the way of what is right
In your eyes,
Look! There are days coming is the
Utterance of Jehovah
Son of man, A watchman is what Jehovah
Made us be Jesus our Lord showed us at door too door
The haters were trying to knock him down with
their old darken lies,
Jesus had warned the wicked ones
that they will positively die if they do not
change their ways, Oh Jehovah our God
this lost darken world looks down on us
call us all kinda names,
why they try to put all their lies and shame
on us night and day because we stand for Your name
Your words Jehovah stands true
I will not let them take me down with them
in there darken ways
These feelings I have are the hours of my day  
But now I am learning how to live out my life
In doing what is right in Your eyes
Something new runs in my heart and that is
Your true Love.

-Judy Emery © 2005
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Charge towards me and I will give you a storm.

-Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery