I began to scream as he starts to cut on me deep within my heart, his eyes open wide when he saw I was bleeding out into the sea of darken dreams.

-Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I have many pages I must keep on writing what my life is being brought out to me in what I see, what I feel, and what makes me truly ill. I love to write the good and the bad because this is the way life moves, this is what it breathes and this is what I bleed in ink for the whole world to read all about me, life wasn’t all that easy like others would have thought and there is always a plot.


Judy Emery © 2019
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I SEEN BETTER DAYS

Oh, when I look at you
I see the unloving things about you,
I want to love you
But how can I love someone like you
That acts so cruelly,
I need you...
Yet, I truly don’t,
I just live in a confusing world,
I thought at one time in my unstable mind,
I thought I loved you,
that I could help you change your evil ways,
Oh, how I needed it to be true
Because I thought I truly loved you,
I needed you...
No matter what others tried to tell me about you,
At one time that all I wanted to think about
Was only you,
Oh, but now, I truly changed my mind,
Now that I am walking in a healthy mind,
Now I cry all the time to get you out of my head,
You make me so crazy with your evil always,
No matter what I do
You are always there,
Oh, I have seen a better day when you are not in them.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Oh, beautiful morning how I love you
I pour my coffee set at my desk
making a big mess
Looking at my notebook
ready to start my day
my pen is uncapped
My eyes are gazing at the blank pages
of true mystery that my brain will
set the ink to write what my heart bleeds
for all to read that comes from me
to a world of a poetic mind,

  Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Fears of the night where all that coldness held me tight while old memories started playing games on me I started remembering this and that until I believed it was walking behind me. Soon I started looking around in a panic, my heart started pounding faster as I started walking quicker than usual, my heart started breaking when I see a man standing by that old willow tree again. It was raining and he started staring at me with piercing eyes, as I walked on by, I already knew deep within who this beast really is. I started realizing there isn't an end to this story not yet.

Judy Emery © 2013
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Tears are a big part of my story
they will always be  
flowing free
that filled my eyes
they are the blueprint of me.

the art of my inner beauty
that stains the autumn leaves
are written from tears
and bloodstained ink
as my poor spirit sink.

In darken dreams
is a place I never wanted to be
all I hear or those painful screams
calling out to me...
Oh, how this makes me bleed
wanted so badly to set them free.


Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, never reveal who it is you love,
Love is a secrete between two,
Love is something untold,
Love isn’t to be sold,
Oh, gentle winds that touched the skin
You hold the love of all time,
Your touch is smooth
Yet, it is cool and silently invisible,
Love is the music to my ears,
Only I can hear,
Love kissed me on my lips,
Love whispered his heart to me,
Trembling bodies upon the sand
A place where we once danced,
We made romance in lover’s memories,
Cold, sea blown winds,
Casting its spells again,
In ghastly fears, we go
To a place of the unknown
Where lies are always being told.
Oh, how love departed,
Left me broken-hearted,
Soon after the fall, I traveled on.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My heart is worn
it is full of sorrow
tears are fallen
my eyes are swollen
the wind is blowing in its sadness throughout the night.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I have scarcely left you in heart
Just for a moment that is all,
I just wanted to feel what I would
Feel not having you in my heart,
I trembled with the loss of love  
Running in the dark,
I felt so empty and out of place,
I knew there was something missing
But I didn't yet know what it was,
uneasy, wounded by the night with
No love insight,
I thought I was going to lose my mind,
I overwhelmed with pain but I couldn't
Understand why!
Wen I would dream I could see my heart
Crying out to a love it once knew,
This love that I found in my dream was a
Gift of life to my soul,
Without cease, I give you my heart,
We have found each other in a dream,
Thirsty we are for each other’s love ;
We drunk up all the water and the blood
That runs in our hearts,
We found each other hungry and needy  
Like a hunger of the waves at sea,
We bit each other lips with so much desire  
To never give up on love,
as we bite each other’s lips,  
It would be the fire bites that we will miss,
Leaving wounds in us.
When I get up from my dream it is you that
I see crying out to me,
This love I know belongs to me, A love I could
Never leave, If I ever was to leave this love  
that would be in my sleep.

  Judy Emery © 2011
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Silent is in the cold chilly air,
While Moonlight takes her ride
Upon her favorite horse,
she calls ‘’ Tamela,’’ which means
like to control everyone within
its own influence,

she riding and galloping around the castle
looking at the beauty of the land,
this beauty had no words, so breathtaking,
but as soon as Moonlight saw Dark Angel
walking her way, she got choked up,
while the heavy winds raged,

ash of rose dust blow into the air,
Oh, Dark Angel never plays fare,
Envy eyes are he, who looks at me,
Always around me every day,
Drops of rain started coming down,

I must always remember everything,
Keep track of his anger, each bladed grass
Has a cut of the stain of blood,
Of another soul that has been taken down,
Dark Angel called out saying it’s time to come in.
Let the slave walk ‘’Tamela,’’ back to the stable,
come in out of the rain,

He takes Moonlights hand to help her get off
Her favorite horse, then she and Dark Angel
Walked very fast back to the castle,
While Brutus was at the door,
reaching for Moonlights shawl.

Judy Emery © 1986
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Oh, how I heard him cry
deep into the night
singing his lullabies
to the midnight wind,
among the billions of stars
that shines from far
twinkling like little flashes
of candlelight,
But just then I heard him
calling out my name!
Saying, please remember me
I am your king and you are my queen
In all my dreams;
Come back to me,
I would hear him cry another time,
then I started remembering his voice
But from where?
before long it was time to wake up,
that’s when I see him looking back at me.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I remember you, it was like
a sweet summer song
that turn colder than a dark winter
when you said you love me
I had to laugh
because you didn't even love yourself
so how you ever love a queen like me?
I'm just a memory you say
Oh, how you scared me away
I'm lost in a shadow of your days
please move along
and take your grey days with you
I don't know where you are
but I can always feel you near
trying so hard to cast your fears
Oh, my dear,
I remember you
Just like I remember having the Flue
getting away from you
yesterday's gone
like your old sad song
and those old dreams
keep caring on
So please don't look my way
I wanted to see brighter days
Oh, please sing me a sweet little song
but please don't take too long
hold me until tomorrow
I believe you pushed me a little too far
you are the story I been trying to forget
you are my big regret
they say every lesson must be learned
I know you're loveless beat
so stay away, please
your old cold heart
play its last card
I know where you've gone
because you are yesterday's memories
yet dreams carry on
just like your lies
but I don't stand by your side
Why would I
I remember you
what an ugly beast
you feed off my emotions
while you stand around to watch me bleed
a nasty old beast of greed
will you return back to your cave
where you need to stay
because I have no need for you
you are sick
and you like to abuse and use,
I'm not saying words of being confused
it's over, it's over,
I know this because I'm the one made to leave
Now my heart no longer bleeds
I Remember You
and I know you remember me too.

Judy Emery © 2012
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Every night I curl up in my bed
trying to get you out of my head
I start to cry thinking about you
abandoned in the dark is where
you left me to bleed,

The memories of this pain
brings on the rain ;
I Cry
yes I do over you
it is not because I love you
that could never happen
Not even in your dreams,

Clueless is what you made this
argumentative is you
I never wanted to put you in my life
You just found ways to get in it
Oh, I was so happy that you are gone
I thought I could finely move on
Oh, how I was wrong
you come back to me like an old sad song,

In my mind, I start to remember You
every night in my cold bed
I CRY to get you out of my mind
you come to me in darken dreams
you find a way to mess up my days
the memories of you
are taken me down like the Flu.

Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

That put a smile upon my face and gave me a limp of faith while the days are still young and let my heart be filled love and laughter where all those words of truth whispers in my sleep taking away all those fear, and kiss all my tears away, words of truth-filled my soul with heaven on my mind. Oh, how it felt so divine, love found me just in time.

- Judy Emery © 2018
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Now what I see is everything we once had
is now gone with the wind left in the past
And all that is left within is the rapture of my soul
there is nothing else you can take from me
all that I have to give is the millions of pieces
of my broken heart that has gone cold.

I can still remember:
when we danced in so much romance
but all of that is a big darken memories
that our love has flown apart with no warnings
maybe the warnings were there all along
and I just didn't want to see them.

We are like the candle in the wind
and the hot flame of our love just burned out
and now we walk around so empty
without a spark of light to keep the candle burning
the wind has blown it out just like our love
all we have left is the faded footsteps of the past
of what we once had.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

What makes me scream
is darken dreams
cold winds hollowing in the night
that gives me a chilled fright
in the dark forest
as many different eyes
that keeps sight
the naked skies of summer are gone
winter is taken on a run
the dead sleeps in silence
but the living is being hunted
by he who gives darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 2013
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I want you to know;
Things are never what they seem
When it comes to darken dreams,
Oh, come and hear the screams
Do you understand what that means?
You know who this is;
That makes you like this,
Look deep within your mind
And think of all those painful times,
You will see his eyes;
They are like the crystal moon,
That comes in late June,
In the night, it beams red upon the deadly sea
Into darken dreams;
Autumn leaves fall from the tree
This I see from my bedroom window,
While you talk to me about the one who haunts me,
Every time I put my hand near the fire
It’s like the flames reach out to touch me,
The impalpable apple ash
Is near the burning log,
The flames hold deadly memories,
Everything I ever cared about
Had come to an end,
The seal of the envelope has been licked,
Every word that has been written
Every storm brings me back to you,
As if everything that exists is because of
darken dreams;
where ancient ships
seal out on the Mediterranean Sea,
where little boats sink deep
where the wickedness weep into the night,
oh, how the sound give fright,
each day on the hour
the tears fall like raindrops on the ground,
I start to feel all hope is destined from me,
Why does Dark Angel want to keep me like this?

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, how you love to see me weep
in so much pain;
you tell me you love the rain
it gives you so much strength
by living off my misery.
when my life is going right
you would do whatever it takes
to see my heartbreak,
you said the day will come
when someone will put my heart on the run
you call that fun;
I never thought it would be
my own child that would cut me deep,
now look at me I can no longer sleep
or eat because all I do is weep,
soon comes the fear
that hangs near;
Oh, how I truly feel the emptiness
of all those years, I gave my whole life
to the child, I hold dear;
left me in tears,
forgiveness will always be in my heart
even while I’m bleed out like ink
for the whole world to see me broken
but again, this would be my haters token,
where is the respect?
I am home alone
asking myself what is it I was doing wrong
why am I losing everything I love?
my child is now so grown up,
I had never lived a life for myself
all those negative feelings of loneliness
came rushing in like a wildfire of true
the agony of bleeding pains
the cuts are so deep
I felt I could no longer breath
I even thought for a moment
my heart stops beating,
all those memories of my life
beat upon my me until I was broken
deeper than life ever could hand me,
this pain is stripping, taking everything
from me;
drain ever part of goodness from me
leaving me powerless
while I hear the evil ones
laughing at my pains
hoping for rain to come my way to stay,
I have no strength left in me,
this pain of letting go of what I truly love
Is really bringing me down to my knees
begging God to help me,
because this pain I feel
is striping me of all that I had ever live for.
Within the hours my child
walked back in the door
and that was the end of the war.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

All seas in every dream,
are the deepest essence of his love,
the water is a treasure of dreams,
Moonlight, you are a goddess
my queen in every darkens dreams.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen of Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

My playmate is the ink in my pen
that pushes along on poetic paper.

Judy Emery © 2020
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Death was never a place I wanted to see you in nothing changed my love for you stayed the same, but, then something truly has. In silence, I still call out your name.

- Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

A glimmer of light shine so deep into the night
holding visions in my eyes;
while your hands are around my waist
asking me to tell you what it is I see,

I pray for true love to find its way
back into the deaden hearts that you have taken apart,
while I see you counting the hills across the way
just to see if you could find another heartache,

the sheets of clouds are making its way in,
I would hear you say repeatedly
That I am a falling star you left marked,
While a glimmer of lightning lights up the night
While you give me fright to save my own life,

I admit I'm a bit of a fool for playing by your rules
I've found my escape in your eyes;
That’s when I started to cry,
While I am alone with you
I learn to find love in my heart to forgive you,

But the more I true to do what is right
You started playing games on my mind,
you kept me on confuse about you,
Oh, I cry for you to turn down the sounds
Of your words of lies that haunt me in my life,

when we fight about your dark life
you take me by the bridge for me to see
the city that never sleeps;
here in the moment on the dark side of the screen
I see you looking back at me,

I hope one day soon your heart will unfreeze
I want to feel the warmth of you while you breathe.

Judy Emery © 2000
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

So, stay close to me, and let the time flies,
Without saying goodbye,
Let what we have to be civil
And never incarcerated hate into your heart
Just because one day we will depart,

Don’t let flip talk leave marks on you
Don’t act out in a crowed of lies,
When life gets too rough to fight,
Please listen to my love,

Live as if life never has taken us apart,
Don’t let envy and jealous way take
You down a darken way,

Today I live as you do;
So never look at the things that life
didn’t yet bring, all this talk
is like a bad dream,
that keeps the heart and mind on a scream,

Let’s just chill and keep it all real,
We have each other even in a life
That holds broken dreams.

Judy Emery © 1986
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

In your eyes met mine.
I find the answers I needed to know
In your arms, you hold a darken story
I found that world into dreams,
I've waited for you to help me
I've found everything I ever needed in you
but that was before I truly knew you
I need nothing more than your lies
Outside my window,
I can see you staring back at me
When I dreamed all I see is you,
You would take me by the hand
and we'd start to dance into a darken spell
a place of darkness you know so well
a place I call hell,
In your arms, I once felt I belonged
I've never known your love was going to be
something so painful to me,
I read books, and they all seem to be about you
In your eyes, I know I have seen places
I never wanted to see,
You opened your heart to me
I felt a pain that started eating away on my soul
How did your heart get so cold?

Judy Emery © 1999
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

In my sleep, I see children crying,
when I see their little white faces
my heart wanted to weep;
those children no longer play,
Someone had taken all there love away
taken their innocence;
when I was a child,
all I could remember was the pains
of those cold lost days;
where the sky was always grey,
I remember hearing someone say,
come back to me, my child
You’re walking the wrong way,
Now, only in my sleep,
I could only remember the faces I’ve seen
In those painful darken dreams,
Time is forgotten the old voice would say
While he leads me to stray;
I often think about the children
With those sad long faces,
What had come of them?
Who knows what this old darken life
had done to them;
last night in my sleep
I hear the children weep,
I see a broken doll-house
along the staircases,
soon I met their eyes
while they were saying their goodbyes,
I often wonder what all of this means,
Are these children
locked away in darken dreams,
I wonder while they sleep
Do they see me?
For I was once a child as they
Who has lost the way?

-Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

He is a clown with a big nose that is round
He has a big sad frown
that could almost touch the ground,
His cheeks are rosy nice and pink
with a heart that sinks down deep,

He has the eyes that sparkle in the night wind,
He sits alone crying about
what was and what didn't come
This old dark world put this clowns heart on the run,

His old shoes are so big that all his tears fall in,
His costume be perm pressed,
His old heart overflown with sadness,
every time he walks around
everyone makes a fuss over the way he looks
the way he dressed
Oh, his life is a big mess,

His face is painted with heartaches,
He holds his head down low holding balloons for the show
children run to greet him will hast on their face,
Wherever he may go his life is one big show,

When it comes to love he just bleeds
with the heartaches of long ago,
despite all he has been through,

He walks alone holding on to his broken heart
hoping one day it will mend and be set free
Where he can breathe, and start living again.

Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Oh, how he can sing almost anything
he has touched my heart
yet, this is his art,-
his plan from the start.

His words are smooth and sweet all at once
his  beautiful love songs,
really made me smile
just for a little while.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Not too long ago,
I did write my famous lines
the power of my pains
did bring more rain to all who reads
my heartfelt words
that I had written down
in my own bloodstain ink,
my words are strong a
yet very deep like the sea
it holds things of long ago
it talks about the pains of yesterdays
I had never denied
my tears for all to hear,
they fall into the cup for all to drink
that will run deep
into your veins while you dream
all about me,
darken dreams will make you feel
you are going to die in a hateful ride
in another time of long ago,
You will scream out so much pain
but no one will ever hear a thing
my pains will arise in everyone’s eyes
that sees me dancing around
in the cold September storm,
to all those who read about me
you will hear the cries
of the foreign tongues
of a mockery of darkening time
that cuts away at the mind.


Judy Emery © 1988
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

There is a great deal of depression
that has Overtaken the land
my soul hurts from long ago
I had lost my way
then disaster came caused great pain
out was out of control
over what is right all I did was wrong
Just another Sad, sad song  
the rain started pouring down on me
Night and Day
Flooding deep within me
I was too young to understand
the ways of Lust and Sin
My body craved sinful men
Darkness became a game of Child play
My life was never right
in my mother's eyes
No matter how hard I ever try
She would beat me down and call me names  
The black seed is what she gave  
I was only two when I started
crying out to you
You touched my little heart
And easy my pains from the start
You even have given me food to eat
I would get down on my knees asking you
Please forgive me and take this pain away from
my Mother has given me
She cut me Down so far down
I was so lost I never thought I would
ever be found,  
I would Cry and cry deep into the night
asking why my mother didn't want me
She doesn't love me
why did my father leave me
Without a word of goodbyes
I just have seen shame in his eyes
Their ware no words of what was right
in my poor little life,
All I have known was everything of the dark
and it made it it's home
given me all it's wrongs with no hope
With no Love to show my life had no loved in it
I almost died in my teens,
my mother didn't even come to see me  
But you did that day  
My God you had spoken right too my heart
Saying you love me from the start
When My Mother and father left me
You came in and started taking the lead  
I had never let you go
this I put down in my book of long ago
For all to know you are mine
with many of my kind  
This world is so blind
they cannot see what Love means
I need you to stand up for what is true
That would be my Love for You.

-Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

MY THOUGHTS

Just because of my thoughts
runs deep into a dark sea
into a painful darken dreams,
don't make me mean
my soul is clean
I love to read
stay close to the Light
that shine through my life
when things are right,
my heart needs to write
what it is I see
that makes my heart bleed
I let the blood run in ink
that flows from my pen
while my spirit sinks
I write my thoughts down
for the world to read
while they judge me
and drink my words up like tea.

Judy Emery © 1997
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Happiness
is the fullness
of the word of God
Don't miss the Brightness
that shine in this Darkness
Let GOD be your true Love.


Judy Emery © 2020
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I have a dark side that I never liked, it has truly masked everything about me and it hides the good of who I truly am.

Judy Emery © 2020
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Oh, how the false face must hind,
How it mocks my life;
I hear the sound in the night
like caries of an ancient time,
I could see the mighty light shine on in,
While others are on hands and knees
begging please not me,
that old September wind
made its way back again,
in the silence of the night
I can hear the cries,
they get closer and closer with time,
it is messing with my mind,
Oh, why do they cry?
I could almost hear trumpets
from far away;
what does this mean? when it comes
to me in darken dreams,
It sounds like a mighty earthquake
Where lives are about to end;
on blood-stained sand
someone is about to take a stand,
while deadly flowers are in a cup
when a voice would say
come and drink.
It will end quickly you will see
changes will be made for you and me,
at the end of the mighty cry
when it hits midnight,
so, look around me, dear queen,
tell me what it is you see,
I had no words to say to he
The one who haunts me
In darken dreams;
Then he would say to me again,
Moonlight tell me what you see,
So, I opened my mouth with would
Like thunder and said;
I see prophecies are being fulfilled,
tears are flowing out on the seas,
songs are being sung,
And yet; death is being done,
Slaves do appear to hear the words
I must say; flowers are falling from the sky
while another has died;
Horror and pain come to the mighty rain;
In deep emotions, they do fall;
I hear words of sorrow
knocking at the doors of the poor,
while a noble slave tries to shine faith their way.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I'm too nervous to let my words leap
So I just shut my mouth and let my heart speak
I get myself up in the morning and your name
Is what I crave,
Please excuse me if my deep thoughts get to
Deep and my heart starts to weep ;
And tears make a new song on a rainy day,
It's your love that I crave,
I can feel your rhythm inside me like a heartbeat
And my spirit of who I am just getting so happy too
Call out your name to start my new day ;
I already made my mind up you are my everlasting
Love of all times ;
I have to accept this confession so I just have one
Question? Jehovah Will, you be mine forever.

Judy Emery © 1999
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

The leaves are falling in those painful times where the trees are no longer bearing, it is cold outside, and yet, the moon shines so brightly upon the sand where it is, I sand. by day the sun moved upon on the land in a gentle kind of way, almost as if it was saying everything is going to be okay. This got my emotions built up a little stronger, so I can teach a little longer, yet, along the way of what seemed to be a good day, started slipping from me.



- Judy Emery © 2016
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery