I have many pages I must keep on writing what my life is being brought out to me in what I see, what I feel, and what makes me truly ill. I love to write the good and the bad because this is the way life moves, this is what it breathes and this is what I bleed in ink for the whole world to read all about me, life wasn’t all that easy like others would have thought and there is always a plot.


Judy Emery © 2019
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

It's three A.M. where all is asleep
but you and me,- no one's there to see
the little beauty that stars back
as I rock slowly back and forth
My baby boy and me.

His little head is feather- light
tucked up against my chin.
I hold his tiny hand in mine
and stroke his baby's skin.

The old house creaks and groans,
The clock hands creep around
as the ancient moon glows
my son snuggles close to me
as he makes his baby sounds.

I love those quiet hours so much
I cherish every moment
I think Jehovah for this blessing
I store memories within my heart
for lonely nights to come.

All to soon he'll be grown up
his need for me will be gone,
It will be a sad song
yet life must move on,
until then I still have time
for kisses and for a song.

Time for quiet hours like this
With him cuddled in my arm,
Where I wish he'd always stay,
Protected, safe, and warm.

And yet I know the day will come
When this tiny little hand
It will be much bigger than my own.
He'll grow to be a man.

But until then he's mine to love,
With no one here to see
as I rock slowly back and forth
My baby boy and me.

- Judy Emery © 1988
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

THE POET

The empowerment
that I seek doesn't come from humans.
what I write is what I feel
and I let my emotions spell
in my own bloodstain Ink
because I am the Poet that bleeds.

Judy Emery © 2011
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

My heart is worn
it is full of sorrow
tears are fallen
my eyes are swollen
the wind is blowing in its sadness throughout the night.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Being alone was something I loved
because I got to be alone
with my heavenly love
that always stood by my side
no matter how bad at times, I cried
praying for so many lives that had died.
so many came around
acting like clowns
around this old town,
This isn't something new
when they are being used
by the evil one of this world
But in my life Jehovah my God
gave me the strength
to do what is right
In HIS EYES.

Poetic Judy Emery © 2019

The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

You pushed me down in the snow and left my body frozen right along with my heart the sun doesn’t even shine like it used to
in my life, you’re always standing in between given me darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I do not like the way I feel
I don't like the state of mind
that I am in I feel the bitterness
the coldness emptiness
of his darkness
querulous of mind
thoughts of the unkind
hate is always at my door
leaving me among a life of the poor
I do not yearn for false love
I don't look down on the homeless
but I do dread the dawn's
that holds no light
I do stand up and fight
for what I know is right
I hate to go to bed
because that is where I will sleep
that is where I weep
I have bad dreams of he
Dark Angel never gives me peace
all he gives is darken dreams
that makes me scream
he gives me a world of darkness
a place that always makes me cry
he seems to never leave my side
I feel so disillusioned
my heart holds nothing
but my mind holds all things
my eyes hold visions of time
I am not sick
but I feel sick
dreams are shoots in my mind
like fireworks of hell
my soul is crushed
spirit weak and lost
body sore
I don't like me anymore
I don't like what I had become
with a heart always on the run
this dark life is no fun.


Judy Emery © 1979
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Looking to the west,
Where true love has given me the best,
A place I could rest my head,
Where the pine cones fall from the tree
In late spring;

Oh, what a beauty that seems
Next to small streams;
It almost feels like a dream to me,
On green grass where love
Came to me in summers breezes,
The sea of rushing dreams;

Where true love always finds me,
In my own fountain of youth;
It was all like a fairy tale,
But soon it all seemed to weather away,
The sweet beauty of the fields,
The sweet fruits and flowers dried up,

Darkness started coming my way;
Oh, not another darken dream,
All brightness left my sight;
Oh, how things aren't feeling right,
Loss of hope did arise in me,

Fear started taking over my soul,
Things that happen long ago
Even before I was even born,
I started feeling I was an outcast
In a place of true darkness,

From the overcast!
The beauty of love left me,
A voice from far is coming to my ears
As if it was standing near,
I started hearing slaves crying
As if my future was a part of this,

‘’On! Please not for me,
I was not a part of this,
I wasn’t even born to a life of this kind,
The past that I see is something ancient
And dark that cuts deep at the heart,
Evil spirits hovering over me with lies.
Oh, how they make me cry,

It is like they have no emotions,
They hold no love in their hearts,
I see slaves of true pains,
Agony is everywhere I look,
Like all my days of youth has left me,
Like someone or something
cast me into a trance,

where the evil eye glance;
where is this place I ask?
the king that is standing over me,
where footsteps of history
are all around me,

Is this something of ethereal pains
Of ancient days?
Is this a dance of the forbidden?
Is this eternal death,
In a stream of dreams that make me scream,
What does all this mean?

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh flounder mind you move the sea
Oh come and look at me
I pray night and day
for love to come my way,
I look deep with my mind
for the inward part of me
why I had to shout all doors
and now I look for more,
Mine has been working overtime
that keeps me up late at night
that is the way the old sea cry's
leaving my mind stain as glassed
looking beyond the past,
Oh why does my mind keep my heart to flounder?
It is taken me to a place I had once crave
I started feeling so much intense needs
with vivid of hunger of sweet delight
on the other side of my wildest dreams
I would see so much evergreen,
Oh what a beautiful things I did see
into the night the stars did shine so ever bright
re flicking their shades of beauty on the sea
twinkling away at me
all darkness made its round like lost and found
without a sound for solid grounds,
the confusion came over me
like I was lost into a dream
fear and lost made a bust so deadly over me
all my emotions for true devotions
submerged beneath my wildest dreams
the earth was no longer under my feet
oh how I do feel so weak
like a child so scared holding on to fear
that seems to always stand so near,
All the beauty I once had taken in
had shadowed me in so many sins
I was lost and not yet found on true solid grounds
I started feeling empty like the waves of the sea
bringing on sadness in dreams
guilt and hate with so much blame
from the past of another time,
I started thinking about how
often I would be laid in my bed
thinking back to an old beaten down past
my mind moved along like the wind
sing out the sad old sound of back then
now every time I think about sleeping
my mind starts weeping
because I don't want to fall asleep into darken dreams.
This old fear is so dreadful to me
it always comes back to me in nightmares
that eat away at my mind
cutting deep within me
every time I tried to get this off of my mind
I could hear the old wind crying over again
the old strings of time
that was never mine,
All my emotions got lost behind all closed doors
I tried so hard to get what it was I missed
I get up feeling so scared
hold my body like it had been wounded
voices from these closed doors
crying out saying open the door, please
let your pain run out like rain
I started feeling like all my bones were broken,
All walls started building up
my mind didn't want to give up
the truth and love was at my inter doors
but my mind felt all the pain of lost time
My world started crashing down
while everyone else just studs around
just to watch me bleed and weep
like the old wind of time
stripping away my spirit of faith
Oh floundering soul where did you go?

- Judy Emery © 1994
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

True passion is what you are
You set the stage for all to see,
Your love is full of power,
You have touched my heart from the very start,
You put your breath of life into my lungs,
You showed me the way to walk in your glories love,
the earth has many grains of sand upon the land
where you had once stood;
your words are strong yet soft and sweet
easy for my soul to be at ease;
your love means everything to me, my King,
my tears are at your feet;
my heart cries with joy in mind,
you are one of a kind;
you are the light that shines in my eyes,
I can hear the Devin song of all times
in an ancient rhyme;
while the angels fly around in the heavens
with your love and passion in their hearts,
their wings have your names engraves upon them;
death I know will be soon swallowed up by love;
many will fall into the darkness;
But, that is an old song that everyone on earth knows,
The harps are playing;
Angels are sing songs that no one is yet to master
But the Holy one that sets on his heavenly throne.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I felt a part of me had been lost for some time I try hard to find out what it is that has been taken from me, In my years, I come to face most of my fears, but something of long ago was always eating away at my soul.

- Judy Emery © 2019
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My heart is naked and very alone;
people always judge me
because they think their better than I am,
I came out of my own mother's belly
I bleed like anyone else,
But They don’t see things the way I do,
But again, I am The Queen of Darken Dreams
Poetic Judy Emery and the story is about me.

- Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

You don't get to choose how you're going to die
you just need to move one day at a time,
You can only decide how you're going to live Life.
Yes I know I have a strong silent Attitude
But that is just the way I am;
I am my own Queen in my own Dreams
This is the way I want my words to be,
So never judge me
I let God take that lead you to see
Because you are no better than me.
The size of my shoes are seven and I didn't say eleven
for God is in Heaven;
I do walk like a Queen with my own Attitude,
See You could never wear my shoes
nor would I ever have or want you to,
I express my own free will how I see it, so beat it.
You come around acting like some crazy clown
with a new Attitude...
You say you know my pains
you say it's all one Big game
Don't pretend you know what I feel,
Don't act as you have always been there by my side in Life
You say you don't like my ways;
Well good, because I never ask you in the first place
if you like me, or not so get off my back,
Over the years, time in my Life has given me Tears
But with Time I became the Queen of me;
Love and Hate is the power of choice
this is what the world handed down to me,
I am my own Queen of my own Attitude
I am Woman who is face adversity
I embrace my Life in my own way
God-given me a heart and I breathe the air of Life
So move on and let me Live.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

If you want to know how to get
closer to a place look for grace
is to reach deep into your heart
and open your Bible
and let the Holy Spirit in.

Judy Emery © 2019
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

When I sit in the stillness
my heart is filled
you, my Lord,
gave me reason
to keep on living
and forgiving.

Judy Emery © 2018
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

In my life, it lacked color
all I have seen was the grey.

Judy Emery © 1998
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

The Window is where stood
while the rain poured out like tears,
at one time the sky was beautiful
like the ocean blue,

But that was some time ago
way before my life became cold,
what a wonderful thing the beauty
of the light was to my eyes,

But with time everything lost its beauty
I have learned just to look out my window
just to feel safe,
life isn’t what it used to be.


Judy Emery © 1986
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The old gray village lay in the landscape of pain;
It was a cold night in our home
Once our home felt what Love was all about
but that had been some time ago.
I had to ask myself over and over as the years past,
How do you walk away from someone you love?
There he is standing by the door in silence
it was a cold dark night my love had taken flight,
OH, HOW THAT MADE ME CRY;
I watched as his love made its way out the door,
the spell that invented no words;
I don't really know what made my heart run so cold
but that one cold night his love was getting old,
The light of his love turned cold like the black in the night,
inside my broken heart,
tell me to never look back on what was good
never look back on the life we had
We once had so much love to give
But time moved so fast in our life
Love started to slip away...
We have shared so much together,
We Laughter...had so much fun, we had our tears;
when love had gone like the summers sun
all that we had is now all dead and gone
my heart is on the run...
We must walk away, and allow ourselves to heal from the pain,
I know one day you will be happy
and one day so will I
O careless love '', I hear my ill spirit
Sob into the winter sky's
each blood cell weep day and night
my heart was at my throat...
my soul cry's out for this old pain to end
it hurts like hell deep within.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Belied with false compare looks at me with his skin of stone
the effort to keep his hands off me, he looks and tells me I need to get my hair done his veins behind his eyes see everything. If my hair would just stay beautiful I wouldn't complain, I wouldn't have to go through so much pain to keep up with all this drama in the rain to keep in a style that drives everyone wild that sees me
dark passion with the lust of style is on every woman, that wants to be like me the queen that holds Dark Angel's eyes. My hair is up in one big old mess every time Dark Angel wants to get wild in the nights of romance if you know what I mean the wires of true liars that keeps me wanting more of the beauty of their styles that only last a while it's like blue road maps of the night that catches the eyes black wires upon my head like a fire of something from the dead that is making another kinda mess something I may have many regrets. I have seen some black roses with red and white ones too some perfumes are there more delight of my hair of the night
I love to hear him how much I drive him crazy. I like the way Dark Angel speak, yet I know music hath a far more pleasing sound when Dark Angel is around. He would tell me in his softness I never seen a goddess like you, my queen when he treads on the ground he takes my hand and he spends me around my love rare as the beauty of the moon belied with false compare.
- Judy Emery © 1979
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Each time I pause and think
what my life would have been
if I never have seen the Light
I would be Blind
walking in the dark like this world
not watching out for the Time.
In silence...
I wait to hear HIS voice
coming out of the heavens
sending me a gift of visions
dreams and gifts of HIS love.

Judy Emery © 2019
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

In my sleep, I see children crying,
when I see their little white faces
my heart wanted to weep;
those children no longer play,
Someone had taken all there love away
taken their innocence;
when I was a child,
all I could remember was the pains
of those cold lost days;
where the sky was always grey,
I remember hearing someone say,
come back to me, my child
You’re walking the wrong way,
Now, only in my sleep,
I could only remember the faces I’ve seen
In those painful darken dreams,
Time is forgotten the old voice would say
While he leads me to stray;
I often think about the children
With those sad long faces,
What had come of them?
Who knows what this old darken life
had done to them;
last night in my sleep
I hear the children weep,
I see a broken doll-house
along the staircases,
soon I met their eyes
while they were saying their goodbyes,
I often wonder what all of this means,
Are these children
locked away in darken dreams,
I wonder while they sleep
Do they see me?
For I was once a child as they
Who has lost the way?

-Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Every queen has her dreams
In places that no other could ever see,
But the queen that has her dreams,
That queen is me, where fantasies are made.
In a world of darken dreams where all I
Here are the screams, in a place where no one
could ever erase my face,
into the night my mind do fly,
to a place of true hate, Dark Angel made,
Ships do sail upon on the darkest seas
Where all my dreams will come true,
Where Dark Angel comes, alive another time
In my mind, right away he plays his mind games,
In darken dreams are the place where I will always be
With he who calls me his queen,
I will always remember that cold September
When Dark Angel had taken me down,
His voice will always be a part of me,
We became the fantasy to all who reads and dreams,
We are always playing in the minds of all times,
Like dreams that bleed out like the sea,
Oh, rushing wind comes again
To cry out its sad tunes,
Oh, exploring mind will play on time,
in this cold ancient world of doom,
Dark Angel will come for you too,
Where fantasy is made
until you lose all faith, then hell you will pay,
Love life don’t hide in darken dreams,
If you get lost Dark Angel will see,
He will break you down just to see you fall,
Into the rain of pain,
where screams come in darken dreams,
You are so very cold,
Your mind will be lost in a world of dark,
That will always eat away your spirit of the day,
So never lose your faith,
Because this is a place
You’ll never want your dreams to come true.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

As I sleep I fly on high in my mind as high as birds
angels fly deep in the sky
Then the sky in my mind climbs
My mind starts to discover my heart
has been wounded
I was shot right out of the sky
No clouds
No crying
No time to lose
I didn't want to feel confused
when renewed
One I had known the depth part of me
Was shot cut wounded like a bird
The colorful features
of these emotions
Feeling no hope was
And darkness was trying to make a way in
lay on the face of all things
The air of life touched my heart of history
knowledge of value
style of true reality
I see all the possibilities of what my life could be
Then Love of my true self-worth came rushing in
as high as a bird
I steer these invisible wings
Wishing on reaching as high as angels and birds
could fly sentimental sighs
I escape the realities of being wounded in my dreams
I reach for reality and open my eyes
Like angels to fly on high like birds in the sky
Nature produces the greatest results
the greatest of self-worth the simplest means
These are simply the sun and the air
we breathe the flowers water and true self-love.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I hold my thoughts of you
Playing over and over in my mind,
While my boat is onshore,
I thought so hard about your words,

Oh, how my tears flowed,
When I could still see,
you looking at me with anger in your eyes
because I didn’t want to be by your side,

I don't want to feel this way,
you always kept me so sad,
you always had a way to make me feel pain,
too much pain that brought on rain,

I don't want to stay this away
but if you stay in my mind
in my heart, Fairytale darkness
is what I will always find playing on my mind,

you always tell me lies
just to keep me by your side,
always cutting at my heart
just to see me fall apart,
I would love to forget about you.
So, I take some time to sail the sea,
but you are always given me darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My Dark Angel,
Look at what you have done
Oh. why have you made me bled
Oh. look what you have done to me
  loves me more then I will ever know
then he kissed me and said
my love is dark
and it will cut deep at your heart
Come and walk with me
and I will show you a part of me
that has been written down in history
he touched my hand
and given them a kiss
then he lifted me up
and we walked and talked about
a life he once lived
before he was cast down to the darkness
in a crying abbes
then a spell had been cast upon him
and he never known Love again
Until he has seen the beauty of me
he told a story about me
why he felt he had to make me see
what it is he felt
when he has seen I fall  
he looked deep within my eyes
and he kissed me goodbye
as I had woken up from this dream
he left a mark on me
it was a dark shad of his lips
upon my hand  
just to let me know
he is truly real
with time moving along
I feel him wherever I go
I feel his eyes upon me
I know he loves me
because he told me so
But his love hurts so much
all I feel is the pains
and see so much rain
He plays games upon the minds
most of the time
he loves to see the dreamers cry
He tells me to look in his eyes
he will show me all he will bring
his eyes are dark as the sea
his words are painful
that cuts deep within
It's me he wants to take control of
but it is I that could never let it be
I was alone until I met him
now I cry to get away from him
I can't seem to get him out of my head
I could feel the change come over me
I ask God to please forgive me
to please Help me
I pleaded for mercy
to help me to get through this
Dark Angel gave me a life
of true darkness
a reason for the change
is  like the seasons
where autumn leaves fall
while snow is on the ground
where the sun moves along into the gray
while the moon hangs in the gloom
in late June
Is how he changed me
Darkness is all I can see in darken dreams
everything is black and white
this place isn't very nice
it always seems to make me cry
my poor heart bleeds out like the sea
My winter is colder than before
my summers are all gone
I know he loves me
because he told me so
When he takes hold of my arms
he squeezes them tight
just to make me cry
bits my lips just to see them bleed
he loves to see me in pain
to make me scream
then he tells me this is his Love
When he is through with me
he tells me over and over
how much he needs me
how much he loves me
more then I will ever know
Oh, how my world has grown cold
I see him wherever I go
His words are like a mystery song
that will go down in history
right along with me
Will anyone misses me
while yesterday pains
gave me so much rain
I cried today I smile tomorrow
but only for a little while
He gave me all his loneliness
He gave me the love of his darkness
to make my life worthwhile
only just for a little while
He takes my hand
gave me a spend
and said the words to me
I love you more then you will ever know
can you see all the things I bring
Look in my eyes and I will tell you my story
that holds no end.

Judy Emery © 1993
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I cried last night why you were on the phone
I cried this morning when I had let you go
this night you, I cried out of my mind,
I wrapped myself in misery and sat alone in the dark
holding the other part of my heart of the unknown  
feeling my despair and loneliness.
I know this was for the best you just don't know this yet  
take note of this I don't want to be in love yet,
I don't want a marriage
yet that will be so many regrets for me,
You must know never to put your heart on hold.
move on please and let me go!
today I have not been acting my usual self you see  
my heart is finely free that is what my heart needs,
the universe is vast in love,
I am in the void of loneliness,  
I do set and look at the stars thinking about where you are,
Paris is where my heart wanted to be.
But given my all to just one, it set my heart on run,
I am still young not ready for that yet,
I can handle love to a degree,
But my heart needs to love freely,
I am used to being alone with a big world
around me I cold home,
I 'm just starting to find me,  
I know I am in my forties but my heart is still young  
And it wants to move on,
I gave my all to others very young in life,
I learned how to let others walk all over me
let them live out my dreams.
But not this time I started learning how to love me
and live out my own life  
learning to find me and setting out my own dreams,
Then when my heart is ready for love it will be on easy,  
I don't want to be alone tonight but this is life,
I had made loneliness my best friend.  
I realized that I am where I need to be and that is free,
I would call to Paris but I know not!
the key to a semi-happy life is simply not for me.
I need sufficient distraction of true happiness
that's when I found me.
balance of passion and love and energy I already had it,
so, I distracted myself,
shook off all my pains that others gave  
I just walked away and find my world for me to being.
my gravity pulling sadness to happiness.
I learn to love me and live my own life
and set my heart free.

Judy Emery © 2012
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

You took my heart and beat it to the ground I feel you're love-hate, I feel the cuts eating at my dulcet heart making it cold, please let go.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

In this life, you will see the hate
and the lack of faith
in the people that want to hurt you
shame you
and blame you
just to bring you so much pain.

They just want to leave you out to bleed
like the ink in a pen
that will flow like tears
holding words of fear
that always stands near.

They stand in a hateful crowd shout  lies
hoping one day you will die...
they love to see you cry
because they have hate in their eyes.
they want to bring you down
like a used up clown
because they want your crown.

You must learn to forgive
remember God sees all things
this old life brings
let your soul heal
even if it is so hard to forget
all that they did.

Don't let your heart grow cold
because this old story is old
God is in control
so let this evil just go,
hold on to no grudges of pains of long ago
Let Jehovah God clean your soul.

Moonlight don't look back
looking back to a darkened past
will only bring the pains back
Dark Angel will attack.
that will give him so much power of you
he will do all he can to keep you confused.


Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Sometimes at night, I cry I look to the midnight sky the stars look like shining teardrops the more I look at them the more. My memories come back to when we were so in love. Just thinking back makes me smile in my heart, you will always be the more I think about you I start missing you.

Then I had to ask myself "why?" did you hurt me as you did?
You left me so wounded of you not knowing what is true and what was lies. "Why do I love you?" I think and smile. Maybe because I know what we once had felt so right at that time in our lives, you were a very big part of me.

My list could run on for miles the whispers of your voice still runs in my mind. The warmth of your love and touch of your hands
your kiss so sweet so true. So many little things that had said so much to me. We held on to what we called love.

We sing to each other even at the clubs we were so in love this anyone could see. The songs we sung to each other was called your still the one, your eyes just shine within the mine the deeper we looked within each other's eyes.

You could see the love we have for one another made I love you so much more. The way you support me even in my silly ways the way that you care for me when I was sick. Or got out of hand, you were there for me even when I was blue over you.

You showed me such devotion the way that your kiss fills me with desire and how you held me in so much passion. The way your eyes shine like the stars in the night when you look at me it felt so right.  You act as you were the ''King'' and I was your ''Queen.''

When you look at me my world felt so safe at the time when you were still mine. My love for you was so strong I was so Lost in you forever in love so I had thought, your love was the same for me.
Oh how wrong you are to hurt me as you truly did.

My world changed in a heartbeat when I had found out your love was so untrue. I believed in you, I believe what we had was true
the way that I feel When you are by my side a sense of completeness with an overflowing pride the dreams that I dream had always involved you.

The possibilities that I could see the things that we can do and become but I see our love was only a lies inside my heart, I weep inside my soul, I had lost that part of me. You were that very important part of me.

- Judy Emery © 2013
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

His Eyes are haunting and his kiss is deadly.
Dark Angel kissed me in dark spring
it was all in my dreams
where it is I hear painful screams.
He takes me down;
where all the fallen angels are standing around
just waiting to see him crowned;
yet he only looked at me so he could try to read me
to see what my eyes hold, he can see I'm bold.
Dark Angel cast his spell on me with a death kiss,
I was lost in that moment of another time,
Oh, he is playing on my mind.
I see so many things I never wanted to see
I feel the pains where I had been cast into ancient dreams
where it is I hear all those screams,
not knowing what it all means.
It all was like I was in a play
where so many asking him which way they should walk
or how they should talk or dress for the best
in a wedding fest,-
But in his eyes are very haunting
I see how he watches me day and night
bring on the fright where I must fight for what is right.
I must be insane to feel this away
my life is in his hands where he is always making commands.
I will never understand how he got a hold of me
and how he swept me off my feet,
every time he is near, I start to tremble into fear
as he speaks what's wrong dear,
his slightest touch takes me places I never been
it's like a craving deep within.

- Judy Emery © 1979
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My mind is finding equilibrium
My body is strong
My heart is hanging on
And my mind is finding equilibrium
For my head to stay ******* on
Because I have been ******* up for too long
I don't want to lean on the waves of goodbyes
I watch the storm evaporate in the past of lies
I think of you in starry skies asking myself why
Do I keep you so close to my heart
all you had ever done was to tear it apart
I am on a difficult journey to let it all go
I am looking for the
''Light at the end of this tunnel'' I'm in.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

This old flame has been burning longer
I call upon the fire within my soul
that holds the cuts the marks of careless
dangerous lies of all times
Dark Angel played his games night and day
But that is okay this old flame is burning longer
the flames are growing stronger and the flames are higher
until the enemy won within
Let the fiery tongues talk their lies
lick on the cuts of your lust
taste the flame upon my burning soul
can you feel the heat
this blaze burns the old worm that holds lies
in the flames of the eyes looking back into mine
Dark Angel and all his workers gnawed my soul
to make me weak
they embrace the burn of me
hold me down in misery
until nothing's left but the purest essence of wrath
I will stand up tall this they will see
I will make them feel the burns of me
damaged of careless pains
dark dazed runs deep within the cage
Oh, let my Inferno grow stronger and stronger
until nothing's left of this darkened place
this old fire within growing stronger
burning longer with no end.

- Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

There is a great deal of depression
that has overtaken the land
my soul hurts from long ago,
I lost my way;
then disaster came caused great pain
out was out of control
over what is right all I did was wrong
Just another Sad, sad song  
the rain started pouring down on me
night and day
flooding deep within me,
I was too young to understand
the ways of Lust and Sin
my body craved sinful men
darkness became a game of child play,
My life was never right
in my mother's eyes
No matter how hard I ever try
She would beat me down
and call me names,
The black seed is what she gave  
I was only two when I started
crying out to you
you touched my little heart,
easy my pains from the start
You even gave me food to eat
I would get down on my knees asking you
Please forgive me,
take this pain away from my Mother given me
she cut me down so far down
I was so lost I never thought I would
ever be found,
I would cry and cry deep into the night
asking why my mother didn't want me
She doesn't love me
why did my father leave me?
Without a word of goodbyes
I just saw shame in his eyes
Their ware no words of what was right
in my poor little life
all I have known was everything of the dark
and it made it it's home
given me all its wrongs with no hope
With no Love to show
My life had no loved in it
I almost died in my teens
And my mother didn't even come to see me  
But you did that day
My God you had spoken right too my heart
Saying you love me from the start
When My Mother and father left me
You came in and started taking the lead
I had never let you go
this I put down in my book of long ago
for all to know you are mine
with many of my kind,
This world is so blind
they cannot see what love means
I need you to stand up for what is true
that would be my love for You.

Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

The light in your eyes is starting to fade away
just like night into day
Your words cut deep within
my heart like a bladed glass
I try so hard to keep up a good
the front that nothing is wrong
But inside my head and my heart
is remembering every nasty word
You ever said;
You are constantly fighting with me
who's right and Who's wrong
what a said way this is going  
As soon as I start to feel I can
grasp for air
You start it up all over again
and head to let this pain run
Now I have to accept that you are
Now long gone with someone new
I had enough of the blues
The taste of happiness has faded
To another place was the silence made Home  
This feeling that hunts at me
I have to scream,
I feel the cuts that eat at my soul
I hold on to myself looking around
our old cold has beaten down the room,  
I started having visions
that captive within myself  
Feels as if someone pulling the rug out from me  
Oh I cannot breath  
Please, someone, help me
I fall off my feet onto my face
My heart does feel a beat
I had been cut too deep  
I don't want to give up  
but this is too ruff for me
to handle all on my own  
You left me with all the blames
and so much pain that won't go away
This is killing me slowly within  
I'm holding it all in
But how much can one person take
I try with all my might let it all end
Why darkness tries so hard to make it's
way end another time at my mind
fall over me the cloud of gray
When death has taken its course
This is not who I'm supposed to be  
I always try to remain bright in the love
of my God, JEHOVAH,
But this time my heart holds glimmering
dark stones of You and I of all the wrongs  
Light of a lost souls
I must get my feeling back right
I call on you my God Jehovah
to let me run Free until I have finely found me  
I am asking You, my God, to help me, please
Dust me off from all my sinful ways
let me see brighter days to run in the race.

-Judy Emery © 1993
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I Seem sailors toast to my beauty,
My soft fair skin,
My elegant moves as I walk,
They love the way I talk,
They get so much pleasure
calling out my name
But to me, it’s all the same game,

Without a thought of interest in anything
They had to say; all advantage is mine,
I am the Queen of Darken Dreams,
I used to watch the slaves of all color
When they would speak about me,
I would measure their enthusiasm,

Oh, How Dark Angel eyes would spark
Every time I would call him an old man,
It was like I was seeing the moon fall into the sea
whenever he would look at me,
praised he would say is a certain sense of duty
Oh, my queen, you hold all beauty,

When you smile, you calm the sea,
When you talk many slaves
hear what it is you had to say,
your beauty shines a light into the slave’s eyes
for a lifetime,

Your beauty is in every mirror,
Oh. Moonlight my queen,
Your skin glistened upon the sea of darken dreams,
Dark Angel would say,
I could swim in your eyes,
They look like the open sea,
You flower the soul of many
you give the darkness hope for light,
Each breath you take is another delight,
This is all my personal advantage
You are my queen in darken dreams.

Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

That put a smile upon my face and gave me a limp of faith while the days are still young and let my heart be filled love and laughter where all those words of truth whispers in my sleep taking away all those fear, and kiss all my tears away, words of truth-filled my soul with heaven on my mind. Oh, how it felt so divine, love found me just in time.

- Judy Emery © 2018
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Death was never a place I wanted to see you in nothing changed my love for you stayed the same, but, then something truly has. In silence, I still call out your name.

- Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, beautiful morning how I love you
I pour my coffee set at my desk
making a big mess
Looking at my notebook
ready to start my day
my pen is uncapped
My eyes are gazing at the blank pages
of true mystery that my brain will
set the ink to write what my heart bleeds
for all to read that comes from me
to a world of a poetic mind,

  Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Oh, I should ride the sea
of many dreams ;
I will listen to the roaring
pains the wind will make
I will drink in the drink
that Dark Angel gave
just for me to take the rain
on those sad autumn days.
Behind my ear
I could hear the whispers
of the captivity of many
Oh, I should dance and laugh
because I will never truly give in
this will never be how this story ends,
I will stand tall
like the might tower
I will hold that power
But until then
I will see darken dreams
that holds power over me
oh, how I can hear the howls of the
crying storms that come my way
Oh, how I laugh and dance
among many out in the cold pouring rain,
I could feel cold chains
wile I take in another drink
oh, how my spirit sinks
with throbbing knotted hands
touch me like the cold winters breeze
oh, Why do you like to see me bleed?
Why do you sway over me
just to give me darken dreams?
I will stroll beyond ancient bounds
chain me up and let’s dance
into this cold darken dream you give me.

Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Tears are a big part of my story
they will always be  
flowing free
that filled my eyes
they are the blueprint of me.

the art of my inner beauty
that stains the autumn leaves
are written from tears
and bloodstained ink
as my poor spirit sink.

In darken dreams
is a place I never wanted to be
all I hear or those painful screams
calling out to me...
Oh, how this makes me bleed
wanted so badly to set them free.


Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I had fallen into the dark
it is a long fall of them all
down I go where no one knows
this is how the old story goes,
Dark Angel is always near
holding so much anger and fear
while he calls me his sweet darling
but you can see all his guilt and lies
deep within his eyes ...
He keeps me broken
I am always hoping for peace
my door did linger
while my heart grew weaker
in sorrows and more pains
in darken dreams, it always rains for me.

Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery