Fire colored leaves
smothered the wet autumn grounds
where solace was found
in a time of need
in a place where forgiveness is made
piercing skies painted down
the emotions of my pains
I feel my body going numb
while holding on to memories of you  
Oh, here comes more rain
while I try so hard to hold back
yesterday's pains
Fire colored leaves
has fallen down to the wet ground
where my love does sleep.

Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

When my eyes did see my love
I just ran into his arms and he held on to me
I just rest my head against his chest
when he finally released me
he whispered his love for me
but at that moment I pushed him away
I was in a frightful state
I knew in my heart I loved him to
how much I needed him in my life
I depended on his love
his goodness and happiness
he was so brilliant in so many ways
I loved him but too afraid to let him stay
Oh, he that has a heart that is a fine frame
must stay in the dark of debt
my poor heart never wanted to let him go
but I know how the old story goes
So I let him go to a better place
I gave up the love of my life
Because I never wanted him to have to take
care of all the pains I held within.

- Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, to live on top of the highest mountain
in a castle of a dark cold love
a place I never wanted to be I love summers breeze
please let me be free like a balloon
though my sad lonely years holding on to dreams
praying to here I will be leaving soon
that I have passed my test with no regrets
It's so noisy at the fair far away from here
I love the sound of kids playing around
I bite all my old friends are there
dancing around given candy kisses to a happy clown
little ones holding on to their mother and father
not making a fuss of who is around them if they only have known the eyes that are hunting them
Oh, to live on the top of a darkened mountain
I can see a lot from my darken bedroom
If only they could see me too
Oh, colored balloons of a beautiful moon you see it too
There's a girl just down the away losing her way
Oh, please don't turn to the lying eyes because it will hurt
the pains of him will cut deep within your soul
please walk away with a smile on your face knowing
you said no to the ****, let your color balloons loos
let them fly high into the midnight sky
I pray you had read all the words I had ever written
can you hear my tears fall from my bedroom window
words of my silence words of a woman missing
Did anyone read the hidden note of me?
Oh, to live on top of that cold darken mountain
locked away in a darken dream up in a castle praying for
true love to find me to break the spell that was put on me
oh, colored balloons fly high away into the midnight sky
I want to see freedom even if it is only make-believe it is me
I know I am underneath the stairs that shine so bright
giving back some glares for wishes to be made
to the people who never dream to people who do dream
to the people who sleep in peace
thinking of you're freedom like the color balloons
you're leaving too soon you want to be alone
please hold on to what you have and be glad
never look back at your broken down past
if you do look back you may not find your way back.

- Judy Emery © 1985
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, mysterious moon
you hang so low in the gloom
images of the motionless
but only see eye movement
that stalks out the night
Oh, how you keep me anxiously in fright
The temperature had dropped another notch
I can feel the coldness into the autumn air
color leaves are on the ground
and the birds are lacking the courage to move,
This is a journey of fear
a fantasy of a childhood game
floating away into my brain
I can feel and see all things
that hold a blaze of danger
upon a darkened road to nowhere
this has betokened my future with anger
The old crying wind
made its way back again
making ghostly hues of dangerous cry's
that shaken the night
given more fight to what will happen tonight
then tapping and a groan
bring on the rain of sobbing pains
that was when Dark Angel stood so near.

Judy Emery © 1996
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I don't want an argumentative love
or a fairy tale dream
I just want to look out for me
and be whatever I like
I want to make all my dreams come true
not the ones that make me blue
so I'm ending it with you.

Judy Emery © 1988
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I am beautiful;
but my heart is locked
from the pains of yesterdays
in knowledge, I do have
the good and the bad
I get happy and sad
I get overwhelmed with emotions
of feelings that cut so deep within me,
oh, how my heart
bleeds out in ink
for all to read about me
what it is that I feel
and what isn't seen
on the eyes of hate,
from my own hatters
I stand up for who I am
no matter the pain
that comes my way,
I am Beautiful within my soul
I am elegant yet brave
but at times I am afraid
I am a woman of knowledge
I know I have so much more to learn
as this life keeps on turning,
I will keep doing what it is I love
even when I am aging with time
I will keep on writing
and fighting for me
while the old pen bleeds the ink of me.

- Judy Emery © 1990
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I could see his wild side
all the pain he had to combat
How cold his heart can be when he
starts to think about his history
Out in that pouring rain, he feels his own pains
Forgetful he was not
He could spot you from far
and remember every word you ever said
But he can be warm and sweet
when he is off his feet
His eyes have witnessed more than most
I could talk to him about truth and Love
But I would be only wasting time
Because he only hears one-sided stories.

- Judy Emery © 1979
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Spring tiptoed through the town last night,
Disguised in robes of winter white.
This morning he seems far away from me,
The cold winter's wind made its home again
Right at my feet of you and me,
I feel this hurt haunting my sleep, deep inside
My heart you are leaving me ;
This II hides so others
won't see what you hold to me,
The skies are so gray when our love faded
Away for me, This makes me so crazy don't
You see you are the world to me?

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

The space between
the good and the bad
are the past and the future
the mistakes of heartaches
that has been written
and forgiven
that flows from a dead poets ink pen.  
Judy Emery © 2019
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I have to admit the space is nice
not to have to talk about my life
or look at people in the eye when I need to cry
I just want to be myself without someone telling how
my life needs to be
how I should look
what I must read
what I should write about in life
I feel too naked around a big crowd of liars
While everyone looks down on me
with so much jealousy and hate
Because I won't let them live out my life or dreams
they hate me because they could never be me
I just want to hide
Just run with the wind
where everyone would just stop looking at me
the scars and all the pains that they all have given to me
I want to run free from all of this mess
I've made a nice big bed to lay my head
My mother always said I was nothing but a black seed
Thoughts of emptiness and lost dreams are what she has given to me
I came from a family of darkness
I am so ashamed to ever say they are apart of my bloodline
even the thought of them makes me cry
all they had ever given me is lies and so much blame
look at the mess they made
my soul holds on to all those nasty lies
I can still hear the words of my mother that makes me cry
I have a sister her name is Diane
But then she tries to act as if she is me
she even tells everybody her name is Judy or Lilly
those names belong to me
why is it she can not live her own life
why is she so ashamed of herself
Well I can tell her she will never be me
She is a stain that will never go away
she did her wrongs then put her blames on me
I want to live my own life so give it back
at one time in my life, it was once too hard for me to say no
it was hard for me to know what was right or wrong
when you come from a darken home
I have seven brothers but I won't say their names
but I never had them in my life much
but the one that was in my life was no good
I moved on and set my self free
It’s too easy to fall back in the trap they all set out for me
Who are you to tell me what to do
I am the one that made you look good
move on do you see what you have done
I'm already out the door making a run
I have to remind myself of all the reasons
for letting go of the past I once have known
In my weaker moments, I cry out to my God Jehovah
I keep knocking on the door of my Lord Jesus
I got down on my knees out in the night
with all the pain everyone I once trusted had given me
cuts on my heart that were very deep
looking back, hoping to find something good in my life
that's when I started to cry
there was not even a glimpse of love
Emptiness and so much pain dying out in the cold rain
I'm still holding on to my God's name
I am taking back my own name
I don’t know why everyone has done this to me
but no more the door is closed behind me
I set my life on happiness without the pains of deep loneliness.

- Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The weather is mild it makes my spirit wild
the raging wind is running around me again
making me think of you when your love was true
the rain has stopped just for a moment
When I start to think of you it started all back up again
An old wild wind is very far from done when my spirit
started to run because of your unbinding spells
that put me through so much hell
Weeping willows wave their long tendrils of goodbyes
this is a battle fight just like the wild winds
Passionless bodies that envy love with pointless dreams
like limbs that flaunt in vein into the rain of pain
such narrowness of fame of so much darken memories
You have nothing to offer but wild winds.
- Judy Emery © 1989
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

People talks with hate in their hearts
Spiraling down with broken wings  
Suddenly Dark Angel came
Tomorrow, tomorrow creeps in my  
Mind petty pace day today
Dark Angel comes to give more pain
I hold on to what I feel is right
I hold tight and call it home
I won't let go of what I know
Lies of danger and despair Dark Angel
Feeds in my mind with the look of pain,
Everyone tells me to beware of what is near  
Dark Angel does not scare,
He sits looking over the city of his darkness
The intoxication of darkening souls with rosary's  
In there hand counting in the are ''Prays''
To their lost king  
Jealousy inwardly there hearts screams
I hold on to the light as my soul almost taken flight  
Dark Angel holds on to me and won't let  
My soul runs clean.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

I presuppose you had forgotten me
the time has been passing
word had been made tears are fading
but my love for you is true.
It's almost three years now that we had ended
I still hold on to the promises we made  
but that is our little secret that
no one can ever take away.
We had made so many memories
I have to smile every time I think of you
The moon that we use to watch as we
where given our hearts,
I presume if one was to know what is
in another's heart, we would be in trouble
this is a topic unexplained,
But the evidence is in every campaign
you pour it will be the color of my
birthstone.
It would be the color of my butterfly necklace
You had made for me on my birthday    
But I had to give it away it hurt too bad
to keep it.
I know its time for me to let you go
but my heart keeps telling me no
We made a promise to never give up on what
we had no matter what.
To believe in the love we made
What a crazy thing for me to be so loyal
to a man that hurt me.

- Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, how it all made me cry
for my own life, I was waiting
for a miracle that never came
all that I got are these darken dreams,
where he always makes me scream
he loves to watch me bleed
upon those darken seas
I have seen the falling of rain
that holds so much pain,
what does this mean?

Judy Emery © 2010
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

Come live with me by love,
I want to guide your written lines
of pleasure of a touch of our love,
We will sit upon the rocks of on the
hills by the fields,
The sky has word we can't be defined in
The blink of an eye,
By the river of our love birds sing madrigals
Lets lay in the beds of roses with thousands
Fragrant of the love of this land,
Let me kiss your fears away of lovers past
let us make this love last,
Tell me you want to dance with me in love,
I want to guide your written lines in my life
Inking words with wine-stained rhymes,
A trip on further, pretty and sweet as I can be
To journey in your heart of love,
Seal your heart with love to stay
Twining words with passion's vines I'm glad
Your mine, Lets kiss with love, let us drink our
Wine to our lover's meeting,
You are the one that hung my moon on this June.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I knew deep within my soul
if anyone had ever got close to me
they would get cast into darken dreams
they would have to see all that darkness
they would have to feel all that pain
from their own darken past,
The cuts that get deeper as time goes on
they would feel the body aches
the dislocated of body parts
if they were smart
they would look the other way
not even walk my way to see if I was okay,
if they looked at me too closely
they would find I am somewhere else
my tears will roll down my face like a waterfall
but when the tears fall to the ground
they would make a big sound
like broken glass from the past
and when I was to talk
my voice would be sobbing with no words,
silence would be all they would hear
they would see something
was controlling me
taking over all my emotions
lighting up my breath
given extreme pain deep within
they will see they are going through
the same pain;
so, I know to keep all away from me
if I can but things are starting
to get way out of hand.

Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

OH, velvet moon: How my voice cry's out to you
I liberate my pains out to you
I sat in the cold night to wept in my own loneliness
It is like a war within myself afraid to ask for help
Years and seasons had passed on bye no words of kindness
No words of love ever came my way
All I ever received is the gentle touch of the wind
and the rain that cooled off my silken white skin
My poor heart feels so lost in the humiliation of all
the hurt I held in, dear old friend;
I'm out crying too you again.
- Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I do not know what to think
When love gives so much pain
I do not know what to do I feel
So confused about you
A kiss is a kiss until you let that
One comes within,
Then he hurts you and the pain
He gives it hard to forgive
The pain is so deep within my heart
It is like the cut me with a knife
I am sitting here all alone wondering
Where I have gone wrong,
Tears running down my face like pouring
rain, what a shame this love gave
I will never let you do this to me again
I thought you would be the one
all you did is put my love on the run
My feelings of the blues over you gave me
The flu, kneeling down in my bedroom
By my bed asking God to forgive you,
For hurting me as you did,
now I can move on with life
without the pain of shame
now I can say goodbye
with no tears in my eyes.

- Judy Emery © 1989
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Never let what we have to go weary
never so in woe,
Don't let our love be like dew on darken torn
If I could have a wish come true
it would be always loving you,
Don't let this old life take our love down
never let the light burn out
our love is a gift from heaven above
that is what this world is so jealous of
If I had a forget me not flower
for every time I think about you
I would be walking in a garden
of true love forever with you.

- Judy Emery © 1989
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I am beautiful;
but my heart is locked
from the pains of yesterdays
in knowledge, I do have
the good and the bad
I get happy and sad
I get overwhelmed with emotions
of feelings that cut so deep within me,
oh, how my heart
bleeds out in ink
for all to read about me
what it is that I feel
and what isn't seen
on the eyes of hate,
from my own hatters
I stand up for who I am
no matter the pain
that comes my way,
I am Beautiful within my soul
I am elegant yet brave
but at times I am afraid
I am a woman of knowledge
I know I have so much more to learn
as this life keeps on turning,
I will keep doing what it is I love
even when I am aging with time
I will keep on writing
and fighting for me
while the old pen bleeds the ink of me.

Judy Emery © 1990
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Listen to the old sounds that cry at night
oh how the old wind blows again
holding back the years of pains deep within
I think about the fear I've had so long
I know deep down I must face the pains
but for now, I keep running with the wind
I pray that somebody will listen to my pains
I pray that life will not stay this away
Listen to the fear that's gone on way to long
can anybody help me, please
I am strangled by the wishes
I begged for I hoped for love to find me someday
but all I have is broken down dreams
sooner or later love will find me?
Oh Lord please help me find my way
Holding back the years I held so long
I know this one day will be a song
A chance for me to escape from all I know
it will never be a word untold
I held back my deep emotions of unspoken pains
I held those long chocking tears of being alone
nothing here is wrong but this sad old song
that keeps hanging on
I've wasted all my tears holding on fear
I have no reason to let Love come near
I know I have to take care of what I held deep within
that has been cutting at my heart for a way too long
darkens of a broken home
the scares that yet hasn't held
the words of lies haunt me day and night
Wasted all those years just fighting back the pains
standing alone in the rain
hoping the rain would wash away all my pains
Nothing had the chance to be good
no way not in the hood
Nothing ever could go right with a mother and a father
never by my side, they left me in a cold darken world
all alone with no one to hold me
when the pain got too much for me
I'll keep holding on to the sound of the wind
sing out to me deep within
I made the wind and the capricious moon
they are my only friends.
- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Lovely one, why do you cry tonight?
It is so cold outside but so much colder
Without you in my life
The spring, the water of pouring rain of your pains
It is making a nasty storm coming our way
The smile of your face is a place I love to be
You bring out the sun in spring
Your delicate hands of old age is a beautiful thing
For me to see walking beauty of your words of God
You hold in your heart
The color of dark honey is your eyes that cry's
My love, I am with you I have not left you,
When I see what God gave me It puts a smile on my face
Even if you are old and gray
There are countries, there are rivers, in your eyes
You see paradise I walk through your eyes
They light up my world don't you see?
When I see you, my love, hurting the way you do
It makes my heart so blue don't you see I love you?
Your heart is where I want to be but right now you
Have my heart lost at Sea,
Your voice, your skin of old age don't scare me
It is you, I love on the inside that is what my heart sees
You give me light in my heart you hold the key to me
Oh lovely one why can't you see what you mean to me
When you walk or rest when you sing or sleep
when you suffer or dream, Think of me
When you are near or far, just know you have my heart,
You are mine, my lovely one
always and forever you have my heart.

- Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery