Into late night thoughts, my mind so often drifts to place I once had been that is no sin. But my silence reveals so much more in the majority of the lying eyes. I once had crossed the border of true love summer was once a beautiful thing to see way before autumn and its leaves.
My eyes do look around the drawbridge of time when the moon came out too soon. oh, rain thoughts herald into my mind wishing I was back in that time when true love was on my side. Now all I can see is the pains of rainswept lands that are all around me where tears of ancient memories will never erase from the land of time when love was with me. I will always hold the visions of hope where the light shines through my eyes just to let me know I shell never let go, even when Dark Angel messes with my life.
Memories are sandless of true developments of understandings of ancient memories. I had freed myself every time I think of true love
but now I hold silence beyond intellectual dignity that weeps rainswept pains that reman over me.

- Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh, unsteady shapes haunting out the night

cold darken sea is a silent grave to me,

Dark Angels eyes showed clouded sight to mine

lost in his own darkness that holds fast in his ways

his temptation rise deep in a haze for me,

In a late autumn breeze, I could feel magic out on the sea

that old darken power follows me

like eyes on me at all times

cold touch had laid upon my face

tears had been shed like rain

voices cry out in so many pains

the sounds of kicking and screaming,

But I could never see a thing,

In the ship, we all do sail on an autumn night of Hell

I could hear ringing bells from far

but could never see where it came from

the fog is thick holding tricks of the night

making so much fright

then a voice cried out saying

Drive my sadden thoughts over the sea

and then let it come back to me

with an unextinguished heart

words will turn into ashes in the dark,

Then A stronger voice came over to me

saying ''Moonlight'' do not worry I am with you

that is when a Raven came near for me to see

he has red-yellow eyes shining in the night

looking at me as if the Raven was the one talking to me

But as soon as I started walking towards the raven

it flew away in the fog of the night

but the voice kept saying; I know you can hear me

the Dark Angel out of nowhere appeared,

He walked over to me handing me a glass of wine

saying drink to our love Moonlight

Please don't say a word, Just drink my love

so you will understand all my commands

then he kissed and tasted my tears

then said if you ever get the strength to leave

I will find you and that will not be a good thing for you

So drink and sleep Moonlight don't say a word

let me walk you to your room.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The old ship moved along with forgetfulness through the sharp pains of darken dreams oh winter waves rushing through the night like it was holding fright  to all eyes that could seewhat the storms out on sea brings, The old ship Dark Angel call black pearl the old ship rock and rock ;like it was angry out on the Mediterranean seaon every hour the wind blows and the rain comes downas if death was taking a stand to all men that sail at seaoh how they do bleed what Dark Angel feeds, Tears will fall with no end just like the windthis old fearful story force sight with a hunger in thrustMoonlight stand out from the crowed her as are like angel of light that shines so brightclouds of darkness is making its roundswhile Dark Angel pushes his anger all over the seaeven casting pain upon on his queen wreathed words of error holding on to ignorance, Moonlight has clime the stars of her own beaten down pastthat holds the pains of rain that others gave ; But at times see did find her faith and comfort that gave her the reasons to fight the good fight even if she is being tested by darknessoh fate with jealous eye are always nearbut Moonlight will keep her strength even in darken dreams.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I like you

Yet I Love you

Life is a beautiful gift

the sweet smell of springs beauty

the sky is so ever blue

that gets me to think about you,

On January

I know is the month of your birthday

and on the land is where you once stood

but now all that is just a memory

my blood builds up just knowing you are gone,

I at times find myself laughing at things

you use to do to make me smile when I was a kid

Mom most of the time you stay on my mind

I look through the window of time

just where I could see you again

I miss You

Yet I love you more then any words can ever be written,

Through my eyes will always be tears

I believe this old world is very beautiful

but the hate and the lies and all the crimes

make this world a darken place

that makes the good go bad

This makes me so sad

my own veins don't end in me you see

God is the only one that could set me free,

Mom, I miss you so very much

I always had wondered what it would have been like

if we were close

what would we had talked about

what would we had been doing

But life was never that nice

I struggle most of the time living life without you

even though I didn't want too

Mom I will always love you.


- Judy Emery © 2016
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I wonder do you remember

that cold September?

how you dwelled inside your castle

thinking about me,

Oh how you once seemed to love

watching me out from my bedroom window

you watch while my tears would fall

that is what you loved most of all.

they would remind you of the time

when you had all control over me

like a remembrance of murmurings

the canticles lights that spark like ashes in your eyes,

oh how memories in darken dreams come alive

what appeared to sleep suddenly awakes with time

Dark Angel, you had never truly been forgotten

You will always be remembered every September.

come tomorrow I shall try to forget

Oh how I do regrate ever knowing you

every night I do sleep and dream of you

your eyes are always on me

your touch is cold

your name is always calling me in vain

Do you remember that cold September?

When you had taken me down in silence

made my life a living Hell

Will, I will never forget you.

- Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh flounder mind you move the sea
Oh come and look at me
I pray night and day
for love to come my way,
I look deep with my mind
for the inward part of me
why I had to shout all doors
and now I look for more,
Mine has been working overtime
that keeps me up late at night
that is the way the old sea cry's
leaving my mind stain as glassed
looking beyond the past,
Oh why does my mind keep my heart to flounder?
It is taken me to a place I had once crave
I started feeling so much intense needs
with vivid of hunger of sweet delight
on the other side of my wildest dreams
I would see so much evergreen,
Oh what a beautiful things I did see
into the night the stars did shine so ever bright
re flicking their shades of beauty on the sea
twinkling away at me
all darkness made its round like lost and found
without a sound for solid grounds,
the confusion came over me
like I was lost into a dream
fear and lost made a bust so deadly over me
all my emotions for true devotions
submerged beneath my wildest dreams
the earth was no longer under my feet
oh how I do feel so weak
like a child so scared holding on to fear
that seems to always stand so near,
All the beauty I once had taken in
had shadowed me in so many sins
I was lost and not yet found on true solid grounds
I started feeling empty like the waves of the sea
bringing on sadness in dreams
guilt and hate with so much blame
from the past of another time,
I started thinking about how
often I would be laid in my bed
thinking back to an old beaten down past
my mind moved along like the wind
sing out the sad old sound of back then
now every time I think about sleeping
my mind starts weeping
because I don't want to fall asleep into darken dreams.
This old fear is so dreadful to me
it always comes back to me in nightmares
that eat away at my mind
cutting deep within me
every time I tried to get this off of my mind
I could hear the old wind crying over again
the old strings of time
that was never mine,
All my emotions got lost behind all closed doors
I tried so hard to get what it was I missed
I get up feeling so scared
hold my body like it had been wounded
voices from these closed doors
crying out saying open the door, please
let your pain run out like rain
I started feeling like all my bones were broken,
All walls started building up
my mind didn't want to give up
the truth and love was at my inter doors
but my mind felt all the pain of lost time
My world started crashing down
while everyone else just studs around
just to watch me bleed and weep
like the old wind of time
stripping away my spirit of faith
Oh floundering soul where did you go?

- Judy Emery © 1994
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Dark Angel How could I ever forget you you left me scarred for life
Year after year on every September I will always half to remember your cold touch all your lying words. Your dark evil eyes looking deep within my mine I have to remember you Dark Angel even though I don't want too. You put my life in so much darkness you are something I could never miss. All this pain gives me rain that truly has no end darken thoughts that eat away at my soul
oh how it makes me feel so cold some tell me to let it all go. But if they only know what it is I know then they would understand why I can't wherever I turn a page in life there, you are by my side.
I will always feel you near even when I would like you to disappear. I was young full of life but that all changed when you came my way you have driven away all I ever loved and replaced it with bad thoughts of the gloom of you, Dark Angel, every day is always the same old thing nothing really changed the marks and all those cuts are still very deep within me. every time I dream I could see your eyes staring back at me. In the shadows, you lurk around stalking out my life eating away at my spirit, breaking me down in darken dreams. All hope for freedom is all gone all love, joy, peace I will never feel I can't get you out of my mind. Oh but I try most of the time as you lurk behind all darkness I know deep down You see me looking at you feeling so hopeless just knowing there is no way escaping you. no matter what I do so now I focus on you.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

It is very cold with no one to hold, I have been locked away in the darkness a place I will never miss. once I get away from it sounds of the night keeps me up late at night. oh, how I could feel the fright every time I think about Dark Angels eyes, on that cold September long ago, Dark Angel eating away all that I once have known.
Now he calls me his own Darkness is all he could ever be showed of painful memories Dark Angel brings back to me. Those old memories cut deep within me. My emotions are shattered like glass, oh how I never want to look back fear is always near that is the design of Dark Angels ways mercy beneath my feet whispers of broken spirits crying out into the night holding on to pains of yesterdays.
Thin clouds passing along my window like a sad stranger among the unknown of an atmosphere of darkness embroidering a misleading leadership in a time trumpets of war near the eastern seaboard slaughtered by hate without faith darken dreams are cast out on sea along with me the air of fog reaching deep within holding bloodshed sins.
I think to my soul where did my heart go? can they not see what Dark Angel does to me the dead has come oh so near taken away the breath of life the marks are found are all in the vein of lost time
now I open my eyes from visions, just to find my self locked away in a cold darkened room voices come from the other side of the wall crying out no hope for you Dark Angel gots you.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My Awaking hours are lost in you  
the twenty million billions of
stars shining on high all over the sky  
The moon holding on to every secret
that was ever made,  
The years have been passing like clock
work, but my heart holds on to the  
memories of you,  
I hold on to the picture of you  
You were only five when you were buried
It was so hard for me to ever truly  
say goodbye,  
This pain had almost taken me with you
but life pulled me back to keep on living
for the world to know about you,
So I put you in the sky where the stars
and the moon can shine upon you,
Why I have been trying to pull the stake
out of my heart,
Every night I look out my window just  
to see your beauty shine back at me  
I start talking to the moon all about you,
I want to say how much I miss you  
I love you so much my grandson  
My beautiful angel of this grandmas life  
Just know I will never say goodbye,
My waking hours wishing I could see you  
again oh how my emotions my heart tremble
my mind hearing you calling my name  
oh here comes the rain.

- Judy Emery © 2008
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

  
Lilly Emery
R.I.P My Grandson Jesse  Alvarez

It was the hunting of lust, the year 1836,1 January Dark Angel, thin aching lust of his hunger and needs for me. His penitence is running very thin. He looks on high and low to take control all Dark Angel wants is something he doesn't have that would be love from the higher power. Dark Angel never has known love all he knows is darkness. One day Dark Angel lay'ed eyes on me On my soul. My beauty, My Eyes, that can charm even the sea. My love is not free but yet sweet I never put my heart into something so dark as he. I love God the higher power the one Dark Angel is so very jealous of but that is because he doesn't know who Jehovah God is
He doesn't know who Jesus is all he knows he is angry because I Love God. I would never love someone like Dark Angel so with time he started stalking out everywhere I would go than one night I would hear the sound of darkening winds it was a sound I hadn't heard in a while. But this sound came to me in a darkened dream of screams then I would hear a voice out of the dark calling me
Dark Angel has my name on his wing ''Moonlight '' That is what he call's me because of his eye's. He wants me to be his queen of darkness. I know he must be crazy to think I would love someone as he when the sounds of music make way to his ears running around in his mind he starts to feel lust he goes out for a hunt looking to find a quick fix. His lust is like silvery to a sultry fire of deep desire his envious heart can't stand to lose, his delight un-tortured desire is all he knows but he calls it to love that is what others had thought him. The orphanage should him what pains felt like they told him love is pain. He became God's enemy this is what was told to him he felt he was doomed and with time his name became Dark Angel.  That kills the soul of his people's happiness
when Dark Angel found me I had been walking around town talking to everyone I could find that would here the words of truth.
Telling all who would hear about the true God Jehovah and his only Begotten Son Jesus and his kingdom to come. My love for God is what I lived for but that was not good for the one who stalks me,
Dark Angels eyes wanted what he couldn't have and that is my heart that is true to the highest Dark Angel stalking me in everything I do,  all my beauty burn deep within his darkened soul. Dark Angel is feeling his own flames of evil ecstasy on a cold September night, I started having very bad dreams that were something I haven't had before so I get up and made me some tea, but I felt someone watching me. Through my bedroom window I get up from my bed to see if anyone was outside my bedroom window as I looked around I didn't see anything unusual on the land near my home so I just started to get back into bed and started to read and sip on my tea but then I felt the breath of autumn woods. Within the winter silences, I could hear that old sound of darkening wind cry in deep pain like death like mourning I felt so cold and lost deep within my soul and that is when Dark Angel had started playing games with my mind so when I would sleep I would be afraid of what was waiting for me.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Once upon a midnight fright, A raven found its way into my life, I could see his pains through his eyes while he was looking at me, I started feeling weak and somewhat weary, things are getting kind of scary.
Ding-**** and old bell wrung from far, Oh, how the sound left a mark on my heart. Where words of the past, started making its way back. I felt I was about to have a heart attack when I started getting old flashbacks, over many quieting times of the dark side of my mind.
The curious volume of what was then, I truly thought was forgotten, until the old raven started doing his knocking. He was jabbing and tapping upon my bedroom window. While I was sleeping in the silence of a dream, but before long I have seen myself looked away in a chamber of pain.
A place where the walls are gray and cold, where haunting creepiness is behind the other side of that wall, I hear the screams in true agony, while the raven keeps staring at me. Like he is trying to tell me something with his eyes, He is my only visitor so far in this dark cold room.
The sound muted just for a moment, but then I heard a beating sound of anger pounding at my chamber door. It wasn’t a tapping that is for sure. It was a sound like someone was wanting to even a sore. To lead me in fright for my life, Oh, raven why did you come to the window of my chamber? What is it you are wanting to tell me before this door opens.
The more I look at the ravens’ eyes, I slowly started remembering all those hurtful times, but this raven was always by my side. bring me crumbs and sometimes meat for me to eat. I remember it was in late December when I was out looking for an escape from he who has been haunting me in darken dreams.
I was separated from life, were all my families and friends where, where true love swept over my soul. Visions I always had since my birth. But my life always seemed to be cured. It was okay at first. But with time passing I became eager to be set free, just to see what I could find about my life. Oh. How I could remember how everyone started to change.
They held so much envy and hate in their eyes, But, that was really no surprise. They didn’t seem right to me from the start. They didn’t have love in their heart. Each day and night they would make traps for me to fall into. So, I started studying their every move. They always tried to keep me confused.
Vanity I say, while they looked away. While they were out plotting another fall. But I was borrowing time while they had been playing hateful games on my mind. OH, that late December, I was stroke down with fever. while they had locked me away in my chamber.
Oh, I do remember, that is when I became so ill I almost died. But the Raven kept on tapping on my window to let him in. that’s when we became friends. In the meanwhile, Spells have been cast upon me, which gave me darken dreams of he who haunts me. I could see the silky sad curtains hanging from my window.
The rain was pouring down heavy, I had nothing to eat. But the raven found me water on the leaves of autumn. And he gave me sips of wildlife while he feeds me and watched over me. like if someone from far sent him to keep me safe even in darken dreams.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Every morning starts a good day
with love on its way,
the beautiful light that shines on high
back everything so nice.
makes my heart sing with joy,
looking out my window bay
Seeing the birds flying over the pond
owls hooting away
sing up a love song on the lawn.
what's left of the night you can find
at the beautiful pond,
The moon seating on a hilltop is so near
the pond with its reflection glimmering on.
The black waterfalls sing's it's a sad song
Pouring rain where lovers use to play,
As the sun appears trailing through the clouds,
of its beautiful pink and green wool,
igniting the fields.
Turning the ponds to plates of fire
with some much to desire,
I went for a walk in mid Spring
I carried a bag with a pen clipped into the netting
and my little notebook and a wider
one for long lines.
I thought about the late March wind's
Then I looked all around,
Then I started to write about my life setting by
the beautiful pond crickets of sweet meadows.
Talking to Jehovah my God;
with doves flying on high swooping about
Looking around seeing the creatures therein
the dark flickering,
you can make out one by one
as the light lifts great blue herons.
Wood ducks shaking their shimmering crests
and knee-deep in the purple shallows
I must write and draw this down to show the
World what I have found.
A deer drinking water from the pond,
The silver water crushes like silk,
And the sky full of stars, and a moon with
So much love that shines on us.
The night will make your heart sing
As I look all around me,
I can see Jehovah's love that he has given
our eyes to see the gift he made for us heaven above.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

1886, what a mess Jekyll and Mr. Hyde
running in the dead of the night
holding a deadly secret,
A crime all in one on the run
the good and the bad of one mine
taken down in a bloodshed crime,
Hyde Killing the love of Jekyll
all alone is one an experiment that
could never be undone,
To take down the one and only Jekyll
is a true friend at the end
the horror of ****** cry's of Ivy
Suicide was only a dream,
Hyde came to take her life away
Jekyll and Hyde two in one
I believe good and evil exist in the mix
of each of us,
Fantasies are made in dreams
''Jekyll and Hyde '' is something of the
dark eating away at the mind
and the heart of two personalities of one.

- Judy Emery © 1984
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The evidence of my loneliness
is in the tears I cried every year
wishing you were near,
I never found the companion
that was ever companionable,
I love my winter loneliness
because it brings me back to you,
you are still my favorable one
You were all I had
You were all I needed
to feel so completed.
But now I am all alone setting in
my room talking to the moon about you
hoping one day my words will get to you.

- Judy Emery © 2012
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I know you are out there
somewhere far away
I just wish I could have told
you how much I truly love you,
I just wish you had known
how much I truly miss you
I carefully think about all out
talks around the clock,
Did any of our words run true
or with it all a game we just
played to get each other's way,  
I just didn't know how to show
you what I was feeling inside
I was too scared to show you  
but the damage is done
our lives are on the run
and my heart is all over the place,
all I do is talk to the moon
hoping you are talking to
on the other side like we use to,
I am determined to find a solution
on how to get past you
but I just keep wondering do you
miss me too?
At night when the stars beam in
my room I start thinking of you  
praying to hold you.

- Judy Emery © 2012
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

What joy and satisfaction it gives me  to see that my words
made a difference in your world. The simple to loves is a path to satisfaction of deep appetite of you and me that is all over the place of Washington D.C. our love sealed the sea. Is there something in particular that Love has not given to us if so let find what it is to get the satisfaction of it with our names on it for the world of New Jersey, to see and read on their job of true love research what it is that we have and discovered they want if to love is the satisfaction that makes the world a batter place the satisfaction of love is better physical in heath of mind body and spirit. New York City asks for more I hear business people talking about how Love can heal the broken heart' ed shines a light on fulfilling the need, desires of a Cinderella, and sleeping beauty of a Love ever after like You and me. California to Texas the newspapers have our names in it. The '' employee of satisfaction '' when they read Love is the key. A film of ideas that is much more interesting than its actual satisfactions. Love is the heartfelt need that makes the air easier to breathe love is what the world needs, But you are the satisfaction of me.

- Judy Emery © 1985
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The volume is being written the series of Dark Angel and Moonlight, who seeks to uncover the secrets of her faith
Dark Angel the darkness of lies haunts her day and night. He is the angel of ancient darkness of the lost manuscripts the carved in the hate all over the place of a love gone bad Dark Angel losses his mind.A manuscript of his kind has been written to turn the faith of true light of true love to a nasty dark lies, he makes traps to draw in his victims. It's true when love can make one blind the image of evil thoughts come to the plots when the heart has been broken:
The cuts get deeper at one's heart love is forever lost, Dark Angel; finds love is more complicated than he could have ever known true love never dyes nor ever grows old. Dark Angel a scanners manuscript of his own of all his lies and traps. He had played so many times on Moonlights mind, the head games that had been eating at her soul to beat her down. But he could never take her true vision of the higher ground of true nature of love.

- Judy Emery © 1999
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Her ruby Eye of Medusa casting her spells
all over the land of shipwrecked souls
Medusa sings on hearing winds in the night
why they sleep she seeks to take on her attack
like a thief in the shadows of light.
Her soul is cold:
She is designed with clutching gamed
controlling is her game to take lost souls in
She is so the protagonist
her story that never ends to man.
A pit of lies she holds in her eyes
she is the goddess of the nights
A goddess of true darkness of the stone
she stands alone on her ****** thrown
to take this dark world on that she holds.
She is the Venus in her lover's eyes
that looks upon her beauty in her eyes
this old darken world craves the need to
find her. she will have her way
just look in her dark beautiful ruby eyes
she will cast her spell and make you of stone.
The people that had heard of her story
the raft of the Medusa with the snake hair
will cast her poison everywhere
who dears to drawn near.
Throughout the house of stone
You will see her eyes looking upon
her evil is the menace of her home
Medusa looks were known to cast a spell
to turn her lovers into stone.
A ***** dire reversion  they all felt
in her eyes, they lie with a deep pleasure that
makes mans heart melt for her
the waters below all around her home her lover
will be her predecease stone.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

It's good to feel you near me
why I dream so freely
Tonight feels so right even though
you are only in my dreams
I untangle my worries as if they were
twisted in a net
I hold you with a grip as the night slips
your heart sails through my dream
of a wish to come true
so many kisses from you
when I wake up all I find beside me
is my pillow with your name on it.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

When the evening is spread out against the Autumn sky. Let us bless our love by giving it to the master of it with delight. Let our pleasures of love be wrapped in the stars with the moon in beautiful late June. Let us closely lock our selves together in arms let this love of ours- carriers on too the highest towers. Let our hearts be just one design let it be a token of ever after.

- Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I was so angry with life
I even told the moon my deepest secrets
I cried over and over, my wrath did end
I was so angry with the life of lies.
Crowded rooms all around me
people are creaming in so much agony
my soul reach out to them but they where
already gone cold.
I told the moon what my heart holds
I feel so alone, my wrath did grow
In a world that is so evil and cold.
I sit down in the corner of my darkroom
I feel I am lock in a cage,
I watered in my fears Night and Day with
so many tears that wouldn't go away.
What a forbidding morning
whispers in the wind talking about sin
The breath goes and some stays in the dark
caves of a fool.
absence came like rain with no hope in sight
but the blues getting the Flu
locked away in a dark cage where others
had faded away.
Dark Angel eyes are not like the sun
it's like the ashen moon,
the coral is far redder than his lips'
the black wire he puts on my head
perfume he put on the bed to be wed.
he is so dark his love is rare
there is nothing to compare it with.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Me without you in my life  
Is like a leafless fall
This would be my world so quiet
so lost without you
So alone with no one to hold
my life would be so cold-
A lost soul with no hope with no love
A snow winter without you to keep me warm  
A flowerless spring with no green in spring  
Here was trouble seems to always find
Me and makes me blue  
Me without you I will stay confused
like a boat without water to take afloat  
It is like a colorless rainbow a sunless day.
A starless night with no hope of love
Dead winds on a sleepless night  
Me without you I would dye
Being without you.
Is like the ocean without a wave
the beach without sand
and a flameless fire
A doubtful night of dreams of hurt  
And badness on my mind wondering  
What you are doing all the time without  
Me holding at night  
Me without you
Is like a book without words
without pages
A man without a face,
and a child with no name
a love that never came
All I would have is the rain
I am tired of tears I need laughter  
I need to feel your love
I need a body to hold me all NIGHT!
Do I need to say more?

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Sitting on a log
hoping and wishing
true love will find me

I live under a spell
that was cast on me
I live by the river.

wishing someone is
praying and crying
for a frog-like me.

I must wait to see
what the moon has
for me in my frog
dream of what life could
truly be for me.

I dream of a prince
to find me and kiss me
to break the spell
and love me forever.

When the change comes
I will be so happy
to get out of the doom
of sadness, I am in.

Oh moon you will always
be my true friend
right to the very end

I like to be very quiet
you see not too make
anyone angry at me

I want my true freedom
I don't want my life
to end in a frog madness

I hopped back on-
the lily pad that sat in
the river I call home.

- Judy Emery © 2004
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Sometimes at night, I cry I look to the midnight sky the stars look like shining teardrops the more I look at them the more. My memories come back to when we were so in love. Just thinking back makes me smile in my heart, you will always be the more I think about you I start missing you.

Then I had to ask myself "why?" did you hurt me as you did?
You left me so wounded of you not knowing what is true and what was lies. "Why do I love you?" I think and smile. Maybe because I know what we once had felt so right at that time in our lives, you were a very big part of me.

My list could run on for miles the whispers of your voice still runs in my mind. The warmth of your love and touch of your hands
your kiss so sweet so true. So many little things that had said so much to me. We held on to what we called love.

We sing to each other even at the clubs we were so in love this anyone could see. The songs we sung to each other was called your still the one, your eyes just shine within the mine the deeper we looked within each other's eyes.

You could see the love we have for one another made I love you so much more. The way you support me even in my silly ways the way that you care for me when I was sick. Or got out of hand, you were there for me even when I was blue over you.

You showed me such devotion the way that your kiss fills me with desire and how you held me in so much passion. The way your eyes shine like the stars in the night when you look at me it felt so right.  You act as you were the ''King'' and I was your ''Queen.''

When you look at me my world felt so safe at the time when you were still mine. My love for you was so strong I was so Lost in you forever in love so I had thought, your love was the same for me.
Oh how wrong you are to hurt me as you truly did.

My world changed in a heartbeat when I had found out your love was so untrue. I believed in you, I believe what we had was true
the way that I feel When you are by my side a sense of completeness with an overflowing pride the dreams that I dream had always involved you.

The possibilities that I could see the things that we can do and become but I see our love was only a lies inside my heart, I weep inside my soul, I had lost that part of me. You were that very important part of me.

- Judy Emery © 2013
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The sea is calm tonight the tide is full and the moon is lite the stars lie fair the gleams are gone the cliff is high with the sad sky. The sea of faith was once a place I was with you. Ah, Love why couldn't we had been true to one another the world is right with us, the moon lies before we like to make dreams, why are you not with me to make that dream come true, I hath nothing without you. I only hear the wind blow cold by the sea talking to me lonely is me without you.

- Judy Emery © 1982
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

As I sleep I fly on high in my mind as high as birds
angels fly deep in the sky
Then the sky in my mind climbs
My mind starts to discover my heart
has been wounded
I was shot right out of the sky
No clouds
No crying
No time to lose
I didn't want to feel confused
when renewed
One I had known the depth part of me
Was shot cut wounded like a bird
The colorful features
of these emotions
Feeling no hope was
And darkness was trying to make a way in
lay on the face of all things
The air of life touched my heart of history
knowledge of value
style of true reality
I see all the possibilities of what my life could be
Then Love of my true self-worth came rushing in
as high as a bird
I steer these invisible wings
Wishing on reaching as high as angels and birds
could fly sentimental sighs
I escape the realities of being wounded in my dreams
I reach for reality and open my eyes
Like angels to fly on high like birds in the sky
Nature produces the greatest results
the greatest of self-worth the simplest means
These are simply the sun and the air
we breathe the flowers water and true self-love.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Tell me that you love me, You won't leave me,
Hold me like you once did in June,
without your Love, my heart will be Cut in two
I won't be anymore Beautiful
without your love I'm Empty
with your love I'm Full,
You put color in my Life
Tell me that you love me, and You will keep dancing with me!
without your love, I couldn't see Life the same,
My beauty will never shine,
My night skies will be like ashen  with no passion
No color in my world,
Tell me that you love me, that I am Your one and only.
I want to be sure that you are the only mine
Tell me that you love me
Or just give me any sign.
I need to know this Love is for reals, and not a Game.
Because without your love
My beauty I couldn't see when others look at me.
You had always told me I was Your Queen,
And You will always be my King,
I remember when You use to say you could swim across the deepest sea just to find me to keep me, to always Love me,
If You no longer love me.
I'll break the chains around me and be free,
But my Life would never be what it use to be,
With those three words
My life you could change
With those three words
You can free me from my lonely cage
And let me fly in Your Love and out of rage.
with You Loving me I could Escape my kingdom of fears
That I've been living in for so many years.
I would shed no tears of sadness just knowing You are near,
Hold me, my Love,
Dance with me with passion,
Let Your love supports me to be strong and to carry on.
Your love makes me feel that I'm right for the first time in my life,
all the world is the wrong bore all the lies,
To you, I will belong and my Life will carry on to a new song,
My love to you is true and strong,
I believe it will never die as Long as your Love shines,
I always wish every night at every star
That we could make a new spark in the heart of each other
To make this Love last forever together
No matter how far we are.
Just tell me that you love me and I will be Your Queen for Life.

- Judy Emery © 2007
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Its been almost three years now
not one sound did I every say too you
I just let you walk away and left me blue
being peaceful I should be still
even in my most lonely hours
I still hear the ocean sing out to me
I hold on to every sound the waves made
I just walk along the bay in silence
wishing I was walking with you
Oh, Love may be given
and Love may be spoken, and another out
too seek love but never find it  
my joy is the leaping wave out to play
upon the sea holding dreams
in silence is me standing feeling the breeze
I closed my eyes just too see your face
I remember the song you had sung to me
I was so moved by your tears of love came
to me that night.
I remember when you told me I will never
be alone ever again because you are my man
and we danced why you were kissing my tears
away in silence is where my heart will be
without you standing with me.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Missing you, hoping one day I will see you again, maybe that too is a sine! You and I are too blame for letting what we had come to an end. I think to myself love like you really was sweet when your heart started loving me.

It is too hard to find with anybody else like what we have, all of this is like a fairytale, written down in books, were so many needed to take a look, and now they all got hooked. I am missing the funny ways you would brighten up my days.

You had always found a way to get me to laugh, no matter how sad or bad things were, you knew just what to say when I was hurt.
You had always had a way to keep a smile on my face.m I am truly missing you.

Missing us in your truck holding on to each other while the old moon shined down on us. I remember our song playing on the radio and you would hold me close like there wasn't going to be a tomorrow. I miss our talks our little fights, you always felt you had to be right all the time.

I miss you holding me while we would walk in the rain trying so hard to wash away each other's pains. I know what we had is lost in the past, but I keep on hoping you still love me. My heart feels you when you are thinking of me too just to say I Love you.

- Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Scientists did there best to understand what love was all about;
It was a time in our lives where we had to say goodbye.
The words of true compassion spilling out from the tears
that flowed from the eyes
where my heartfelt so crushed.
yet volunteering to love,-
whereas leaving made me so very confused.
words flowed from the heart very thoughtful used
yet my heartfelt so abused,
It left me wounded like a wild animal
looking for shatter that would heal my wounds.
It was cold and bitter I felt the disaster behind the goodbyes
that told the story of what we left behind or eyes,
there it all began the careful tread-
of all the words that were said
where we chose to love instead.

- Judy Emery © 1981
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

My heart is worn
it is full of sorrow
tears are fallen
my eyes are swollen
the wind is blowing in its sadness throughout the night.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The spell isn't yet broken, the charm is flowing!
the seas are roaring, people are moaning;
Dark Angel is still casting more spells
giving so many a life of hell.
In the month of dark September, a nightmare to remember;
I the poetess looking at the seas, while my heart truly bleeds.
This poetess that I am holds no reputation of any kind of true talent
but my tears that wept into ink, is what truly speaks.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

I knew deep within my soul if anyone had ever got close to me
they would get cast into darkening dreams. They would have to see all that darkness they would have to feel all that pain from their own darken past.

The cuts that get deeper with time as life goes so does the pain that still reams, body aches, as so many tries tom look at my dislocated body parts if they were smart they would look the other way. And never walk my way to see if I was okay.

If they looked at me too closely they would find I am somewhere else my tears will roll down my face like a waterfall but when the tears fall to the ground, they would make a big sound like broken glass from the past and when I was to talk my voice would be sobbing with no words.

Silence would be all they would hear they would see something
was controlling me, taking over all my emotions lighting up my breath given extreme pain deep within, they will see they are going through the same pain. I know to keep all away from me if I can but things are starting to get way out of hand.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Preciously waiting in the dark holding on to my heart it's beating like abate without wings waiting to see if this love is true I walk away in the pain of blues that Dark Angel had given me. He keeps on telling me that I need him as the lost sea needs me oh, always in my dreams I would hear it scream.

The noise was everywhere! The wave crashing in and out all over the slated land where I stand with Dark Angel holding my hand
He just looked at me with no care in his eyes only darkness Shed in his eyes like the dead. Just one tear to let me know you even cared.
He whispers in my ear just to say.

he will always be with me he will never leave, he will even find me in dreams. Dance with me in the rain to wash away your fears my dear. Tell me what you see in me to make you hurt me. Dark Angel, he smiled and said love is painful.

Love makes the heart weep where you can never sleep this is the love I give and this is what you, I will receive it from me if you are with me. He has taken hold of my small waist narrowing his hands almost at my ribs just to get a closer feel of what he hungers for.

I will never let you go without a fight he looked deep in my eyes I started to cry while he started screaming at me, I felt so much agony as he held me close, then ask me for a second dose of dance in the rain in a thunderstorm of his pain of deep control.

I want to be free this you got to know please, Dark Angel, let me go
I will keep saying I Love you if you want me to but I just want to be free my heart is made from gold I want you to please let me go, you don't have to be so mean to me. I will say in the rain I love you.

I love you in the cold in the snow but you know that will never be true. It has been a long year dancing in the rain with you. I keep my eye shut because your lust is too much, you take me down to take me apart in so much pain.

You take my heart and beat it to the ground I feel your love, I feel the cuts eating at my dulcet heart making it cold, please let go.  the night the velvet Moon cried for me too while Dark Angel took over my life like a thief in a cold dark night with no one in sight but the moon.

Tell me you would never leave he would tell me you need me like I need air to breathe I cried with hurt in my eyes but the rain was coming down so hard you could never see my tears to be found.
darkness and pain is the life you have given me I cried out with shivers down my spine losing my mind out in the cold.
  
I looked at him as he takes my hand for the next dance to get under my skin. You have my heart and you locked it down as he spins me around he uses his words as a weapon from my soul to fear but I will not shed any more tears for you to hear.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Moonlight dances under the moonbeam sky,
whereas the stars did shine into her eyes.
She walks in her own beauty,-
as life clings to her.


-Judy Emery © 1998
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Judy Emery

So, many Hatters has cast their stones but I'm not frightened of them anymore, the cold pits of their lies have come to them with a big surprise when they no longer see I hold no fear in my eyes, for the ones that have cast their stones upon my soul. Oh, the darkness of true sadness has passed me on by now what I see is the beauty of a sunrise ray of rejoicing, because love is with me the window of my cold room has been Broken in late June for all to see love is with me. Now all my hatters who have cast their stones just to see me bleed, now they cry out my name in their own pains of darken dreams.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Oh how hard it is to turn one's steps around
I sat and I pray for this loss and pain to go away
As I see many walking astray,
Oh how this pain cuts me like a knife,
No one shall come and another one must go
This is a place I don't belong,
Like any other, I must go on the break of dawn to
Save another soul from doing what is wrong
I must teach and lead another in to know Jehovah’s
Ways to walk,
But in my heart, I cry out for the lost sheep to find
Their way back home, and for them to know they
Are not walking alone if they just Call on his name
And Jehovah will make way,-
You can hear the lost cry out for love but they will
Never find, the whole night through no love will
Dwell and they are all cried out,-
If they can survive this long winter and let Jehovah
God delivers what needs to be taken place in their lives ;
One day they will get the see ''Parricide '',
The pain will go away and they will never have to see
Another sad lonely day if they would only walk in Jehovah’s way.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Dark Angel walks about in a darken crowed,
Saying in a very loud voice;
‘’Listen to me,’’ I am your ancient history
that brings on darken dreams,
study me and you will find
I’m not all that kind.
all eyes were on him while he speaks,
eyes of demons flamed the night
while Dark Angel made a fight
he placed his hands out
just to see who would be so mean
to stand up to him;
then he would say; do you want to taste
my pain while I bring on more rain
while your body aches,
come who will take that stand?
that’s when everything had gone silent
not one word was spoken;
then the river started to hue
while the wind blows
the motionless night became a big fright
all that was in sight;
every breath of life
was taken that night,
the eyes turn red
while they were laying on the wet ground
they all looked dead with no sound,
they started to go in deep convulsions,
many hours passed so very fast
the old ancient river filled up with tears
bring on more fears;
the night is cold where the moon hung low
the desert looked pale  
and the wet sand is cold
where the slave's blood did flow
where their spirit has gone
no one truly knows.

- Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

Dreams of darkness roll around in my mind where I hear the screams most of the time. I see blackbirds in the fields looking kinda ill, I hear a voice crying out over the land saying: "Comes the little blackbirds and tell me all your lies," the bird of death sitting in its nest always taking in another breath.

The little blackbirds just look around as they stand hidden in a crowd, shadows that are dark and powerful, Oh, little blackbirds what are you going to do when he comes to get you?  You already know you will soon be found and bound as your body feels so cold, yet you still try to stand so bold while he locks you back up in your own cage, Oh, don't you feel the rage? when he drinks up all the water you crave.

You will have a mirror of your ugliness, you must pay for all you have done that kept loved ones always on the run, life is a beautiful gift, and love is as beautiful as one could ever receive so why did you try to take it from them? Oh, Little blackbirds look what you have done! You whispered lies to keep other birds just to get them to flock with you.

Your secrets are deadly full of poison and fear, but soon that too will despair from this old atmosphere, little blackbirds, you will soon be caught you will never be free from this cage of darken dreams.

- Judy Emery © 1980
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

A summer morning all dressed in black
in silent tears, I could never hold back,-
spirit sunken gave a chill deep within
body cold were life is no longer
I keep my prayers for God to make me stronger,-
It was a warning calling as my tears fall
a bad storm is brewing beneath it all.

- Judy Emery © 2018
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

When we finely departed
In silence and tears
I was left brokenhearted
that lasted for too many years
I longed for peace that never came to me,
I cried for hours in darken dreams
walking around in fears,-
While I kept hearing the screams.

- Judy Emery © 1983
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Poetic Lilly Emery

The crowd got him to leave he told me I was a fool, but what he didn’t know the day he left I got control of my life again, freedom from the pain he gave, I didn’t know what love was yet, So, I believed all the lies he ever told, Oh, how he made my life feel so cold. He would always come around deep into the night just to give me more fright, he would always tell me, love isn’t what you think love is a word that will always make you sink. Love is a show, a game people plays just to get their way. It’s like having a dream then ends with pain a place that will leave you broken, love is never what it seems, all it will do is make you scream. It’s like watching a movie just to see it all fall apart at the end. Oh, how I learned never to trust a soul every again, I would never let anyone get close all my desires for love flown out the window and the wind would roll, pushing the waves around the sea, While the sobbing whispers of he who keeps haunting me.

- Judy Emery © 2017
The Queen Of Darken Dreams Lilly Emery