I love you.
I often said the words, but I still got the same nervousness as the first time.
Wondering if one day the word will mean something, Different then, I see your life mixed in with mine.
If this were a book, I would read it every night until all the words were memorized front to back.
I hope this is my last beginning to a forever person.
I love you until I find a word only meant for us.

I fly; I fly until I can't anymore.
I fly; I fly until everything makes sense.
I wonder if one day I can finally stay in one place.
I fly again, hoping it will seem like a small memory in the end.

Her love didn’t fade, but she was afraid he would leave without a word.
So she took a chance and did it first.
Only to regret it after the fire had already started.
He never thought of leaving, but her inner voice never listened.
Her love didn’t fade, but the thoughts of him doing it first got too loud to handle.
She never learned how to say any of it out loud,
In the end, she falls too fast and leaves too soon.

One day it will all make sense.
For now, we stay wishing for the day to come sooner.

If only he understood how hard it is not to Relapse,
To Ignore the buzzing in my head that screams at night.
If only he could see the fear behind the smiles,
the Numbness after all Images go through my mind.
One day it won't affect me,
But today, I hope for a second chance.

Please stay a little longer,
my heart isn't ready to fall apart.
Deep down you know we're meant to be, this can't be all in my head.
Give me one more chance, is what I want to say.
But you taught me not to fight for someone whose heart is already out the door.
Please stay a little longer, Before leaving my life without looking back.

Medicine,
I wish I didn't need it to survive.
Take a sip of water to swallow the pill keeping me alive.
Medicine,
I used to think it was a weakness to rely on something to make me feel "normal."
Medicine,
Either make me better or worse, but I wouldn't be here without it.