Karmic expenses
Endless depression
Clouding my senses
Hiding possessions
Drug consequences
Hear my confessions

I don’t feel golden,
For my crown is heavy like lead
Some days I don’t get out of bed
And I have this voice in my head

The voice tells me to push forward
To always push forward,
For there is a destiny waiting for me
I can see it unfolding finally

Through years of pain
I called up to the voice
My tortured shouts were in vain
Because all that fell upon me was rain

That rain has since ended
The light that I’ve befriended
Has turned my dark soul to gold.

I feel love
I see doves
From above
Kingdom reign

She shows love
I play tough
She shows up
In my brain

Watch her run
I’m no fun
She said “hon,
Your insane”

In the club
Drugs on us
I’m the plug
Heal your pain

I don’t understand what the spirits are telling me
I have no interest in what these snakes are selling me
I’m sipping poison and getting lost in the melody
The psychos in charge want to give me a felony

I can’t let my heart run away again
But it always feels so good
My love is diseased, watch her condemn
I really think that she should
Try to make it right, make amends
But I know she never would
This is why every night I ascend
Into the dark sky welcoming the end

I didn’t know what I was thinking
Everyone around me was drinking
And I didn’t realize I was sinking

The illusion of reality is melting away,
The people are apathetic
The colors are fading
The song is falling out of tune

Soon all will see the world as it truly is,
Through the eyes of the hermit
Through the hunger of the destitute
Through the songs of the widowed

They’ll finally see the world as I see it,
Stripped of emotion
Painted with faded colors
As the birds sing sad songs

She moved slowly in observance
Her silent stares made me nervous
When will she pounce?
She wants to be chased
I got lost in the race
When I broke her heart,
I couldn’t look her in the face

My intuition is metallic
My amnesia is epiphanic
My existence is enigmatic
My ideas are problematic

The shadows are my protector
I’m in lust with a bad spectre
My ancestors they select her
Masculine hero on a ******

I don’t vibe with society
They’ve only ever lied to me
To be alone, I’d die to be
Make me **** my sobriety

Everybody is the same
They just watch me writhe in pain

I see darkness when I meditate
To hide this deep pain, I medicate
To meet my death, I won’t hesitate
From this scarred body, I separate

I can’t escape them
Parasites drain me
broken people seek me
And I am left with nothing
Negative thoughts control me
They are not my own
This world is diseased

Visions of her face are torturous
She controls my thoughts like a sorceress
Her heart’s the furthest thing from virtuous
She takes, she takes, she takes control
Find love before you’re ruined by heartbreak
She’s a pro at avoiding heartache
Snatched my heart and ran away
I pray that she’ll return someday
I’m not ok but it’s ok

Lilith cast a spell on me
I can’t control what I think
I still see her in my dreams
Someone take this gun from me

Her love spell made me insane
Amateur witch ruined my brain
I take drugs to numb the pain
My soul is forever changed

It hurts me whenever I lose a lyric
Sometimes life distracts my spirit
These words are much more to me than lyrics
They are answers given to me in sanctity by spirits

I know our feelings are dead but they still visit me at night
I stay up high in my bed your ghost stays with me in my sight
I thought when you went away that I would be alright
But that wasn’t true my feelings are blue and our love ain’t right

My ancestors claw at my ankles from their graves
Who knew I’d want to die at this early age
22 cycles around the sun 22 in my grave
Got a 22 against my skull I think the caliber needs to be raised

Raise me from the dead girl
Our love is unnatural
Give me your wings girl
Keep my horns as collateral

My ancestors chose you
I had no say
Do what your supposed to
don’t run away

I know our feelings are dead but they still visit me at night
I stay up high in my bed your ghost stays with me in my sight
I thought when you went away that I would be alright
But that wasn’t true my feelings are blue and our love ain’t right

She thought she was an angel
‘Til she realized she couldn’t save me
She thought she was poison ivy
When she realized she could break me

All of these girls are shallow like puddles
Her mind stays on material, she’s trouble
Her mind state is fragile, I watch it crumble
I used to be a man, now I’m something more
She used to be an angel, now she’s a ****** *****