trust is like a China plate !







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do something like this
do something like you never did

leave my poetries
read my heart

hmmm,
when you say someone dear
does it means that,
the person is special to you
but why to a STRANGER we call dear ?
is it because the person isn't special to ourselves ?
For me
It's just so much fun
when I call my ex as dear
and then I see
he's all burnt up .....

that's why,
I've been hiding your name
If you can't uphold my love
then you'll get infamous
in my friend circle.

Tell me all I want to hear,
tell me as you hold me near.

tell me all you wanna say,
tell me ever since we met that day.

tell me why do you care,
tell me why do you bear.

tell me what should I do,
tell me, you said someone cares but who ?.

tell me why you say me dear,
tell me otherwise it keeps me under fear.

tell me all what is true,
tell me when everyone are being cruel to you.

tell me why you don't listen to me,
tell me what you are pretending to be ?.

tell me why all this is so tough,
tell me what you mean by love.

tell me when everything is done,
tell me by irritating me do you have fun ?.

Come on ... tell me quick...!!!

Build me up

       put me high in sky

     then take the sunshine for
            yourself

     slowly peel me away
      
      then knock me down

        watch me fall

       watch the blood seep from my
        soul

      I'll apologize for bleeding
     from the fall

         and let your colours shine;babe

      unable me to hold back the
       word *****

       I became sick as I watch you walk
       away

        you carry a piece of my heart and
        add it to your stupid collections

       a little less me
  
       a little more you

       now I'm falling like black slime
       dripping down by bones

       causing me to fall on
       knees with pain I sit

       nothing hurts than a
       word *****

I stopped him
he replied ;
let me go
when I let him go
he replied ;
"I wanted this only"

so
tell me
what should I write ?
on this last page
because you have left before it !

they say I've changed
I replied;
yeah...!
like the rose breaks and turns into another colour

something
                        sometimes
                     ­    any habit
                  or only my silence
                          ........ ........
                         he recalls ?

your love is like
pieces of glass
and
my love is like
walking bare feet
on it.

I have a secret
                    It tears me apart
                  each and everyday
           waking its way to my heart

                      I have a secret
           something I cannot destroy
                you can't mess around
          cause this secret is not a toy

                      I have a secret  
           It keeps me awake at night
             sometimes I cannot sleep
                  became of all fright

                     I have a secret
             that's killing me inside
               keeping the real me
               locked away to hide

                    I have a secret
             that's making me die
              I'm not getting tired
       but it's hard to say goodbye

                    I have a secret
               I'm not getting well
              and the worst part is
                   I have a secret
                 that I cannot tell

One....., two......, five......, ten.....,
I count this over and over again.

twenty....., fifty......, one hundred......., and two......,
how many times you said that you loved me true.

one thousand....., six hundred....., and five.....,
how many times you stood there and lied.

four billion....., nine thousand....., six hundred.....,and ten.....,
how many chances I've given you over and over again.

eleven million....., six billion....., nine million......,then some,
how many feelings have you undone.

seven lakhs....., nine hundred......, five lakhs to read,
with this breakup will forever bleed

although it was not all before,
and it can't be ever restored.

There's a boy that everyone knows,
beautiful chin, had no worries no word.

he hates his body, says he is fat,
he shouldn't hate himself, but doesn't know that.

he is a boy with biggest smile,
no one knows he forces up his bike.

feels worthless, ugly, abandoned, wasted,
no one knows the tears he has wasted.

cries himself to sleep at night,
and smiles again once it is bright.

he pulls the blade across his skin,
takes comfort in the pain he's in.

he loves the sight of his own blood,
he wants to see the beautiful flood.

he once said; he wished he was dead,
he meant it, wasn't just in his head.

this is a boy that nobody knows,
inside his walls he's forever enclosed.

A place in heart was forever reserved,
the one that loved but won't deserve.

He loved the sight of my blood,
he wanted to see the beautiful flood.

He once said he wished I was dead,
he meant it, wasn't only in his head.

This is him that nobody knows,
inside a bad personality forever enclosed.