Who or what I wonder now
Sow what’s hidden I forget to howl
In times to struggle I thought was there
Without to think without a care

Be kind be gentle of what you think
Life of struggle the smell of ink
Every word and every sign
Not being the truth to find

I’m deep of sorrow in every way
There to believe hidden in hay
Key to find unlock to open
Nothing to have hands of spoken

I am
You are
To be
Forever far

I am
You see
To know
Forever me

I am
You keep
To show
Forever deep

I am
You saw
To love
Forever yours

I hear inside, I push,  I try
to say what stops the nigh
of knowing hidden so high
hands will show of one goodbye

Around to swirl, repeat the storm
Inner voice, feel what’s worn
Repeat repeat,  silence torn
One word out loud for ever morn

Push the button, reveal the power
Out loud, one day,  clouds will shower
Every step, mast of tower
My voice of sound outside will flower

You wished the world did not repeat
I’m the one here now to sit in your seat
My little friend inside so cold
Taken away your  body forever told

You hurt you hid covers to wear
You thought that life was unfair
Surrendered to the devils cut
Numb to feel pit of dust

No fairy tales you had to reap
The fruit of apple give me to eat
Skip of time no rope you had
It’s me to help your music to beat

I’m here for you now split in two
To stutter your voice believe in you
Only one who understands
The misery the wounds sun of blue

Will you still love me when truth comes out
Will you still love me for what it’s about
Will you still love me forever I fight
Will you still love me this day and night

Will you still love me when I sat beside
Will you still love me when I tried to hide
Will you still love me for hurt on my eyes
Will you still love me when I tried to die

Will you still love me no hurt that I gave
Will you still love me when I mis behaved
Will you still love me now that your gone
Will you still love me forever that was wrong

You will still love me when  I scream of sad
You will  still love me the pain that was mad
You will still love me to live life so far
You will still love me the soul you are

You once was in the living now
Footprints left, the boots worn
and walk along the stick to ground
In living times ,heart now torn

Days now fade the stream  of past
Hidden hands, leaves, crisp down
to echo back a million miles
In living times, beat no sound

Nights of rest the shooting mind
Remembered dreams, real life times
will flash the stars so full to stare
In living times, Dad of mine.

Always looking for that something
Not sure what or know not
So far back with blank of light
Through the glass doors shut tight

Always searching for hidden finds
Hands dig deep or deep to dig
Be still to listen ears of sound
Lines of wooden bound

Always searching for standing still
Roots of past or past of roots
Running thunder tapping round
Stop to step the underground

Flow of life
Scattered seeds
Thunder calls
Growing needs

Flow of pain
Broken trees
Gust of courage
Open speech

Flow of peace
Buttercup hands
Warmth beneath
Firmly ground

What where, why, when who
Questions, are they true
To ask I would
Arms across I stood

What where, why, when who
Does it matter too
To ask if true
Straight up I grew

What, where, why when who
No time to think
Mirror to blink
Reflect at you

Hold what ?
Time to take
Hold what ?
Winters fake
Hold what ?
Breeze of green
Hold what ?
Hands between

Sorry words that not spoken
In times of hidden broken
To hear the world split apart
Spoken not that words sorry

Sorry sound that not hear
Inside to hide pain of fear
To see the flowers empty vase
Hear  not that sound sorry

Sorry sees what eyes of touch
Outside the frost of rush
Closed doors of every night
Touch of eyes what sees
Sorry

It’s the simple things
That makes us smile
From bread to butter
It’s all worthwhile.

It’s the simple things
Will walk a mile
From smoke to fire
It’s all worthwhile

It’s the simple things
Inside to admire
From sugar and spice
it’s all worthwhile

Are we to blame
Thoughts that came
Made of mind
Born of kind

Are we to blame
Walk the strain
Hidden path
Release of aftermath

Are we to blame
Touch to sane
Real or fake
There to take

Are we to blame
Play no fame
Stage no seat
No blame we keep

Sorry it had to be this way
Sorry that you could not stay
Sorry that it had to be told
The life of me I had to unfold

Sorry that you were here no more
Sorry for the tears of no joy
Sorry I really wished you to stay
The life of me I would still hide today

Sorry I miss you so much
Sorry the arm you cannot touch
Sorry cannot hear you’re wisdom to taught
The life of me it was not my fault

Sorry I’m sorry I loved you so much
Sorry the words young I had no crutch
Sorry for the times i was no good child
The life of me thought in the wild

Sorry the word used no thought
Sorry we should of been taught
Sorry blame to be held hidden
The life of me would not have been ridden

Sorry this day had to come
Sorry in the chair I had to become
Sorry I had to voice to be well
The life of me releasing the hell

If I was a kid I never know what
If I was a kid I never say not
If I was a kid I fight the lot
If I was a kid I cry to forgot

If I was a kid I wonder why
If I was a kid I look in the sky
If I was a kid I see no light
If I was a kid the mighty fright

If I was a kid I never not know
If I was a kid how would I show
If I was a kid the day of grow
If I was a kid my bike would blow

If I was a kid I see no why
If I was a kid the stars in the sky
If I was a kid to paint my life
If I was a kid I’d push in the knife


I’m now grown up little and low
I’m now grown up still not to know
I’m now grown up questions I ask
I’m now grown up about my past

I’m now grown up to see what’s there
I’m now grown up to speak where
I’m now grown up inside I care
I’m now grown up begins the stare

I’m now grown up to fight the days
I’m now grown up to find my way
I’m now grown up come what may
I’m now grown up when you took it away

I’m now grown up to speak or stutter
I’m now grown up to feel what flutters
I’m now grown up there to bare
I’m now grown up to tread those stairs

New breath
Begins
Once more

New touch
Unfolds
Another door

New sight
Allows
Freedom saw

Here to lay still with silence
Freeze the hands ticking in time
Stop to press and watch to pause
Mend the hands rough in line

Moon so full in times that reflect
Stars so tiny wishing to all
Shooting to send to soar and try
The world around flash in the sky

Brushes stroke gently the flow
Colours mixed red yellow and blue
Blank to begin the gaps within
Pictures that hang hidden to show

Black the day that sun was broken
Locks of curls flow in the wind
Dress of white not worn to be spoken
Cut off when life was sinned

Sharp the silver soul to mortal
Tears no joy exist life’s years
Held the force pain of brutal
Piercing eyes sound that hears

Curled in ball no book of words
Fire no light no arms to wrap
Shiver of wood rot of  sword
Shadow of me was fear to sap

Words of a poem
Hidden in time
Words of a poem
Written of signs

Words of a poem
Strong inside
Words of a poem
Oh my i cry

Words of a poem
Little and worn
Words of a poem
World of sorn

Words of a poem
Past of gone
Words of a poem
Where Life Belongs

When times are times of trouble to die
I’m here and now to wonder I sigh
Forgotten to know of heaven to be
To keep

When choices are choices forgotten lot
Your here I feel my hotting of got
Deep of fire of burning times
To find

When flight are flights so blue of high
Together of visions of play no show
Memories to sit a room to feel
I will

Ask me a question
Echo of words
Ask me a question
The world will observe
Ask me a question
No time for mistakes
Ask me a question
Darkest of caves
Ask me a question
No white of waves

My hands will speak my day of truth
Body in shock cold so blue
Push away my left for right
To know inside the words shut tight

My stutter to hold the tears to fall
Shout out loud winters call
No drops will rest to leave
Flow away the ice that grieves

Swallows flight ahead to gulp
Heart to beat the warmth to pulp
Wake up of flutter eyes of wide
Move on to swing and be alive

If I’m to say what where or why
I see no point in life to fly
To be and gone is one wish to blow
I wonder and never ever not know

If I’m to speak inner voice
I see no world about of choice
Inside is hurting for ever a day
To know to show to grow I say

If I’m to go outside to play
The sun will shine not today
Lay forever still to silence
Not old not grey fists of violence

Remember, words as you watched to laugh
Islands that flowered, glass of an eye
In between stood of time
Aloud, no words of mine

Remember, footprints  tide washed in
Bench to drown, paint what’s blue
Water to sip the stones away
Drops, forever to stain

Remember, birds open to prey
Turn of the card, magic of play
Early you rise air that you bring
Words, song I will sing

Deep so deep of what to say
I know what’s right wrong the days
In my mind forgiven back
It’s there I know my life to crack

Deep oh deep of hidden scars
It’s there I know no shooting stars
Why oh why is left with right
It’s there I know without the light

Deep so deep of there to show
Holding on no letting go
Memories are here back and forth
It’s there I know written in chalk

Deep so deep forgotten rhyme
It’s now come out in therapy time
Healing won’t heal holding on
It’s there I know the times of wrong

Deep oh deep I wish to play
To see again the stars away
Help me to relive again
No sound I make repeat the same

Ask me how I want my time
Shout to speak back of mind
Play no act of visions to show
Stop the lies hidden I know

Ask me how I want my time
Fear no fear of what’s behind
Trust my mind body to care
Stutter to stop release to share

Ask me how I want my time
Pray the night to sleep of rhyme
Black of board add to take
One wish in well to make me safe

Ask me how I want my time
No answer of revenge oh my
Protect out there until love died
Hold to sigh breath of lies

Who am I mind wanders to know
Not me not you who wears those clothes
Size up knowing what to do
Choice of what those colours show

Looking back white was black
Detached the house to show my woes
Written back for rhymes to show
Life just happened not really to know

Blank pages of crosswords to find
The time that healed forgotten mind
Word of games reveal to answer
Days too old to become wiser

Play me a song
Forget me not
Chorus to echo
Forget me not
Deep to bellow
Forget me not

Believe the belief
How to see
Troubles across
Forgotten needs

Go of the now
Stitch of cotton
Soft of a touch
Needs forgotten

Calm to begin
Lay still of the night
Lights of shadow
Forgotten needs bright

Little I walk in days gone back
Plaster the walls of hidden cracks
Porch of doors that begin to open
Sores to remember no time of chosen

Room of games crossed to play
Eyes to burn no words of say
Hands held out numb no crutch
Pray of hands squeeze to hush

No face to see to shut outright
Blank out to return day of night
Fly of time went by and by
Relive of life to bury the lie