It's what I've given you from that hug until eternity.  It's the strongest part of me but also the frailist.  It gives me the energy to go on day after day because of love. It's never failed me but it's been injured a few times in the past. I trust you with it because you cause it to heal and gets it pumping stronger with everyday. You will always have it...it'll never fail us.  It sustains me during the times apart because it holds you in the very center with every moment we've had and will continue to have.

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I'm always thankful to God who brought us into each others lives. I'm thankful for you, you do so much for me by just simply loving me. I appreciate every moment I have to spend with you no matter if its homework or just saying hello. I appreciate your beautiful smile when we pass. I appreciate your thoughts of others, it tells me who you are. It speaks volumes about you. I appreciate your attentive ear when I'm wound up. You always calm me. I appreciate your brilliant mind, the way you focus. I appreciate our future where I'll show daily how really thankful for you and everything you do. I'm forever appreciating you always, my love.

Dedicated to my beautiful, Special K, the one I'm most thankful for

It's the pulse of life, as we know it. It can be in rhythm or without. It's the tune our heart makes as it pulses through one cavity into another traveling the universe within oneself. Sometimes I think it plays a melody to attract our mate. It's the one song I love to hear from my Special K. The tempo quickens when we are together. It's the rhythm and tune of our love.

If you were a book, you'd be my favorite read.
If you were a painting, you'd be my favorite view.
If you were a season, you'd be my favorite time of year.
If you were a bottle of wine, I'd savor every drop.
If you were a flower, you'd be the center of garden.
If you were a vacation spot, you'd be the place I'd live.
If you were a rhythm, you'd be the only  one I'd dance to.
If you were a song, you'd  be the only one I'd ever sing.
If you were but a moment in time, I'd live for that moment.
You are my favorite of all things, everything I adore.  The reason and purpose, all I live for.


Dedicated to my love, my Special K.

Walk with me, hand in hand. This is just one thing I desire. Lean into me when you shoulder or you know I need a hug. I struggle to hold my unfiltered love from you. I long for the day to walk in the Divine love that we share as your companion, your help mate, your lover, your friend, your protector, your appreciator,  and hopefully one day your husband. Waiting patiently for the days that I can hold you a little longer. Kiss you a little deeper. To be intertwined when we awake in the mornings. Waking only for days of exploring our life together. Traveling seeing the sights and talking about endless adventures. I know how fortunate I am to have found such a wonderous, Special love. I can't wait to explore the vastness of our love together.


Dedicated to my love, my Special K

The only thing I want is simply to be there. In the times, you need a simple hug, I want to be there. When you need a laugh after a crazy day at work, I want to be there. When your up late at night worrying about your children, I want to be there. When you've had that rough night and just need an ear, I want to be there. When you need your back rubbed or pain rubbed away, I want to be there. When you've achieved everything and get rewarded, I want to be there. The nights it's dark and lonely, I want to be there. The days you want to journey to pick berries, I want to be there. When you need help gardening, I want to be there. When in your car, when the music overwhelms you and you begin to sing, I want to be there. When you want to take a walk, I want to be there. Everyday and every moment, I want simply just to be there. That's the kind of love I have to give...to be there when you need me and when you don't. I want to be there to grow old with you, when we are fibble and when we don't remember so well...I want to be there. I want to be there to encourage you, support you, love you. I will always be there....


Dedicated to my love, my Special K

When I think of home its always with you. The snow filled trees the winter bliss as we snowshoe around our land, spending time with family and friends. Our small gardens of flowers, the beautiful arrangements throughout the yard are pleasant dreams because its the time we spent together that caused them to bloom just like our relationship. Our summers are filled with joyful laughter, lounging in the sun wherever we may be, kayaking or tubing in our leisure time. The fall we travel to the mountains to see the colors of the ridges dressed in the finest colors. Though we travel you and i are home sweet home. Time passes by seasons change our love for one another never does it just grows and overflows, we are young and in love and thats all that matters. Spending every moment with you is like heaven to me, no matter the season, weather, or time; to know are hearts are one and forever intertwined.

Foreverly home sweet home with my Special K

I enjoyed meeting you this morning for breakfast. It wasn't the food I wanted it was the time I could spend with you. I know breakfast is one of the most important meals of the day, but every second or moment with you is essential. It's crazy the restaurant we eat at often is called Cravings, because I'm always craving the time we share. I cant wait for the day we ride home together and take care of all cravings before or after breakfast.

Dedicated to Special K, my love

I'd trade a beautiful mansion in Heaven to live with you in a cardboard box. Heaven is always a place I longed for, but now it's just spending time with you, love. I wonder how choirs of Angel's sound at times, but lately I think only of the harmony of the song I'm going to sing to you. The streets of gold I imagine or so pure it seems as glass, but I love my snow covered roads in Wisconsin because they lead me to you. God the creator of Heaven in which He rules and reigns, also brought me to you. So I feel as everyday I come closer to heaven with you my beautiful angel. The beautiful images of Heaven or portrayed in my mind are overshadowed by you, I think it's because of the love we share. I stare at you and I feel like I'm in heaven on earth. I know my forever home will always be with you, here or there.

Dedicated to my beloved, Special K

Most will remember me by the way I talk with my southern slang, some remember me for my silly laugh. But the way I want to be remembered is by the way I loved you. How I hold you tight or how we cuddle on the couch. The way I brush your hair or how I rub your feet. How I want to take all your aches and pains away and give you a smile to see your eyes twinkling with delight. How I work hard to build our home that only love can build. How I delight in cooking for you my love. The way I support you in everything. That's what I want to be remembered for...in how I love you.

Dedicated to my love, my Special K

Is act like i dont want you, thats the furtherest thing from the truth.
Not looking your way as i walk by, my eyes cant help but want to behold your beauty.
To not tell you a million times i love you, its not just saying the words buts its all the verbage love brings.
To not smile when i encounter you, its the blissful state of our love running over.
Some how ill have to manage all my feelings for you, **** i need self control.
Everything ive been through youve been by my side and now im here and i have to hold back until "one day".
This is the hardest thing ill ever do!

Dedicated to Special K

I often dream of our future, we are often lying in our sleeping bag under the big sky. We stare into the beautiful heavens where you come from. The view is spectacular but how I see it is in the reflection of your eyes. The embers from our campfire flicker into the night air. I'm amazed at this atmosphere, the beauty of you out shines the galaxies. Lying there with you is like heaven to me. Our love is amazing.

Dedicated to Special K

Some shed for guilt, some for pain but those that are shed now are only for the overwhelming joy. Streaming down my face crossing over my smile. Coming from the greatest joy caused by you. Your love for me causes this. It's the washing of the windows of the soul full of bliss. Foreverly I'll be sappy because of you, I've found love.

Dedicated to Special K

It's not because I'll forget. It's because I want others to know that love does exist. It's not a fairytale or some well written manuscript, it's living this miraculous life everyday looking forward to seeing or hearing from my love, to be included in moments of her life. It may with time be a way to reflect on how our love has blossomed over the years. If only but one thing be written about me I hope it would be how devoted and how I love her. My life would be completed with just those simple words. I love Special K.

Dedicated to my love, my Special K

My eyes often wonder to see the fullness of your lips. I remember the tenderness of your lips from our last kiss. As I draw near you, I feel the electricity of the touch as our lips meet. As our mouths open to take each other in, my heart pounds, pulse races for this is the first fruit of our love. I often don't want the kiss to end. No matter if its us greeting each other or when we depart, I know this our expression of love at the start. One day, it will follow our dos. We will spend the rest of our lives kissing and embracing our marvelous love.

Dedicated to my love, Special K

I often wonder what causes the pains of the heart from love. Is that I am so close to bliss but not have it everyday? Is the longing of the heart just to be near the one you love? Maybe it's the resistance when being pulled in many directions. Or us that I'm so emerged in the depths of love, I can't see anything else. Is it that I just need to hear those three simple words, I love you? Is it that I miss the touch of her hand on my cheek as we kiss? Or the embrace that I miss? I often pounder statements I've spoken. Like I wish I could breath her in and never exhale. Is the fact I need her more than she needs me? It's been just a few hours since I spoke last but I desperately need to hear her voice. Is that I fail to love myself as much as I love her? Is it wondering what our future holds? Is it that I'm afraid and fail to be brave? I know I love, I just wonder why there's pain.
Dedicated to my love, Special K

My love for you right now would be notorious. I chase you like the wind grabbing a hold but not able to maintain the grip. If loving you is wrong then I'll always be an outlaw. My notoriety would be the way I hold you for the moment wanting only to take care of all your needs, to have your beautiful smile in return. If there was a story to be told of our love, it would be more than a fable or a fairytale. We have lived this way for three plus years, a taboo relationship. We both know it's more than that; it's a love that will last a lifetime. If you were Bonnie, I'd be your Clyde. If you were Belle Star, I'd be your Jessie James. If we had to live a life on the run I'd want no other to be with. For now, my love may be known as notorious but to me it's always right. I'll keep chasing you forever, my love.

Dedicated to my one and only love, my Special K

Its soon to be one of my favorite holidays, spending it with my favorite person makes it even better. It's not the presents under the tree but your presence in my life that has made this the best Christmas ever. Wrapping presents together, sharing time together is all I ever need. You make everyday better than the day before. It's our first Christmas and I promise we will always spend it here in Wisconsin where us together make home.

Dedicated to Special K

It's how you make me feel when we are together. It's the safety we provide each other. The appreciation and mutual respect for one another fills every room. Love is our foundation and the journey is just beginning. You and me completing each other. No matter the shape of our surroundings, we find bliss and happiness in the simple things. From the touch of our hands to the kiss we share, our desires are one and the same. Each day we spend together causes the foundation of love to grow. I'm not sure if any other couple feels this way but I know this is so real, simple, easy; our love is everlasting. I know I have not in my 50 years ever felt this way. Now this is the only way I want to feel. For it feels like a home should. I could never leave this, this my eternity, my bliss.

Dedicated to my love, Special K, my forever home is together with you.

I find it easy to love you because you've shown me what love is. You've given me a smile because of your kindness. You given me a purpose, a reason because I want to be the man who gives you a smile everyday for others to enjoy. To be honest I'd be lost without you because you've provide light in my darkness. Everyday gets easier because one day I'll open the door and you'll be here for the rest of my life. Your warmth of touch consumes me because it's genuine. I've always been a survivor, a loaner because that's my nature. But I no longer label myself that because of your hug, love; I just want to be home... it's not the house but it's any place with you, my love. Because four walls and a roof may be a shelter but you are my sanctuary, all that I adore. Because you bring peace in this war ravaged mind, beauty to the eyes where all I've known is death, comfort from one touch, a word from you brings forth a fountain of hope, you've given me laughter instead of sadness. Because of you...I'm loved.


Dedicated to my love, Special K, my forever

When I found you, I wasn't looking for anything but I found everything. I found a reason to wake each day, with a hope for the future. I found love that showed me I was loved. I found the woman I want to wake next to everyday of this life. The woman that gave me a purpose, a drive to be the best man I can be, not to glory in it, but to live each day with anticipation of holding her and loving her the way she loves me. When I found you, I found my soulmate, my best friend, my sassy love, My Special K. When I found you, I knew I discovered the most precious of things to live for. I found a reason to fight and win over cancer. I found beauty in the simplest of things. I found wakefulness from the mundain things of this life. I found a wonderous joy, that wakes me up with a smile. I found my universe, my HOME, my helpmate, my travel partner, my hope, my wife one day, my REASON, my PURPOSE. I found you when you hugged me and I'm never letting go.

Dedicated to my love, my Special K

As you lean into me, you pull me close. It's wonderful to feel you next to me in the morning hours. My fingers running through your hair, your scent feels the air. Feeling the warmth next to me, has me waking care free. Today, I just wake up with the memories of one of those moments until the next moment we have. To wake up with one of those heavenly kisses, it's what I'm missing. To know your safe always in our place... together. Brings comfort to the waking mind, because how often can you find love of this kind? I say only once in a lifetime, so beautiful I hope this explains how precious each one of these moments are.


Dedicated to my love, my Special K

ust wanted to take time and say hi. I'm always wondering how you are when we apart. I know God's taking care of you until the day I can. I can't wait till the mornings when I wake you with breakfast to start your day off right. To spend time with you going to flea markets, talking, lounging, kayaking, whatever it may be; it will always be time well spent. Until the evening closes and night draws near, till we lay down and I kiss you goodnight just to repeat it each and everyday. This is the only wish I ever hope for. Loving you every night and day always.

Dedicated to my beautiful, love, my Special K

Being away causes a stirring in my soul for you are my soul mate. The one I long for with all my being. From the taste of your lips, I starve because once you've tasted the best nothing else can compare. The softness of your touch, your hand in mine, electricity flowing with no lack of energy. The blissfulness stays from that moment to the next. Your beauty captivates my being, I long to be next to you always. Your voice is what I love to hear. I crave every part of you and ask you to consume me, so that I can be always a part of you. You are all I desire, hope for, and dream of...you are my future in which I crave.

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I miss the late night text about work. The daily phone calls talking about our home. The miles that kept us apart but still managed to walk enjoying the night air. The singing of the coyotes in the distance as the wind played along with the vibrating of the electric line. The comfort of knowing you were just one floor below me. I miss the nights around the bonfires as the glow danced around your cheek. The nights of giggling on the couch followed by the kiss on your lips. Breathing in your scent as I hold you tight like I long to every night. I miss you laughing at my southern slang. I miss the beauty of the sun sets as I tried to describe in just words... describing a beauty to someone who is just as breathtaking. I know the things I miss is only short lived until we become us in the distant future.


Dedicated to my only love, my Special K

We often go by what we see or how we feel.  Today, the sky appears so gray with the snow lying on the sides of the road. But somewhere above those clouds the sun shines the sky is that beautiful blue we miss in the winter times. Often we feel inadequate taking care of others forsaken ourselves to the point of exhaustion. We often feel alone and want the misery to end. The truth is we are never alone, we are loved. The feel of inadequacy will leave us soon enough. The feeling of being near the end, its a lie we tell ourselves. Reach out take the love by the hand. We are needed. We will prevail. The tears we shed everyday in that fleeting moment are what we water our hopes with. Believe me I've hit the end a few times. My beautiful angel is always there. Love does win out in the end. For it was the tears, the heart ache, the point of giving up, that watered our hopes and caused our love to grow stronger. Faith, now that's the part I'm talking about today. It's not what we see or feel that matters. It's applying that knowledge and trusting it. It will come to pass. Faith, hope, love, it's the reason I'm here.

Dedicated to my love, Special K

Legacy, Footprint, Fingerprint

When I think of passing I often wonder what my legacy would've been if I had a child. Would I have passed on the words of wisdom that was handed down to me. Would I have breathed in the enjoyment of riches just spending time, ensuring they would have known that I loved them. I wonder if I would of been one of those tight nit families always breaking bread together and enjoying the laughter around the table. Would have I passed on my desire for adventure, to learn what it truly means to live.

I wonder if I left a footprint in some lives. Not just journeying through foreign lands. I pray I never trespassed or caused any harm. My hope the only footprint I ever left was going to help or to bring some joys to some lives. If somehow I left a footprint in the wrong, I hope that whoever I disturbed could forgive me.

I hope when my time has come that I left fingerprints. Where I touched a life and brought an encouraging word. I pray that my fingerprints would be left in every hand of the one's I love. I wonder if my fingerprints would remain in the things I built for others, not in the structures but in their lives. A fingerprint left on building up rather than tearing down. I'd rather live this world knowing that I made it better than the way I found it.

I'm not saying it is my time. It's just the things I ponder as I grow older.

It was a warm summer night, when I felt Heaven, your arms around me. It was a long journey until I found Heaven. The tolls of war had overtaken me in my mind. I was lost in reality, knowing no way turn. I found Heaven, when I met you, or at least a messenger from there. You brought peace where torment once lurked. The vision of you was delight to my eyes. I found comfort in the depths of your hazel eyes. I asked you then to have me to stay but it wasn't the appointed time. I left my world crashing, my health fading. I was unsure of what was ahold of me. Two months passed, every moment agony. I thought why would God bring me to a place of peace only to lead me away. Cancer, the scariest word this warrior has heard. I stumbled to call you. Fear crept in. I only thought I would see the promise, but not able to partake. I would surely die before I could return. But you heard my every words though drowned in tears. You gave me hope to fight, to overcome, and to prevail. I told my friends I was returning to the joy of my life. Where the red wing black beards flew freely from field to field, reminding me of the joyful youth. The path to Heaven were I walk everyday since my return. Knowing your near, all fears erased and failures paved the way to love. You've been beside in secret the whole way. Even now, no one knows of us and our love. Day by day, I feel Heaven coming even near when I'm beside my love forever.  They say that before death comes your life flashes before your eyes. I say I only hope I see all my days with flash before me. I've lived hell to many years without you. But it's what it took, to show me how to love and appreciate you. I know there are many journeys ahead of us even now. There's our home, the cabin, to build. The trails to walk hand in hand in our forest, on our land. Until the ground is beat down for your ancestors to see, the amazing gardens we've built. Oh the memories, we will make. Until one day, my body fades away and I sit and wait at the gate until you my love make your grand entrance to be by my side on the other side. Heaven always be with you, my Special K.

Forever loving you, My Beautiful Special K.

It's the time I have with you, I want and need it to linger. Not in my mind or heart, but the tangible presence. The essence of staring into your soul through those hazel eyes. To embracing your hand, the energy I feel, the longing for to last. The hug and kiss of your lips, I want it to last till the next.
Your beautiful words through those luscious lips, I hear echoing in my soul. The aroma of you mixed with the fragrance you wear is intoxicating, I want to be drunk on you without end. Your kindheartedness and love amazes me, there is no end. After yet our moment for now, yet you linger here with me at home.

Dedicated to my love, Special K