I loved you
Till it hurt
Now it hurts to think
That I ever loved you.

I wanted you
For forever and more
But now infinitely
I have thoughts of loss.

Gazing at each other
Time floated away
Now our brief moments
Drift us further apart.

We made a pact
Of happiness
Now sorrow
Reigns over my heart.

A thread of promises
Made by young, bustling love
All left unfulfilled
Now tear the fabric of my heart.

Do you remember our yarns?
That spun images of bliss
Do you even remember the hue
Of the painting of our fledgling love?

When did we change
To become the rest
Please bring us back
To the fresh canvas of our start.

I want to sew a bond
So great and unwavering
That we can wear it till infinity
Without the need of a ****.

Love me not
As I do you
Can see you not
Suffer what I do

Forsook a plethora
of love and laughter
Adopted an aura
of despair and shatter

Left behind roses
with radiating hues
For unhealthy doses
of repeated blues

Peace of mind
cherished ever
Left behind
to be found not forever

Please, Love
Love me not
As I do you...

I still remember the last time I saw you
and I remember the day I realized
it was really over

but life goes on, as things do
however, I still find myself
thinking about you

I’ve seen other people,
I’m sure you have too
but still, I really, truly do
myss you

why can't I be like the rain drops
on my bedroom window
they cling to the glass
but when time is up
they let go
and run down in soft rivulets
onto their next destination

Right, alright
Let me sleep, through the night
Clouds, so high
Can they hear, my sigh?

Dream, I might
Of a sound, or sight
But where, do I find
Love, of a kind?

Fairytales, into dreams
Of movie-like, romantic scenes
Soft nothings, whispered
Gazes held, moments treasured.

And then, I may slip
Into the opposite, the flip
Emotions, bridled
Smiles, plastered.

Right, alright
Let me wake, to the light
Hopes, so high
Can they hear, my sigh?

As I lie with my thoughts
Slowly swirling about me
A criss-cross here
And a wavy line there
As I try to frame them
Now voice an emotion
An intermittent dot appears
The dreaded full stop
As I try to resist
The despair and anger
I can't help but think
Why the wall
As I again and again resolve
To wallow and waddle
Alone in my muddy, murky paths
What is apparent
Is that
It's a world of opposites
There is no solitude
Even in thoughts
And no company
In a companion
And...
As I lie alone with my thoughts
I wonder who will
Eventually, maybe
Hear me, listen actually
And understand.