Most people don't know what love is
I do.
It's when you're sad and someone is there for you
Can hold you
Can kiss you
Can tell you that everything is alright
Can say that you're pretty
That you matter
In this world of hate
and judgment.
Its when someone can be there for you.
Can support you
Can encourage you.
But it has its downsides.
Like when its used only to get another kiss
Only to touch you
When you don't want to be touched
Only to make you think that you matter
Just to find out
It was all a lie.

Crashing.
Burning.
Fast.
Too fast.
No stop.
No control.
Its a disaster
A huge mess
That I can't clean
Because I don't know how.
Its a snowball
Rolling down a hill
crashing into trees
along the way
But I get through.
Somehow
I get through.

In 20 years I will
Have forgotten about 8th grade
About the hell I went through
About how I felt I was in a cave
Filling with water
No escape
No one there for me
No one to save me
There, I drowned
Everything collapsing
Around me
No escape
No one there for me
No one to save me
The water was my thoughts
The awful thoughts that filled me
No escape
No one there for me
No one to save me
All the drama
The bullying
The anxiety
Everything collapsing
Around me
No escape
No one there for me
No one to save me

You make a sand castle
You make it too close
The tide comes in
Gone
Your hard work
Gone
Some people will give up
Others will keep trying
People are like the tide
They will knock you down
If you give up
They win
If you try again
They lose
Don't let them win