Drowning in my Sorrows with Whisky and Nicotine
I swear I’m in trouble when it’s pouring rain
Shedding my tears by this highway lane
Somebody help me, Oh help me to ease this pain
I swear I was a better man When you were next to me
If you are not there then what’s the point of it
I’ll get up tomorrow again with a smile on my face
I’ll put on my mask for the world, but I’m not myself
Till then I’ll light up again, baby I know
Cigarettes won’t **** me but this loneliness will
I swear I was a better man When you were next to me
If you are not there then what’s the point of it
I hate to admit But I was young and a self-centered *****
I’m sorry for throwing a fit
And now I agree we were a misfit

this place is a mess
It doesn't make any sense
I have to, take a guess
What happened to my ******* nest?
hey, who the hell are these guests?
and why are they sleeping in my bed?
why can't they see me scream?
are these people ******* facebook memes?
how did this house of one become a house of 4?
one is a ****, the other two are dumb and the third one is broke
hey! no one can live like this,
everyone needs a little bit of bliss
and I'm not even sorry, because I dissed you, you *****
you ***** should just go home and leave me the hell alone

No matter what you say,
The memories of your love stay with you
slowly creeping from behind
in the back of your mind
influencing every choice you make
no matter how hard you try
all of those memories keep you tied, tied to the past
you see her walking by with another guy's arm around her waist
this rage fills you up and you wanna twist their necks
you look yourself in the mirror and you see a monster you haven't seen before
it smiles back at you and you fill fulfilled
The one you once called your beau has now turned into a **
And you walked through a black door and fire six blows
painted the door color red then the cops came and said he should have been on meds
but it's too late cause he's dead
this is the tale of an insane, who evaded jail
and is now in hell

I have been smoking outside
In this cold harsh winter's night
Thinking about the lies
That I have said to get you by my side,
All these plans that I had made
Is now full of regrets
As the cigarette burns away
It reminds me of how you walked away
I swear I will change, I will change for good
If you give me one last chance
So, darling don't think twice
And fall for me one more time

Somewhere far,
Somewhere bright,
Is a place where I want to travel to And
Leave all these miseries and sorrows
For a brighter tomorrow;
For I’m the one who’s life has been a ride full of adversities and hardships and now
This heartache is getting too much for me to handle
If this goes on, I’ll soon turn mental
Oh! Lord, please be kind and gentle
And take me to a place where it is transcendental

It must be gratifying
to know who you are,
It must feel extraordinary
to go on a journey
to find yourself.
I can't make you love me
when I don't even know myself,
In the mirror, I saw my reflection
but all there was, was an imitation.
Burning deep within was someone
full of anxiety and fear who chained himself up
and was afraid to let go of this facade