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Daniel Justice Sep 2019
Its been almost 30 years
There has been a river of tears.
How have I made this long without you?

I tell myself it was just meant to be
But honestly it was because of a mistake from me
I acted childishly, and refused to believe you'd come back like you said you would.
I made a choice and felt it was good

I let you go and thought I would never look back
That was just a lie I told myself.

Everyday for 30 years I looked back.
I have a good family and wife who loves me. But she knows there's something that haunts me.
I don't know what to do.  
I know what my heart says, but I need to do whats right.
Daniel Justice Mar 2019
It’s been so long
I’ve built a wall so tall and strong

I have left my
Happiness behind
And lived a life of numbness

I want my old self back
I am afraid to let him out
Afraid of what others would think
How others would see me

I used to be larger than life
Now I’m nonexistent
Living in the shadows to not draw attention

I used to be the attention
I loved the attention
I loved life

Now I’m here not happy or sad
Just here

I want to tear this wall down
I want to break through this numbness
I want to be ME
I don’t want to care what others think

But for now I’m here, numb, not happy or sad
But I will come back, I have to come back
I can’t stay in the shadows forever

Look out world, I’ve been silent long enough!!!!
I want to be me!!
This is for all of us who live life numb, and want to be ourselves.  I hope it will reach at least one person, then I can say it was a success.
Daniel Justice Feb 2019
No one knows how it feels to be alone.
No one knows cause you won’t let them in.
You try a million things to fill the empty void.
But nothing fills the emptiness.
People tell you how great you are, but they are just being nice.
You’ve made so many mistakes that you feel there’s no return.
You want to do right and you try real hard, but your flesh is stronger than your spirit. You fight and fight, but the flesh always wins.
You want someone to love you. Many say that they do, but in the end they just let you down, no matter what you do.
You’ve been betrayed and lied to so many many times.
You want to believe there is good out there, but you just can’t seem to find it.
You struggle each day to give the appearance of a smile. Inside you’re tormented by the knowledge of how it really is.
You have a wife you have kids, you have a good job, but in the end if you don’t have love, intimacy, companionship, you have nothing. You have to have all three or you sole will be empty.
Daniel Justice Feb 2019
Can I kiss you
I have waited for so long

I yearn to taste you lips
Pressed against mine

Do they taste the same as when we’re young?

Have they grown more experienced over time?

Will we feel the same electricity when they touch?

I need to known these answers
So I will ask one last time

Can I kiss you?
Daniel Justice Feb 2019
I have a responsibility
I have a reputation
I people who count on me
I have people who take me for granted
I am not sad, but I am not happy.
I am numb
I do the things I’m supposed to
But there’s so much more I want to do
I know what society says
But I know what heart says.
I never thought I would ever have another chance at my love of a lifetime
But that chance has come
How HOW can I drop where I am and
Run to her, leaving chaos in my wake
I don’t want to hurt anyone
I just want to live
How can I suppress the feelings
My flesh is weak
My heart is strong
Why should I even have a choice
I have learned to live with the life I have chosen and was doing fine
Now I’m spinning off in all directions
Where will I land?
Daniel Justice Feb 2019
I need to bite and tear and gnaw some flesh
I need to **** on your neck and lick you all over
The anticipation is killing me
I need a release
I need to get myself calm
I think of your beauty and I fall into the trap again
I cant resist you
My heart is strong, but my flesh is weak
I am afraid of being with you, cause I have 30 years of pent up aggression and anxiety waiting to unleash on you.  
I have dreamed for 30 years of ravishing you.
Making you squeal
Making you wet
Making you squirm
Making you want me.
I am so confused and don’t know what to do
Daniel Justice Feb 2019
How
How can you sleep when I am yearning so bad
How can you go on like everything is fine.
It’s not fine, I am clawing my way out of my skin to be with you
I am
Biting my lips and no amount of cold showers will satisfy my urge

I want to be with you every hour of everyday
I want to hold you and press on you and become one with you.  
I want to be aggressive with you but not hurt you
I want to make you cry with fulfillment not pain
I want to be your everything
I need you to NEED me
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