Its been almost 30 years
There has been a river of tears.
How have I made this long without you?

I tell myself it was just meant to be
But honestly it was because of a mistake from me
I acted childishly, and refused to believe you'd come back like you said you would.
I made a choice and felt it was good

I let you go and thought I would never look back
That was just a lie I told myself.

Everyday for 30 years I looked back.
I have a good family and wife who loves me. But she knows there's something that haunts me.
I don't know what to do.  
I know what my heart says, but I need to do whats right.