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Irene Wangai Sep 2019
Life is like a merry-go-round
What goes around comes around
Mistakes and failure flowing like energy in a circular motion
Don't know what perfection is, coz to me, there is nothing like practice practice makes perfect,
For the more practice I make the more mistakes I make,
My eyes blinded with negative thoughts in my mind, not knowing what's good and best for me,
Not realizing my purpose in this life,
I take my pen, writing down my failures to ten,
Finally, I discover my merry-go-round failures and mistakes that battle me like in teken,
Finally, I discover my everyday weaknesses,
Finally, I get to ***** out the source of problems within my ego,
Finally, at my longest battle of self acceptance,
I see solutionsvti to the source of my problems,
Finally, a new strength emerges from within,
As these thoughts play a teken battle(+ve and -ve),
I finally get help and a catalyst if the solution to all my problems,
As easy as it may sound in my kinywa, another problem appears,
I write down the solution,
I calculate its formula, and creat  more formulas to jaggle my soul a bit,
I recite, and cram all what is needed for my solution,
I practice practice practice practice but no perfection comes out, who ever said that practice,
practice makes perfect!
The more I practice, the more pain I get,
Wait! Maybe I should change my mentality of perfection, maybe if I only accept myself as imperfect,
Maybe,, just maybe, I let go of my ego of 'am perfect' and instead improve myself,
Aha! Another solution appears, another problem vanishes!
Finally, I can now practice my long dug solution with patience and persistence,
Finally, I can now have a clear inner sight of the solution to my problems,
Finally, at twenty, I can now taste the feeling of the results from my solution,
The solution, my solution, of positive mentality, of change of my mindset,
Finally, at twenty, I see myself greater than myself,
Finally, at twenty, I see my need for help,
Finally, at twenty, I learn the fruitfulness of humility in abundance, and abundance in humility,
Finally, at twenty, I find the greatest solution to my problems
Irene Wangai May 2019
Hii life ni ya kuhustle,  
                                                                               alikuja kugundua that,
                                                             ile night alijimess kwa disco hall,
                                         ma-hustlers kwake walikuwa ni masufferes,
                                          na yeye kivyake alikuwa mtu wamastarehe,
                                                                         Easy money without pain,
                                                                                    na juu ya ignorance,
                                                                                     hakutambua kuwa,
                                                                                           no pain no gain,
                                                                                                    ama labda,
                                                                     aliogopa the pain ya kugain,
                                                legally according to the law of her body,
                                                                  juu alikuwa after easy money,
                           na hakutambua kuwa hii pain ingetake long kuheal,
                                                                                    Asiyesikia la mkuu,
                                                                                            huvunjika guu,
                                                                                 Walijaribu kumfunza,
                                                                                 wavyele kwa walimu,
  Lakini maneno yao yalienea kwa sikio la kufa ambalo mara nyingi
                                                                                              halisikii dawa,
                        Life yake ilikuwa surrounded na pressure from peers,
                                                                 Drugs alizimeza na kujipierce,
                           Malimwengu walimfunza machungu na ma regrets,
                                                                          juu ya  mama aliyapuuza,
                                                      Alijiona msupuu sana kuattract pesa,
                                                            coz, si pesa huvutiwa na urembo,
                                                                                                      All in all,,
                         urembo wake na kuremba kwake kulimlead to waste,
                                                                                          na akawa waste,
                                   Alikuwa anafuatwa na wengi juu ya manukato,
                                                                                                        but sasa,
                                   anahave kufuatwa na nzi wengi juu ya ******,
                                                                       Alicome back to her senses,
                                                                                           ongezea ya sita,
                                                            after kujimess hiyo night saa sita,
                                                 Na juu alikuwa amejawa na ma regrets,
                                           pain ilikuwa more na too deep in her flesh,
                                                                Akaanza kujifeel less fortunate,
                                                                        hakujua pakupata msaada,
                                                                                                                coz,
                                                 alidis maarif wake ile time alijifeel high,
                                                so high ungedhani amepita limit ya sky,
                                                                            But one thing is for sure,
                          angehave kuget back on her feet, a get from her seat,
                                                                                          ya comfort zone,
                                                              Akaamua kurudi to her first life,
                                                       Aweke maringo na kuremba kwake,
                                                                                             to her last line,
                                                                                 Na her life her hustle,
                                 Aliamua kuchukua her hustle to the second line,
                                                              Christ akiwa on the leading line.
Hello guys, hope you don't mind the language mixture too much,, coz actually,,
the language is known as sheng, and its a mix of English and Swahili languages,,, so if you have no gasp of Swahili language,, its a good start to try it out. please, to Swahili sanifu speakers, please pardon me for today
Irene Wangai Apr 2019
Man is to error, imperfect
They tell me pose a **** smile
I wonder, is there a **** smile?
I don't know when to smile, so why force it?
I exploit my fake smile to hide my pain, at least, that's what I train
Silence never means humility, and humility is never brought by silence,
Don't charge me by my silence, I might not be humble as you say,
Because the pain and bitterness in me is huge enough to silence me,
And I smile and be kind to you, thank God, but I be rude, please don't judge me,
A beautiful face never means beautiful, because, external beauty is never enough without the internal beauty,
So don't see the innocence on my face and yet, I am a snake's venom, but please don't judge me
My environment does not allow me to be what my face seems to be,
And my shapely body is the opposing feature of my shapeless inner me,
And so, if you are in search for a perfect match, don't run towards me
For I am me, I am imperfect
Irene Wangai Feb 2019
This is to you, all you who made an impact in my life, positive, negative
This is for you, to you all who taught me a lesson and made memories to treasure
It's funny how we met and became friends
It's funny how you changed me to be the person I am today
It's funny how you managed to get me talking while I was always in my world of thoughts, not caring what others thought,
And always being on my own with loneliness being my closest partner
It's funny how you made me be confident talking to others, as shyness was my shadow and I would sway with the wind in front of a crowd,
And I would be crazy confident in front of the sky, ground, animals and the four cuboid sides whenever I locked myself in my room
It's funny how and when you made me stand in front of the congregation until I got to know what I'm good at,
And even if I insulted you, hide and cry, you made sure I got on my feet
It's funny how you made me believe in myself and saw the genius in me, when all I could feel was failure in me
It's funny how you criticized me and yet laughed at it, like a cracked joke
It's funny how I felt loved, secured and cared for whenever you were around,
And whenever I saw your face, I would smile or giggle a bit remembering the jokes you told me
But now, the long lost loneliness is back,
It is so weird how time flies and the time to depart was eagerly waiting
My heart was filled with pain and heartache watching you go, and even though I couldn't show it, believe it or not,
I found myself crying wishing that there could be at least more time to be with you, because, I feel that time was limited for us to spend together
But I guess we all to go by the rule of  life and move on
It's so sad that I might never see you again and more hurting ,
Because you will always be in heart
Am sorry for this,  but because of the time I had a chance to say this passed like the swirling wind,
I have this chance to write down and appreciate you and appreciate to have known you
And please, don't forget to spread the love # love you.

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