I always thought that Being a good guy means that You get the good girls The ones that won't just toy with you Instead of trying to get into her pants I just want to cuddle Go on cute dates Stay up late together Holding her hand
But here I am Heart in a million pieces Crying myself to sleep Because I'm soft I'm sensitive I care And I fall
I understand now why most guys Why most guys aren't nice
What do I do when you play with my heart? Throw it around like we're playing fetch. Beat it to get rid of your frustrations. Use it when you want to feel good enough. What do I do when all you do is hurt me and all I do is love you?
You're supposed to go through All these things in life But I'm stuck Not moving forward
Stuck in this endless loop of despair Of self hatred Of being beat down Of wishing I was dead
Stuck in the past of her Stuck in the past of overthinking Stuck in the future with my life in my hands Stuck in the future where I don't know if my life would end
I don't want to feel anything Not anymore I used to be happy My soul was burning bright
My smile actually reached my eyes That person is gone now I just don't want to feel anything anymore Put me in the wooden box I'll have the darkness as company for eternity But at least I'd be numb