In this world
We are all just searching
Searching for our other half
The other piece of our puzzle

What if I finally found mine?
What if I finally found the other piece?
One that's just as broken as I am
One that fits perfectly

But I can't have her
I can't hold her
I can't feel her hand in mine
We are worlds apart

What do I do when you play with my heart?
Throw it around like we're playing fetch.
Beat it to get rid of your frustrations.
Use it when you want to feel good enough.
What do I do when all you do is hurt me and all I do is love you?

You're supposed to go through
All these things in life
But I'm stuck
Not moving forward

Stuck in this endless loop of despair
Of self hatred
Of being beat down
Of wishing I was dead

Stuck in the past of her
Stuck in the past of overthinking
Stuck in the future with my life in my hands
Stuck in the future where I don't know if my life would end

I'm just stuck
In one place
Alone and
Scared

Help me.

Tonight I lay in my bed again
Crying
My memories are flashing through my brain
Crying
Wil this deep sadness swallow my soul?
Crying
I'm sad I know
Crying
Am I enough?
Crying
Do I want to wake up in the morning?
Dying
Do I really want to live this life?
Dying
I feel so much
Dying
I just want it to stop
Aching
The thought of what once was
Aching
Time isn't on my side
Aching
The heart wants what it can't have
Aching
Tonight I'll fall asleep with you on my mind
And I can only hope you do the same
Because when I don't wake up in the morning
My last thought would have been of you.

With every nerve
Firing like a bolt of lightning
Light tremors sent crawling
Down to my fingers, I'm shaking

Feeling every touch
Time slowing
In this moment
It is just us and nothing else

Heads turning slowly
I feel you stroking my hand
Feeling you sigh heavy breaths on my cheek
Your heart racing just like mine

Down to my fingers, I'm shaking
I feel your lips meet mine
My body floods with adrenaline
Why is this the best thing I've ever felt