Yet again left with a broken heart
I didn't choose to play this part
I do everything right
I stand up and fight

But it leaves me with nothing
Now I'm stuffing
These feelings inside
Said I was fine, but I lied

I'm a liar and I lie everday
To those closest to me I say
I'm fine thanks
Drinking until my memory is blanks

I understand now
Exactly why and how
People drink pills
It gives me the chills

Drinking their nights away
Hoping these demons they'll slay
Smoking their lungs black
Living on crack

Even suicide
Wasn't on my side
Tried it, didn't work
He's looking down at me with a smirk

Letting me suffer more by the day
This game ***** and I don't want to play
I always end up losing
The pain it's abusing

My soul is turning black I feel within myself
Take out my heart and put it on the shelf
Repairing the broken parts
The world is without hearts

What did I do to deserve this
Stuck in the pitch black ibis
I'm the only one who thinks I don't deserve it
I'm sick, done with this ****

Put the gun against my head and pull the trigger
My problems keep getting bigger
With my dying breath I'll whisper your name
Hoping someday you'll feel the same

When you have seen the worst of me
Crying until I cannot see
Always overthinking
Sinking

When you have seen my heart turn to ice
Being everything but nice
Depressed for no reason
Every **** season

Pushing away the people in my life
Slitting my wrist with a knife
When the floor is covered in blood
And these tears flood

If by then I'm still the one you like
Then maybe, just maybe it's worth the fight
Worth trying
Worth crying