Pj - Hello Poetry

Pj Oct 7

It's ironic,
This feeble heart of mine.
It had it's sights set on a path,
The path of solitude.

How am I meant to tell it?
"Get up and walk past this
Unreciprocated love."
When it has fallen so hard?

Pj Sep 25

A Poem for You

I put my words on paper
To explain my tears.
I pour my heart on paper
To explain the sadness.

But the day you asked me,
"write me a poem".
I had nothing.
For when I look at you,
My words are gone.

Pj Sep 10

You are amazing

You sparked something
You started a fire
You reignited my soul
You;

Are a light in the dark
Are the warm summer sun
Are peaceful
Are.

Amazing is your smile
Amazing is your soul
Amazing how you embody true beauty
Amazing.

Haven't written in forever, but felt this should be said.

Pj May 2021

Please make it stop

I live day to day
People asking me
"how are you?"
"I'm fine"

How do you look someone in the eyes
And tell them
That you're at the lowest you've ever been
That you...

Turn up the music
To drown the noise
The voices telling you to end it all
To silence the sounds of your sobs as you cry yourself to sleep

"I'm fine"

Pj Jan 2021

Pandora's Box

I haven't written in a while
I'm not sure if it's because
I'm happy
I'm sad
Or I just feel nothing

All I know is
The random beating of the heart
From happy to sad to nothing
Remains a mystery

Every day I wake up with
The Pandora's box of feelings

Pj Nov 2020

If they knew

I wonder
I wonder if they knew
Knew how they've hurt me
Knew how they scarred me

I wonder if they knew
Just how much I hate them
If they'd treat me differently
Treat me like their son

I wonder
If they knew that they'll never see me again
They'd treat me differently
Treated me with love and compassion

I just wonder if they know
About the nights I cried myself to sleep
About how much I hate myself because of them
About how much they ****** me up

I just wonder
If they were me
Would my parents
Hate them like I do?

Pj Jun 2020

Nice guy..?

I always thought that
Being a good guy means that
You get the good girls
The ones that won't just toy with you
Instead of trying to get into her pants
I just want to cuddle
Go on cute dates
Stay up late together
Holding her hand

But here I am
Heart in a million pieces
Crying myself to sleep
Because I'm soft
I'm sensitive
I care
And I fall

I understand now why most guys
Why most guys aren't nice