fatale

legs to
eternity

wearing

shiny thigh
high boots

in the rain

she leans
against

a light post
like she owns

the streets

she doesn’t
ask

she smokes em
cause she

got em

sanity is
fragile

one word
out of place

makes you
think

something is
wrong

you do not
realize

the very
definition
of place

is fragile
and maybe

it is sanity
that is holding

on to you

it wasn’t what
they said

to her that
made her

pray

she was
a true

believer
and I

was jealous
of that

certainty
she didn’t

know how
rare she was

she believed
the best in

others and
of life

but I lived in

a different
world

shapes
then
shapeless

dissolving
into dust

in doses

magic
creatures

spreading
joy

to parts
of me

at least
that is

what they
told me

you are
something

I know

you are
not the cure

I just hope
you are not

the disease

Music can seem
so much like salvation

Sgt. Pepper was a revelation to me
I knew all the words like,
It’s getting better all the time

and at 15, I wanted to believe it
but I was an angry young man

man was I mean

I mean I was scared
but I couldn’t admit it

didn’t fit in
still don’t

but it really doesn’t matter

if I’m wrong I’m right
if I belong I’m right
if I belong

I wanted to leave home
after living alone
for so many years

but I was only 15
and man was I scared

slightly above
the earth

I dance
I must be

slightly
lighter

than air

I lost
weight

the fading
memory

of losing
you to him

it doesn’t
hurt as much

and pain
has more

weight than
we realize

I am footloose
but not yet

fancy free
but I will

get there

my mind at night

I reach for
the shiniest stars

wanting to burn bright
I notice details

the layers of everything
the connections

between light and dark

and when I
think like this

each word I conjure
is an ocean

wanting to drown me

I imagine I am a
rock star screaming

my wants are so deep

that I consume
everything

and I still feel empty