you took every minute particle of my love
each molecule of energy
I ceased to exist
except in relation to you
and I was happier than I had ever been.

so when I knew that your brother
was growing inside me
I thought there would be no love
no me
to share with him.

but some time, some how
entire new universes of love
of existence
exploded into being

for him,

for you

for us.

the stream of melting snow
I hear it all night long
and all day.

white disappears, and reveals the

broken chair
fallen branches
lost glove
and abandoned rake


that the first snowfall blanketed
and accumulation hid from view
since December.

the falling snow didn't remove it
and the stream of melting snow
doesn't wash it away.

I have to clean up my mess
myself.

I am the universe
I am the love
I am the power
I am the wisdom

I am the pain
I am the loss
I am the broken
I am the death

I am the recovery
I am the new growth
I am the fruit
I am the abundance

So are you.

You think that you have beaten me
with your scheming and lies
blame me for your mistakes
take credit for my successes.

I am reduced, you are increased
so you think that I am defeated.

But I am fierce.

I am unbreakable.

When you bend me I gather force
to return and knock you down.

More evil than you have tried to break me
They are gone and I grow strong.

More devious than you have not outsmarted me
you are nothing compared to me.

You think that you have beaten me,
but you have empowered me
to break free from your sphere
and soar.

You'll be here so soon
Our house will be home again.

I 'm sure you think of home
like I used to think about my parents' house:
It's always there, home, to go back to.

But that's not how it is.

When you're away it's just a house

It's you inside it that makes it home.