Crying in this car
All alone smoking
My pain away
I tend to get stuck up
All these thoughts that run through my mind

You don't always need somebody to be around you
It takes time to fall in love
Just know I'll be right there beside you
To give you all the love and tender care
Cause you are precious like a diamond
And I love you so deep

Doing drugs just to escape pain
Feeling light through the heavy storms of life
Fighting myself whilst I gain flight
From the hell that's fought deep inside
Love the feeling but hate the down time
It;s like a best friend yet worse enemy

If these 🧱 could talk they tell a story of a man who once ❤ this beautiful chick he though could be his wife but like a 🔪 those dreams got cut short see she played him like a game and made him feels so numb guess he got lost in those 👀 wondering why he feel in ❤ feeling so broken empty and alone he thought made I should take this bottle to the dom, but it ain't feel the same since she left now he stuck with all this regret asking himself why he felt so stuck caught up with this 💔 asking God why do I feel so broken yet whole when I'm around her.

Stuck to you like glue cant escape
the hole you found me in seems like
Being happy is when I'm without you
It's tough times but we gotta move
But the goal is near the end

Thoughts are jumbled up
Cant even vent like
I used to
Feel stuck with all these
Thoughts and all these bars
But the words wont flow
Onto this page the way I want to
It's like I'm stuck but feel wide open
looking for a way out of this
Hell of writers block through writting

Tourted artists by the thoughts that lay deep inside
He wonders why he can't die and leave the world
Behind cause he feels so empty and cold
In a world that stabbed him in the back and left him bruised
And wondering what was it all for nothing he does
Helps him find relief and escape as he tries to stay alive
In a house filled with abuse, neglect, lies, and deceit
He looks for the courage to take the easy way out but
Escape he can't as joy may lay on the other side of pain

Deep scars run deep from the betrayal he felt
A sword that cuts deep and leaves a trail of destruction
To the friends he once loved who slither like snakes
Waiting to strike and take him down
Pretending to have love when all they do is hate
Or leave him feeling broken from all the lies told
He could stay but at what cost
Because the loss of his soul is the greatest sacrifice
Ever given from love that was never there
But hatred and jealously that was totally hidden

Thoughts in his mind begin to close in
Asking him why he still chooses to be alive
When the ones he loved left him broken, alone and scared
That if he may open up again pain comes with it
Scared that love was never meant for him
Since every women that said they loved him lied
And used him as a way to heal their pain
It lies deep inside his mind that he's nothing
But a failure who's incapable of receiving love left
Broken and in shambles it all comes crashing down

No peace in this broken home seems like he barely gets no sleep
With the lies spread about the love that surrounds him
He barely finds anything to help him cope
It's like there's no hope and death seems like a stretch
But yet he lies to himself thinking everything will be fine
But he is blinded by the truth that's deep into his eyes
It's like crying could help yet no tears fall down
Seems lost broken and alone finding nothing
But shattered dreams of a family he believed he would see

Crused by this loving heart willing to give
To the women this pain that lay deep inside
Feeling broken and empty inside he shares the pain
That lay inside his heart but she breaks him
And tears his heart apart with all the lies
She tells him about how the world
Would be better off without him
Can't seem to let go of the pain that lies deep inside
So he cries out to her one more time but she gives
Up on him and hurts him one final time

Wondering why he chose to open up to a world so cold
Leaving him shaken, battered, and bruised from all
The abuse he suffered as a child he wonders why
All this pent-up aggression still lays inside
He tries to let it all go but feels like he is at the end of his rope
Stuck between letting go of the past and embracing the new
He goes back and forth with himself questioning choices
Asking what could have been had he not been
Consumed by all the pain and hurt the people
Who tired to help yet he pushed them away
Cause he felt he could swim through the ocean alone
But the current so strong it left him drowning and all alone

Empty void runs deep in my heart trying to find
Anything that will keep me numb
To all the pain caused inside my life
So I grab the night and begin to cut
Enjoying the rush the blood seeping through
My skin giving scars but it's the pain I enjoy
This leads to thoughts of suicide which seems
Just like a friend of mine cause I don't want to die
I just want to escape all this pain that lays deep
In my heart

You dug up my past and said that you would help, it's like being bullied was a cry for help now I'm all alone standard while you took advantage of a 💔, gave you deepest scars and you began to tear me apart, words hurt like venom piercing through my 💓, wanted comfort but you left me in dark to wallow in pity while you fed me to the 🦈 thoughts of suicide would cross my mind and you told me maybe it's time and that no one would miss me if I were gone, felt like you lied and the only reason you did it was pride, cause when I was hurt you made it worse with the lies you spit I would eat it up like pie, craving it looking for ☮️ I would never find

The balloon was floating in the air
Wondering through the city
Looking for a place of accession
Until it met a tree and got stuck
A little boy saw this ballon and
If he could get it but ended up
Stuck in the same tree cause
He was scared to come down
He cried for help till a fireman came
And got the boy and the balloon out of the tree

She gave him her love and he crushed it with the weight of the world on his shoulder she could see he needed help but he was blinded by rage to care he sat in despair as she wanted to offer out advice when all he cared for was taking his own life. It's not love so he keeps her at a distance. It's like these wounds won't let him grow and she tried to show him care but he didn't know what would help him when she tried to see what was up it was like a broken mirror showing a shattered reflection.

Love was never the same when you left
It's like every love song seems to be about you
Can't lie you did a number on me now
I can't seem to get you out of my head
The lies you shared when you told me you had
Love for me, being left broken and confused by
Your actions beacuse  you say you love me one moment
Next thing you're using me to express your pain
Can't lie it seems so hard to get you off my brain
Thought loving you would bring me closer to God
But it left me wishing the devil took you instead

The anger inside haunts the life of a broken child
Never felt love from his parents yet trying
To receive it from the world it's like death's calling his name
Because he remains in pain from a trauma relived
Destruction has run through a path seeking peace
No help and yet fake pictures of a happy family spread across
A house filled with abuse, infidelity, and lies covered with fake smiles
He seems broken from all the pain thinking a nose will
Help him feel relief from everything he will lose

Trying to find love inside all these fake connections
It seems the closer he gets to them
The further away he finds himself
Feeling disconnected inside a world filled with lies
He wonders if will there ever be an end
Asking when will he find something real
Whilst pretending these fake friends and people will
Bring him joy when all they want is to feel relief
From the pain that runs deep inside

Going down a dark road with different vices
He feels there's no escape from the empty feeling inside
He tries to hide it with a bottle straight to the head
But it only leaves him dead inside
He lies to himself thinking everything is fine
But the pain ran so deep he even thought about ending
His own life cause the memories run wild
Like Hulk Hogan so he sees the only escape to be
Anything he could find which led him to a destructive path
Now he is all alone and feels so broken and alone

Desperate for peace he can't find
Feels like it would be better to hang from a tree
That being with a family filled with lies
A broken and tortured soul left broken
From the abuse and pain his body suffered
Ending it all seems like the best option
Cause he feels empty and cold
It's like emotions runs deep inside but he feels
Ready to hang it all up and live a short
Yet unfulfilled life with darkness and pain

Don't ❤ her the same no more
But I can't get her off my mind
Feels like I'm stuck inside this time
Loop trying to get myself set free
These thoughts keep creeping up
Where I feel it wasn't enough
And that I could ❤ you better
Now it feels like I'm stuck inside this rut
And I can't seem to open you see
Now I'm wondering why I feel so alone
Yet I keep myself in this place where my ❤ feels so stuck on you and I can't see a way out, now I'm all alone feeling this deep centred pain but I want you out of my mind

These constant 🧱 of comparison
He finds himself in  
Stuck inside his mind again seems
Like he can't escape I guess
That's what happens when
You're hated and the only ❤️ you
Get is when they see success but
At the end of the day it causes
Pain inside the ❤️ and mind
That just seems to be racing trying
To find ☮️ but it seems so muddled up
In wanting to be the best at whatever
He does cause it feels like it's never good
Enough when he performs well and gets
All the accomplishments that they wanted
Guess that's the curse of being the
Number 1 kid out a family of toxic people

Heart turned cold for what the world once
Known about an innocent man who loved his life
He had family, wife and two kids and a dog in which
He loved so dear then one day it all went grey when he
Found his wife with another man  it broken him
So much that he started to cry cause he had been living a lie

He feels sad that he wants ❤️
Feels afraid to open up
To show how he truly feels
Inside he doesn't want ❤️ at
It's most extreme he just wants
To be 😁 in positive relationships
He believed in ❤️ when he was
Younger but the pain of the world
Left his ❤️ shattered, now
He tries to find the ❤️ he never got
In the body of someone else
Realising he will only get attached
And his ❤️ broken all over again

Cows jump over the moon

Stuck between ☹️ and 😊 he 🤔
Why he can't seem to find ☮️
When all he has ever know is pain
His 🧠 lies telling him everything would
Be fine when he can't 😴 and the 👿
Is trying to play tricks with his mind
An escape from this 🌎 doesn't help
So he 🍾 it all up 🤔 that will help
But the 🤬 and pain keep pilling up
Inside and he wonders when it will
All be said and done now he hopes
That God will help him heal and cope
With all this deep emotions 🏃‍♀️ wild
Inside of him.

Just a little kid growing up in a cold 🌍
Dad's an alcoholic while his mum stays at 🏡, seems like a picture perfect family but there's trouble at home now he sits all alone cause he's always felt so broken. His mum cares concern her whilst he sits in a room feel broken ❤️ he wonders why dad's never really home asking questions with no answer feel stuck in a 🕳️ as he wonders when he will ever feel ❤️ it's like there's ☮️ within the violence and it's better he stay silent about the pain inflicted on his body and how his parents won't take his hobbies the way they treat their work now he feels trapped like suicide is best yet for protection there's no one there.

It's like I live in another's 🌍 feeling trapped with this constant conflict of a ❤️ that wants to feel free by a mind that feels stuck inside the 🧠 it seems hard to escape this trap where I'm living for people to see them 😁 whilst my ❤️ and emotions run wild, feeling like the success brings 😞 and disappointment can't seem to 🙈 a way out of this constant controversy of a mind and ❤️ trapped in this cycle of people pleasing that it feels like life itself seems to broken to live when all I knew was pain. Trapped inside this cage whilst I hold the 🔑 I don't know what to do

Shoe

It feels so lonely living this cold world
It's tough fighting through
All the demons and pushing through
It's been tough  but God's got me

Running but the pain won't leave
Trying hard to find peace through
All these things feel empty inside
All over again as I chase the wind
It's like a great win seems to be so sad
When I always want something so bad
I chase it till my hands are on it and
I feel lost all over again

These walls don't talk like they used to
Feel like talking through these empty walls
To try and fill the time I stay stuck scrolling
My timeline trying to find a way to esapce
This cycle where the old me fighting
But the new me wants to escape this
Hole that it feels trapped in
Don't know what to do anymore as
These thoughts run through with no hope

These thoughts run through a mind
And ❤️ that's filled with pain all the escape tools seems to keep him stuck inside the same rut wanting to get out of the cage but he's the one holding the 🔑 to get out fighting himself wondering why he doesn't just sit this one out fighting himself and the pain he once felt feeling like the trap better than the joy he once felt it's ❄️ and lonely but that's what's felt like 🏡

The hate he received from a 👓 wearing fiend who berates him with all these violent words that cut his ❤️ so deep it seems 😊 comes from his pain and he can't seem to get her off his 🧠 the lies she keeps telling him piles up in his mind till he explodes and let's the whole 🌍 know of the pain she brought his ❤️ and how she picked him apart it seems dark but the 💭 of ending it all cross his mind all because of one 👩🏽 lies.

Surrounded by 🥃 he 🤔 where
😃 Is found at the end of the 🍾
He gets wasted to escape the pain
And wastes ⌚trying to find ☮️ of 🧠
It seems the more drunk he gets
The more his ❤️ breaks as he can't
Keep 🏃‍♀️from the emotions that run deep
His friend says hey just crack another
🍾 It will all go away while he is on his
7th cup wishing he stayed.
Home where he could find some ☮️
From 🙏 to the Lord above for some
Help but he is now drunk having
Conversations that ain't no help
Now he asks himself why he escapes
The pain riddles his 🧠 but only finds
Himself drinking just to feel like himself.

These walls hide so many great feelings of ❤️ and affection feeling happy for a change looking to spread the ❤️ that his Savior gave Jesus ❤️ him so dearly he changed for the better washing away all the pain the 🌍 gave him now he feels free from the anger that layers deep inside his ❤️ it's all clean life looks like it's worth living all these great memories with my saviour who can move the mountains.

The pain in his ❤️ grows from
His childhood trauma, the dark
Thoughts seems to creep in
Like a thief in the night he 🤔
Why he feels like he's undeserving of ❤️
When all he ever heard was hate
Disguised as tough ❤️ he 😭
🤔 Why this pain runs so wild
He feels lost in his 🧠 yet peace in
His ❤️ feeling lifted from all the
Lies told by the ones he ❤️
It seem the 🌞 will start to shine again
When he realises the 🌧️ has already left.

Heart grows fond of you
Cause loving you seems so easy
With those bright brown eyes
And that perfect white smile
Girl you are so fine and I love you
Your eyes shine bright like the stars in the sky
Cause you are so fine it should be a crime
For loving you so much all the time

Feeling lost and alone in this deep pit
Emotions running high like bolt, feeling clung to things or the past it seems right but wrong and the strength I have seems gone, it's like this tight rope I walk on seems long, while I'm holding on seems like I'm going to fall with no rope to catch me fall, there's all these voices screaming on head saying I should end it all, or stay stuck in the 🕳️ I find myself in.

Body goes through so much pain from the physical abuse suffered and it keep his mind in ******* feeling like everyone will 🐍 him the way his parents did, feeling lost and lonely seeking ❤️ from anyone he can find leading up to him wishing he'd die it seem tough climbing a 🏔️ built on broken glass and empty promises, he feels all alone with nobody to turn to it just seems like pain is all there ever is to a boy living in this 🥶 world

These videos make me feel so alive another scean gets mind feeling another rush, it's like their ❤️ feels like mine and now I'm stuck watching another 🌽  video feeling like I'm in a rut all cause I wanted  to be ❤️ now I'm looking at these people and I feel stuck wondering why all these people are so good at making ❤️ while I feel so alone and at the end of my rope well there's my luck now I don't know where to go so I stay stuck.

Feeling this deep pain inside the chest
Like there's no one to love yet
Everything to give, heart feels broken
Empty and cold trying to figure out
How to operate inside this broken world
Nobody is there to listen but always wants
A helping hand this heart feels depleted
From giving all this love yet receiving none
It's like a wall built up and with covering all around
**** it feels rough yet love never seems to come out

Cry me a river

He watches ******* 🎥
🤔 It will bring 😊 and ☮️
But all it did was bring pain
Inside his 🧠, he 🤥 thinking
Everything will be fine but
The 🌟 are great actors are great
And he hates how broken his ❤️
Feels that he can't experience this
Kind of ❤️ his 👀 filled by the lies
That *** brings ❤️ and that
❤️ Lies through loving 👀
Whilst in between her thighs

Drugged up feeling so high
Trying to escape the 🤬 and rage
I feel deep inside my ❤️
From the hate that often seems so small
But cuts deep like a 🔪 through the soul
Voices scream so loud and profound
Of a young 👦🏽 who didn't seem to matter
And all his pain was seen to be a joke
Nothing he could find would give him hope
Finding anything to help him cope made
Him consider using a rope to end it all
But he can't let them win
They say we're a family but
What's a family when members are missing.

The blood brings a head rush as he cuts his skin trying to feel something within that isn't numb he can't talk to anyone cause they just seem to shut him out now his stuck 🤔 why he feels no ❤️ it's like they care but they don't wondering when and I he can't escape from this hell 🕳️ he finds himself trapped in. It's like the pain brings joy to a once lost boy who felt like the only time he was ❤️ was through pain now he is stuck picking up pieces he never broke.

He just wants to end it all
Call it quits he tried and fought
A long battle but his 🧠 telling him
It's ⌚ quit while your ahead
In his 🧠 it's over but his ❤️
Just wants to keep going
Maybe the 🌞 shines when
All the ☁️ clear it's hard to see
But the hope he once felt
Seems so distant like a runner
Without his 👟 or a singer without
Her 🎤 he seem to want to die
And it's hard sometimes to feel alive
When the end draws near and the
Rope seems like the only option
Cause there's no hope in sight
He feels like he has got no more fight
Will he live or quit only ⌚ will tell