Cows jump over the moon

These walls hide so many great feelings of ❤️ and affection feeling happy for a change looking to spread the ❤️ that his Savior gave Jesus ❤️ him so dearly he changed for the better washing away all the pain the 🌍 gave him now he feels free from the anger that layers deep inside his ❤️ it's all clean life looks like it's worth living all these great memories with my saviour who can move the mountains.

It feels so lonely living this cold world
It's tough fighting through
All the demons and pushing through
It's been tough  but God's got me

Desperate for peace he can't find
Feels like it would be better to hang from a tree
That being with a family filled with lies
A broken and tortured soul left broken
From the abuse and pain his body suffered
Ending it all seems like the best option
Cause he feels empty and cold
It's like emotions runs deep inside but he feels
Ready to hang it all up and live a short
Yet unfulfilled life with darkness and pain

Cry me a river

To the one who seeks the door will be opened
Shoutout my people living in Africa

Deep scars run deep from the betrayal he felt
A sword that cuts deep and leaves a trail of destruction
To the friends he once loved who slither like snakes
Waiting to strike and take him down
Pretending to have love when all they do is hate
Or leave him feeling broken from all the lies told
He could stay but at what cost
Because the loss of his soul is the greatest sacrifice
Ever given from love that was never there
But hatred and jealously that was totally hidden

You don't always need somebody to be around you
It takes time to fall in love
Just know I'll be right there beside you
To give you all the love and tender care
Cause you are precious like a diamond
And I love you so deep

Feeling lost and alone in this deep pit
Emotions running high like bolt, feeling clung to things or the past it seems right but wrong and the strength I have seems gone, it's like this tight rope I walk on seems long, while I'm holding on seems like I'm going to fall with no rope to catch me fall, there's all these voices screaming on head saying I should end it all, or stay stuck in the 🕳️ I find myself in.

Doing drugs just to escape pain
Feeling light through the heavy storms of life
Fighting myself whilst I gain flight
From the hell that's fought deep inside
Love the feeling but hate the down time
It;s like a best friend yet worse enemy

Trying to find love inside all these fake connections
It seems the closer he gets to them
The further away he finds himself
Feeling disconnected inside a world filled with lies
He wonders if will there ever be an end
Asking when will he find something real
Whilst pretending these fake friends and people will
Bring him joy when all they want is to feel relief
From the pain that runs deep inside

He feels sad that he wants ❤️
Feels afraid to open up
To show how he truly feels
Inside he doesn't want ❤️ at
It's most extreme he just wants
To be 😁 in positive relationships
He believed in ❤️ when he was
Younger but the pain of the world
Left his ❤️ shattered, now
He tries to find the ❤️ he never got
In the body of someone else
Realising he will only get attached
And his ❤️ broken all over again

Empty void runs deep in my heart trying to find
Anything that will keep me numb
To all the pain caused inside my life
So I grab the night and begin to cut
Enjoying the rush the blood seeping through
My skin giving scars but it's the pain I enjoy
This leads to thoughts of suicide which seems
Just like a friend of mine cause I don't want to die
I just want to escape all this pain that lays deep
In my heart

You dug up my past and said that you would help, it's like being bullied was a cry for help now I'm all alone standard while you took advantage of a 💔, gave you deepest scars and you began to tear me apart, words hurt like venom piercing through my 💓, wanted comfort but you left me in dark to wallow in pity while you fed me to the 🦈 thoughts of suicide would cross my mind and you told me maybe it's time and that no one would miss me if I were gone, felt like you lied and the only reason you did it was pride, cause when I was hurt you made it worse with the lies you spit I would eat it up like pie, craving it looking for ☮️ I would never find

Stuck between ☹️ and 😊 he 🤔
Why he can't seem to find ☮️
When all he has ever know is pain
His 🧠 lies telling him everything would
Be fine when he can't 😴 and the 👿
Is trying to play tricks with his mind
An escape from this 🌎 doesn't help
So he 🍾 it all up 🤔 that will help
But the 🤬 and pain keep pilling up
Inside and he wonders when it will
All be said and done now he hopes
That God will help him heal and cope
With all this deep emotions 🏃‍♀️ wild
Inside of him.

He chases after feelings to hide what goes on in his mind it seems like a broken ⏰ is right twice maybe that's the same way he views life, like an endless cycle of broken dreams being chased to escape the trap that leads to an early ⚰️ it seems brave to assume he will make it out when his ❤️ feels like it's been torn apart by the people he truly ❤️ it's hard not to see the beast that lives inside like a roaring 🦁 looking to **** anything it sees in sight but alas the pain in his souls leaves the 🦁 feeling empty and ❄️.

Shoe

These videos make me feel so alive another scean gets mind feeling another rush, it's like their ❤️ feels like mine and now I'm stuck watching another 🌽  video feeling like I'm in a rut all cause I wanted  to be ❤️ now I'm looking at these people and I feel stuck wondering why all these people are so good at making ❤️ while I feel so alone and at the end of my rope well there's my luck now I don't know where to go so I stay stuck.

Roses glistening in bright red
While rain falls down the hills
Honey from the bees looks really sweet
Yet the bear is always there to feast
The woods have so many wonders
And animals yet we truly cant comprehend
the beauty in all of God's creation

Why am I so cold empty and alone, these thoughts seem to keep running now my mind is racing, it seems like just yesterday a young 👦 grew up in a toxic 🏠 filled with violence and empty promises leaving his ❤️ torn shattered and alone, now he looks to move away from all the drugs and 🍻 he been doing there's no ☮️ in this dark ❤️ he see the light but it shines too far crawling through this broken glass of hurt looking for someone to ❤️ yet finding it so hard to break down these 🧱s.

The balloon was floating in the air
Wondering through the city
Looking for a place of accession
Until it met a tree and got stuck
A little boy saw this ballon and
If he could get it but ended up
Stuck in the same tree cause
He was scared to come down
He cried for help till a fireman came
And got the boy and the balloon out of the tree

Thoughts in his mind begin to close in
Asking him why he still chooses to be alive
When the ones he loved left him broken, alone and scared
That if he may open up again pain comes with it
Scared that love was never meant for him
Since every women that said they loved him lied
And used him as a way to heal their pain
It lies deep inside his mind that he's nothing
But a failure who's incapable of receiving love left
Broken and in shambles it all comes crashing down

Fake friends surround me as I down another 🍾 to the head
Thoughts circling 🤔 why I'm still here
In this pit where we drink to get lifted
Yet I'm feeling so empty deep inside
🕳️ In my chest but my ❤️ can't seem to
Say no to the thought of another glass
Another 🍾 to relax yet I'm stuck here
Sitting wondering why these friends
I keep seem to be why I feel so weak
It's like I ❤️ the buzz hate the company

Thoughts of suicide 🏃🏽 deep inside his mind he tries to hide all the pain by covering it up with a fake 😁 he feels like this would help until it all comes crumbling down now he feels stuck, feeling broken empty and confused at why life looks so far out of sight, seems like the bright 💡 at the end of the tunnel is to far gone for this once bright kid with a 😁 on his face and 😊 in his 👀 the voices in his head get louder it seems like his 🧠 feels fried by all the thoughts he keeps buried deep inside.

Roses are blue
Violets are red
Honey is sour
The sky is purple
and filled with haze
Cause this liquor
Be hitting different
Trying to pour it all out

Body goes through so much pain from the physical abuse suffered and it keep his mind in ******* feeling like everyone will 🐍 him the way his parents did, feeling lost and lonely seeking ❤️ from anyone he can find leading up to him wishing he'd die it seem tough climbing a 🏔️ built on broken glass and empty promises, he feels all alone with nobody to turn to it just seems like pain is all there ever is to a boy living in this 🥶 world

These constant 🧱 of comparison
He finds himself in  
Stuck inside his mind again seems
Like he can't escape I guess
That's what happens when
You're hated and the only ❤️ you
Get is when they see success but
At the end of the day it causes
Pain inside the ❤️ and mind
That just seems to be racing trying
To find ☮️ but it seems so muddled up
In wanting to be the best at whatever
He does cause it feels like it's never good
Enough when he performs well and gets
All the accomplishments that they wanted
Guess that's the curse of being the
Number 1 kid out a family of toxic people

She gave him her love and he crushed it with the weight of the world on his shoulder she could see he needed help but he was blinded by rage to care he sat in despair as she wanted to offer out advice when all he cared for was taking his own life. It's not love so he keeps her at a distance. It's like these wounds won't let him grow and she tried to show him care but he didn't know what would help him when she tried to see what was up it was like a broken mirror showing a shattered reflection.

Running but the pain won't leave
Trying hard to find peace through
All these things feel empty inside
All over again as I chase the wind
It's like a great win seems to be so sad
When I always want something so bad
I chase it till my hands are on it and
I feel lost all over again

The blood brings a head rush as he cuts his skin trying to feel something within that isn't numb he can't talk to anyone cause they just seem to shut him out now his stuck 🤔 why he feels no ❤️ it's like they care but they don't wondering when and I he can't escape from this hell 🕳️ he finds himself trapped in. It's like the pain brings joy to a once lost boy who felt like the only time he was ❤️ was through pain now he is stuck picking up pieces he never broke.

The pain in his ❤️ grows from
His childhood trauma, the dark
Thoughts seems to creep in
Like a thief in the night he 🤔
Why he feels like he's undeserving of ❤️
When all he ever heard was hate
Disguised as tough ❤️ he 😭
🤔 Why this pain runs so wild
He feels lost in his 🧠 yet peace in
His ❤️ feeling lifted from all the
Lies told by the ones he ❤️
It seem the 🌞 will start to shine again
When he realises the 🌧️ has already left.

Heart grows fond of you
Cause loving you seems so easy
With those bright brown eyes
And that perfect white smile
Girl you are so fine and I love you
Your eyes shine bright like the stars in the sky
Cause you are so fine it should be a crime
For loving you so much all the time

These walls cover up a damaged ❤️ filled with pain, abuse and crooked lies feels stuck and tounge tied on who this 🧱 should crumble down for I guess being alone helps yet these thoughts and feelings seem to stick a little deeper feeling crushed as this ❤️ bleeds deeper into a shallow abyss that keeps nothing but torture and torment, feel like 😭 but I'm afraid I'll look weak it's so hard to open up about these feelings it's like I barely even 😴.

Don't ❤ her the same no more
But I can't get her off my mind
Feels like I'm stuck inside this time
Loop trying to get myself set free
These thoughts keep creeping up
Where I feel it wasn't enough
And that I could ❤ you better
Now it feels like I'm stuck inside this rut
And I can't seem to open you see
Now I'm wondering why I feel so alone
Yet I keep myself in this place where my ❤ feels so stuck on you and I can't see a way out, now I'm all alone feeling this deep centred pain but I want you out of my mind

Just a little kid growing up in a cold 🌍
Dad's an alcoholic while his mum stays at 🏡, seems like a picture perfect family but there's trouble at home now he sits all alone cause he's always felt so broken. His mum cares concern her whilst he sits in a room feel broken ❤️ he wonders why dad's never really home asking questions with no answer feel stuck in a 🕳️ as he wonders when he will ever feel ❤️ it's like there's ☮️ within the violence and it's better he stay silent about the pain inflicted on his body and how his parents won't take his hobbies the way they treat their work now he feels trapped like suicide is best yet for protection there's no one there.

Doubt creeping up on me
Feel like I'm worthless
Can't do it like I used to feeling
Stuck in this thought loop
Wondering when I will get but
That's what I thought
That maybe on the other side
There would be happiness
But I feel like I'm stuck in my mind
Why do I keep torturing myself
With all these thoughts of wanting to
Do everything it feels so hard to have
Peace of mind when these thoughts keep
Racing in my mind feel like I'm stuck in
Quicksand but I've got the ripe
That will pull me out of this ditch
I find myself in

Stuck in this ➰ looking for closure
With a person I used to ❤ now
I'm out here feeling stuck reminiscing on
The past cause I thought we had ❤
Now you 😁 from a distance while
I'm stuck here feeling 🤢 wondering
Why I gave you all of this ❤
Thought we had something special yet now I can't even mention how you
Broke my ❤ and did me so wrong
Yet it's me in the way looking for happiness
In this dark place stuck in my dark times

Feeling this deep pain inside the chest
Like there's no one to love yet
Everything to give, heart feels broken
Empty and cold trying to figure out
How to operate inside this broken world
Nobody is there to listen but always wants
A helping hand this heart feels depleted
From giving all this love yet receiving none
It's like a wall built up and with covering all around
**** it feels rough yet love never seems to come out

The anger inside haunts the life of a broken child
Never felt love from his parents yet trying
To receive it from the world it's like death's calling his name
Because he remains in pain from a trauma relived
Destruction has run through a path seeking peace
No help and yet fake pictures of a happy family spread across
A house filled with abuse, infidelity, and lies covered with fake smiles
He seems broken from all the pain thinking a nose will
Help him feel relief from everything he will lose

Thoughts pile up again trying so hard
To get rid of them but I end up
Stuck back where it all began
Wondering why I just can't leave
It's like the pain brings joy to a heart
Filled with rage cause it seems
Like it's all staged but, there's no
Love without loss and the fire
Burns no more

Feels like I'm never good enough I feel stuck every ⌚ I climb the ladder it won't budge cause you hate on everything now out of luck cause this 🤡 keeps my racing in this weird rut where ❤ you but I really can't be around you now that's tough all cause you a hater making me feel trapped inside this cage you built now the walls feels like they're carving in and I don't know what to do guess it's rough but I'm the one who's been there right.

He just wants to end it all
Call it quits he tried and fought
A long battle but his 🧠 telling him
It's ⌚ quit while your ahead
In his 🧠 it's over but his ❤️
Just wants to keep going
Maybe the 🌞 shines when
All the ☁️ clear it's hard to see
But the hope he once felt
Seems so distant like a runner
Without his 👟 or a singer without
Her 🎤 he seem to want to die
And it's hard sometimes to feel alive
When the end draws near and the
Rope seems like the only option
Cause there's no hope in sight
He feels like he has got no more fight
Will he live or quit only ⌚ will tell

No peace in this broken home seems like he barely gets no sleep
With the lies spread about the love that surrounds him
He barely finds anything to help him cope
It's like there's no hope and death seems like a stretch
But yet he lies to himself thinking everything will be fine
But he is blinded by the truth that's deep into his eyes
It's like crying could help yet no tears fall down
Seems lost broken and alone finding nothing
But shattered dreams of a family he believed he would see

Crying in this car
All alone smoking
My pain away
I tend to get stuck up
All these thoughts that run through my mind

If these 🧱 could talk they tell a story of a man who once ❤ this beautiful chick he though could be his wife but like a 🔪 those dreams got cut short see she played him like a game and made him feels so numb guess he got lost in those 👀 wondering why he feel in ❤ feeling so broken empty and alone he thought made I should take this bottle to the dom, but it ain't feel the same since she left now he stuck with all this regret asking himself why he felt so stuck caught up with this 💔 asking God why do I feel so broken yet whole when I'm around her.

Crused by this loving heart willing to give
To the women this pain that lay deep inside
Feeling broken and empty inside he shares the pain
That lay inside his heart but she breaks him
And tears his heart apart with all the lies
She tells him about how the world
Would be better off without him
Can't seem to let go of the pain that lies deep inside
So he cries out to her one more time but she gives
Up on him and hurts him one final time

Drugged up feeling so high
Trying to escape the 🤬 and rage
I feel deep inside my ❤️
From the hate that often seems so small
But cuts deep like a 🔪 through the soul
Voices scream so loud and profound
Of a young 👦🏽 who didn't seem to matter
And all his pain was seen to be a joke
Nothing he could find would give him hope
Finding anything to help him cope made
Him consider using a rope to end it all
But he can't let them win
They say we're a family but
What's a family when members are missing.