The pain in his ❤️ grows from
His childhood trauma, the dark
Thoughts seems to creep in
Like a thief in the night he 🤔
Why he feels like he's undeserving of ❤️
When all he ever heard was hate
Disguised as tough ❤️ he 😭
🤔 Why this pain runs so wild
He feels lost in his 🧠 yet peace in
His ❤️ feeling lifted from all the
Lies told by the ones he ❤️
It seem the 🌞 will start to shine again
When he realises the 🌧️ has already left.

Crused by this loving heart willing to give
To the women this pain that lay deep inside
Feeling broken and empty inside he shares the pain
That lay inside his heart but she breaks him
And tears his heart apart with all the lies
She tells him about how the world
Would be better off without him
Can't seem to let go of the pain that lies deep inside
So he cries out to her one more time but she gives
Up on him and hurts him one final time

Empty void runs deep in my heart trying to find
Anything that will keep me numb
To all the pain caused inside my life
So I grab the night and begin to cut
Enjoying the rush the blood seeping through
My skin giving scars but it's the pain I enjoy
This leads to thoughts of suicide which seems
Just like a friend of mine cause I don't want to die
I just want to escape all this pain that lays deep
In my heart

Thoughts in his mind begin to close in
Asking him why he still chooses to be alive
When the ones he loved left him broken, alone and scared
That if he may open up again pain comes with it
Scared that love was never meant for him
Since every women that said they loved him lied
And used him as a way to heal their pain
It lies deep inside his mind that he's nothing
But a failure who's incapable of receiving love left
Broken and in shambles it all comes crashing down

Tourted artists by the thoughts that lay deep inside
He wonders why he can't die and leave the world
Behind cause he feels so empty and cold
In a world that stabbed him in the back and left him bruised
And wondering what was it all for nothing he does
Helps him find relief and escape as he tries to stay alive
In a house filled with abuse, neglect, lies, and deceit
He looks for the courage to take the easy way out but
Escape he can't as joy may lay on the other side of pain

Wondering why he chose to open up to a world so cold
Leaving him shaken, battered, and bruised from all
The abuse he suffered as a child he wonders why
All this pent-up aggression still lays inside
He tries to let it all go but feels like he is at the end of his rope
Stuck between letting go of the past and embracing the new
He goes back and forth with himself questioning choices
Asking what could have been had he not been
Consumed by all the pain and hurt the people
Who tired to help yet he pushed them away
Cause he felt he could swim through the ocean alone
But the current so strong it left him drowning and all alone

Feels like I'm never good enough I feel stuck every ⌚ I climb the ladder it won't budge cause you hate on everything now out of luck cause this 🤡 keeps my racing in this weird rut where ❤ you but I really can't be around you now that's tough all cause you a hater making me feel trapped inside this cage you built now the walls feels like they're carving in and I don't know what to do guess it's rough but I'm the one who's been there right.

Popeye the Sailor man loves spinach

Why am I so cold empty and alone, these thoughts seem to keep running now my mind is racing, it seems like just yesterday a young 👦 grew up in a toxic 🏠 filled with violence and empty promises leaving his ❤️ torn shattered and alone, now he looks to move away from all the drugs and 🍻 he been doing there's no ☮️ in this dark ❤️ he see the light but it shines too far crawling through this broken glass of hurt looking for someone to ❤️ yet finding it so hard to break down these 🧱s.

Feeling stuck in this cycle can't seem
To get out where I find myself lost
Inside this dark mind it's like ❤️ this
Pain hits so much of the 🧠 feeling lonely
But don't want no company wanting ❤️
But to afraid to open up what's inside
This ❄️ ❤️ wants to feel ❤️ but I feel stuck
Inside this long story that doesn't
Want to end why do I feel stuck inside
This 🌊 of emotions when I could get out
It seems though it feels so bad but can't seem to get out the mud it's so hard that my ❤️ and mind seems hard to get out.

Fake friends surround me as I down another 🍾 to the head
Thoughts circling 🤔 why I'm still here
In this pit where we drink to get lifted
Yet I'm feeling so empty deep inside
🕳️ In my chest but my ❤️ can't seem to
Say no to the thought of another glass
Another 🍾 to relax yet I'm stuck here
Sitting wondering why these friends
I keep seem to be why I feel so weak
It's like I ❤️ the buzz hate the company

You dug up my past and said that you would help, it's like being bullied was a cry for help now I'm all alone standard while you took advantage of a 💔, gave you deepest scars and you began to tear me apart, words hurt like venom piercing through my 💓, wanted comfort but you left me in dark to wallow in pity while you fed me to the 🦈 thoughts of suicide would cross my mind and you told me maybe it's time and that no one would miss me if I were gone, felt like you lied and the only reason you did it was pride, cause when I was hurt you made it worse with the lies you spit I would eat it up like pie, craving it looking for ☮️ I would never find

The balloon was floating in the air
Wondering through the city
Looking for a place of accession
Until it met a tree and got stuck
A little boy saw this ballon and
If he could get it but ended up
Stuck in the same tree cause
He was scared to come down
He cried for help till a fireman came
And got the boy and the balloon out of the tree

My heart skips a beat when I'm around you
Baby you bring such a smile on me
I just have fun when I'm around want to just
wrap my arms when I see you
Cause you make me happy everyday you are so
**** kind and it's just so sad to see you with
Someone else but my heart just wants to be around yours
And show you love everyday cause I love to see you

Feeling this deep pain inside the chest
Like there's no one to love yet
Everything to give, heart feels broken
Empty and cold trying to figure out
How to operate inside this broken world
Nobody is there to listen but always wants
A helping hand this heart feels depleted
From giving all this love yet receiving none
It's like a wall built up and with covering all around
**** it feels rough yet love never seems to come out

Heart turned cold for what the world once
Known about an innocent man who loved his life
He had family, wife and two kids and a dog in which
He loved so dear then one day it all went grey when he
Found his wife with another man  it broken him
So much that he started to cry cause he had been living a lie

Heart grows fond of you
Cause loving you seems so easy
With those bright brown eyes
And that perfect white smile
Girl you are so fine and I love you
Your eyes shine bright like the stars in the sky
Cause you are so fine it should be a crime
For loving you so much all the time

Shoe

Surrounded by 🥃 he 🤔 where
😃 Is found at the end of the 🍾
He gets wasted to escape the pain
And wastes ⌚trying to find ☮️ of 🧠
It seems the more drunk he gets
The more his ❤️ breaks as he can't
Keep 🏃‍♀️from the emotions that run deep
His friend says hey just crack another
🍾 It will all go away while he is on his
7th cup wishing he stayed.
Home where he could find some ☮️
From 🙏 to the Lord above for some
Help but he is now drunk having
Conversations that ain't no help
Now he asks himself why he escapes
The pain riddles his 🧠 but only finds
Himself drinking just to feel like himself.

She gave him her love and he crushed it with the weight of the world on his shoulder she could see he needed help but he was blinded by rage to care he sat in despair as she wanted to offer out advice when all he cared for was taking his own life. It's not love so he keeps her at a distance. It's like these wounds won't let him grow and she tried to show him care but he didn't know what would help him when she tried to see what was up it was like a broken mirror showing a shattered reflection.

These thoughts run through a mind
And ❤️ that's filled with pain all the escape tools seems to keep him stuck inside the same rut wanting to get out of the cage but he's the one holding the 🔑 to get out fighting himself wondering why he doesn't just sit this one out fighting himself and the pain he once felt feeling like the trap better than the joy he once felt it's ❄️ and lonely but that's what's felt like 🏡

The hate he received from a 👓 wearing fiend who berates him with all these violent words that cut his ❤️ so deep it seems 😊 comes from his pain and he can't seem to get her off his 🧠 the lies she keeps telling him piles up in his mind till he explodes and let's the whole 🌍 know of the pain she brought his ❤️ and how she picked him apart it seems dark but the 💭 of ending it all cross his mind all because of one 👩🏽 lies.

Stuck between ☹️ and 😊 he 🤔
Why he can't seem to find ☮️
When all he has ever know is pain
His 🧠 lies telling him everything would
Be fine when he can't 😴 and the 👿
Is trying to play tricks with his mind
An escape from this 🌎 doesn't help
So he 🍾 it all up 🤔 that will help
But the 🤬 and pain keep pilling up
Inside and he wonders when it will
All be said and done now he hopes
That God will help him heal and cope
With all this deep emotions 🏃‍♀️ wild
Inside of him.

Thoughts of suicide 🏃🏽 deep inside his mind he tries to hide all the pain by covering it up with a fake 😁 he feels like this would help until it all comes crumbling down now he feels stuck, feeling broken empty and confused at why life looks so far out of sight, seems like the bright 💡 at the end of the tunnel is to far gone for this once bright kid with a 😁 on his face and 😊 in his 👀 the voices in his head get louder it seems like his 🧠 feels fried by all the thoughts he keeps buried deep inside.

Cry me a river

Roses glistening in bright red
While rain falls down the hills
Honey from the bees looks really sweet
Yet the bear is always there to feast
The woods have so many wonders
And animals yet we truly cant comprehend
the beauty in all of God's creation

Deep scars run deep from the betrayal he felt
A sword that cuts deep and leaves a trail of destruction
To the friends he once loved who slither like snakes
Waiting to strike and take him down
Pretending to have love when all they do is hate
Or leave him feeling broken from all the lies told
He could stay but at what cost
Because the loss of his soul is the greatest sacrifice
Ever given from love that was never there
But hatred and jealously that was totally hidden

The anger inside haunts the life of a broken child
Never felt love from his parents yet trying
To receive it from the world it's like death's calling his name
Because he remains in pain from a trauma relived
Destruction has run through a path seeking peace
No help and yet fake pictures of a happy family spread across
A house filled with abuse, infidelity, and lies covered with fake smiles
He seems broken from all the pain thinking a nose will
Help him feel relief from everything he will lose

These videos make me feel so alive another scean gets mind feeling another rush, it's like their ❤️ feels like mine and now I'm stuck watching another 🌽  video feeling like I'm in a rut all cause I wanted  to be ❤️ now I'm looking at these people and I feel stuck wondering why all these people are so good at making ❤️ while I feel so alone and at the end of my rope well there's my luck now I don't know where to go so I stay stuck.

Stuck in this ➰ looking for closure
With a person I used to ❤ now
I'm out here feeling stuck reminiscing on
The past cause I thought we had ❤
Now you 😁 from a distance while
I'm stuck here feeling 🤢 wondering
Why I gave you all of this ❤
Thought we had something special yet now I can't even mention how you
Broke my ❤ and did me so wrong
Yet it's me in the way looking for happiness
In this dark place stuck in my dark times

Feeling lost and alone in this deep pit
Emotions running high like bolt, feeling clung to things or the past it seems right but wrong and the strength I have seems gone, it's like this tight rope I walk on seems long, while I'm holding on seems like I'm going to fall with no rope to catch me fall, there's all these voices screaming on head saying I should end it all, or stay stuck in the 🕳️ I find myself in.

Love was never the same when you left
It's like every love song seems to be about you
Can't lie you did a number on me now
I can't seem to get you out of my head
The lies you shared when you told me you had
Love for me, being left broken and confused by
Your actions beacuse  you say you love me one moment
Next thing you're using me to express your pain
Can't lie it seems so hard to get you off my brain
Thought loving you would bring me closer to God
But it left me wishing the devil took you instead

He chases after feelings to hide what goes on in his mind it seems like a broken ⏰ is right twice maybe that's the same way he views life, like an endless cycle of broken dreams being chased to escape the trap that leads to an early ⚰️ it seems brave to assume he will make it out when his ❤️ feels like it's been torn apart by the people he truly ❤️ it's hard not to see the beast that lives inside like a roaring 🦁 looking to **** anything it sees in sight but alas the pain in his souls leaves the 🦁 feeling empty and ❄️.

Doing drugs just to escape pain
Feeling light through the heavy storms of life
Fighting myself whilst I gain flight
From the hell that's fought deep inside
Love the feeling but hate the down time
It;s like a best friend yet worse enemy

Stuck to you like glue cant escape
the hole you found me in seems like
Being happy is when I'm without you
It's tough times but we gotta move
But the goal is near the end

Don't ❤ her the same no more
But I can't get her off my mind
Feels like I'm stuck inside this time
Loop trying to get myself set free
These thoughts keep creeping up
Where I feel it wasn't enough
And that I could ❤ you better
Now it feels like I'm stuck inside this rut
And I can't seem to open you see
Now I'm wondering why I feel so alone
Yet I keep myself in this place where my ❤ feels so stuck on you and I can't see a way out, now I'm all alone feeling this deep centred pain but I want you out of my mind

Doubt creeping up on me
Feel like I'm worthless
Can't do it like I used to feeling
Stuck in this thought loop
Wondering when I will get but
That's what I thought
That maybe on the other side
There would be happiness
But I feel like I'm stuck in my mind
Why do I keep torturing myself
With all these thoughts of wanting to
Do everything it feels so hard to have
Peace of mind when these thoughts keep
Racing in my mind feel like I'm stuck in
Quicksand but I've got the ripe
That will pull me out of this ditch
I find myself in

These walls hide so many great feelings of ❤️ and affection feeling happy for a change looking to spread the ❤️ that his Savior gave Jesus ❤️ him so dearly he changed for the better washing away all the pain the 🌍 gave him now he feels free from the anger that layers deep inside his ❤️ it's all clean life looks like it's worth living all these great memories with my saviour who can move the mountains.

You don't always need somebody to be around you
It takes time to fall in love
Just know I'll be right there beside you
To give you all the love and tender care
Cause you are precious like a diamond
And I love you so deep

Feeling numb ain't worth running from the pain
Cause we keep getting stuck in the same place
It's like there's freedom but there's not
stuck in the same rut and looking for a way out
Used to life looking bleak now when I see the other
Side of a different peak I don't want
I can't understand why I keep loosing my mind
Over this issue

Going down a dark road with different vices
He feels there's no escape from the empty feeling inside
He tries to hide it with a bottle straight to the head
But it only leaves him dead inside
He lies to himself thinking everything is fine
But the pain ran so deep he even thought about ending
His own life cause the memories run wild
Like Hulk Hogan so he sees the only escape to be
Anything he could find which led him to a destructive path
Now he is all alone and feels so broken and alone

To the one who seeks the door will be opened
Shoutout my people living in Africa

These walls cover up a damaged ❤️ filled with pain, abuse and crooked lies feels stuck and tounge tied on who this 🧱 should crumble down for I guess being alone helps yet these thoughts and feelings seem to stick a little deeper feeling crushed as this ❤️ bleeds deeper into a shallow abyss that keeps nothing but torture and torment, feel like 😭 but I'm afraid I'll look weak it's so hard to open up about these feelings it's like I barely even 😴.

Crying in this car
All alone smoking
My pain away
I tend to get stuck up
All these thoughts that run through my mind

Cows jump over the moon

It's like I live in another's 🌍 feeling trapped with this constant conflict of a ❤️ that wants to feel free by a mind that feels stuck inside the 🧠 it seems hard to escape this trap where I'm living for people to see them 😁 whilst my ❤️ and emotions run wild, feeling like the success brings 😞 and disappointment can't seem to 🙈 a way out of this constant controversy of a mind and ❤️ trapped in this cycle of people pleasing that it feels like life itself seems to broken to live when all I knew was pain. Trapped inside this cage whilst I hold the 🔑 I don't know what to do

Body goes through so much pain from the physical abuse suffered and it keep his mind in ******* feeling like everyone will 🐍 him the way his parents did, feeling lost and lonely seeking ❤️ from anyone he can find leading up to him wishing he'd die it seem tough climbing a 🏔️ built on broken glass and empty promises, he feels all alone with nobody to turn to it just seems like pain is all there ever is to a boy living in this 🥶 world