Thoughts are jumbled up
Cant even vent like
I used to
Feel stuck with all these
Thoughts and all these bars
But the words wont flow
Onto this page the way I want to
It's like I'm stuck but feel wide open
looking for a way out of this
Hell of writers block through writting

No peace in this broken home seems like he barely gets no sleep
With the lies spread about the love that surrounds him
He barely finds anything to help him cope
It's like there's no hope and death seems like a stretch
But yet he lies to himself thinking everything will be fine
But he is blinded by the truth that's deep into his eyes
It's like crying could help yet no tears fall down
Seems lost broken and alone finding nothing
But shattered dreams of a family he believed he would see

Just a little kid growing up in a cold 🌍
Dad's an alcoholic while his mum stays at 🏡, seems like a picture perfect family but there's trouble at home now he sits all alone cause he's always felt so broken. His mum cares concern her whilst he sits in a room feel broken ❤️ he wonders why dad's never really home asking questions with no answer feel stuck in a 🕳️ as he wonders when he will ever feel ❤️ it's like there's ☮️ within the violence and it's better he stay silent about the pain inflicted on his body and how his parents won't take his hobbies the way they treat their work now he feels trapped like suicide is best yet for protection there's no one there.

The blood brings a head rush as he cuts his skin trying to feel something within that isn't numb he can't talk to anyone cause they just seem to shut him out now his stuck 🤔 why he feels no ❤️ it's like they care but they don't wondering when and I he can't escape from this hell 🕳️ he finds himself trapped in. It's like the pain brings joy to a once lost boy who felt like the only time he was ❤️ was through pain now he is stuck picking up pieces he never broke.

Doubt creeping up on me
Feel like I'm worthless
Can't do it like I used to feeling
Stuck in this thought loop
Wondering when I will get but
That's what I thought
That maybe on the other side
There would be happiness
But I feel like I'm stuck in my mind
Why do I keep torturing myself
With all these thoughts of wanting to
Do everything it feels so hard to have
Peace of mind when these thoughts keep
Racing in my mind feel like I'm stuck in
Quicksand but I've got the ripe
That will pull me out of this ditch
I find myself in

To the one who seeks the door will be opened
Shoutout my people living in Africa

These constant 🧱 of comparison
He finds himself in  
Stuck inside his mind again seems
Like he can't escape I guess
That's what happens when
You're hated and the only ❤️ you
Get is when they see success but
At the end of the day it causes
Pain inside the ❤️ and mind
That just seems to be racing trying
To find ☮️ but it seems so muddled up
In wanting to be the best at whatever
He does cause it feels like it's never good
Enough when he performs well and gets
All the accomplishments that they wanted
Guess that's the curse of being the
Number 1 kid out a family of toxic people

Trying to find love inside all these fake connections
It seems the closer he gets to them
The further away he finds himself
Feeling disconnected inside a world filled with lies
He wonders if will there ever be an end
Asking when will he find something real
Whilst pretending these fake friends and people will
Bring him joy when all they want is to feel relief
From the pain that runs deep inside

These walls hide so many great feelings of ❤️ and affection feeling happy for a change looking to spread the ❤️ that his Savior gave Jesus ❤️ him so dearly he changed for the better washing away all the pain the 🌍 gave him now he feels free from the anger that layers deep inside his ❤️ it's all clean life looks like it's worth living all these great memories with my saviour who can move the mountains.

Don't ❤ her the same no more
But I can't get her off my mind
Feels like I'm stuck inside this time
Loop trying to get myself set free
These thoughts keep creeping up
Where I feel it wasn't enough
And that I could ❤ you better
Now it feels like I'm stuck inside this rut
And I can't seem to open you see
Now I'm wondering why I feel so alone
Yet I keep myself in this place where my ❤ feels so stuck on you and I can't see a way out, now I'm all alone feeling this deep centred pain but I want you out of my mind

She gave him her love and he crushed it with the weight of the world on his shoulder she could see he needed help but he was blinded by rage to care he sat in despair as she wanted to offer out advice when all he cared for was taking his own life. It's not love so he keeps her at a distance. It's like these wounds won't let him grow and she tried to show him care but he didn't know what would help him when she tried to see what was up it was like a broken mirror showing a shattered reflection.

Heart turned cold for what the world once
Known about an innocent man who loved his life
He had family, wife and two kids and a dog in which
He loved so dear then one day it all went grey when he
Found his wife with another man  it broken him
So much that he started to cry cause he had been living a lie

Heart grows fond of you
Cause loving you seems so easy
With those bright brown eyes
And that perfect white smile
Girl you are so fine and I love you
Your eyes shine bright like the stars in the sky
Cause you are so fine it should be a crime
For loving you so much all the time

The anger inside haunts the life of a broken child
Never felt love from his parents yet trying
To receive it from the world it's like death's calling his name
Because he remains in pain from a trauma relived
Destruction has run through a path seeking peace
No help and yet fake pictures of a happy family spread across
A house filled with abuse, infidelity, and lies covered with fake smiles
He seems broken from all the pain thinking a nose will
Help him feel relief from everything he will lose

He feels sad that he wants ❤️
Feels afraid to open up
To show how he truly feels
Inside he doesn't want ❤️ at
It's most extreme he just wants
To be 😁 in positive relationships
He believed in ❤️ when he was
Younger but the pain of the world
Left his ❤️ shattered, now
He tries to find the ❤️ he never got
In the body of someone else
Realising he will only get attached
And his ❤️ broken all over again

You don't always need somebody to be around you
It takes time to fall in love
Just know I'll be right there beside you
To give you all the love and tender care
Cause you are precious like a diamond
And I love you so deep

My heart skips a beat when I'm around you
Baby you bring such a smile on me
I just have fun when I'm around want to just
wrap my arms when I see you
Cause you make me happy everyday you are so
**** kind and it's just so sad to see you with
Someone else but my heart just wants to be around yours
And show you love everyday cause I love to see you

Doing drugs just to escape pain
Feeling light through the heavy storms of life
Fighting myself whilst I gain flight
From the hell that's fought deep inside
Love the feeling but hate the down time
It;s like a best friend yet worse enemy

Stuck in this ➰ looking for closure
With a person I used to ❤ now
I'm out here feeling stuck reminiscing on
The past cause I thought we had ❤
Now you 😁 from a distance while
I'm stuck here feeling 🤢 wondering
Why I gave you all of this ❤
Thought we had something special yet now I can't even mention how you
Broke my ❤ and did me so wrong
Yet it's me in the way looking for happiness
In this dark place stuck in my dark times

Feeling this deep pain inside the chest
Like there's no one to love yet
Everything to give, heart feels broken
Empty and cold trying to figure out
How to operate inside this broken world
Nobody is there to listen but always wants
A helping hand this heart feels depleted
From giving all this love yet receiving none
It's like a wall built up and with covering all around
**** it feels rough yet love never seems to come out

Deep scars run deep from the betrayal he felt
A sword that cuts deep and leaves a trail of destruction
To the friends he once loved who slither like snakes
Waiting to strike and take him down
Pretending to have love when all they do is hate
Or leave him feeling broken from all the lies told
He could stay but at what cost
Because the loss of his soul is the greatest sacrifice
Ever given from love that was never there
But hatred and jealously that was totally hidden

Can't stay living in the past tense
Cause that's where my mind seems
To wonder to feeling like the memories
Will swallow me but I can't 🙈 and it's all
Because I feel trapped in these walls like Alcatraz, feeling like nobody can help me
But that's a lie cause I feel more free with these thoughts kept inside but it makes my
❤ Still race like I'm in the same space and can't wait for ⌚ to pass me by, there's light but I'm too scared to step through the tunnel cause I ❤ the pain and hate the healing feel like I'm free inside the cage of my mind.

It's like I live in another's 🌍 feeling trapped with this constant conflict of a ❤️ that wants to feel free by a mind that feels stuck inside the 🧠 it seems hard to escape this trap where I'm living for people to see them 😁 whilst my ❤️ and emotions run wild, feeling like the success brings 😞 and disappointment can't seem to 🙈 a way out of this constant controversy of a mind and ❤️ trapped in this cycle of people pleasing that it feels like life itself seems to broken to live when all I knew was pain. Trapped inside this cage whilst I hold the 🔑 I don't know what to do

These walls don't talk like they used to
Feel like talking through these empty walls
To try and fill the time I stay stuck scrolling
My timeline trying to find a way to esapce
This cycle where the old me fighting
But the new me wants to escape this
Hole that it feels trapped in
Don't know what to do anymore as
These thoughts run through with no hope

Desperate for peace he can't find
Feels like it would be better to hang from a tree
That being with a family filled with lies
A broken and tortured soul left broken
From the abuse and pain his body suffered
Ending it all seems like the best option
Cause he feels empty and cold
It's like emotions runs deep inside but he feels
Ready to hang it all up and live a short
Yet unfulfilled life with darkness and pain

Shoe

Fake friends surround me as I down another 🍾 to the head
Thoughts circling 🤔 why I'm still here
In this pit where we drink to get lifted
Yet I'm feeling so empty deep inside
🕳️ In my chest but my ❤️ can't seem to
Say no to the thought of another glass
Another 🍾 to relax yet I'm stuck here
Sitting wondering why these friends
I keep seem to be why I feel so weak
It's like I ❤️ the buzz hate the company

The hate he received from a 👓 wearing fiend who berates him with all these violent words that cut his ❤️ so deep it seems 😊 comes from his pain and he can't seem to get her off his 🧠 the lies she keeps telling him piles up in his mind till he explodes and let's the whole 🌍 know of the pain she brought his ❤️ and how she picked him apart it seems dark but the 💭 of ending it all cross his mind all because of one 👩🏽 lies.

Thoughts pile up again trying so hard
To get rid of them but I end up
Stuck back where it all began
Wondering why I just can't leave
It's like the pain brings joy to a heart
Filled with rage cause it seems
Like it's all staged but, there's no
Love without loss and the fire
Burns no more

Tourted artists by the thoughts that lay deep inside
He wonders why he can't die and leave the world
Behind cause he feels so empty and cold
In a world that stabbed him in the back and left him bruised
And wondering what was it all for nothing he does
Helps him find relief and escape as he tries to stay alive
In a house filled with abuse, neglect, lies, and deceit
He looks for the courage to take the easy way out but
Escape he can't as joy may lay on the other side of pain

Crying in this car
All alone smoking
My pain away
I tend to get stuck up
All these thoughts that run through my mind

He watches ******* 🎥
🤔 It will bring 😊 and ☮️
But all it did was bring pain
Inside his 🧠, he 🤥 thinking
Everything will be fine but
The 🌟 are great actors are great
And he hates how broken his ❤️
Feels that he can't experience this
Kind of ❤️ his 👀 filled by the lies
That *** brings ❤️ and that
❤️ Lies through loving 👀
Whilst in between her thighs

He just wants to end it all
Call it quits he tried and fought
A long battle but his 🧠 telling him
It's ⌚ quit while your ahead
In his 🧠 it's over but his ❤️
Just wants to keep going
Maybe the 🌞 shines when
All the ☁️ clear it's hard to see
But the hope he once felt
Seems so distant like a runner
Without his 👟 or a singer without
Her 🎤 he seem to want to die
And it's hard sometimes to feel alive
When the end draws near and the
Rope seems like the only option
Cause there's no hope in sight
He feels like he has got no more fight
Will he live or quit only ⌚ will tell

Crows of a feather flock together

Cows jump over the moon

He chases after feelings to hide what goes on in his mind it seems like a broken ⏰ is right twice maybe that's the same way he views life, like an endless cycle of broken dreams being chased to escape the trap that leads to an early ⚰️ it seems brave to assume he will make it out when his ❤️ feels like it's been torn apart by the people he truly ❤️ it's hard not to see the beast that lives inside like a roaring 🦁 looking to **** anything it sees in sight but alas the pain in his souls leaves the 🦁 feeling empty and ❄️.

Roses glistening in bright red
While rain falls down the hills
Honey from the bees looks really sweet
Yet the bear is always there to feast
The woods have so many wonders
And animals yet we truly cant comprehend
the beauty in all of God's creation

These thoughts run through a mind
And ❤️ that's filled with pain all the escape tools seems to keep him stuck inside the same rut wanting to get out of the cage but he's the one holding the 🔑 to get out fighting himself wondering why he doesn't just sit this one out fighting himself and the pain he once felt feeling like the trap better than the joy he once felt it's ❄️ and lonely but that's what's felt like 🏡

Feeling stuck in a loop I can't see a way out
It's like the same road just a different route
Being stuck here trying to smile through the pain
But I can't get these memories out of my brain
It's like I love the pain it puts me through
But at the same time this hell ain't even
Worth it though
Wasting all this time I could put to better use
But it's cold outside and I ain't got no noose

Stuck to you like glue cant escape
the hole you found me in seems like
Being happy is when I'm without you
It's tough times but we gotta move
But the goal is near the end

Feeling numb ain't worth running from the pain
Cause we keep getting stuck in the same place
It's like there's freedom but there's not
stuck in the same rut and looking for a way out
Used to life looking bleak now when I see the other
Side of a different peak I don't want
I can't understand why I keep loosing my mind
Over this issue

The pain in his ❤️ grows from
His childhood trauma, the dark
Thoughts seems to creep in
Like a thief in the night he 🤔
Why he feels like he's undeserving of ❤️
When all he ever heard was hate
Disguised as tough ❤️ he 😭
🤔 Why this pain runs so wild
He feels lost in his 🧠 yet peace in
His ❤️ feeling lifted from all the
Lies told by the ones he ❤️
It seem the 🌞 will start to shine again
When he realises the 🌧️ has already left.

Thoughts of suicide 🏃🏽 deep inside his mind he tries to hide all the pain by covering it up with a fake 😁 he feels like this would help until it all comes crumbling down now he feels stuck, feeling broken empty and confused at why life looks so far out of sight, seems like the bright 💡 at the end of the tunnel is to far gone for this once bright kid with a 😁 on his face and 😊 in his 👀 the voices in his head get louder it seems like his 🧠 feels fried by all the thoughts he keeps buried deep inside.

Why am I so cold empty and alone, these thoughts seem to keep running now my mind is racing, it seems like just yesterday a young 👦 grew up in a toxic 🏠 filled with violence and empty promises leaving his ❤️ torn shattered and alone, now he looks to move away from all the drugs and 🍻 he been doing there's no ☮️ in this dark ❤️ he see the light but it shines too far crawling through this broken glass of hurt looking for someone to ❤️ yet finding it so hard to break down these 🧱s.

Popeye the Sailor man loves spinach

Surrounded by 🥃 he 🤔 where
😃 Is found at the end of the 🍾
He gets wasted to escape the pain
And wastes ⌚trying to find ☮️ of 🧠
It seems the more drunk he gets
The more his ❤️ breaks as he can't
Keep 🏃‍♀️from the emotions that run deep
His friend says hey just crack another
🍾 It will all go away while he is on his
7th cup wishing he stayed.
Home where he could find some ☮️
From 🙏 to the Lord above for some
Help but he is now drunk having
Conversations that ain't no help
Now he asks himself why he escapes
The pain riddles his 🧠 but only finds
Himself drinking just to feel like himself.

Wondering why he chose to open up to a world so cold
Leaving him shaken, battered, and bruised from all
The abuse he suffered as a child he wonders why
All this pent-up aggression still lays inside
He tries to let it all go but feels like he is at the end of his rope
Stuck between letting go of the past and embracing the new
He goes back and forth with himself questioning choices
Asking what could have been had he not been
Consumed by all the pain and hurt the people
Who tired to help yet he pushed them away
Cause he felt he could swim through the ocean alone
But the current so strong it left him drowning and all alone