Thoughts are jumbled up
Cant even vent like
I used to
Feel stuck with all these
Thoughts and all these bars
But the words wont flow
Onto this page the way I want to
It's like I'm stuck but feel wide open
looking for a way out of this
Hell of writers block through writting

Feeling this deep pain inside the chest
Like there's no one to love yet
Everything to give, heart feels broken
Empty and cold trying to figure out
How to operate inside this broken world
Nobody is there to listen but always wants
A helping hand this heart feels depleted
From giving all this love yet receiving none
It's like a wall built up and with covering all around
**** it feels rough yet love never seems to come out

Drugged up feeling so high
Trying to escape the 🤬 and rage
I feel deep inside my ❤️
From the hate that often seems so small
But cuts deep like a 🔪 through the soul
Voices scream so loud and profound
Of a young 👦🏽 who didn't seem to matter
And all his pain was seen to be a joke
Nothing he could find would give him hope
Finding anything to help him cope made
Him consider using a rope to end it all
But he can't let them win
They say we're a family but
What's a family when members are missing.

These walls cover up a damaged ❤️ filled with pain, abuse and crooked lies feels stuck and tounge tied on who this 🧱 should crumble down for I guess being alone helps yet these thoughts and feelings seem to stick a little deeper feeling crushed as this ❤️ bleeds deeper into a shallow abyss that keeps nothing but torture and torment, feel like 😭 but I'm afraid I'll look weak it's so hard to open up about these feelings it's like I barely even 😴.

Shoe

Cry me a river

Fake friends surround me as I down another 🍾 to the head
Thoughts circling 🤔 why I'm still here
In this pit where we drink to get lifted
Yet I'm feeling so empty deep inside
🕳️ In my chest but my ❤️ can't seem to
Say no to the thought of another glass
Another 🍾 to relax yet I'm stuck here
Sitting wondering why these friends
I keep seem to be why I feel so weak
It's like I ❤️ the buzz hate the company

It's like I live in another's 🌍 feeling trapped with this constant conflict of a ❤️ that wants to feel free by a mind that feels stuck inside the 🧠 it seems hard to escape this trap where I'm living for people to see them 😁 whilst my ❤️ and emotions run wild, feeling like the success brings 😞 and disappointment can't seem to 🙈 a way out of this constant controversy of a mind and ❤️ trapped in this cycle of people pleasing that it feels like life itself seems to broken to live when all I knew was pain. Trapped inside this cage whilst I hold the 🔑 I don't know what to do

These videos make me feel so alive another scean gets mind feeling another rush, it's like their ❤️ feels like mine and now I'm stuck watching another 🌽  video feeling like I'm in a rut all cause I wanted  to be ❤️ now I'm looking at these people and I feel stuck wondering why all these people are so good at making ❤️ while I feel so alone and at the end of my rope well there's my luck now I don't know where to go so I stay stuck.

Feeling lost and alone in this deep pit
Emotions running high like bolt, feeling clung to things or the past it seems right but wrong and the strength I have seems gone, it's like this tight rope I walk on seems long, while I'm holding on seems like I'm going to fall with no rope to catch me fall, there's all these voices screaming on head saying I should end it all, or stay stuck in the 🕳️ I find myself in.

These constant 🧱 of comparison
He finds himself in  
Stuck inside his mind again seems
Like he can't escape I guess
That's what happens when
You're hated and the only ❤️ you
Get is when they see success but
At the end of the day it causes
Pain inside the ❤️ and mind
That just seems to be racing trying
To find ☮️ but it seems so muddled up
In wanting to be the best at whatever
He does cause it feels like it's never good
Enough when he performs well and gets
All the accomplishments that they wanted
Guess that's the curse of being the
Number 1 kid out a family of toxic people

These walls don't talk like they used to
Feel like talking through these empty walls
To try and fill the time I stay stuck scrolling
My timeline trying to find a way to esapce
This cycle where the old me fighting
But the new me wants to escape this
Hole that it feels trapped in
Don't know what to do anymore as
These thoughts run through with no hope

Running but the pain won't leave
Trying hard to find peace through
All these things feel empty inside
All over again as I chase the wind
It's like a great win seems to be so sad
When I always want something so bad
I chase it till my hands are on it and
I feel lost all over again

Roses glistening in bright red
While rain falls down the hills
Honey from the bees looks really sweet
Yet the bear is always there to feast
The woods have so many wonders
And animals yet we truly cant comprehend
the beauty in all of God's creation

Crying in this car
All alone smoking
My pain away
I tend to get stuck up
All these thoughts that run through my mind

Crows of a feather flock together

Stuck in this ➰ looking for closure
With a person I used to ❤ now
I'm out here feeling stuck reminiscing on
The past cause I thought we had ❤
Now you 😁 from a distance while
I'm stuck here feeling 🤢 wondering
Why I gave you all of this ❤
Thought we had something special yet now I can't even mention how you
Broke my ❤ and did me so wrong
Yet it's me in the way looking for happiness
In this dark place stuck in my dark times

Can't stay living in the past tense
Cause that's where my mind seems
To wonder to feeling like the memories
Will swallow me but I can't 🙈 and it's all
Because I feel trapped in these walls like Alcatraz, feeling like nobody can help me
But that's a lie cause I feel more free with these thoughts kept inside but it makes my
❤ Still race like I'm in the same space and can't wait for ⌚ to pass me by, there's light but I'm too scared to step through the tunnel cause I ❤ the pain and hate the healing feel like I'm free inside the cage of my mind.

Feeling stuck in this cycle can't seem
To get out where I find myself lost
Inside this dark mind it's like ❤️ this
Pain hits so much of the 🧠 feeling lonely
But don't want no company wanting ❤️
But to afraid to open up what's inside
This ❄️ ❤️ wants to feel ❤️ but I feel stuck
Inside this long story that doesn't
Want to end why do I feel stuck inside
This 🌊 of emotions when I could get out
It seems though it feels so bad but can't seem to get out the mud it's so hard that my ❤️ and mind seems hard to get out.

Thoughts of suicide 🏃🏽 deep inside his mind he tries to hide all the pain by covering it up with a fake 😁 he feels like this would help until it all comes crumbling down now he feels stuck, feeling broken empty and confused at why life looks so far out of sight, seems like the bright 💡 at the end of the tunnel is to far gone for this once bright kid with a 😁 on his face and 😊 in his 👀 the voices in his head get louder it seems like his 🧠 feels fried by all the thoughts he keeps buried deep inside.

To the one who seeks the door will be opened
Shoutout my people living in Africa

Heart turned cold for what the world once
Known about an innocent man who loved his life
He had family, wife and two kids and a dog in which
He loved so dear then one day it all went grey when he
Found his wife with another man  it broken him
So much that he started to cry cause he had been living a lie

Feels like I'm never good enough I feel stuck every ⌚ I climb the ladder it won't budge cause you hate on everything now out of luck cause this 🤡 keeps my racing in this weird rut where ❤ you but I really can't be around you now that's tough all cause you a hater making me feel trapped inside this cage you built now the walls feels like they're carving in and I don't know what to do guess it's rough but I'm the one who's been there right.

He chases after feelings to hide what goes on in his mind it seems like a broken ⏰ is right twice maybe that's the same way he views life, like an endless cycle of broken dreams being chased to escape the trap that leads to an early ⚰️ it seems brave to assume he will make it out when his ❤️ feels like it's been torn apart by the people he truly ❤️ it's hard not to see the beast that lives inside like a roaring 🦁 looking to **** anything it sees in sight but alas the pain in his souls leaves the 🦁 feeling empty and ❄️.

Feeling stuck in a loop I can't see a way out
It's like the same road just a different route
Being stuck here trying to smile through the pain
But I can't get these memories out of my brain
It's like I love the pain it puts me through
But at the same time this hell ain't even
Worth it though
Wasting all this time I could put to better use
But it's cold outside and I ain't got no noose

Thoughts pile up again trying so hard
To get rid of them but I end up
Stuck back where it all began
Wondering why I just can't leave
It's like the pain brings joy to a heart
Filled with rage cause it seems
Like it's all staged but, there's no
Love without loss and the fire
Burns no more

These walls hide so many great feelings of ❤️ and affection feeling happy for a change looking to spread the ❤️ that his Savior gave Jesus ❤️ him so dearly he changed for the better washing away all the pain the 🌍 gave him now he feels free from the anger that layers deep inside his ❤️ it's all clean life looks like it's worth living all these great memories with my saviour who can move the mountains.

It feels so lonely living this cold world
It's tough fighting through
All the demons and pushing through
It's been tough  but God's got me

Why am I so cold empty and alone, these thoughts seem to keep running now my mind is racing, it seems like just yesterday a young 👦 grew up in a toxic 🏠 filled with violence and empty promises leaving his ❤️ torn shattered and alone, now he looks to move away from all the drugs and 🍻 he been doing there's no ☮️ in this dark ❤️ he see the light but it shines too far crawling through this broken glass of hurt looking for someone to ❤️ yet finding it so hard to break down these 🧱s.

Doing drugs just to escape pain
Feeling light through the heavy storms of life
Fighting myself whilst I gain flight
From the hell that's fought deep inside
Love the feeling but hate the down time
It;s like a best friend yet worse enemy

Crazy thoughts run wild
Looking to let go of
All these bad habits
But it feels so hard
Feeling lost and trying
To find my way
And God guiding the way

Heart grows fond of you
Cause loving you seems so easy
With those bright brown eyes
And that perfect white smile
Girl you are so fine and I love you
Your eyes shine bright like the stars in the sky
Cause you are so fine it should be a crime
For loving you so much all the time

These thoughts run through a mind
And ❤️ that's filled with pain all the escape tools seems to keep him stuck inside the same rut wanting to get out of the cage but he's the one holding the 🔑 to get out fighting himself wondering why he doesn't just sit this one out fighting himself and the pain he once felt feeling like the trap better than the joy he once felt it's ❄️ and lonely but that's what's felt like 🏡

Doubt creeping up on me
Feel like I'm worthless
Can't do it like I used to feeling
Stuck in this thought loop
Wondering when I will get but
That's what I thought
That maybe on the other side
There would be happiness
But I feel like I'm stuck in my mind
Why do I keep torturing myself
With all these thoughts of wanting to
Do everything it feels so hard to have
Peace of mind when these thoughts keep
Racing in my mind feel like I'm stuck in
Quicksand but I've got the ripe
That will pull me out of this ditch
I find myself in

He just wants to end it all
Call it quits he tried and fought
A long battle but his 🧠 telling him
It's ⌚ quit while your ahead
In his 🧠 it's over but his ❤️
Just wants to keep going
Maybe the 🌞 shines when
All the ☁️ clear it's hard to see
But the hope he once felt
Seems so distant like a runner
Without his 👟 or a singer without
Her 🎤 he seem to want to die
And it's hard sometimes to feel alive
When the end draws near and the
Rope seems like the only option
Cause there's no hope in sight
He feels like he has got no more fight
Will he live or quit only ⌚ will tell

If these 🧱 could talk they tell a story of a man who once ❤ this beautiful chick he though could be his wife but like a 🔪 those dreams got cut short see she played him like a game and made him feels so numb guess he got lost in those 👀 wondering why he feel in ❤ feeling so broken empty and alone he thought made I should take this bottle to the dom, but it ain't feel the same since she left now he stuck with all this regret asking himself why he felt so stuck caught up with this 💔 asking God why do I feel so broken yet whole when I'm around her.

You don't always need somebody to be around you
It takes time to fall in love
Just know I'll be right there beside you
To give you all the love and tender care
Cause you are precious like a diamond
And I love you so deep

She gave him her love and he crushed it with the weight of the world on his shoulder she could see he needed help but he was blinded by rage to care he sat in despair as she wanted to offer out advice when all he cared for was taking his own life. It's not love so he keeps her at a distance. It's like these wounds won't let him grow and she tried to show him care but he didn't know what would help him when she tried to see what was up it was like a broken mirror showing a shattered reflection.

You dug up my past and said that you would help, it's like being bullied was a cry for help now I'm all alone standard while you took advantage of a 💔, gave you deepest scars and you began to tear me apart, words hurt like venom piercing through my 💓, wanted comfort but you left me in dark to wallow in pity while you fed me to the 🦈 thoughts of suicide would cross my mind and you told me maybe it's time and that no one would miss me if I were gone, felt like you lied and the only reason you did it was pride, cause when I was hurt you made it worse with the lies you spit I would eat it up like pie, craving it looking for ☮️ I would never find

Cows jump over the moon

Deep scars run deep from the betrayal he felt
A sword that cuts deep and leaves a trail of destruction
To the friends he once loved who slither like snakes
Waiting to strike and take him down
Pretending to have love when all they do is hate
Or leave him feeling broken from all the lies told
He could stay but at what cost
Because the loss of his soul is the greatest sacrifice
Ever given from love that was never there
But hatred and jealously that was totally hidden

Popeye the Sailor man loves spinach

The anger inside haunts the life of a broken child
Never felt love from his parents yet trying
To receive it from the world it's like death's calling his name
Because he remains in pain from a trauma relived
Destruction has run through a path seeking peace
No help and yet fake pictures of a happy family spread across
A house filled with abuse, infidelity, and lies covered with fake smiles
He seems broken from all the pain thinking a nose will
Help him feel relief from everything he will lose

The pain in his ❤️ grows from
His childhood trauma, the dark
Thoughts seems to creep in
Like a thief in the night he 🤔
Why he feels like he's undeserving of ❤️
When all he ever heard was hate
Disguised as tough ❤️ he 😭
🤔 Why this pain runs so wild
He feels lost in his 🧠 yet peace in
His ❤️ feeling lifted from all the
Lies told by the ones he ❤️
It seem the 🌞 will start to shine again
When he realises the 🌧️ has already left.

Roses are blue
Violets are red
Honey is sour
The sky is purple
and filled with haze
Cause this liquor
Be hitting different
Trying to pour it all out

Crused by this loving heart willing to give
To the women this pain that lay deep inside
Feeling broken and empty inside he shares the pain
That lay inside his heart but she breaks him
And tears his heart apart with all the lies
She tells him about how the world
Would be better off without him
Can't seem to let go of the pain that lies deep inside
So he cries out to her one more time but she gives
Up on him and hurts him one final time

Surrounded by 🥃 he 🤔 where
😃 Is found at the end of the 🍾
He gets wasted to escape the pain
And wastes ⌚trying to find ☮️ of 🧠
It seems the more drunk he gets
The more his ❤️ breaks as he can't
Keep 🏃‍♀️from the emotions that run deep
His friend says hey just crack another
🍾 It will all go away while he is on his
7th cup wishing he stayed.
Home where he could find some ☮️
From 🙏 to the Lord above for some
Help but he is now drunk having
Conversations that ain't no help
Now he asks himself why he escapes
The pain riddles his 🧠 but only finds
Himself drinking just to feel like himself.