Thoughts pile up again trying so hard
To get rid of them but I end up
Stuck back where it all began
Wondering why I just can't leave
It's like the pain brings joy to a heart
Filled with rage cause it seems
Like it's all staged but, there's no
Love without loss and the fire
Burns no more

These walls don't talk like they used to
Feel like talking through these empty walls
To try and fill the time I stay stuck scrolling
My timeline trying to find a way to esapce
This cycle where the old me fighting
But the new me wants to escape this
Hole that it feels trapped in
Don't know what to do anymore as
These thoughts run through with no hope

To the one who seeks the door will be opened
Shoutout my people living in Africa

Crying in this car
All alone smoking
My pain away
I tend to get stuck up
All these thoughts that run through my mind

Feeling stuck in this cycle can't seem
To get out where I find myself lost
Inside this dark mind it's like ❤️ this
Pain hits so much of the 🧠 feeling lonely
But don't want no company wanting ❤️
But to afraid to open up what's inside
This ❄️ ❤️ wants to feel ❤️ but I feel stuck
Inside this long story that doesn't
Want to end why do I feel stuck inside
This 🌊 of emotions when I could get out
It seems though it feels so bad but can't seem to get out the mud it's so hard that my ❤️ and mind seems hard to get out.

If these 🧱 could talk they tell a story of a man who once ❤ this beautiful chick he though could be his wife but like a 🔪 those dreams got cut short see she played him like a game and made him feels so numb guess he got lost in those 👀 wondering why he feel in ❤ feeling so broken empty and alone he thought made I should take this bottle to the dom, but it ain't feel the same since she left now he stuck with all this regret asking himself why he felt so stuck caught up with this 💔 asking God why do I feel so broken yet whole when I'm around her.

Drugged up feeling so high
Trying to escape the 🤬 and rage
I feel deep inside my ❤️
From the hate that often seems so small
But cuts deep like a 🔪 through the soul
Voices scream so loud and profound
Of a young 👦🏽 who didn't seem to matter
And all his pain was seen to be a joke
Nothing he could find would give him hope
Finding anything to help him cope made
Him consider using a rope to end it all
But he can't let them win
They say we're a family but
What's a family when members are missing.

Feeling stuck in a loop I can't see a way out
It's like the same road just a different route
Being stuck here trying to smile through the pain
But I can't get these memories out of my brain
It's like I love the pain it puts me through
But at the same time this hell ain't even
Worth it though
Wasting all this time I could put to better use
But it's cold outside and I ain't got no noose

It feels so lonely living this cold world
It's tough fighting through
All the demons and pushing through
It's been tough  but God's got me

Deep scars run deep from the betrayal he felt
A sword that cuts deep and leaves a trail of destruction
To the friends he once loved who slither like snakes
Waiting to strike and take him down
Pretending to have love when all they do is hate
Or leave him feeling broken from all the lies told
He could stay but at what cost
Because the loss of his soul is the greatest sacrifice
Ever given from love that was never there
But hatred and jealously that was totally hidden

Roses are blue
Violets are red
Honey is sour
The sky is purple
and filled with haze
Cause this liquor
Be hitting different
Trying to pour it all out

Heart grows fond of you
Cause loving you seems so easy
With those bright brown eyes
And that perfect white smile
Girl you are so fine and I love you
Your eyes shine bright like the stars in the sky
Cause you are so fine it should be a crime
For loving you so much all the time

You don't always need somebody to be around you
It takes time to fall in love
Just know I'll be right there beside you
To give you all the love and tender care
Cause you are precious like a diamond
And I love you so deep

These walls hide so many great feelings of ❤️ and affection feeling happy for a change looking to spread the ❤️ that his Savior gave Jesus ❤️ him so dearly he changed for the better washing away all the pain the 🌍 gave him now he feels free from the anger that layers deep inside his ❤️ it's all clean life looks like it's worth living all these great memories with my saviour who can move the mountains.

Crazy thoughts run wild
Looking to let go of
All these bad habits
But it feels so hard
Feeling lost and trying
To find my way
And God guiding the way

Just a little kid growing up in a cold 🌍
Dad's an alcoholic while his mum stays at 🏡, seems like a picture perfect family but there's trouble at home now he sits all alone cause he's always felt so broken. His mum cares concern her whilst he sits in a room feel broken ❤️ he wonders why dad's never really home asking questions with no answer feel stuck in a 🕳️ as he wonders when he will ever feel ❤️ it's like there's ☮️ within the violence and it's better he stay silent about the pain inflicted on his body and how his parents won't take his hobbies the way they treat their work now he feels trapped like suicide is best yet for protection there's no one there.

Fake friends surround me as I down another 🍾 to the head
Thoughts circling 🤔 why I'm still here
In this pit where we drink to get lifted
Yet I'm feeling so empty deep inside
🕳️ In my chest but my ❤️ can't seem to
Say no to the thought of another glass
Another 🍾 to relax yet I'm stuck here
Sitting wondering why these friends
I keep seem to be why I feel so weak
It's like I ❤️ the buzz hate the company

These constant 🧱 of comparison
He finds himself in  
Stuck inside his mind again seems
Like he can't escape I guess
That's what happens when
You're hated and the only ❤️ you
Get is when they see success but
At the end of the day it causes
Pain inside the ❤️ and mind
That just seems to be racing trying
To find ☮️ but it seems so muddled up
In wanting to be the best at whatever
He does cause it feels like it's never good
Enough when he performs well and gets
All the accomplishments that they wanted
Guess that's the curse of being the
Number 1 kid out a family of toxic people

Running but the pain won't leave
Trying hard to find peace through
All these things feel empty inside
All over again as I chase the wind
It's like a great win seems to be so sad
When I always want something so bad
I chase it till my hands are on it and
I feel lost all over again

Stuck in this ➰ looking for closure
With a person I used to ❤ now
I'm out here feeling stuck reminiscing on
The past cause I thought we had ❤
Now you 😁 from a distance while
I'm stuck here feeling 🤢 wondering
Why I gave you all of this ❤
Thought we had something special yet now I can't even mention how you
Broke my ❤ and did me so wrong
Yet it's me in the way looking for happiness
In this dark place stuck in my dark times

He feels sad that he wants ❤️
Feels afraid to open up
To show how he truly feels
Inside he doesn't want ❤️ at
It's most extreme he just wants
To be 😁 in positive relationships
He believed in ❤️ when he was
Younger but the pain of the world
Left his ❤️ shattered, now
He tries to find the ❤️ he never got
In the body of someone else
Realising he will only get attached
And his ❤️ broken all over again

He watches ******* 🎥
🤔 It will bring 😊 and ☮️
But all it did was bring pain
Inside his 🧠, he 🤥 thinking
Everything will be fine but
The 🌟 are great actors are great
And he hates how broken his ❤️
Feels that he can't experience this
Kind of ❤️ his 👀 filled by the lies
That *** brings ❤️ and that
❤️ Lies through loving 👀
Whilst in between her thighs

Roses glistening in bright red
While rain falls down the hills
Honey from the bees looks really sweet
Yet the bear is always there to feast
The woods have so many wonders
And animals yet we truly cant comprehend
the beauty in all of God's creation

Surrounded by 🥃 he 🤔 where
😃 Is found at the end of the 🍾
He gets wasted to escape the pain
And wastes ⌚trying to find ☮️ of 🧠
It seems the more drunk he gets
The more his ❤️ breaks as he can't
Keep 🏃‍♀️from the emotions that run deep
His friend says hey just crack another
🍾 It will all go away while he is on his
7th cup wishing he stayed.
Home where he could find some ☮️
From 🙏 to the Lord above for some
Help but he is now drunk having
Conversations that ain't no help
Now he asks himself why he escapes
The pain riddles his 🧠 but only finds
Himself drinking just to feel like himself.

Tourted artists by the thoughts that lay deep inside
He wonders why he can't die and leave the world
Behind cause he feels so empty and cold
In a world that stabbed him in the back and left him bruised
And wondering what was it all for nothing he does
Helps him find relief and escape as he tries to stay alive
In a house filled with abuse, neglect, lies, and deceit
He looks for the courage to take the easy way out but
Escape he can't as joy may lay on the other side of pain

Stuck between ☹️ and 😊 he 🤔
Why he can't seem to find ☮️
When all he has ever know is pain
His 🧠 lies telling him everything would
Be fine when he can't 😴 and the 👿
Is trying to play tricks with his mind
An escape from this 🌎 doesn't help
So he 🍾 it all up 🤔 that will help
But the 🤬 and pain keep pilling up
Inside and he wonders when it will
All be said and done now he hopes
That God will help him heal and cope
With all this deep emotions 🏃‍♀️ wild
Inside of him.

Thoughts of suicide 🏃🏽 deep inside his mind he tries to hide all the pain by covering it up with a fake 😁 he feels like this would help until it all comes crumbling down now he feels stuck, feeling broken empty and confused at why life looks so far out of sight, seems like the bright 💡 at the end of the tunnel is to far gone for this once bright kid with a 😁 on his face and 😊 in his 👀 the voices in his head get louder it seems like his 🧠 feels fried by all the thoughts he keeps buried deep inside.

Wondering why he chose to open up to a world so cold
Leaving him shaken, battered, and bruised from all
The abuse he suffered as a child he wonders why
All this pent-up aggression still lays inside
He tries to let it all go but feels like he is at the end of his rope
Stuck between letting go of the past and embracing the new
He goes back and forth with himself questioning choices
Asking what could have been had he not been
Consumed by all the pain and hurt the people
Who tired to help yet he pushed them away
Cause he felt he could swim through the ocean alone
But the current so strong it left him drowning and all alone

Empty void runs deep in my heart trying to find
Anything that will keep me numb
To all the pain caused inside my life
So I grab the night and begin to cut
Enjoying the rush the blood seeping through
My skin giving scars but it's the pain I enjoy
This leads to thoughts of suicide which seems
Just like a friend of mine cause I don't want to die
I just want to escape all this pain that lays deep
In my heart

Thoughts in his mind begin to close in
Asking him why he still chooses to be alive
When the ones he loved left him broken, alone and scared
That if he may open up again pain comes with it
Scared that love was never meant for him
Since every women that said they loved him lied
And used him as a way to heal their pain
It lies deep inside his mind that he's nothing
But a failure who's incapable of receiving love left
Broken and in shambles it all comes crashing down

Cry me a river

Popeye the Sailor man loves spinach

My heart skips a beat when I'm around you
Baby you bring such a smile on me
I just have fun when I'm around want to just
wrap my arms when I see you
Cause you make me happy everyday you are so
**** kind and it's just so sad to see you with
Someone else but my heart just wants to be around yours
And show you love everyday cause I love to see you

Heart turned cold for what the world once
Known about an innocent man who loved his life
He had family, wife and two kids and a dog in which
He loved so dear then one day it all went grey when he
Found his wife with another man  it broken him
So much that he started to cry cause he had been living a lie

Why am I so cold empty and alone, these thoughts seem to keep running now my mind is racing, it seems like just yesterday a young 👦 grew up in a toxic 🏠 filled with violence and empty promises leaving his ❤️ torn shattered and alone, now he looks to move away from all the drugs and 🍻 he been doing there's no ☮️ in this dark ❤️ he see the light but it shines too far crawling through this broken glass of hurt looking for someone to ❤️ yet finding it so hard to break down these 🧱s.

These thoughts run through a mind
And ❤️ that's filled with pain all the escape tools seems to keep him stuck inside the same rut wanting to get out of the cage but he's the one holding the 🔑 to get out fighting himself wondering why he doesn't just sit this one out fighting himself and the pain he once felt feeling like the trap better than the joy he once felt it's ❄️ and lonely but that's what's felt like 🏡

Feeling lost and alone in this deep pit
Emotions running high like bolt, feeling clung to things or the past it seems right but wrong and the strength I have seems gone, it's like this tight rope I walk on seems long, while I'm holding on seems like I'm going to fall with no rope to catch me fall, there's all these voices screaming on head saying I should end it all, or stay stuck in the 🕳️ I find myself in.

Body goes through so much pain from the physical abuse suffered and it keep his mind in ******* feeling like everyone will 🐍 him the way his parents did, feeling lost and lonely seeking ❤️ from anyone he can find leading up to him wishing he'd die it seem tough climbing a 🏔️ built on broken glass and empty promises, he feels all alone with nobody to turn to it just seems like pain is all there ever is to a boy living in this 🥶 world

Feeling this deep pain inside the chest
Like there's no one to love yet
Everything to give, heart feels broken
Empty and cold trying to figure out
How to operate inside this broken world
Nobody is there to listen but always wants
A helping hand this heart feels depleted
From giving all this love yet receiving none
It's like a wall built up and with covering all around
**** it feels rough yet love never seems to come out

These videos make me feel so alive another scean gets mind feeling another rush, it's like their ❤️ feels like mine and now I'm stuck watching another 🌽  video feeling like I'm in a rut all cause I wanted  to be ❤️ now I'm looking at these people and I feel stuck wondering why all these people are so good at making ❤️ while I feel so alone and at the end of my rope well there's my luck now I don't know where to go so I stay stuck.

Cows jump over the moon

Going down a dark road with different vices
He feels there's no escape from the empty feeling inside
He tries to hide it with a bottle straight to the head
But it only leaves him dead inside
He lies to himself thinking everything is fine
But the pain ran so deep he even thought about ending
His own life cause the memories run wild
Like Hulk Hogan so he sees the only escape to be
Anything he could find which led him to a destructive path
Now he is all alone and feels so broken and alone

The blood brings a head rush as he cuts his skin trying to feel something within that isn't numb he can't talk to anyone cause they just seem to shut him out now his stuck 🤔 why he feels no ❤️ it's like they care but they don't wondering when and I he can't escape from this hell 🕳️ he finds himself trapped in. It's like the pain brings joy to a once lost boy who felt like the only time he was ❤️ was through pain now he is stuck picking up pieces he never broke.

The pain in his ❤️ grows from
His childhood trauma, the dark
Thoughts seems to creep in
Like a thief in the night he 🤔
Why he feels like he's undeserving of ❤️
When all he ever heard was hate
Disguised as tough ❤️ he 😭
🤔 Why this pain runs so wild
He feels lost in his 🧠 yet peace in
His ❤️ feeling lifted from all the
Lies told by the ones he ❤️
It seem the 🌞 will start to shine again
When he realises the 🌧️ has already left.

Trying to find love inside all these fake connections
It seems the closer he gets to them
The further away he finds himself
Feeling disconnected inside a world filled with lies
He wonders if will there ever be an end
Asking when will he find something real
Whilst pretending these fake friends and people will
Bring him joy when all they want is to feel relief
From the pain that runs deep inside

He just wants to end it all
Call it quits he tried and fought
A long battle but his 🧠 telling him
It's ⌚ quit while your ahead
In his 🧠 it's over but his ❤️
Just wants to keep going
Maybe the 🌞 shines when
All the ☁️ clear it's hard to see
But the hope he once felt
Seems so distant like a runner
Without his 👟 or a singer without
Her 🎤 he seem to want to die
And it's hard sometimes to feel alive
When the end draws near and the
Rope seems like the only option
Cause there's no hope in sight
He feels like he has got no more fight
Will he live or quit only ⌚ will tell

Love was never the same when you left
It's like every love song seems to be about you
Can't lie you did a number on me now
I can't seem to get you out of my head
The lies you shared when you told me you had
Love for me, being left broken and confused by
Your actions beacuse  you say you love me one moment
Next thing you're using me to express your pain
Can't lie it seems so hard to get you off my brain
Thought loving you would bring me closer to God
But it left me wishing the devil took you instead