Just a little kid growing up in a cold 🌍
Dad's an alcoholic while his mum stays at 🏡, seems like a picture perfect family but there's trouble at home now he sits all alone cause he's always felt so broken. His mum cares concern her whilst he sits in a room feel broken ❤️ he wonders why dad's never really home asking questions with no answer feel stuck in a 🕳️ as he wonders when he will ever feel ❤️ it's like there's ☮️ within the violence and it's better he stay silent about the pain inflicted on his body and how his parents won't take his hobbies the way they treat their work now he feels trapped like suicide is best yet for protection there's no one there.

These walls cover up a damaged ❤️ filled with pain, abuse and crooked lies feels stuck and tounge tied on who this 🧱 should crumble down for I guess being alone helps yet these thoughts and feelings seem to stick a little deeper feeling crushed as this ❤️ bleeds deeper into a shallow abyss that keeps nothing but torture and torment, feel like 😭 but I'm afraid I'll look weak it's so hard to open up about these feelings it's like I barely even 😴.

Thoughts are jumbled up
Cant even vent like
I used to
Feel stuck with all these
Thoughts and all these bars
But the words wont flow
Onto this page the way I want to
It's like I'm stuck but feel wide open
looking for a way out of this
Hell of writers block through writting

Crows of a feather flock together

The balloon was floating in the air
Wondering through the city
Looking for a place of accession
Until it met a tree and got stuck
A little boy saw this ballon and
If he could get it but ended up
Stuck in the same tree cause
He was scared to come down
He cried for help till a fireman came
And got the boy and the balloon out of the tree

These constant 🧱 of comparison
He finds himself in  
Stuck inside his mind again seems
Like he can't escape I guess
That's what happens when
You're hated and the only ❤️ you
Get is when they see success but
At the end of the day it causes
Pain inside the ❤️ and mind
That just seems to be racing trying
To find ☮️ but it seems so muddled up
In wanting to be the best at whatever
He does cause it feels like it's never good
Enough when he performs well and gets
All the accomplishments that they wanted
Guess that's the curse of being the
Number 1 kid out a family of toxic people

He feels sad that he wants ❤️
Feels afraid to open up
To show how he truly feels
Inside he doesn't want ❤️ at
It's most extreme he just wants
To be 😁 in positive relationships
He believed in ❤️ when he was
Younger but the pain of the world
Left his ❤️ shattered, now
He tries to find the ❤️ he never got
In the body of someone else
Realising he will only get attached
And his ❤️ broken all over again

Why am I so cold empty and alone, these thoughts seem to keep running now my mind is racing, it seems like just yesterday a young 👦 grew up in a toxic 🏠 filled with violence and empty promises leaving his ❤️ torn shattered and alone, now he looks to move away from all the drugs and 🍻 he been doing there's no ☮️ in this dark ❤️ he see the light but it shines too far crawling through this broken glass of hurt looking for someone to ❤️ yet finding it so hard to break down these 🧱s.

Don't ❤ her the same no more
But I can't get her off my mind
Feels like I'm stuck inside this time
Loop trying to get myself set free
These thoughts keep creeping up
Where I feel it wasn't enough
And that I could ❤ you better
Now it feels like I'm stuck inside this rut
And I can't seem to open you see
Now I'm wondering why I feel so alone
Yet I keep myself in this place where my ❤ feels so stuck on you and I can't see a way out, now I'm all alone feeling this deep centred pain but I want you out of my mind

Heart grows fond of you
Cause loving you seems so easy
With those bright brown eyes
And that perfect white smile
Girl you are so fine and I love you
Your eyes shine bright like the stars in the sky
Cause you are so fine it should be a crime
For loving you so much all the time

Heart turned cold for what the world once
Known about an innocent man who loved his life
He had family, wife and two kids and a dog in which
He loved so dear then one day it all went grey when he
Found his wife with another man  it broken him
So much that he started to cry cause he had been living a lie

Fake friends surround me as I down another 🍾 to the head
Thoughts circling 🤔 why I'm still here
In this pit where we drink to get lifted
Yet I'm feeling so empty deep inside
🕳️ In my chest but my ❤️ can't seem to
Say no to the thought of another glass
Another 🍾 to relax yet I'm stuck here
Sitting wondering why these friends
I keep seem to be why I feel so weak
It's like I ❤️ the buzz hate the company

Doubt creeping up on me
Feel like I'm worthless
Can't do it like I used to feeling
Stuck in this thought loop
Wondering when I will get but
That's what I thought
That maybe on the other side
There would be happiness
But I feel like I'm stuck in my mind
Why do I keep torturing myself
With all these thoughts of wanting to
Do everything it feels so hard to have
Peace of mind when these thoughts keep
Racing in my mind feel like I'm stuck in
Quicksand but I've got the ripe
That will pull me out of this ditch
I find myself in

These thoughts run through a mind
And ❤️ that's filled with pain all the escape tools seems to keep him stuck inside the same rut wanting to get out of the cage but he's the one holding the 🔑 to get out fighting himself wondering why he doesn't just sit this one out fighting himself and the pain he once felt feeling like the trap better than the joy he once felt it's ❄️ and lonely but that's what's felt like 🏡

No peace in this broken home seems like he barely gets no sleep
With the lies spread about the love that surrounds him
He barely finds anything to help him cope
It's like there's no hope and death seems like a stretch
But yet he lies to himself thinking everything will be fine
But he is blinded by the truth that's deep into his eyes
It's like crying could help yet no tears fall down
Seems lost broken and alone finding nothing
But shattered dreams of a family he believed he would see

You dug up my past and said that you would help, it's like being bullied was a cry for help now I'm all alone standard while you took advantage of a 💔, gave you deepest scars and you began to tear me apart, words hurt like venom piercing through my 💓, wanted comfort but you left me in dark to wallow in pity while you fed me to the 🦈 thoughts of suicide would cross my mind and you told me maybe it's time and that no one would miss me if I were gone, felt like you lied and the only reason you did it was pride, cause when I was hurt you made it worse with the lies you spit I would eat it up like pie, craving it looking for ☮️ I would never find

Stuck in this ➰ looking for closure
With a person I used to ❤ now
I'm out here feeling stuck reminiscing on
The past cause I thought we had ❤
Now you 😁 from a distance while
I'm stuck here feeling 🤢 wondering
Why I gave you all of this ❤
Thought we had something special yet now I can't even mention how you
Broke my ❤ and did me so wrong
Yet it's me in the way looking for happiness
In this dark place stuck in my dark times

It feels so lonely living this cold world
It's tough fighting through
All the demons and pushing through
It's been tough  but God's got me

Feeling lost and alone in this deep pit
Emotions running high like bolt, feeling clung to things or the past it seems right but wrong and the strength I have seems gone, it's like this tight rope I walk on seems long, while I'm holding on seems like I'm going to fall with no rope to catch me fall, there's all these voices screaming on head saying I should end it all, or stay stuck in the 🕳️ I find myself in.

These walls hide so many great feelings of ❤️ and affection feeling happy for a change looking to spread the ❤️ that his Savior gave Jesus ❤️ him so dearly he changed for the better washing away all the pain the 🌍 gave him now he feels free from the anger that layers deep inside his ❤️ it's all clean life looks like it's worth living all these great memories with my saviour who can move the mountains.

Doing drugs just to escape pain
Feeling light through the heavy storms of life
Fighting myself whilst I gain flight
From the hell that's fought deep inside
Love the feeling but hate the down time
It;s like a best friend yet worse enemy