Why am I so cold empty and alone, these thoughts seem to keep running now my mind is racing, it seems like just yesterday a young 👦 grew up in a toxic 🏠 filled with violence and empty promises leaving his ❤️ torn shattered and alone, now he looks to move away from all the drugs and 🍻 he been doing there's no ☮️ in this dark ❤️ he see the light but it shines too far crawling through this broken glass of hurt looking for someone to ❤️ yet finding it so hard to break down these 🧱s.

Thoughts of suicide 🏃🏽 deep inside his mind he tries to hide all the pain by covering it up with a fake 😁 he feels like this would help until it all comes crumbling down now he feels stuck, feeling broken empty and confused at why life looks so far out of sight, seems like the bright 💡 at the end of the tunnel is to far gone for this once bright kid with a 😁 on his face and 😊 in his 👀 the voices in his head get louder it seems like his 🧠 feels fried by all the thoughts he keeps buried deep inside.

Heart grows fond of you
Cause loving you seems so easy
With those bright brown eyes
And that perfect white smile
Girl you are so fine and I love you
Your eyes shine bright like the stars in the sky
Cause you are so fine it should be a crime
For loving you so much all the time

Empty void runs deep in my heart trying to find
Anything that will keep me numb
To all the pain caused inside my life
So I grab the night and begin to cut
Enjoying the rush the blood seeping through
My skin giving scars but it's the pain I enjoy
This leads to thoughts of suicide which seems
Just like a friend of mine cause I don't want to die
I just want to escape all this pain that lays deep
In my heart

Doing drugs just to escape pain
Feeling light through the heavy storms of life
Fighting myself whilst I gain flight
From the hell that's fought deep inside
Love the feeling but hate the down time
It;s like a best friend yet worse enemy

Crying in this car
All alone smoking
My pain away
I tend to get stuck up
All these thoughts that run through my mind

You don't always need somebody to be around you
It takes time to fall in love
Just know I'll be right there beside you
To give you all the love and tender care
Cause you are precious like a diamond
And I love you so deep

You dug up my past and said that you would help, it's like being bullied was a cry for help now I'm all alone standard while you took advantage of a 💔, gave you deepest scars and you began to tear me apart, words hurt like venom piercing through my 💓, wanted comfort but you left me in dark to wallow in pity while you fed me to the 🦈 thoughts of suicide would cross my mind and you told me maybe it's time and that no one would miss me if I were gone, felt like you lied and the only reason you did it was pride, cause when I was hurt you made it worse with the lies you spit I would eat it up like pie, craving it looking for ☮️ I would never find

Popeye the Sailor man loves spinach

Desperate for peace he can't find
Feels like it would be better to hang from a tree
That being with a family filled with lies
A broken and tortured soul left broken
From the abuse and pain his body suffered
Ending it all seems like the best option
Cause he feels empty and cold
It's like emotions runs deep inside but he feels
Ready to hang it all up and live a short
Yet unfulfilled life with darkness and pain

Deep scars run deep from the betrayal he felt
A sword that cuts deep and leaves a trail of destruction
To the friends he once loved who slither like snakes
Waiting to strike and take him down
Pretending to have love when all they do is hate
Or leave him feeling broken from all the lies told
He could stay but at what cost
Because the loss of his soul is the greatest sacrifice
Ever given from love that was never there
But hatred and jealously that was totally hidden

Feeling this deep pain inside the chest
Like there's no one to love yet
Everything to give, heart feels broken
Empty and cold trying to figure out
How to operate inside this broken world
Nobody is there to listen but always wants
A helping hand this heart feels depleted
From giving all this love yet receiving none
It's like a wall built up and with covering all around
**** it feels rough yet love never seems to come out

These constant 🧱 of comparison
He finds himself in  
Stuck inside his mind again seems
Like he can't escape I guess
That's what happens when
You're hated and the only ❤️ you
Get is when they see success but
At the end of the day it causes
Pain inside the ❤️ and mind
That just seems to be racing trying
To find ☮️ but it seems so muddled up
In wanting to be the best at whatever
He does cause it feels like it's never good
Enough when he performs well and gets
All the accomplishments that they wanted
Guess that's the curse of being the
Number 1 kid out a family of toxic people

Stuck between ☹️ and 😊 he 🤔
Why he can't seem to find ☮️
When all he has ever know is pain
His 🧠 lies telling him everything would
Be fine when he can't 😴 and the 👿
Is trying to play tricks with his mind
An escape from this 🌎 doesn't help
So he 🍾 it all up 🤔 that will help
But the 🤬 and pain keep pilling up
Inside and he wonders when it will
All be said and done now he hopes
That God will help him heal and cope
With all this deep emotions 🏃‍♀️ wild
Inside of him.

Doubt creeping up on me
Feel like I'm worthless
Can't do it like I used to feeling
Stuck in this thought loop
Wondering when I will get but
That's what I thought
That maybe on the other side
There would be happiness
But I feel like I'm stuck in my mind
Why do I keep torturing myself
With all these thoughts of wanting to
Do everything it feels so hard to have
Peace of mind when these thoughts keep
Racing in my mind feel like I'm stuck in
Quicksand but I've got the ripe
That will pull me out of this ditch
I find myself in

The balloon was floating in the air
Wondering through the city
Looking for a place of accession
Until it met a tree and got stuck
A little boy saw this ballon and
If he could get it but ended up
Stuck in the same tree cause
He was scared to come down
He cried for help till a fireman came
And got the boy and the balloon out of the tree

Drugged up feeling so high
Trying to escape the 🤬 and rage
I feel deep inside my ❤️
From the hate that often seems so small
But cuts deep like a 🔪 through the soul
Voices scream so loud and profound
Of a young 👦🏽 who didn't seem to matter
And all his pain was seen to be a joke
Nothing he could find would give him hope
Finding anything to help him cope made
Him consider using a rope to end it all
But he can't let them win
They say we're a family but
What's a family when members are missing.

Can't stay living in the past tense
Cause that's where my mind seems
To wonder to feeling like the memories
Will swallow me but I can't 🙈 and it's all
Because I feel trapped in these walls like Alcatraz, feeling like nobody can help me
But that's a lie cause I feel more free with these thoughts kept inside but it makes my
❤ Still race like I'm in the same space and can't wait for ⌚ to pass me by, there's light but I'm too scared to step through the tunnel cause I ❤ the pain and hate the healing feel like I'm free inside the cage of my mind.

Heart turned cold for what the world once
Known about an innocent man who loved his life
He had family, wife and two kids and a dog in which
He loved so dear then one day it all went grey when he
Found his wife with another man  it broken him
So much that he started to cry cause he had been living a lie

These walls hide so many great feelings of ❤️ and affection feeling happy for a change looking to spread the ❤️ that his Savior gave Jesus ❤️ him so dearly he changed for the better washing away all the pain the 🌍 gave him now he feels free from the anger that layers deep inside his ❤️ it's all clean life looks like it's worth living all these great memories with my saviour who can move the mountains.

My heart skips a beat when I'm around you
Baby you bring such a smile on me
I just have fun when I'm around want to just
wrap my arms when I see you
Cause you make me happy everyday you are so
**** kind and it's just so sad to see you with
Someone else but my heart just wants to be around yours
And show you love everyday cause I love to see you