M/Las Montanas Shameless dreamer. Sorry for some of the violent overtones in my writing, but I write what I’ve lived. Cheers to my fellow dreamers and lovers of words.
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At once I am And then I’m not I was, and still see But not it’s far from me I want but cannot I do not, and want not But then the feelings How they rise again For I seek in writhing pain That which I am, but want not I’m am what I’m not But cling to the not, as if I am I say and speak from the past But I speak that which was not cast I sort of am, but no I have learned to change But long for the past That which came from love But did not last So I have the new, which is really old But not to me, I’m not part I’m told But I am part, or so it seems But not, in my closest dreams I have changed much But stayed the same A walking contradiction Or so it seems
I love you, yet I hate you I am happy, yet devastated I am whole, yet broken into shards I am gentle, yet violent at once I am hard, yet demur and harmless I’m decisive, yet easily confused I control, yet want no authority I ****, yet cry at the death of a bird I am wholesome, yet deeply sinful I am truthful, but my life a lie