Don’t be sad now that I’m gone
For all my incompleteness has been made whole
My idiosyncrasies have synchronized
My evil has been turned to the good
My unwillingness made willing
Freed from myself I was allowed to right my wrong
Struggle free and find absolution
My absolution was quickly given away
To those that seek their own but cannot find it with the living
When words carelessly spoken
Cause about them a terrible roar
When hearts they are broken
Selling feelings like a *****
Scorned, throttled and beaten
Torn as if limbs in their minds
Thrown down, burned into ash and eaten
Careless to hurt, living so blind
When the ones you have treated
Have died, cursed, or bleated
Bedeviling thoughts of him who is seated
Shall return to you with fire in time
With fire of their ire
Will you they seek
To tear at your bones and your heart to *****
And then you will learn that they were priceless
To a tone deaf ******* whose heart was of stone
Seek revenge upon your eternal and dying soul
Only then will you understand you were rich
Only then will you know that karma’s a *****
Grip the side of the bed in fear
Swelling in the air, a curse run amok
Seeing faces turn gray the seer
Fingers turn white a stare at the clock
How can I go when I’m not ready?
The plaintive cries the hallways fill
See my hands shake, my legs unsteady
Jump out of the window or swallow a pill
Where will those with class go to mend?
Among the pittance of which they dwell
Without a small sheet to wipe their a$$es
Will they su€k and gasp to the pits of hell?
Where is the mercy that thou dost seek?
Not as gentle the mist that has released
Shall it be boisterous or commonly meek?
What shall your soul do if called deceased
I can’t share, the truths I can’t bear
Life is cold, it doesn’t seem fair
Walking beside yourself, passing you by
Needing some love, you cannot find
Earth is in action, it does not care
These are your dreams, vanish in the air
Seeing the truth in slices, that’s no lie
Gasping for air, why do I try?
Listing alone, off to the side
Seeking a purpose, a true and tried
Can’t ever go home, just wander wide
It’s all a loss, don’t know why I even tried
What we are isn’t what we were.
What we will be isn’t what we are now.
With you I enjoyed
World as if your smiling face
World's activities as if
your beautiful fingers running on knitting yarns
World's jewellery as if
Your beautiful sceneries
World's goodness as if
Your lovely sweetness
World's greenery as if
Your yummy culinary
World's annoyance as if
I never thought
The days will be so harsh
World's colour will be so dark
My wounds will be so invisible
Days will add salt to injuries
I will see no end to my miseries
Only your ideals will heal the wounds
Your memories will be boons
Such a feeling felt
When greeted --
With the familiar
I so long missed.
A pool of water surrounds me.
How did I get so cold?