Life is a maze
We go round and round
Everyday
Running into dead ends
At every turn
But
We must never give up
We must never give in

Things may seem impossible
At times
Like every turn
Is a false started

There is a way through the maze
A way to the other side
Just keep picking your steps
Carefully
Never give up
No matter how hard
Things seem

Before you know it
You will be through the maze

Live life on your own terms
Do things your way
Do not follow the crowd
Strike your own path
Forge a new trail



You are you
You are not like the rest
So don’t treat yourself as if you are
Find your own gifts
Build them up
Be strengthened by them



Yes there will be pitfalls from time to time
But
Learn from them
Do not run away
Grow

Live your life
Live it to the fullest
Live every
Month
Week
Day
Hour
Minutes
Second
To its fullest measure
Let no time be wasted

I feel lonely
I feel hurt
A thousand
No
A million tears
Burst from the floodgates
And
Flow as a mighty river
From my eyes

Long haul trucker
Running down the road
18 wheels
For your heavy load

Across the country
Highways and byways
Small towns and big cities

Hook up the rig
Off on another run
Moving down the Highway
Running down the sun

Lord you're my God and king
I will praise your name
With my voice I sing
Your praise forever

You did save my life
With your sacrifice
Now I can live
Forever

You have set me free
From the pain indeed
And the sin and death
That plagued me

Come and fill me Lord
I am empty and weak

Like a thorn from a rosebush
Sticking in my veigns
This world is making me insane
Lord I need your light to help me through

Blood is she'd tears are spilt
For my sins and my gilt
Lord I need your mercy and your grace

Headed down a one way street
Into a brick wall I can't see
Life goes by to quickly sometimes

Lord help me slow down
Give me the strength
Help me take one moment at a time

Lord I can here you calling
Through I know I've been stalling
This world has a mighty grip on me
No matter how I tried
This world kept me tied
To the things that once ment so much to me

Lord of my life come free me
Break the bonds reclaim me
As the periodical child that I be

Lord of my life set me straight
Plant my feet guide my ways
So me to the glory make me see

As I look out upon the sea
My eyes fill with tears for thee
Your ship left by the sunset glow
Sadly your ship never returned home

Lost forever
Upon the waves
Lost on and island somewhere
I may never know

My heart hurts with sadness
Just thinking of you
The good times
The joy of being together

Sadly those moments can be no more
I miss you
My love
My soul
My world

We stare into each other’s eyes
The truth
The passion
We both see in them

A longing as old as time itself
Primal in lust
Primal in emotion
Primal in animalistic desire

We stare into each other’s eyes
Passion feels us both
Urges overtake us
We lose control
And fall upon the bed
In madness
In insanity
In pure honest animalistic joy

Like two pigs wallowing in the mud
We twist
We turn
We snort and squeal

Like two cobras attacking each other
We strike again, and again, and again
We strike with passion
We strike with joy
We strike ecstasy

Sweat pours all around us
The sent of ****** purity is in the air

Soon
All to soon
It is finished
We relax
We slumber

We sleep

Love is like a river
Flowing between two souls

Love has no gender
Love has no age
Love has no category

To many people
Try to put love in a box
It doesn't work
Love
True love
Honestly love
Is a free spirit
Loving and caring
As it will

Love is not just a four letter word
Love is emotion
Love is passion
Love is life

As a mighty waterfall
My blood streams through my vines
My heart pounds every time you are near
Just the sight of you
Just the sound of your voice
Is enough to get my emotions stirring

The song of a goddess
A melody from heaven above
Reaches down to my soul

A soul once dark
Now alive with your spark
You light up my life
With your tenderness and love

Thank you for being a part of my life

Love is a flower
Let it bloom in your life

Love is a seed
Let it grow
Let it bloom
Within your heart

Love is a great secret
Between to souls

I thought you loved me
I should have known
It was all a joke to you

My love falls like the rain
And
Falls into a puddle in your heart

The emotional dam has burst
Blood rushes
It heats up as the anger grows
The madder I get
The more my blood boils
The more I feel
I will burst into flames

Life has delt me a nasty blow
I was cheated
I was hurt
When life attacked

I want to fight back
To prove I am no coward
To prove I am strong
To prove I am not someone to ***** with

Bound and gagged
Laying on the floor
Naked
Bleeding
Hurting
The Salt from my tears stings
As they wash over the wounds upon my boby


For three years we had been friends
For three years we had been like brothers
Having cookouts
Going to ball games and parties
Celebrating each other’s life
or
Just hanging out
Just the two of us


Little did I know the monster within my friend
It started out as small stuff
Touching
The way he spoke
Sometimes it ways the way he acted


Then one night while we sat on the couch
watching tv
He made his move
And jumped me
I tried to fight him off
But
To no avail


When I fought he fought back
Punching
Kicking
In some cases cutting me with a knife


Finally I gave up trying to fight
Seeing it was doing no good
And was just getting me hurt worse
Once when he had his knife out and was cutting me
I screamed “ Go ahead and **** me while you’re at it.”
His response “No I want to here you scream.”


He finally bound me
And started his ***** deed
Pounding his tool in my ***
Like a jackhammer
Again, and again, and again
The more I screamed in pain
The more he laughed


Through tears and blood
I endured it all
Then he was done
Before he left he told me
If I said anything to anyone
He’d come back and **** me
He gagged me just to be safe


After he left
Through much struggle
I worked free of my bonds


I never said anything about that moment
Until now
Two weeks after this happened
He was in a car crash and died
Justice paid from above

I’m a man of the Earth, just give me a plow
While I’m out working, I’ll praise him out loud
I’ll sing his song, while out in the field
Milking the cows or changing a wheel

I’m a man of the Earth, with the simple’s of life
I have a house and a truck
Two kids and a wife.
I have a pet dog that I think is best.
My, how the Lord’s blessed again and again

I’ll love you lord from now and all time
I will forever sing your praise
When I have finished
I know you have heard
but Lord my praise is simple
For I’m just a man of the Earth

I wear a mask so you can't see

The emotion and hurt

That's slowly killing me

Water is soft
Yet
It can tear down walls
Destroy mountains
Move objects

May my soul
Be like the water
Soft
Yet
Strong enough
To deal with whatever comes my way

Your love
Is like a mega bomb
Destroying
The walls left behind
By past relationships

Down the dark hallways of my mind
What secrets
What horrors
Lay in the dark corners

If you want me in your life
Tell me
If you don't want me in your life
Tell me
Stop with the mind games

Tears stream from my eyes
For my heart aches
When you are away

You monster
How dare you touch
A child in such a way

You monster
How dare you treat
A child in such a manner

Children are our future
They will one day
Running this world

Monsters under my bed
Monsters in my head
Monsters in my life
Monsters day and night

Mommy the monster is back
Honey I keep telling you it is all in your head
But I will check one more time
No monsters under your bed
No monsters in your closet
Now try to get some sleep


Mommy’s wrong
The monster’s are not just in my head
But all around me


Bullies
Mom and dad fighting
Are just the normal stuff


Abuse and ****
Sexually
Physically
Emotionally


No mom the monster is not just in my head
It lives
It breathes
Day after day it stacks me
Waiting for a time to strike


The face of the monster
Is comprised of everyone I have ever known


No mom the monster is real
You and dad just fail to see it

Movie night what a wonderful time
Drinks
Popcorn
Together on the couch

As we watch our favorite show

This is my poem
My words
The dagger in my heart
The knife in my back

This is my poem
My emotional flood
The pouring of
Blood
Sweat
Tears

This is my poem
My journey
The joy of life
The pain that sometimes is

This is my poem
My life
My hurt
My struggles

This is my poem
The flowing of tears
The laughing like a loon

This is my poem
This is me

My heart
Yes it is yours Lord

Savior of mankind
Only you are worthy
Unending praises to you
Lord almighty

My teddy bear
My companion
My friend

My teddy bear
Never tells me I"m wrong
Or criticize me in any way

You take away my fears
Calm me when I have bad dreams
You never laugh at or tease me

My teddy bear
I love you

Naked I stand before the world
Not a physical nakedness
But emotional

Every hurt
All my pain
The river and ocean of tears
All layed bare for the world to see

My life’s journey
My joys
My struggels
My faults
My failures

All on display
For the woeld to see
All on display
For the world to judge

Every scab
Every cut
Every scare

A testimony of life
Life lived
Life rejected
Life learned
Life regained

Naked
I stand befor the world
Not physical nakedness

But emotional

The trees cry out
They cry sap
For the damage done to the natural world

Navigate the stars
here in space
with these two hearts

Love was found
with just a kiss
now
eternal bliss

Our lives forevermore
together they shine

bliss that skyrocketed to the sky
you and I
arm in arm
walking life together
Navigating through the stars

It's almost New Years Eve
And I ready
Let's see
Beer
Wine
Chicken wings
Check
Funny glass
Noise makers
Hatsa
Check

It's almost New Years Eve
Do I have everything
Music
Ribs
Pizza
Check
Games
Puzzles
Fruit juice
Check

Beer Year's Eve
Fun with friends
Fun with family

Party party party

As I lie here
Starring up at the night sky
Wandering about my purpose
About my direction in life

The stars shine bright
The worlds spin in the heavenly dance across the sky
We lay here upon the lawn
Looking up

While the stars shine
While the worlds spin
My thoughts begin to wonder
About this world
And our place in it
Where that place is
As long as you're with me
It will be ok

Stars at night
Shine so bright
Just like gems

Voices yelling at me
People hitting me
People punching me
People kicking me


Laughter is heard
I know I am the joke
They get their joy from my pain
They get their joy from my tears


They want me to hurt
Physically
Mentally
Emotionally
They want to laugh at my scars
They want to laugh at my life


Day after day
They laugh
Spit wads stick in my hair
They may be having fun
The fun stopped for me a long time ago

No
You stay a way from me
No
You have no right to do that

I though you loved me
You just wanted to play games
To tear off my clothes
To put me to shame

You blackened my eye
You cut my thigh
You made me cry

You beat me ******
You broke my bones
Then you stole from me
That which was my own

With every ******
You stole more and more
I could not fight back
You handcuffed me to a pipe in the floor

You put your snake inside me
It tore me apart
From that spot between my legs
All the way to my heart

You said if I ever spoke out
You’d come back and **** me
Then you’d **** everyone I loved

Now I lay here
Quietly sobbing
In a pool pf my own blood
Broken  and beaten

Ready to die

Tony what do you think when you look at me
An ocean
Are you calling me fat
Not at all


I say an ocean
Because when you speak
The words have depth and meaning
Not shallow and worthless


Each word you speak
A tidal wave of truth
Each word you speak
A whirlpool


I say an ocean
Because there is treasure
Hidden in all you say


The truth within your words surge
Like a mighty tide
That crashes upon
Everything that is false
Within this world

Ocean's may separate us
But our love remains strong

I like crying at the ocean's edge
And watch my tears
Floating out to sea

The ole swimming hole
Oh what fun we had
Going out over the water on the rope swing
Then letting go with a splash
Splash fights with each other
Pulling one another under the water
Finding things in the mud

One beat
One drum beat
One heart beat
Since the beginning of time the beat always was
Beating in continuous form within the storage of the human soul

The heart skips a beat
The drum beat changes
The beat gets faster and more intense
The throbbing heart feels it will explode with the pressure
There is no warning to be had that excels within the intents passion
That spills from this thing called the human being

The heart skips another beat
The drum beat pulsates with the driving of the heart
Faster and faster the heat begins to grow between us
The heart beat
The drum beat
The two beats join forever as one
The one beat beats out of control
The emotional high is more than the human soul can contain

As the beat intensifies in speed and scope
The passion overflows from our hearts
The passion, the flavor, the very essence of our soul
Is exemplified within this one beat

As long as our hearts beat true nothing else matters
The passion, we have gone to far to turn back now

The heat calms down
The deed is done
The excitement wares off
We sleep

One beat
The heart beat
The drum beat
From the beginning of time the beat always was
The beat always will be