Someone once told me
Just because I have an opinion
Doesn’t mean anyone needs to hear it

If people didn’t share opinions with me
I couldn’t be free to speak eloquently
And maybe disagree but get back on
Track and shake hands at the end
And feel my mind bend at new information
It’s the best way to learn and a
Human connection
As long as my input is true and kind
I often feel it necessary to speak my mind.

~kb

Carry me gently to the moon
My heart hurts darkness makes me swoon
I need to be rid of this intense guilt
Let me curve like a cat on the moon’s tilt
Let me touch tips of stars
Feel their heat heal my scars
When shadow comes I’ll travel home
A new energy fills my bones
I tingle with stars the moon on my back
And no longer feel dark’s vicious attack

~kb

My never has come
The day I succumb
That thing that I’d never do
Just became a deceitful truth
Here I am talking to my mom
Telling her nothing's really wrong
Just some nights without sleep
The stars have been holding me
A hammock of lights in the night sky
But the atmosphere inside my mind
Makes me unable to meet eyes
You’d see through hazel iris lies
You know how to read me
You'll predict all I’ll do
But because I’ve failed you
I failed me too
But only I can live with it
Keep it down deep
Trying hard to pretend
I won’t fall to my knees
God wasn’t there when it happened
Because it was in my head in my voice
And my own voice scares me more than God
When I make a shameful choice
As much as I want to I don’t let God in
And he shakes his head as I bathe in sin

~kb

In a world of seven billion perceptions
I can’t wrap my head around
Someone telling me
I misunderstood them.
I understood in my head just fine,
didn’t miss a thing.
If I don’t understand as you do
Who are you to
Call me wrong?

~kb

I’m sorry I can’t be more positive for you
My life just seems like it’s coming unglued
For a woman of strength and fortitude
My mind seems to have an attitude
I’m not ungrateful,
I’ve carried my crosses
I’ve made my gains but keep
Comin’ up with losses
And it might seem strange
But I kind of like it here
I like to reflect on
the girl in the mirror
She’s hopelessly hopeful
And tries to be vocal
The pain she endures
They don’t understand but ensure
That it’ll all be ok
Knowing that’s just what they say
When nobody knows
My subconscious grows
And I take it all back
Now I know all the facts
This isn’t my fault it’s a
Brain assault and I’m
Not sorry
Anymore
This brain is more
Than who I am
And if I can stand what
The darkness pushes out
You can stand the occasional pout
Just don’t ever tell me to smile
It’s pandering and just not my style


~kb

My mind’s eye has cataracts
I’m remembering facts that haven’t happened yet
Like a dog understanding it can’t understand the human’s command
I turn my head to see better
Watching invisible words
play out in visual verbs
Clouded and disturbed
Starting to match incompatible feelings
with compatible meanings
Based on what I’m seeing
But that ****** fog
A chemical atmosphere inside my skull
it’s way too full
and it’s emptying me
Eye is blackening
Pull the plug in back of me
so I can finally see
this fog leave
and the wreckage I have left to clean

~kb

My soul was so bright
now my face is pastel
Everything turns fuzzy
and I’m unwell

Hard teeth crack
on harder truth

Lungs’ branches
grow flowers of cancer
just hit with the answer
to how I’m gonna die

Run outside
Start to drive
Try not to cry
Reach for my smokes

And stop

Been busy filling lungs with tar
to match my heart
slow down this beat a bit
until I’ve beaten it
Now I’m beating fists
against my head as I
hold the dread
in my very hand
contraband
and I’m sick

I’ve never really looked
the same at flowers
I count their falling petals
like I count the hours


~kb